Introduction to a Talk

1. An Unexpected Talk

Koel was in the dream. Old building. Lots of people, they are all waiting for a someone giving a talk. I'm visiting, someone or other friend or two has brought me here. It is rather secluded (reminds me of the temple of the ancients FF7). The buildings themselves are all deserted, behind it are open fields. Where we are there is no roof either. Lots of seats, as in a classroom where talks are given. In front there is a balcony, I suppose this is where the speaker must stand, but he must then go via another route, because you can't access that from this place, it is an upper floor. And to me it looks as if this is a balcony because half of the building is missing. I did not know this place existed.
This room is the end, the entry is a doorway, a passageway runs parallel, beyond that I can't remember, but go farther back and you will reach the more profane areas where this building connects to the normal civilized world.
All the seats are already taken when we arrive. I don't know who all these people are, but I follow my friends, we sit down, on the side, centre but more to the back.
Then people who run this place and or maybe my friends, and Koel, they tell me I have to speak, give a talk. I suppose this is because the speaker is not turning up or is late. Anyway, I don't know what to say and try to get my bearing. People all look my way. Then I know what I will talk about and things start to fall in place in my mind. I intend to give a talk on how the runes came to be in history. And in order to sketch the historical context, I start with some unrelated stuff, as an introduction, and this helps and is like a warm up for when I come to the topic itself, because it has been a long time since I did a talk. The introduction I give is about mythology.
I also say something about roosters. The interesting thing is that I stay where I am, which is among the people, and not on the balcony or in front.
The dream ends before I get to the topic itself.

2. Last Song
(Lucid Dream)

City, light, day, inside. Indian girl, plays music. I listen to her song, which is takes a long time, and I therefore take my time to listen very intently. I concentrate more and more.
Then the music becomes the dream itself, and I feel like being awake, and in the back of my mind I am thinking that this must be the radio, easy listening music, and I expect that I will hear the next song after this one and that I will have to get up because it is time, so I concentrate even harder to consciously hear the end, which I do, but no new song begins, and that is when I realize that it was a dream, and I wake up or I am awake already.

3. Story Teller Waiting

There is a story teller.
First, in the shop. Digr is there. He is on my left, I am in my bed, which is in the workplace. And the rest of the shop is on my right, which means that Digr has not a lot of room and is really close to me. And he needs me to get up, and I am only slowly waking, but I know it is time to get to work. Next to him is a wall and a window, and it is light. I am in the process of waking up.

Digr is already working, I suppose for some time. He asks me to do a particular thing, something that is my task. That means I have to get up. I am wearing my slippers (pantoffels) and help (can't read notes). Something about red onions. These are boxes, labeled Red Onion, and the boxes are white and red, but more like a pink or orange red, and although this is rare food, I know of it well. and the boxes are rectangular, and the size of a normal tin can, only wide. There is a rack where I take them or put them, can't remember well.
Later, outside, there is someone who is going to tell a story. He is already there, in front, on the grass, grass lawn is prepared for this (reminds me of the garden of my parents, he would be at the back side). He sits on a chair, and has grey hair and a long beard.
There will be a taiji demonstration as preprogam, so I will have to be there.

First Come Last Served

1. Eating Sandwich and Teaching Taiji

I go to the sandwich bar although before I had decided not to. Clof. Jeve is there. They are open. But I can't park my bicycle there. People cut short the queue (voorsteken). Can't read notes. Pi was there.
Someone Me... wants to marry me, but I cannot promise anything and I cannot promise everlasting fidelity.
People are being served before me although they came in later, I know them all, from reality, but can't remember who.
Marghera sandwich.
Later we sit at table, N, D, T&B. Doing something together or celebrating a birthday maybe.

Later, outside, books, and I teach taiji. Sand. Patio. Maybe old pictures. Taiji warm up of twenty minutes.
Teaching taiji sword, I do to someone else.
Old pictures of parents from the time when they were lovers. Books as memory.

+2. Parking Cycle on Car Park

Outside, dark, night, evening, alone, going to taiji, arrive, one of the first, nobody there. Path in the country side, street on a height, pass the parking lot, further is the place for training, but I'm too early. Maybe Anle is there.
I go back to the parking lot and go with my bicycle there, although this is a lot for cars, there is one car on the far end, but I don't know where I can park my cycle, because many cars will stand here by morning, and maybe if they don't see my cycle, they will ride over it and crush it. So I cannot decide and look for the best spot to park it, I go about the lot clockwise, pass the other car, and then go to the front again and think I should not park it at the side, but in the centre.

Haunted House

1. Video Game

Following a video game, becomes real life, or it matches real life. And things come out. In the city.
Me, a woman and a man. Student. (Can't read notes).
Maybe channeling.

2. Religions

Many religions. (Can't read notes).

3. A Storm is Coming

Room, you can only stand on the edge. Pake is there. Playing, children.
Cows and cattle first bring into safety, and something else I can't read. Yeti? Go to America, is safety. By boat. A storm is coming.

4. Rice

Stco and his family, he says something to me about 25 kilo of rice, that he likes to buy those big sacks better than those small ones they sell in the supermarket. They visit us, and had just eaten rice for lunch at home, and when they will go back, they will eat the rest of it, but the whole sack will be gone by then.

5. Beetroot

I remember eating red beetroot. Close up dream.

6. Ghosts in the House

I have to keep open the shop, which is outside. Holiday at the same time, I am in London, busy. I had not expected things to get so busy, and am not prepared, suddenly there are lots of people.
I have to help someone (?) in a different location, at the site, after that back in the shop, there are seven employees. Someone something something.
I write down my dreams, a piece of which is in Hebrew, inside, two people come to help hunt ghosts.
I was not worried at all, but now things become a little sinister, because there are many ghosts and they come from all sides. This is inside a house, ground floor. Not my house, few people inside.
So I try to help and do what I can. In the corner I see a window which is not entirely closed, so I want to close it, but the corner itself is made of the window, so you have glass on three sides, right wall, left wall, and the corner in between. I don't get it shut. That is when the whole atmosphere changes.
At first on the location, then in the shop. A man and a woman independent of each other and yet together (but I can't remember what).
This house has been chosen because it is haunted, I was not aware of it but I realize now. Everyone can see the ghosts. All of them are bad, although they look like normal people, only a bit sleepy, old and ragged, unintelligent. Something something, and something easy.
First a woman, stays with ... (can't read notes), upstairs.
Then I go downstairs, ritual is being performed. I try to figure out how to me something something.
Witches.
A woman, who might be a witch and not a ghost, grabs me by the throat and goes with her other hand over my head, touches my hand as if to gather the hair in the middle and tears it away, but it is all done in the etheric (then I can't read my notes). All is like in a film. Can't read notes.
Later outside, ship. Can't read notes. This is the end of the dream, but there was a lot more, and I can't remember the essence.

Pressure to Indecisiveness

1. Healing and Healer

Grote Markt, Leuven, a healing, which I undergo, and give too. Outside.

2. I Want to Pass on the Difficult Work

Shop. Ground floor, I am at the desk with the pc. A customer comes and wants to order something and he has a whole list, says he, with titles. Liha and Brva are behind me, one or two metres.
I listen to the man, but look back at me for a moment to see if Liha wants to take over. Often she shakes her head. Neither of my colleagues are moving to help, although I'm sure this will be for them. (Can't read notes).

3. Taking a Test in a Hurry

Taking a test, examination, inside, but I am in a hurry. Everything goes really quick.
Later playing some kind of volleyball, two teams, I come and help, Toha and N are here.

4. Last Chance to Marry

Rome increases the pressure to marry. Because he is getting old, he has the idea that now is his last chance to marry a woman, or it will never happen. I think it is bullshit.

5. Indecisiveness

At some point in some dream there was Elbr, I met her, maybe in the shop, or somewhere else. I recognize her, and wonder whether I should talk to her, because I would really like to, but I don't dare even if I am close, because I think she has a baby and will not want to talk to me. I am confused about the situation.

Fencing

1. Leaving or Staying

I am deciding between staying or leaving.
Lots of sword fighting, intense, and fast, not superfast, but meant.
Something about saving?

2. Circle

Daughter of something something king (?). Kiss?
Lobster?
One large circle about each other, or about everyone.

3. Challenge

Professor, train, sand, sword fighting, Kessel-Lo, challenge. Or someone challenging me, or taking on a challenge.

4. Eavesdropping

Earlier dream. Apocalyptic type of dream. Something about an apple. 96 in a 100, or 98, I can't remember precisely, want coins (?). Dream in the English language. N knows about the situation, I am not present in the discussion, but nearby and eavesdrop and all I suspect is confirmed.
D is also there, other place, nearby. Maybe a hill.

Mugwort and Lavender

1. Make Smudge

Everyone goes into different rooms, ground floor only. I just did something stupid that I don't want the others to see. But in that place too, people have to go. Later closing up. One of the ladies complains to Becr that he has given her a chicken bone, one of two. And so he deceived her, but if he did, it was not intended. And what's more, the bone is sacred to me and was in my house, which means that someone was in my house without my knowledge.

 

The woman complains that the bone is so have, but it is only the size of a finger.
When we leave those rooms, I am one of the first, many are lagging behind, everyone is taking it easy, this is when the workshop or whatever is over, but I want to hurry home, and rest. Some of the women are with me, just a few, the bulk is behind, as is Becr. I start saying goodbyes to everyone around me that I know, and some others say goodbye as well. Those I know better I hug, others a handshake. Some are left out, but I know it is not true (I try to say goodby to everyone).
I want to go home quickly, there are only a few guys, something something. Playing guitar, one of those guys, but a different instrument than I have ever seen. All the guys are already here, on the street, and being merry. One of the younger ones is playing the thing. Is a weird instrument, he plays it with the back of his hand so that he can use the inside of his hand or fingers in a second stroke, which means you can strike the instrument twice. Yellow, light brown, beige instrument. I'm intrigued. Later I try too.
Someone around asks me some more explanations about something. By then everyone has arrived and a second round of goodbyes starts, and I say goodbye again to those I had already seen too.
After that I go to my house, which is really close. And in that house are two chicken bones, like oracle bones, flat, and finger size, and side by side but not touching, by the window, in the front, is about the first thing you see when you come at the house if you know what to look for, lie both on the floor. There is some furniture on the left of those. Now I also see other things as if an altar by the bones. One of those things is a package with rice wafers.
After that I go outside again, there is a tree on a hill, which is behind my house, and I am in the shade, on the slope, and am preparing herbs and plants for a smudge. I want to make one from absinthe and I try many other herbs with it, maybe juniper, but there is also rice, and thick nuts that I don't know, maybe ginger too, it is all there on the grass, I spread it out. The rice is cooked, and there are two kinds, but I definitely put some of it in it.
I am totally engaged in the process, but the others who are about are up and walking and mostly with their minds wandering, although they all follow my example and start practicing making smudges. I make a very complicated one. And there is one girl present who is not allowed to do something particular, and that is the reason for something else, but I can't remember. Something something.
End of dream.

2. Lavender Smudge

I am at work somewhere, in a cafe in a corner (?). There is a school bench, but also a futon mattress. And if not sleeping can be done on the sofa. This is me I'm talking about, my place, and I'm alone, but I seem to have slept on the couch every night so far, since it is starting to wear, in such a way that it is bend, you can't sleep straight in it anymore. Deformed.
Some tables are put together, there is a laptop on one. On the side of the room, behind which is a sort of canyon or abyss, which means that I have to take care not to push the tables forward, or they will fall and I will lose what is on it. 

There is also a table behind me. And I work both at the table in front of me with the papers and the laptop and behind me, but I don't remember what is on it. I sit on the floor or stand.
At some point at the pc I notice a small casket, plastic, with diamonds in it. It must have been there the whole time. The box is open, and there are big diamonds and also rock crystals in it. And I am sure I was using these for whatever aspect of my work. What I am doing is mainly writing.
Someone, maybe Vebt, has via email sent me already a lot of texts, that she wrote, or maybe it was Krvh. The texts are about Germanic something something, for example of European peoples or of the Czech Republic. They are written in yellow, and I have read some already. And now two new texts have come in. I'll make time later.
Somewhat later a young mother and her daughter sit at one of my tables, she is allowed to because I think this is a pub, so I make room. Apparently she had not seen I was working on that utmost left table too, so I move my stuff, and she wants to leave, but I make clear that it is okay. So she sits down, and she has a soup with her that she eats, or shares with her daughter.
It was like this. My stuff was still there when she sat down, and I thought I should be considerate and move my stuff, but she does it already, which I think is impolite, because she should not touch any of it, but I have no strong feelings about it. Just the thought.
So I go to the other table, on the right side, which is by the window, something something.
This is another table than described earlier. And there I make a lavender smudge. As basis I use mugwort or absinthe anyway. And then I add the tops of lavender, and this is for dreaming.
Somewhere in the dream there is an intermezzo, out of the window I see Bale in the garden, she is preparing something totally different, for herself, which is a sand perch for children to play in, and behind it she has some kind of ramp and you can throw yourself off it and fall on the sand. There are two colours, the foundation is white sand, and on top is a hill of dark grey sand, maybe because it is wet. When she goes away for something, a fat young guy comes along and throws himself backward into the sand compound, and I think that it must hurt. And then another fat boy comes and does the same and I can't imagine why. But this too is okay.

Open Door and Neighbour

1. The Neighbour's Party

I come home at night, door is open, lot of folk inside. There is a party, neighbour, at the neighbour's place, but even my door is open.
The friend of the neighbour sleeps in ... bed, but I let him sleep.
Something about drugs.

2. Pesl

Pesl, something slopes. (Can't read notes, don't remember). Was dark, outside, only he there.

3. Future Festival Pictures

I'm looking at pictures of the Maancirkel, Becr is on them. I wonder who I will meet at the festival.

4. Don't Call Me

Chwe gives me her phone number, to make go somewhere the next day, but she says I can better call the number of Kade, because Chwe does not want to be disturbed, she wants to look at the display of her phone all the time.

5. Beans and Cabbage

Large kitchen, not many people, maybe just me, though at least two others are here too. Table on the right against the wall, another table behind that (in front of it) and to the left, more central. Further up is the door to the kitchen, where I cannot go, but this place can be used for preparations, which I do, on my own. I have large pots as well, too big for me alone. But I use them. I prepare vegetables, all green ones, like asparagus, beans, cabbage, courgette, broccoli. All is going well, then I go to the other pot, and beans and cabbage are in the same pot. I don't want that, because the cabbage must cook a long time and the beans do not, and I want to use the beans for something else, and I don't want to mix or cutter them. I think it is a job I don't want to do, to separate the vegetables. But that is where the dream ends, so I don't know what I do. Also I am constantly with someone else in my mind, she (maybe Chwe) might be eating with me, she is not present, but she might be in a room behind me on my left.

Stones and Wood Bed

1. Back Seat Discussion

I arrive in the middle of the night, but I want to go to my brother N, because there is something I have to discuss with him, in regards to myself.
I arrive somewhere and go to the corner of the street. Men are working there. They are all wearing a headset, but only for one ear, very slim, and futuristic. They seem like employees of the city, and are digging up the street, if I remember correctly, all look alike, same age.
They're all doing the same kind of work, too, but independently. They are cluttered together, but work individually, different places in the same piece of street or pavement, but work for themselves, own projects, weird to see.
Beha is there, and D, who lives not far from here, incidentally, which is also very close to where I live. This is all incidental, but practical in a way.
D takes me with him, car, drives around with me, because he wants to show me something. At a certain point we the street slopes downward, and we have to brake, but that is a little difficult, because we are both on the back seat chatting, me on the left side, he on the right side. That means, the wheel is on my side. He's not moving at all, not inclined to brake, is not aware of any danger.
After a while I start to panic slightly, this should not happen, but the way is long, I know however that the end is a T-crossing. Night. So one moment I start to lean over and try to reach the dashboard. The only thing I can grab on to is a sort of choke, only much bigger and it is so long that I can reach this. Since it is the only thing within reach, it must be the brake, and I pull it and try other stuff, it does not move much, but slight movements seem to do something, however I effect not much, so I ask my brother for instructions and look back at him while I lean over. Eventually, I bring the vehicle to a stop.
D has stalled me so long that there is no more time now to visit N, which I think is a pity.

2. A Lesson in Crystal Magic

My bedroom, stones around the bed, all looks very different than in reality, also the upper room beneath the roof, all in wood, bed in the left corner, but touching no wall, stairs on the right, but other room between, and in front is also a room, like some cottage, or Swiss house.
Suddenly Vebt is there, at the foot end of the bed, I am in the bed, and she starts explaining things, but I also ask questions. She says of a particular stone, the one on the right foot, that it is not awake yet. But she does not explain how to awaken a stone, so I ask her later.
In the meanwhile, she is working hard at the foot end. She has brought in, as if by magic, a large piece of wood, three men could fit in the log, like the roots of an old oak tree, just the stump, and on its side, pointed to me, massive wood. And then she has to prepare it especially for me, so she cuts the wood in two places but not all through, so it stays one piece, and the upper pieces she points more to me. The wood is really impressive to look at. My question when she does that is: how important is it to point crystals.
She has also brought lapis lazuli and malachite, though the stones are not hers, but someone else's, a man's, so she can't leave the stones here indefinitely. She tells me that.
Those stones lie on the bed, she put them there, but she already forgot she brought them with her, and when I point out this she says that they are not hers. The two stones are a bit lost in the sheets, at the right foot. She says the whole thing about those two stones as a rather weird story. And the lapis, she says, negates the working of the malachite.
She gives a lot of explanations about that piece of wood, what it is supposed to mean or do. And something about a bench at a church. This happens when she talks, this is at the Saint Peter's Church in Leuven, calm, maybe early morning, we come there from the side of the Diestsestraat. At some point she says there is a ghost at the church that always walks passed, it was here in the past, when we met here the first time, and it is still here. It never occurred to me, but now that she tells me, I know it is true. Walks past the bench up and down.
In the bedroom again, she changes some of the stones that I was using, and one of those of mine was sleeping, so my question is: how do you activate it? This sleeping stone belongs with the others, that lie on the floor, so I put it back there.
At that point, three of her students, and I recognize them, but Elbe is not there, are here in my room to listen to her as if this is a class and I a case study, they stand on my left behind me, and I see them well, but they seem to ignore me. All three close next to each other, obedient.
In fact I was getting ready to get up from bed when Vebt came in and appeared, and now her lesson comes to a close I get up from under the covers, but she puts me back in saying that I can stay in bed, but I want to see my brother N. Even when she leaves she tells me to stay in bed, and I stay in bed, and she kisses me on the forehead farewell, and that is the end of the dream.

(I took notes, but I also removed the stones after this dream).

3. Mad Temper

Going to a party, wedding, I am late. Earlier bedroom, D and someone else, man and two women.
The man is Becr who thinks that he something something, but I get angry with his arrogance many times. And in the dream I really am angry that I can't control it, it is out of me before I know it every time. As if I have not learned anything. He is being stubborn.
There is a gig, music, the bride's sisters are here, Ka, a taiji student of Joja, is here, by that time I am really bad tempered.
Meditation. I had promised one of those girls to do a meditation, I want to do this for her. My brother D follows me. Can't read my notes. And then, for me it is too late anyway.
After that going to a wedding party, N, being guided by a friend, party hall, seen it, something.
Svdb is the one leading me or guiding me, I'm late for the wedding, we start in one hall, but the ceremony and the people are somewhere else entirely. I follow him, at the corner where we should turn left, there is a platter left, with lobster, red, big and nice. Svdb has had this already, this was the wedding dinner. I should have had some too, but I'm too late, so I let it go.
Being at the wedding itself was not in the dream, but later I cannot find my room. Can't read my notes.
Bale does not want to see me, but says that I could have given a talk on Saturday, which is stupid, because that day would not have worked for me at all anyway.

Bending the Young Tree

1. Underground Foot Path

A long underground pathway, nonetheless I go by foot.

2. Proud on Own Shop

A cafe which is also a museum. I helped build this place. It may also be a shop.
Three guys are there. A customer among them, guide them. They enter the ... (world?) and want books.
Dancing floor, go and dance, I excluded myself, lots of people there.
Later in the cafe, I sit there, A dutch person is there, and speaks, something about Vikings (and something I can't read).
The driver is an old man.
And I am looking for Chwe, and Indian people are here, and ... (driver is an old man?)
And the person who presents the show says Indian people can do everything with their hands and ass and feet. I suppose he means at the same time, but also whatever it is that needs to be done, they use their hands, ass and feet.
The drivers reads something out loud, he is a poet and or a priest, minister. And he got something with him that Chwe had ordered.
Now I see them. And she appears, arrives.

3. Flexible Tree

Outside, in somebody's garden, trees. One of those trees is my house. I climb into it.
Four or five other ones, I've been living here on my own for years, and now others do it too.
And my tree bends all the way to the ground, I'm not sure this is intended, I find it rather difficult to climb. The tree is very slender, like a shoot, very thing, but very tall, and very green, fresh. And when I climb in it it bends and I feel the spring getting tighter in the tree, so I'll get slung away, I fear, there are some other people on the grass who watch me, but I don't mind them. And others climb their trees but have no problems. I'm just different. I climb back into the tree. Thin.
After that inside. Chwe.
Most lucid dream of the night.

4. Neighbour Kids Watching TV

Something something, gril, watch tv, grass front garden, and inside Kadr. And 13 or 134.
13h maybe? Linked with parents of Kadr, and he goes home. But he has very politely done the dishes with us. Put it in the dishwasher that is.
Toha arrives. And N is here, and he has his smartphone. The screen is on 'pause'. Something something continues? Me and D something something and watch, watch tv?
I see on a cover maybe Winnie the Pooh. And an announcement, and something girl.

5. Man with White Hair

Man with white hair, he has a portfolio with him. I've been looking forward to this.

6. Gothic Exodus

Hall, all of those present are women. I sit down.
Eating, waiting, more people come in. One lady says about me: he is not so good as you would think. That means, the other people think I'm good, but the truth is different. And she continues: yesterday, he could not (lift from the front foot, Dutch: opnemen) a single time. This is taiji related, so I suppose all those ladies want to do taiji with me, but if it comes to that, I'll not be able to beat them or teach them.
Drinking water in stead of alcohol or coffee, this is also a discussion. Again I am being treated differently than the rest.
All this is in preparation of  something, and we will travel all together to that place.
I fancy to girls that are in the hall. Refectory. A man sits across of me, but looks the other way. I have been here the earliest, now the hall is getting crowdy. And I don't feel comfortable. I like the place where I'm sitting, but I'll not be able to get seconds if food is served, because there'll be no room maneuvering.
Many are dressed in black and made up in Gothic style, but I like that.
One of those girls sits on my left, I am all the way to the right, almost, and the wall on my right. Middle alley to the left, and front is in front of me, door to the right front, but people also come in from the back, mostly. Entry and exit respectively.
When I get acquainted with this girl, I think things are going well, we'll be friends. The other girl reminds me of Cave and or another C.
After the traveling, of which I have no memory, we are going to the place where we have to be, but it still some walking distance, in buildings, city like. And this feels like an exodus, and this is a good time to mix with people. But I've been hanging out with one of those particular girls all the time, and neglected the other. No both of us pass the other, and she offers us things, the first girl keeps going, but I accept, she offers liquorice, and I don't like that, but I take it anyway, taking my chance at the same time to tell her that she is always welcome, but that is a bit over the top. I say to her when I accept: kom maar is voorbij, which is, pass by.
In the meanwhile I really want to focus on this first girl, and she and I are going to my room, but still a long distance, and this is a great complex, but I've obviously been here before.

7. A Talk

Something about Koel and Rogy. Me giving a talk for Tradition?

Impro Dictation Test

1. Teacher and Dictation

Anle and Svdb. Everyone in turns goes outside, with an assignment, given by a female teacher. I want to impress the others, directed to outside, or to inside, I ask: what do you want to know exactly? To outside, is or has seen us, she says. (Maybe this came before).
I go, but has little effect, so stand or ... still, no one is there (or no one has ...).
And upstairs is a classroom, but we stand up and go away, because their own (female) teacher is arriving. (Maybe this happened before the other things).
And Lapo is there (woman who appears in tabloids) and gives away a secret, she announces this, secret why girls run with boys (?). She says this is so because they don't want to choose side, and here something misses, she has not said all, or I did not hear. More text is on a box, big metal, and with red. Red and white.
Living room, D, N, dad (maybe this was before the rest). Small boy and improvising a dictation, small something something, maybe suns. Something else about the dictation, but can't read it.
Earlier. Digr and Keva and me. Digr wants me to do something, again, cleaning.

2. Three Times Zorro

I see three men, they are all dressed as Zorro, one is the real one and the others come from other series, because of this film the Lone Ranger, the old and new series. N is here, someone else Ma (maybe Mavo?). Maybe a space ship.

Fair Justice and her Boat

1. Mental Exercise

I am in my badminton outfit, sports hall.
I take a few paces backwards, but all happens with the mind. There is a connection between what I think and what happens in the dream, as if the dream is passive, but my mental body is very active and everything is translated in images, although it is very sober, dark and simple, like back and forward stepping.
I mentally think of retreating I think, and I push something back, and I do that again, so I repeat, but I can't help doing it in fact, because I'm in a state of mind in which I'm not very awake, and the dream responds.
Something about turning about in bed, which would indicate someone's age.
Then notes I can't read, and then it says: still the same possibilities, which means I think that I try to think in a certain way so that I don't exclude options.

2. Gods

Something about looking for ... and something about gods, but I can't read my notes and I don't remember what it refers to.

3. Gods and Dragons

Mefa is here, Leuven, cycling. We find each other, meaning that it happens incidently.
Then we go somewhere, day out, Woli comes along, and we'll be doing something esoteric.
Long way in the country side, long scene, but then there is a train, at the water, as if in a cave, with a canal in between, and cars or vehicles coming from the other side (can't remember what is meant).
Goes rather fast, but I like it. Fire, and water. Man power drives the train's engine. Somehow, because I think it was the passenger by being in the train that drove it, maybe by thought power?
Fire was important, but can't remember context.
Something about the Aesir.
Land of the farmer indicates the different places, field, and says: the pile or hill or mound must go. I think this refers to a mole.
But I don't want that, and there are other animals sealed in it.
It is difficult to remain stable, standing, upright (can't remember context), the ground has been divided in the territoria of animals, small animals, and a dragon, and a snake.
Another snake, and something I don't know what it is, and something else, and they are all my friends.
And my brother N arrives here before me.

4. Fair Justice
(wet dream).

Friends of mine have a boat, two ladies, their names are Faith Justice and Anna Wolkranz (not sure of the second last name). Faith Justice says that she is only spending time there, on the boat, and then something about Justice. And either both or one of their names is on the boat.
I understand her. Faith Justice is the younger one and the more extravagant, while Anna is a short woman who is younger than me, but might as well be my mother's age, she wears red and does not move a lot, Faith is the tall one, more blue, but rather dark.
So we all go on the ship, me first, before they have the time to take a way the gangplank, which is rather large and consists of three square planks, and on the left is a stone wall in the water, but there is so much wood that you can't tell there is water underneath, gives a safe feeling, except that Faith has the kind of character to pull the thing away unexpectedly. Yet I am fond of her, in exchange for the boat trip we have to play music, dj. 
From the start she says she will only eat a starter, main course or desert, and not the other things. They thought of this or the did not? What it entails is that I have to make a decision for her. She gives me the option to choose, but whatever I will choose will affect everyone else, because everyone else can only have what she is having.
So she has already given it though, I have not, which means I'm at a disadvantage.
Everyone is on the boat, we sail.
Something about Jommeke is Joja comic collection, in specific number 135, which has the word Vater in it.
And there is also experimenting with sex, I with her, I suppose I mean Faith, and there is a girl on the boat that I see now while we are experimenting who is a little nymphomanic, so I keep an eye out. She wanted sex already from when she something something.
And later we do some more exchanging, though I only see the female partners, and I take someone from behind, there are more girls than boys, and not all have them want to join, because of the toy, sex toy, which might be the game itself.
The other girls lay her on the table, because they know best how it is done, they know their own bodies best and take care of one another, it is their game and their fun, and I'm fine with that. It is very practical, I see that the minute they lay her on the table. (Who? I can't remember). I take her from behind, this is certainly the second time I do it with her and the first time was marvelous, and this time I'm not hard enough and it is a bit difficult to get in, but I come anyway. This is a wet dream. Yet at that moment I tried to do the technique of keeping it in, but I have not enough energy, so I let it go and keep the though of restraint at the same time, and as a matter of fact I can't tell whether it worked or not. (I checked my underwear in the morning and I'm not sure, which means that if I soiled it it can't have been much, so it might have worked).
Something about getting home and crossing the street, and Mago, an old friend from school is he and Pesl, they know each other. This is outside on the street, unknown place, crossroads, but where we are is a broad pavement as if for a little market and it reminds me of Borough Market, the outside part, in London. For some reason when they meet me they hug me. Of Mago I would have done that spontaneously for some reason, but he hugs more tight and seriously than I reckoned he would, but Pesl also hugs, and I had not expected that. I was the last of my friends to cross the street, but Mago and Pesl came behind, they were not part of the party at all, though I suspected the coming of Mago.
And someone on the boat says: good music, something something plays still. (This before).

There is a part in the dream which is more or less close up and I see a table on which are three or four red cystal skulls, fist size, on a dark red and yellow cloth, in a corner, this is on the boat. And a woman is there, and my mother is there, game. Can't remember the context.

5. In Need of Shower

Inside, upper floor, light. I have to go to the bathroom, there is one outside. First on the place itself, height or bed apart, sex toy (can't remember the details at all).
Bale is there. We have sex, first normal, than a second time from behind. She is uncertain. But I am sure, and I look with my hand for her fanny, and she is still wet a little, so I go for it.
And old woman who is nearby wants to have an orgasm too, she comes because she wants me to do it, and I don't want it and I tell her someone else has to do it.
Later when all is done I remain naked, and I want to have a shower, but the shower is far away. Something with a monkey?
Veranda, grass, brothers, dad.
Water to rinse, cleanse my body, I cannot do something which the others are doing nonetheless, and this is because I am naked. This restricts as if by a law of nature.
I go outside because I want to go to the toilet, school, I find the toilets, but there are no showers, (dream reminds me of dreams I had long ago). There are other people, girls. 
With Bale on the couch, this was earlier, and I see her lips and I would have kissed them, but that would not be appropriate, so I don't, but I do have sex with her. I go for her vagina and very intensely kiss those lips.

6. Shot in Magazine

Close up type, reading magazine, I only see the cover or the first page, one page only, and a big picture is on it, green and blue, and our big smiling boss is on it, I think in the dream, is this real, is it really him, I mean the big boss, who is still young. Magazine or newspaper.

Two Bees and the Sheep

1. Mother Needs Help

Early dream. Something about Indonesia, mother has something (can't read notes), cafe, someone helps or no one helps, everyone flees, something something and then somewhere something about ghosts.

2. Dead Bees in a White Sheep

We come together to discuss something, something about the garden, JM is there.
Break, I stay inside, but the rest of the people take their break outside.
After a while I go out as well, I just follow my own timing, but by that time I got rid of my pants somehow, I am naked below the waist, and wearing a simple white t-shirt. So I'm okay, and go among the people anyway.
Back in the garden stands a cathedral, very old building that has become part of the landscape, it is built on a height, everywhere grass, but that place has more rock. Garden slopes up. Fine sight. When I go that way, the garden becomes more organised, and there is one path in the middle that is obvious and in the open, but on the left is also a path, along the wall or hedge that is the border with the neighbours. Everyone is already up. I don't mind. The garden has now different sections, like an English garden would have.
The cathedral used to be of JM. He will join later and comes after us.
Earlier (?) I am on that hill, I am small (?), brothers are there, and my father too, JM says to me: that way you have the better sight, panorama. So even if I would not have gone the open way, I now go because of him. Together we go up. First we climb the stone stairs.
When we come back from the hill, we go the other path, that is more flat, more straight, and runs along the grass, and then JM is in front of me, quicker than me.
When we are back at the house the sun shines, and this is the back of the house. And JM is there and I see something happening. He has a white sheep on a leash or leads it with his hand. But from the sheep's left flank I see two bees a little away from each other stung in the sheep's body. And it is bad. JM has not seen it yet, but I notice and I know we have to act immediately. The two bees have their heads dug in the body, so you can't see that part, but the bees are so big, bigger than a fist, and made of different parts that look like the inside of a beehive, pentagon shaped, but 3D, and I am already guessing those things are filled with little bees, and we don't want those to wake up.
So, when I see it and when I realize he does not know, although he stands on the left side too, I shout, because I am still some distance from him. I don't know why he has the sheep.
When he sees the bees, he acts immediately, because they would infect the animal. He takes them out, but the bees themselves are full of honey. To me it was already clear that they were dead. And as I feared, they were full of bees, and they are alive. One of the big bees has been removed well, so it is dead and still closed. But the other has been torn open and the bees go out and swarm
Now I go in, but the bees are everywhere, it is still under control, I don't see many. But I don't want them to get in the house, because that would mean trouble, so I go in and close the windows, French windows and doors. Because of the good weather, all was open. I tell JM that he has to finish the bees.
He acts very slow or responds slow, still being outside. He takes out his machete and swings it, and I can hear the first small bee snap when he slices it. And so he starts with doing this bee per bee. After that a whole bus (?), a whole swarm of bees, hide (we or the bees?). Then he comes inside as well and he wants to chase away the bees there.
There is a bag with honey combs and the dead body of the sheep. Obviously the sheep is dead. We place the body so that the legs our outside of the house (?). In the meanwhile the others all come back and I go to them to warn them, but a woman that is with them says she is used to this. I can't believe it.
Svdb is there, inside, and he says he has never been stung by a bee, only once, and says that he is very allergic, would swell enormously if he would be stung. And I think that we should take care because bees could still be inside. This is the end of the dream and mixed with thoughts of superficial thinking. Waking up.

(First recording).

3. Standing on the Couch

Inro and me are on watch for tonight in the shop, just the two of us and it is dark. Door is on our right, we sit in the couch, she on my right, and almost two people could sit between us, I am in the middle of the couch. The till is right in front of us. On my left, behind us is a door that goes to private quarters, possibly mine.
I am very at home here, as if this is the place where I live.
There is no one here except us. We are very chaste to start with, and she is quiet as usual. Then I kiss her hand, but this is as a reaction to something she says, and she had not expected it and makes some comment. And when I see another chance I kiss her hand again, and am much closer now, and she says, but all is spirited now: you have an odd way of making things up if you have hurt somebody. And in the meanwhile my arm is wrapped about her waist. She hasn't moved, but is no longer unmoved.
Before I even realize I kiss her again, this time on the lips and that is when she is more alive and acts as well, and before we know it we stand on the couch and hold each other. We are almost naked, only wearing underpants, feels good.
Then I see from the corner of my eye a customer at the door, and I say to Inro, in her ear: customer. And then I let go of her and that is when I realize we were standing on the couch. But I have to tend to the customer. The customer is a woman and has some trouble with the lock, maybe the door was closed, then she comes in and I am ready, but somehow hope she has not seen us. I am still naked at that point, but I don't mind, I can help her this way too, so i do. I think she must think this is weird, but I don't care.
I give her change at some point, and these are two very small notes that look like tickets, fivers both, two colours, one is a new note the other is an old one.

4. Forgot Something

 Parents, home, computer, intention to record my dream, take notes, outside, ivy, taking notes about the dream of Inro in the night.
Everyone comes outside, I have a sword with me. Fras comes behind, halfway something she says: forgot something of Kvgu (who is her blood brother). Bicycle excursion.
There is a lot of room to park behind, many cars are there. Something Indonesia.
Something something on the roof of a car as a wedding gift.

5. My Brother's Acquaintance

Shop context. Digr and List are there. I make food for myself, pasta and vegetables. Digr and List are making food together, but List is not happy with it. She wants the same as I want, but I don't add meat to my food. I take my food with me to them. I hand over one pasta. It is stuffed pasta, and they are rather large, one is broken, and this open one I give, and that should be enough for both of them, besides that they should eat their own stuff. And then I go sit apart from them, but that is where the dream ends.
I sit down and eat. A girl comes (can't read notes), she looks like a customer from the university and I start to talk to her. And N joins us. And I say: that is my brother. I say this because I've seen this girl before and I thought that she knew my brother, and they know each other, so I have done the right thing. And she says: cool, sitting together with colleagues. I am reminded of shop, press.

Rocket in the Earth

1. Space Craft in the Earth

Windgat. Way to Leuven, almost at the Donkerstraat. Passed there many times in the dream, light, and children playing, I know them all, three or four of them, and I should be playing with them, but I always continue my travels. Toys. Books too, on the side of the road, pavement, small girl, book of diary of a wimpy kid.
And an SF element. I am crippled, have no lower body anymore, only my head, which is small, and something beneath that so that I can still run, but I'm small. I have a wife who helps me out, but I go this way and that on my own and try to do things myself. She is a queen. Friends and family are here, and poets.
Behind the street, which is always high, and way down is another world, this time there is a vast plain of nature. In fact, behind the street when you descend you come in the side of the planet that is still untouched by civilization. In this part you don't risk being hunted by aliens and enemies. And my starcraft is hiding there. It is hidden in the earth itself. I visit it to be sure.
Later I go there with the rest of them, because we no longer want to be in the civilized world, it is too contaminated. The top of the rocket is sticking out of the ground. The earth is dry and cracked in places, and there are big oak trees here and there, but no woods. The sun shines and I am relieve to see that this place still exists. This is half of the planet, its hidden side. I am fearing though that when we leave and the rocket fires, that this will create and explosion and burst the earth in which it is stuck. That way it will still destroy this side. But we can only go on.
The top of the rocket is very small and looks like a pipe that goes down in the earth. And I put my hand in it and try to hold it open, but it is very difficult. And after that I try a few times to keep it open with one hand, because I only have the one hand, and then squeeze myself through, but it does not work. Something is in the way, and the opening is not big enough. It is rather frustrating after a while, and I see down the pipe, and a short end from the top is now a plate that moves with my movement, which is there to prevent things falling down in it which don't belong there. It works like the human's body, swallowing. And then my queen helps me.
But at that moment I become a little panicked as I see guys of the military, in brown and red, come our way, and they are with a few people and look intimidating, because they are all grown ups, and I'm so small, and all the children are still small as well. And I think they are the enemy to come and get us, so I need to hurry, but when they come closer it becomes clear that they are on our side and want to help us, as I am still their leader it seems. They help us, but it still does not work. I never go in.

There is a fragment of dream in which there is a girl who is already down. Once you go down the pipe you come in a kind of underworld. And I go down with the rest of them, and they are all girls, priestesses to be particular. Most of them are a bit fat, but not too bad, and some are blond and others black, and they are all beautiful in a way, especially because they all look radiant. But downstairs is a blond girl and she is already dancing, and the place looks like a temple, and she interests me, though I am with so many women now. And one of the woman with me says at a certain point: but that is normal. She replies on something I forgot, exclaiming that what you see is the most natural thing.

2. Stone Relief

There is a bas-relief. Long, stone, can't remember what it shows. Many different something something. Bale?
And before that there was music, top five of something, of others, but all are happy with their own song.

3. Forced Mariner

We spend a few days at sea. I am late. Everyone else is already there and I don't know where, somewhere at the beach. The only way to that part of the beach is through a house, or hotel, big building. And then you come there, and the beach has sand and people sit there and enjoy themselves and look at sea, but they can't really see the sea because there is a wall, because this place is part of the hotel and it is like a balcony, but on ground floor.
It has different sections and I walk through each of them right to the end, because I am looking for people I know. In the last section I sit down and try to enjoy my time there, but it is already getting dark, people are leaving. There is also a moment when I would sit next to a girl, but maybe she does not want this. After a while everyone leaves, and then I also go.
I enter the house again and go through the different rooms. At last I come outside and now I see a lot of space, I see the outside world, it is night, stairs down, streets of the city that arrive at the beach hotel, and a paved broad path that leads to the sea, all very spacious. So I round the corner to go to the sea, and at the corner of the hotel I meet Joja2 and his brother. Something about illustrations maybe.
And I continue.
Scene changes, I am at the sea. At night. I see Le and Ba, who are neighbours. And they are doing a film or something. I follow them although I don't want to be bothered by them. And they sit at the back of a cafe having a drink. White round tables. I sit down too. Le suggests to Ba that I should be his helper, and he thinks that is a very good idea. And I had already seen this coming, but I don't want the job, it is only a role in a film of course. Navy.
Then the police arrives at the terrace or beer garden where we are and I am detained because I don't want to become a mariner, because that was what he asked. They force me to cooperate, I have no choice. I refuse to work for them, but they hold me and put me in an isolation cell which is just on my left next to where we are sitting, which looks like a phone booth, but not transparent, but at the same time it is not there and I am still at the table. But now I can only work for them, the whole situation coerces me into labour.
This changes the scene to the right setting, and we are in a well lit basement. And what I do works with a dynamo and charges a battery because the energy is not even used simultaneously.

Before that on the terrace I have something to eat. Or this may happen in a change of setting already. Veranda. And an old lady, who is a customer in the shop, she sits across of me, to the left, and eats supermie, noodles. And I am having the same, at the same time. And she makes rather a lot so I think that maybe she is cooking for me, but I have already made my own by then. Then my father also joins, who is the one in charge at the moment. And he is right across of me.
And then it is dark again and I am still in the veranda, and my father is there and other people too, now, but we ignore them, father is preparing something for me or for the evening. I still can't move or am not allowed to go away. And he stands and puts a large bottle of water on the table. But I see there are already a lot of other bottles there. But this one catches my attention. It must certainly be able to hold five liters, and it looks like a wine bottle. But it also has an inscription on the neck, and that I think is interesting. It is difficult to make out what it says, because it is in the glass, and the words are names and sometimes symbols, and they are all written individually across the surface. One name I make out and that is Morya. Of course, now I am interested, and this may be very good water. But that is certainly the end of the dream.

4. Initiation into the Undead

Last dream.
In the basement. Something taking place that reminds me of an initiation rite, only it happens against my will. There is a man and a woman and they want me to do something for them, but in order for me to accomplish the task I must first be initiated, but it is not called initiation, and what they do to me is not something I want.
I try twice. The first time is a bit vague. We are at a high table and studying texts or comic books, and I am mainly dealing with the man.
Later it is the woman who will do it to me, but under instruction of the man. At some point I will have to swallow a purple pill, but by that time I will already be halfway the ritual, which consists of making me undead, but that means I have to die, and I don't know if I can return to normal.
They have cards on the table, blue, and they are arranged in a square of Saturn, but there are not nine cards. And specific cards have to be turned over, and I am one of those cards, on the left side. And the cards adjacent of me will first be made undead, and this the woman does for me, which means she has to make herself undead first, and so I can gradually become undead, it is a gradual process. So the man does it to the woman and the woman does it to me.
That is all I remember though there was a lot more, but the dream ends about there which means that I don't know what the task is, and there was also a room, vestibule, behind me, which is where the stairs up to the entrance were.