1. Cycling Uphill
End of a dream in which I am on my bicycle driving uphill trying to beat everyone. I am alone, going up and onward, but it is very hard and I can't almost continue. Others are behind me, I want to be the best. Light, day. Steep, almost at the top. Sand. There is a path, but it is rock and sand. When I become more awake, I add the superficial thought and cheat a bit, going over grass, pushing my cycle.
2. Walking on Water
Composite dream.
Toward the end we catch the train, we are on it. Toha is there, and D. Possible Beha as well. At some point we arrive at a river. The train stops there and someone gets off, this is Beha, because he needs to go home to take care of some things. I fear if I get off the train I will never make it again, but he seems confident. Then someone else, maybe my brother D, says we should do something for the birthdays of H&B, and he gets off as well, I try to tell him not to, but he seems confident too. Toha is still with me, but agrees with the others. I stick with the train, which stopped in front of the water, it can't cross. This is a stop, we are headed somewhere else.
Next part is that we need to cross the river or something, but we can't, can we, because we can't swim, across is a wall on the right, you can't crawl over, I don't really now where we need to get. Some girl is already in the water and waves and tells me to come too, she is confident. After long considerations I understand what I have to do, there is a boat. But there is something on the quay that I have with me, like the train, that I have to use so I can stand on the water. I try it, and I have to balance myself, like Naruto trying to learn how to walk on water, but then I make it and am very happy. Then I have to be careful, because the water is acid or something, but I get a knack of the magic that I use and now shields from the ship or train up on the bank are thrown into the water, I forgot how I make this happen. Round shields, like of vikings. We can use these to walk on, to stand on. Others follow me, are with me.
I think I remember. I have the sugared mandarins with me, and I eat these, I eat two, bite in it.
Friday, 31 January 2014
Tuesday, 28 January 2014
Fresh Guacamole
1. Guacamole
There was a fragment in which I had D&S visiting. The place I don't know but I was there for a few days and I had made guacamole. It was in the corner. Rather a lot, a whole pile of it. When I showed D when we had time after doing something else, he started eating from it and I was surprised it was still green. Now I remember I had put out the crisps as well, but forgotten about them at first, so D found another stock, which was much more and natural. I had made the guacamole maybe two days before. And I start explaining to him how I made it, the emulation process and so on, with olive oil.
There was a fragment in which I had D&S visiting. The place I don't know but I was there for a few days and I had made guacamole. It was in the corner. Rather a lot, a whole pile of it. When I showed D when we had time after doing something else, he started eating from it and I was surprised it was still green. Now I remember I had put out the crisps as well, but forgotten about them at first, so D found another stock, which was much more and natural. I had made the guacamole maybe two days before. And I start explaining to him how I made it, the emulation process and so on, with olive oil.
Monday, 27 January 2014
Path on the Water
1. Baby Girl
Kitchen of parents, light. D&S on the side of the furnace. Me on the other side. Dad and N walk in and out. We talk about the baby, because S is pregnant. S talks about the baby as a she, but we know it will be a girl.
Later our mom comes in and stands next to them and at some point she catches them saying 'she' as referring to the baby girl, and at some point she realize it will be a daughter and she gets excited, exclaims her sudden insight, though all of us were already aware of it in a natural way.
There was also a dream about the name Charlotte, but I don't remember if this was the same dream.
2. Knuppelpad
Outside, unfamiliar place, light, day, I go somewhere, I have an appointment of some kind, obligatory for me, maybe RVA or VDAB kind of thing. I go alone. I know the way. It is on the border of civilization and some waste land or no man's land. I have slight fears but don't let it get to me. I go in the building and do what must be done, but in the dream I can't remember being in the building, yet the moment of leaving is shown in the dream. Clear day still, other way out, though this is the official entrance, it goes slightly up and is first broad and at the end narrow, so that a triangular shape is formed, at the end it becomes really narrow and difficult, and there is something else in the way too. Two people, a man and his son, enter via this place and have no problem. There is some metal construction in my way and I have to climb over. I know nonetheless that an easier way out exists, still different than how I got here, but I don't trust myself with it, because I fear the unknown. Finally I leave that place, turn left and am on the road, this is the long way round. Not long after I see to my left a woman with curly hair, bushy, that goes down a certain path and I admit to myself that that route is much shorter and I too should take it, so I go that way, I still have a chance to go there. I wait because the woman is still coming. There is water, like a shallow brook, clear, and the path is on it, gravel and stones and wood in other places (knuppelpad). I see how she does it, don't want to be in front of her, or together with her, so I wait until she has passed and then I go down between the shrub and descend onto the path in the water and follow it, relieved of taking this route after all.
Kitchen of parents, light. D&S on the side of the furnace. Me on the other side. Dad and N walk in and out. We talk about the baby, because S is pregnant. S talks about the baby as a she, but we know it will be a girl.
Later our mom comes in and stands next to them and at some point she catches them saying 'she' as referring to the baby girl, and at some point she realize it will be a daughter and she gets excited, exclaims her sudden insight, though all of us were already aware of it in a natural way.
There was also a dream about the name Charlotte, but I don't remember if this was the same dream.
2. Knuppelpad
Outside, unfamiliar place, light, day, I go somewhere, I have an appointment of some kind, obligatory for me, maybe RVA or VDAB kind of thing. I go alone. I know the way. It is on the border of civilization and some waste land or no man's land. I have slight fears but don't let it get to me. I go in the building and do what must be done, but in the dream I can't remember being in the building, yet the moment of leaving is shown in the dream. Clear day still, other way out, though this is the official entrance, it goes slightly up and is first broad and at the end narrow, so that a triangular shape is formed, at the end it becomes really narrow and difficult, and there is something else in the way too. Two people, a man and his son, enter via this place and have no problem. There is some metal construction in my way and I have to climb over. I know nonetheless that an easier way out exists, still different than how I got here, but I don't trust myself with it, because I fear the unknown. Finally I leave that place, turn left and am on the road, this is the long way round. Not long after I see to my left a woman with curly hair, bushy, that goes down a certain path and I admit to myself that that route is much shorter and I too should take it, so I go that way, I still have a chance to go there. I wait because the woman is still coming. There is water, like a shallow brook, clear, and the path is on it, gravel and stones and wood in other places (knuppelpad). I see how she does it, don't want to be in front of her, or together with her, so I wait until she has passed and then I go down between the shrub and descend onto the path in the water and follow it, relieved of taking this route after all.
Friday, 24 January 2014
Under Water
1. Bottom of the Sea
There was a deep dream in the middle of the night.
It was dark, close to the beach, coast of Belgium, we were in the water, under water, very deep under water, which is why it was dark. I am walking there with a handful of other people. I feel peaceful. I know in the dream this might signify strong emotions. When I go back to the surface, the more I go to the surface, the more turbulence and surf there is, the more tidal waves and movement. A long time I stay down, on the bottom of the sea in fact, the surface is like the ceiling of a high building. Only at the end do I go up and feel the rush of the waves on my body. Then I wake up.
I was fully emerged in the water.
2. Scotland Travel
Traveling in Scotland, other people with me. Can't remember the details.
There was a deep dream in the middle of the night.
It was dark, close to the beach, coast of Belgium, we were in the water, under water, very deep under water, which is why it was dark. I am walking there with a handful of other people. I feel peaceful. I know in the dream this might signify strong emotions. When I go back to the surface, the more I go to the surface, the more turbulence and surf there is, the more tidal waves and movement. A long time I stay down, on the bottom of the sea in fact, the surface is like the ceiling of a high building. Only at the end do I go up and feel the rush of the waves on my body. Then I wake up.
I was fully emerged in the water.
2. Scotland Travel
Traveling in Scotland, other people with me. Can't remember the details.
Monday, 20 January 2014
Big Planet Small People
1. Sandwich Bar
I am in the sandwich bar to get my lunch, 't Vluggertje. I just got here. The colours are of a good quality, deep colours, red and blue. E&D certainly behind the bar, maybe someone else, a young person. Customer behind me, some sit at tables. I talk with the people from the bar. I can' remember any details anymore.
2. Boat Trip
I can't remember where the dream started, but it is light and I leave to another planet. I can't remember if I leave from Earth or any other planet already. Chwe is with me. The planets are not real size. The size is measured by the surface you can see.
There is a scene in which Chwe hugs me, possibly when leaving. I had not seen it coming, and am surprised, so it takes a while but then I hug back. I think this was in my kitchen. Or it might have been outside.
We leave the first planet, presumably earth, we are in a happy mood. The next planet we pass is a small planet, definitely a globe shape, dark, but inhabited, maybe four people live here, and I can't remember if they were still there or were already dead a long time. Then it is a dead planet. The people are our height, but the planet is so small they seem big and they can only live there with so few. With four people the planet is occupied on all sides in fact.
We pass that one and come to the next which I suppose is the one where we want to get. And this is a nice planet and I have some knowledge of this planet before we land.
The first thing we notice is that the planet is bigger and the people are smaller. The people here are less than half a centimeter tall. They all wear or look orange. And they are a population on some kind of island. We land with our shuttle on the centre of the planet, there is a wide river crossing and across is a piece of green and the let's say gnomes are living there. They are very zealous in a way. By some accident a handful dies. Maybe me or Chwe caused this unwittingly. Not me I suppose because I knew they were here before I arrived. Then I notice the population goes back to its normal count rather quickly and I understand that because they are all so tiny, their life cycles are much quicker. There is one in specific who might be designated as king or leader. I know him in some kind of way.
While I'm busy there, Chwe finds a boat of wood on the river and is in it before I know it. I have not intention of going on a boat, but don't want Chwe to do more damage. On top of that I see the boat is built for people our size, and this must be some relic from an ancient race living here. The boat is still very solid. When I go in no one else is except Chwe. She is at a wall admiring the workmanship saying there is no trace of plastic anywhere and she is surprised and happy by that. But mentioning it makes me fear she wants plastic in it while when I understand this is solidly wood I want to keep it so. The wood is old, almost grey, a dark colour, spacious inside, like a room of wood on water. Single beams.
We decide to take a tour on the river. There were people outside on the far side of the river by the boat, possibly our height, but I can't remember what or who or why.
We go anti clockwise on the river. Soon enough it is clear that the river makes a circle, I think that is fine. There are mountains as well. The boat trip is nice, there is some wild water, mild, and we pick up some speed. I like it. I suppose we see everything from on top of the boat.
More than halfway we are about to get back to the point of start, but I see the river goes straight on while the circle would close if the river would bend to the left. There is a fork in the river. Unknown lands and waters are in front of us and I want to go to the left whatever the cost. I see pirates on a ship coming down from the mountain river that plunges in ours. While we too are going downstream, the whole time. We go with the flow. Only at this point things are a bit awkward. The boat naturally wants to go straight, but I fear that we will never get back in that case.
So in the fork I bend the ship to the left and it works. No harm done. There was a clear border anyway. Not that it would have stopped us, but it would have prevented us to go back. Also because of the current.
3.
Light, some complex of buildings and squares. Some game going on. Stairs, stone stairs like you would have in a city at a square. I'm in a team of six members of which I am one. They are currently in different places. Other teams are about and making better progress than us. I don't mind at all. I have a bag in my hand, like a bag with runes, but there are some kind of gaming pieces in it, like stones, cylindrical, and they are yellow but flecked with black, and that is why they remind me of leopards. Because I am the one holding this I am the leader. The other teams each have a sack like that. I know at least one other colour is black. I suppose blue and green are other colours.
We assemble on the stairs and then complete the final stage. I can't well remember what happened before. But from then on we go to the tower where we complete the mission, others have gone before us we know. We go in and go up the stairs (this seems linked with the dream of 't Vluggertje). Half of the group is up already. When I come to the upmost reach, there is a waiting room, you can see the stairs where we came from. Some sit on the stairs. Groups that have completed the mission are waiting here still, just hanging about, some of the members at least, most have gone. All is calm and peaceful and things are well directed and organized. There is a small room to the left, but you can see through the wall, though there is clearly a door. A young woman sits inside by the door and sometimes stands up, she is the one who admits people or asks them to wait. When we arrive, another group is still in the room, so we have some inkling of what will happen.
Some members of my group go in after that but I don't. I'm waiting for the others. My two brothers are in my team and also Mael. And the rest I can't remember.
I know what will happen when I enter. I have to restrain myself. At first when I almost entered I felt the bag start to glow and light in the room started to shine and even down the bottom of my spine things got warm and there was pressure as if something was activated. I know that if I enter the room I will unleash the full power of it, but I cannot do this, I find, before the others have arrived. Two are behind, they sit on different stages of the stairs, and are preparing themselves. Among other things they are consulting oracles, there are people around who do divination especially for this. I am patient and wait. There is a second time I almost go in and am on the threshold, but still I hold back. I want to wait.
The bag in my hands is also wrapped in paper that wraps the cloth in which the pieces are. Maybe butter paper or newspaper. And I move this in my hand so that I grab it in a good way so I am completely ready.
Then one comes up and enters and then the other, and the dream ends.
4. Lemon
I'm in the garage of parents, going in, I see there are lemons, my dad has bought them, the door is open and he is in the door, I don't say anything, why did I buy a lemon then?
5. Black Pen
In Leuven, from Herent, on foot, nighttime though time to get to work, but earlier, busy roads. Near the canal. I come to a point where I have to cross the road. When I cross I leave a certain world behind me and enter another that feels more home and familiar, Leuven. On the other side I meet Brva, which is a chance meeting, but I am happy, we kiss, she kisses me, and when I realize that I kiss back and a little more, this is nice. Then I want to continue. But we have to be cautious, because emergency services need to pass, firemen, police, etc.
There is a woman asking a pen. I have my black pen, this is still the same place. I have to other pens that I don't need, I want to give her one of these and she accepts, and when I look again I see she took my pen, nothing I can do about it.
I am in the sandwich bar to get my lunch, 't Vluggertje. I just got here. The colours are of a good quality, deep colours, red and blue. E&D certainly behind the bar, maybe someone else, a young person. Customer behind me, some sit at tables. I talk with the people from the bar. I can' remember any details anymore.
2. Boat Trip
I can't remember where the dream started, but it is light and I leave to another planet. I can't remember if I leave from Earth or any other planet already. Chwe is with me. The planets are not real size. The size is measured by the surface you can see.
There is a scene in which Chwe hugs me, possibly when leaving. I had not seen it coming, and am surprised, so it takes a while but then I hug back. I think this was in my kitchen. Or it might have been outside.
We leave the first planet, presumably earth, we are in a happy mood. The next planet we pass is a small planet, definitely a globe shape, dark, but inhabited, maybe four people live here, and I can't remember if they were still there or were already dead a long time. Then it is a dead planet. The people are our height, but the planet is so small they seem big and they can only live there with so few. With four people the planet is occupied on all sides in fact.
We pass that one and come to the next which I suppose is the one where we want to get. And this is a nice planet and I have some knowledge of this planet before we land.
The first thing we notice is that the planet is bigger and the people are smaller. The people here are less than half a centimeter tall. They all wear or look orange. And they are a population on some kind of island. We land with our shuttle on the centre of the planet, there is a wide river crossing and across is a piece of green and the let's say gnomes are living there. They are very zealous in a way. By some accident a handful dies. Maybe me or Chwe caused this unwittingly. Not me I suppose because I knew they were here before I arrived. Then I notice the population goes back to its normal count rather quickly and I understand that because they are all so tiny, their life cycles are much quicker. There is one in specific who might be designated as king or leader. I know him in some kind of way.
While I'm busy there, Chwe finds a boat of wood on the river and is in it before I know it. I have not intention of going on a boat, but don't want Chwe to do more damage. On top of that I see the boat is built for people our size, and this must be some relic from an ancient race living here. The boat is still very solid. When I go in no one else is except Chwe. She is at a wall admiring the workmanship saying there is no trace of plastic anywhere and she is surprised and happy by that. But mentioning it makes me fear she wants plastic in it while when I understand this is solidly wood I want to keep it so. The wood is old, almost grey, a dark colour, spacious inside, like a room of wood on water. Single beams.
We decide to take a tour on the river. There were people outside on the far side of the river by the boat, possibly our height, but I can't remember what or who or why.
We go anti clockwise on the river. Soon enough it is clear that the river makes a circle, I think that is fine. There are mountains as well. The boat trip is nice, there is some wild water, mild, and we pick up some speed. I like it. I suppose we see everything from on top of the boat.
More than halfway we are about to get back to the point of start, but I see the river goes straight on while the circle would close if the river would bend to the left. There is a fork in the river. Unknown lands and waters are in front of us and I want to go to the left whatever the cost. I see pirates on a ship coming down from the mountain river that plunges in ours. While we too are going downstream, the whole time. We go with the flow. Only at this point things are a bit awkward. The boat naturally wants to go straight, but I fear that we will never get back in that case.
So in the fork I bend the ship to the left and it works. No harm done. There was a clear border anyway. Not that it would have stopped us, but it would have prevented us to go back. Also because of the current.
3.
Light, some complex of buildings and squares. Some game going on. Stairs, stone stairs like you would have in a city at a square. I'm in a team of six members of which I am one. They are currently in different places. Other teams are about and making better progress than us. I don't mind at all. I have a bag in my hand, like a bag with runes, but there are some kind of gaming pieces in it, like stones, cylindrical, and they are yellow but flecked with black, and that is why they remind me of leopards. Because I am the one holding this I am the leader. The other teams each have a sack like that. I know at least one other colour is black. I suppose blue and green are other colours.
We assemble on the stairs and then complete the final stage. I can't well remember what happened before. But from then on we go to the tower where we complete the mission, others have gone before us we know. We go in and go up the stairs (this seems linked with the dream of 't Vluggertje). Half of the group is up already. When I come to the upmost reach, there is a waiting room, you can see the stairs where we came from. Some sit on the stairs. Groups that have completed the mission are waiting here still, just hanging about, some of the members at least, most have gone. All is calm and peaceful and things are well directed and organized. There is a small room to the left, but you can see through the wall, though there is clearly a door. A young woman sits inside by the door and sometimes stands up, she is the one who admits people or asks them to wait. When we arrive, another group is still in the room, so we have some inkling of what will happen.
Some members of my group go in after that but I don't. I'm waiting for the others. My two brothers are in my team and also Mael. And the rest I can't remember.
I know what will happen when I enter. I have to restrain myself. At first when I almost entered I felt the bag start to glow and light in the room started to shine and even down the bottom of my spine things got warm and there was pressure as if something was activated. I know that if I enter the room I will unleash the full power of it, but I cannot do this, I find, before the others have arrived. Two are behind, they sit on different stages of the stairs, and are preparing themselves. Among other things they are consulting oracles, there are people around who do divination especially for this. I am patient and wait. There is a second time I almost go in and am on the threshold, but still I hold back. I want to wait.
The bag in my hands is also wrapped in paper that wraps the cloth in which the pieces are. Maybe butter paper or newspaper. And I move this in my hand so that I grab it in a good way so I am completely ready.
Then one comes up and enters and then the other, and the dream ends.
4. Lemon
I'm in the garage of parents, going in, I see there are lemons, my dad has bought them, the door is open and he is in the door, I don't say anything, why did I buy a lemon then?
5. Black Pen
In Leuven, from Herent, on foot, nighttime though time to get to work, but earlier, busy roads. Near the canal. I come to a point where I have to cross the road. When I cross I leave a certain world behind me and enter another that feels more home and familiar, Leuven. On the other side I meet Brva, which is a chance meeting, but I am happy, we kiss, she kisses me, and when I realize that I kiss back and a little more, this is nice. Then I want to continue. But we have to be cautious, because emergency services need to pass, firemen, police, etc.
There is a woman asking a pen. I have my black pen, this is still the same place. I have to other pens that I don't need, I want to give her one of these and she accepts, and when I look again I see she took my pen, nothing I can do about it.
Wednesday, 15 January 2014
Technique of Nakedness
1. Nudity
(Wet dream)
I remember being in a house, lower part, many folk, I am on the right, I know many of them. I am dressed in white as are some others. Many are already here and doing what is asked of them when I arrive. I also know what I have to do, but I do it on my own, no one else is involved in it, though I suppose everybody has the same task or whatever, though slightly different according to personality.
I take off my clothes, all of them, so that I am naked. I am not ashamed, but this is part of the process, I seem to be more experienced than many others, because I am the only one undressing, but it makes the task at hand easier. Something with papers.
I do my thing. Then I stay naked. I see others follow my example, among which a young girl that I now fancy. Though these people have already performed there tasks, they were now merely waiting. Still they try the technique. Two people at least, among which this girl. I mentally support them, but I become conscious of my own nudity, though it feels very pure. I don't want to attract too much attention to my nudity so I put on a shirt, white. But remain naked from the waist down.
I then go sit behind the girl. She likes me I know. We are on a bench, of wood, light colour, though the room is dark, the kind of bench you have in a sauna, but this is not a sauna. Other people sit on the bench, but we close to each other. She has her back to me, but I approach, surely my cock becomes hard. I pull her toward me at the waist, my right hand on her right hip. She moves back to me, everything fits perfectly. I come. I try to hold back, but succeed only a little, so I spill seed.
+2. Phone Broken
Last dream. Again a low place, this is the shop, but looks different, and Ancl is at the till when I arrive, managing. She is a taiji person. Basement, spacious, but dark.
Niru is there. When I'm in trouble he helps me. I don't know if I have to help in the shop or am just visiting. I stay on the side. Niru is a customer. My problem is that my phone does not work. I have it with me, though I don't own a mobile. He hands over his so I can try ring my phone. But I am clumsy with mobiles, and I'm so much in the dark that I don't see anything. I don't trust myself, so I return his phone without success. More happened but it all turned out to be me getting frustrated.
Then I leave the shop. Up on the street to the left I see a woman undressing, her house is halfway below the street and I see her through the window. She has grey hair to the shoulders. She has a grey and red shirt that she tries to unbutton. Shall I help?
+3. Inro
Dream before that. In house of parents, dining room, which is a place of transition. I am there, possibly parents and brothers, but many other people too, of which I know most. I sit down at the side of the table where there is least people. Most stand up. I am working on something, this involves kneeding my hands as if in wet paper to make some kind of pastry, I can't remember correctly.
The room is a real passagethrough because it forms part of a big corridor of a building. At some point Inro comes from my right or left, from the corridor and walks fast and must be at work, she sees me and says hi, is joyful as she usually is these days. She just passes by briefly and noticed me is all, but when she passes and goes on with her own business she takes the road behind me and goes to my left away. When she passes I stretch out my hand and instinctively we hold hands for a while. This is a nice moment, though she is on my back and she is on her way out. So this is a fleeting moment. Yet she says as a remark that I have warm hands. And this is because I was doing this work with my hands. In fact I feared touching her because my hands were dirty because of the work, but she makes a positive remark. I say nothing but am happy.
(Wet dream)
I remember being in a house, lower part, many folk, I am on the right, I know many of them. I am dressed in white as are some others. Many are already here and doing what is asked of them when I arrive. I also know what I have to do, but I do it on my own, no one else is involved in it, though I suppose everybody has the same task or whatever, though slightly different according to personality.
I take off my clothes, all of them, so that I am naked. I am not ashamed, but this is part of the process, I seem to be more experienced than many others, because I am the only one undressing, but it makes the task at hand easier. Something with papers.
I do my thing. Then I stay naked. I see others follow my example, among which a young girl that I now fancy. Though these people have already performed there tasks, they were now merely waiting. Still they try the technique. Two people at least, among which this girl. I mentally support them, but I become conscious of my own nudity, though it feels very pure. I don't want to attract too much attention to my nudity so I put on a shirt, white. But remain naked from the waist down.
I then go sit behind the girl. She likes me I know. We are on a bench, of wood, light colour, though the room is dark, the kind of bench you have in a sauna, but this is not a sauna. Other people sit on the bench, but we close to each other. She has her back to me, but I approach, surely my cock becomes hard. I pull her toward me at the waist, my right hand on her right hip. She moves back to me, everything fits perfectly. I come. I try to hold back, but succeed only a little, so I spill seed.
+2. Phone Broken
Last dream. Again a low place, this is the shop, but looks different, and Ancl is at the till when I arrive, managing. She is a taiji person. Basement, spacious, but dark.
Niru is there. When I'm in trouble he helps me. I don't know if I have to help in the shop or am just visiting. I stay on the side. Niru is a customer. My problem is that my phone does not work. I have it with me, though I don't own a mobile. He hands over his so I can try ring my phone. But I am clumsy with mobiles, and I'm so much in the dark that I don't see anything. I don't trust myself, so I return his phone without success. More happened but it all turned out to be me getting frustrated.
Then I leave the shop. Up on the street to the left I see a woman undressing, her house is halfway below the street and I see her through the window. She has grey hair to the shoulders. She has a grey and red shirt that she tries to unbutton. Shall I help?
+3. Inro
Dream before that. In house of parents, dining room, which is a place of transition. I am there, possibly parents and brothers, but many other people too, of which I know most. I sit down at the side of the table where there is least people. Most stand up. I am working on something, this involves kneeding my hands as if in wet paper to make some kind of pastry, I can't remember correctly.
The room is a real passagethrough because it forms part of a big corridor of a building. At some point Inro comes from my right or left, from the corridor and walks fast and must be at work, she sees me and says hi, is joyful as she usually is these days. She just passes by briefly and noticed me is all, but when she passes and goes on with her own business she takes the road behind me and goes to my left away. When she passes I stretch out my hand and instinctively we hold hands for a while. This is a nice moment, though she is on my back and she is on her way out. So this is a fleeting moment. Yet she says as a remark that I have warm hands. And this is because I was doing this work with my hands. In fact I feared touching her because my hands were dirty because of the work, but she makes a positive remark. I say nothing but am happy.
Tuesday, 14 January 2014
Right Foot comes Off
1. Broken Foot
Light by day. House, outside, small space, friends packed. Toha is there. First someone of us was hurt, I think on the hand or fingers. Now Toha suddenly breaks his foot. His right foot just comes of, I don't think we can mend that again. A girl is helping him to his left. I stand there indecisive.
2. A Ticket and a Letter
Unfamiliar place, like a holiday resort, Bale and Re are there too. I am here first. Can't remember what it was all about.
But the dream continues into something else, which is the next dream.
3. The Lion and the Sheep
Lake, path, outside, different attempts to go somewhere. I lead. At last I am alone and can do what I want, there is only the herd of sheep I have to get with me, moving, and hide at the same time from the lion, that comes from the underbrush. I guide the sheep under the water, which is at the same time a lawn and trees grow there. I walk over it and go to the willow that stands alone and I see it can move, which means I can count on the sheep for being intelligent and cooperative, they are underneath it hiding, so that the lion does not see us. We go along the path.
Where the path goes into the woods, there are springs, they have meaning too, but I can't remember well anymore.
Light by day. House, outside, small space, friends packed. Toha is there. First someone of us was hurt, I think on the hand or fingers. Now Toha suddenly breaks his foot. His right foot just comes of, I don't think we can mend that again. A girl is helping him to his left. I stand there indecisive.
2. A Ticket and a Letter
Unfamiliar place, like a holiday resort, Bale and Re are there too. I am here first. Can't remember what it was all about.
But the dream continues into something else, which is the next dream.
3. The Lion and the Sheep
Lake, path, outside, different attempts to go somewhere. I lead. At last I am alone and can do what I want, there is only the herd of sheep I have to get with me, moving, and hide at the same time from the lion, that comes from the underbrush. I guide the sheep under the water, which is at the same time a lawn and trees grow there. I walk over it and go to the willow that stands alone and I see it can move, which means I can count on the sheep for being intelligent and cooperative, they are underneath it hiding, so that the lion does not see us. We go along the path.
Where the path goes into the woods, there are springs, they have meaning too, but I can't remember well anymore.
Saturday, 11 January 2014
Menstruating
1. Hijacking the Space Ship
Some place I can't remember, buildings, out of the way, we are a group of people. Don't remember the start and the middle of the dream.
Toward the end, we decide to hijack a spaceship, a small one, and do what we think is best, even if it is against authority's decision, so we must take care that they don't see us.
We run toward the more open and lighted place, outside, pavement, and around the corner where the shuttle is. Two of us go in, it is a really small one, just place for two. Mavh and Pheg go in and sit tight opposite each other. They seem to know each other well. There is a yellow button behind and above Mavh. We push this one, even if we know it means the death of them two, but it is the only way to solve this problem we are facing, maybe something like the end of the world. We're not seen when they launch. Then I see in the cockpit, though I'm not in there. They talk to each other, all the time, but they can't hear each other because there is no medium or ether, they're in space, though not that high up in space either. And at some point I can make out words from the lipping of Pheg, the words 'no problem' are in it. They seem to like each other.
Then they get caught. Don't know what happens then.
It turns out the yellow button is an illusion, we are caught, I feel it though it is both of them who are kicked out by the commanding officer, on that same pavement, which is in front of the barracks. His team is there too. He kicks Mavh and Pheg into the mud. They are naked I think.
2. Menstruation Blood of Pregnance
The scene changes. Still the same dream.
Light, I arrive somewhere, happy to be there and rather on a whim, but others seem to be present, all people that I know. First I meet two people on the way, and they were going the same way but I overtake them. I can't remember who. Then on the doorstep where a street crosses and I want to go left, there is Grdr and Clsm, who are chatting in the door, for it is one of either's house.
I have a paper bag with baguettes in it, three or four, don't know why I'm carrying it, and feels a bit awkward, but then the other two from earlier come too and have the same as if all this is planned. And I say hello to Grdr and Clsm, but I don't want to be too familiar either, so I don't know what expression to wear on my face. Recognition or not.
Then I continue my walk, and turn to the right. Here I meet Joja and his friend Kadv. And we are going the same way. This looks like a coincidence, but they seem to know what I am up to.
We discuss something, I can't remember what.
Then we come in a back alley, but there is light, though a dead end, and people sit on the street floor, among which a lady, and they have wares to show. And we go there and I stop by the lady, and the three of us kneel, and to the right is something which is called 'klima', it draws my attention, though it is exceptional in her stall. And I immediately understand this object is about 'glima' the wrestling of viking age times. And I say as much. And Joja takes a moment to consider. But the lady, our age, says we can still enroll and should do.
That is when I see in this place many people stand up and making ready to fight, all of the men, young and tall. Before I know it I am among them. Earlier I said something about recalling the same in a film about Wolverine.
Now I am fighting one, then the other. And the last one takes the most time and I can't knock it down, nose to nose, so close are we, he is blond, short hair, almost red. We fight, but neither of us can win. I am a bit frustrated by it.
3. Airplane Crash
Still the same dream.
I don't know where I come from but I leave the group which hides in safety and I venture into more public places and this involves returning home, and I have to make sure no one sees me. I'm sure my mother is there, but she does not see me. I go into my apartment, there is a balcony and a small room adjacent to it. I go there to be alone. I have cloths and rags and towels with me, some a bit grey or dirty. But I press them to my behind and there is blood there. And this is why I am here, am the only one that could do this. This is menstruation blood, and it means I am pregnant.
The next moment I realize it is not me, I knew all along, but the negro woman that was in the group who was too afraid to come up here to show herself and speak up and tell she is pregnant. So the blood is all hers, though I am the one bleeding.
Can't remember all of it.
Then I see the night sky and I go out, and when I do it changes into the back of the house of parents. And I see an airplane, quite big, or rather it is low, too low in fact, and goes behind me, to the east, and I follow it with my eyes, curious as to where it goes. Then it suddenly dives down and I think this can't be right. It goes behind the houses so I don't see it. I don't follow it immediately, but then I think I should check and indeed when I go to the front of the house I see on the horizon the skyline of Leuven and the centre of it collapsing. Fire. Again and again I see the church tower collapse. And then two more planes crash and things feel rather apocalyptic and I don't know what to think, thinking this is important and will have serious and lasting consequences, but yet it seems disconnected of me.
Some place I can't remember, buildings, out of the way, we are a group of people. Don't remember the start and the middle of the dream.
Toward the end, we decide to hijack a spaceship, a small one, and do what we think is best, even if it is against authority's decision, so we must take care that they don't see us.
We run toward the more open and lighted place, outside, pavement, and around the corner where the shuttle is. Two of us go in, it is a really small one, just place for two. Mavh and Pheg go in and sit tight opposite each other. They seem to know each other well. There is a yellow button behind and above Mavh. We push this one, even if we know it means the death of them two, but it is the only way to solve this problem we are facing, maybe something like the end of the world. We're not seen when they launch. Then I see in the cockpit, though I'm not in there. They talk to each other, all the time, but they can't hear each other because there is no medium or ether, they're in space, though not that high up in space either. And at some point I can make out words from the lipping of Pheg, the words 'no problem' are in it. They seem to like each other.
Then they get caught. Don't know what happens then.
It turns out the yellow button is an illusion, we are caught, I feel it though it is both of them who are kicked out by the commanding officer, on that same pavement, which is in front of the barracks. His team is there too. He kicks Mavh and Pheg into the mud. They are naked I think.
2. Menstruation Blood of Pregnance
The scene changes. Still the same dream.
Light, I arrive somewhere, happy to be there and rather on a whim, but others seem to be present, all people that I know. First I meet two people on the way, and they were going the same way but I overtake them. I can't remember who. Then on the doorstep where a street crosses and I want to go left, there is Grdr and Clsm, who are chatting in the door, for it is one of either's house.
I have a paper bag with baguettes in it, three or four, don't know why I'm carrying it, and feels a bit awkward, but then the other two from earlier come too and have the same as if all this is planned. And I say hello to Grdr and Clsm, but I don't want to be too familiar either, so I don't know what expression to wear on my face. Recognition or not.
Then I continue my walk, and turn to the right. Here I meet Joja and his friend Kadv. And we are going the same way. This looks like a coincidence, but they seem to know what I am up to.
We discuss something, I can't remember what.
Then we come in a back alley, but there is light, though a dead end, and people sit on the street floor, among which a lady, and they have wares to show. And we go there and I stop by the lady, and the three of us kneel, and to the right is something which is called 'klima', it draws my attention, though it is exceptional in her stall. And I immediately understand this object is about 'glima' the wrestling of viking age times. And I say as much. And Joja takes a moment to consider. But the lady, our age, says we can still enroll and should do.
That is when I see in this place many people stand up and making ready to fight, all of the men, young and tall. Before I know it I am among them. Earlier I said something about recalling the same in a film about Wolverine.
Now I am fighting one, then the other. And the last one takes the most time and I can't knock it down, nose to nose, so close are we, he is blond, short hair, almost red. We fight, but neither of us can win. I am a bit frustrated by it.
3. Airplane Crash
Still the same dream.
I don't know where I come from but I leave the group which hides in safety and I venture into more public places and this involves returning home, and I have to make sure no one sees me. I'm sure my mother is there, but she does not see me. I go into my apartment, there is a balcony and a small room adjacent to it. I go there to be alone. I have cloths and rags and towels with me, some a bit grey or dirty. But I press them to my behind and there is blood there. And this is why I am here, am the only one that could do this. This is menstruation blood, and it means I am pregnant.
The next moment I realize it is not me, I knew all along, but the negro woman that was in the group who was too afraid to come up here to show herself and speak up and tell she is pregnant. So the blood is all hers, though I am the one bleeding.
Can't remember all of it.
Then I see the night sky and I go out, and when I do it changes into the back of the house of parents. And I see an airplane, quite big, or rather it is low, too low in fact, and goes behind me, to the east, and I follow it with my eyes, curious as to where it goes. Then it suddenly dives down and I think this can't be right. It goes behind the houses so I don't see it. I don't follow it immediately, but then I think I should check and indeed when I go to the front of the house I see on the horizon the skyline of Leuven and the centre of it collapsing. Fire. Again and again I see the church tower collapse. And then two more planes crash and things feel rather apocalyptic and I don't know what to think, thinking this is important and will have serious and lasting consequences, but yet it seems disconnected of me.
Monday, 6 January 2014
Dating Game
1. Preparing for the London Conference
(Wet dream)
There was talk about me visiting London, for which I was preparing, the February conference.
At some point I lie on the floor and Bale too, and she has her back to me and I am close to her, and the atmosphere is erotic, and when I approach her it is what she wants, and I am ready to enter, though I am still not sure. From behind, but when I make ready it is the front and I know I am so roused that I will immediately come, so I think I might as well kiss her at the same time. And I seem to have multiple penises. I am clumsy and I come. This is a wet dream. I wake after this.
Maybe in the same dream.
Dining room of parents, and people are gathered there and there is some dating game going on, and when it starts I am still ignorant of what it is, then a girl in red to my left, she has a lady friend with her, young both, calls my name, so that means I have to answer questions she asks me, in public. And she asks me what my worst personality trait is, and the situation becomes such that I answer: my analytic thinking, and everyone laughs because it suits the situation, which I forgot now.
2. Private Discussion
I am in the living room of parents, visiting Dive, this is a rare moment, because I have not seen him since a long time. Also, this place is meant for just the two of us, no one else knows of it, and thus the place becomes like a place between places, so it feels. But my colleague List is also there and therefore I don't talk to Dive, List thinks this is weird, but I can't talk with Dive as long as she is in the room. This takes a long time, after a while a topic comes up that suits me and I start talking too. Other things happen.
(Wet dream)
There was talk about me visiting London, for which I was preparing, the February conference.
At some point I lie on the floor and Bale too, and she has her back to me and I am close to her, and the atmosphere is erotic, and when I approach her it is what she wants, and I am ready to enter, though I am still not sure. From behind, but when I make ready it is the front and I know I am so roused that I will immediately come, so I think I might as well kiss her at the same time. And I seem to have multiple penises. I am clumsy and I come. This is a wet dream. I wake after this.
Maybe in the same dream.
Dining room of parents, and people are gathered there and there is some dating game going on, and when it starts I am still ignorant of what it is, then a girl in red to my left, she has a lady friend with her, young both, calls my name, so that means I have to answer questions she asks me, in public. And she asks me what my worst personality trait is, and the situation becomes such that I answer: my analytic thinking, and everyone laughs because it suits the situation, which I forgot now.
2. Private Discussion
I am in the living room of parents, visiting Dive, this is a rare moment, because I have not seen him since a long time. Also, this place is meant for just the two of us, no one else knows of it, and thus the place becomes like a place between places, so it feels. But my colleague List is also there and therefore I don't talk to Dive, List thinks this is weird, but I can't talk with Dive as long as she is in the room. This takes a long time, after a while a topic comes up that suits me and I start talking too. Other things happen.
Sunday, 5 January 2014
The Bee and the Sun
1. Cat on my Face
(Nap dream)
At some point I was near a pool and somebody told me the sun was out and this was bad, and I said the remedy is to catch the bee. And then I jumped into the swimming pool, inside place, and did that despite the fact that a bee larger than my fist was in there, though I did not see it, but knew it to be so. The bee is dangerous, I did not care.
Next scene was different, I was playing with cat V, and at some point lied down exhausted on the couch, all light and bright, then V jumped on top of me, she placed herself right on my face, my head, and I did not know what was happening, but let her do it, since I like her. The weight of the cat was really a lot but still I let her. I did not know whether to stroke her or not, but I tried a bit, which she did not really like I think, but she did not move either. This was nice, because she's my best friend, and then I realized that she's not my cat and V will not remember me when she moves, and grief suddenly overtook me but I let it pass.
+2. Long hair
(Night dream)
Last fragment of the night in which I had a whisker or nose hair that was so long that it grew to beneath my chin, but it removed itself. It was quite a sight.
(Nap dream)
At some point I was near a pool and somebody told me the sun was out and this was bad, and I said the remedy is to catch the bee. And then I jumped into the swimming pool, inside place, and did that despite the fact that a bee larger than my fist was in there, though I did not see it, but knew it to be so. The bee is dangerous, I did not care.
Next scene was different, I was playing with cat V, and at some point lied down exhausted on the couch, all light and bright, then V jumped on top of me, she placed herself right on my face, my head, and I did not know what was happening, but let her do it, since I like her. The weight of the cat was really a lot but still I let her. I did not know whether to stroke her or not, but I tried a bit, which she did not really like I think, but she did not move either. This was nice, because she's my best friend, and then I realized that she's not my cat and V will not remember me when she moves, and grief suddenly overtook me but I let it pass.
+2. Long hair
(Night dream)
Last fragment of the night in which I had a whisker or nose hair that was so long that it grew to beneath my chin, but it removed itself. It was quite a sight.
Saturday, 4 January 2014
Ignoring the Order
1. Improvisation Song
Large hall full of people, sitting on chairs and facing a stage, though this might as well have been the living room of my parents, though the place was much bigger. Yet it felt like a family gathering, only there were too many people. I came in when things were already on, and passed the stage, side of the front door it would be. A young man with black curly hair was singing in a mike. I looked for a place not certain of why I was here. About half way in the room I sit down, people are here that I know, they guide me a little, but they are completely under the influence of the atmosphere, while I am not.
Then my name is called and I am called on stage, I ignore it, the man in front has done singing, I thought he did well, rhymed, four lines a stanza. And people behind me start calling my name, all can hear it, I don't move an inch as if I have not heard it. Then my so-called friends start to tell my I should go up and sing as well, apparently this is an improvisation performance and people expect me to join, while I know of nothing. When I realize this is improvisation I am quite proud of the man in front who under the circumstances did his best, I think he prepared. I am not proud of not going out to the stage, but I completely ignore the order, because I feel uncomfortable. I don't want to do such a performance in public. I am very thick headed.
2. Brle and Meditation
There is a building I enter, a room, people are sitting in a circle, drinking tea, this is the kind of new age gathering for a talk or workshop, I know the place, then I see Brle, and this is his first time. When I pass him, his back to mine, because he is in a chair in the circle, then I pet his head and go with my hand through his hair in a very familiar gesture. Many other things happened before and after.
Large hall full of people, sitting on chairs and facing a stage, though this might as well have been the living room of my parents, though the place was much bigger. Yet it felt like a family gathering, only there were too many people. I came in when things were already on, and passed the stage, side of the front door it would be. A young man with black curly hair was singing in a mike. I looked for a place not certain of why I was here. About half way in the room I sit down, people are here that I know, they guide me a little, but they are completely under the influence of the atmosphere, while I am not.
Then my name is called and I am called on stage, I ignore it, the man in front has done singing, I thought he did well, rhymed, four lines a stanza. And people behind me start calling my name, all can hear it, I don't move an inch as if I have not heard it. Then my so-called friends start to tell my I should go up and sing as well, apparently this is an improvisation performance and people expect me to join, while I know of nothing. When I realize this is improvisation I am quite proud of the man in front who under the circumstances did his best, I think he prepared. I am not proud of not going out to the stage, but I completely ignore the order, because I feel uncomfortable. I don't want to do such a performance in public. I am very thick headed.
2. Brle and Meditation
There is a building I enter, a room, people are sitting in a circle, drinking tea, this is the kind of new age gathering for a talk or workshop, I know the place, then I see Brle, and this is his first time. When I pass him, his back to mine, because he is in a chair in the circle, then I pet his head and go with my hand through his hair in a very familiar gesture. Many other things happened before and after.
Friday, 3 January 2014
Parking an Airplane
1. Plane on the Road
End of a dream.
I had been up and down the road between Leuven and Herent already, now from Herent to Leuven, halfway after the Windgat, light, I am alone, whereas before I wasn't. I am driving a plane suddenly, while this is not even mine, but since I'm in it I'm the one responsible, so I move the thing, being in the cockpit. I am in the middle of the street, not in the right lane, and I maneuver a little to the left and should go more to the right, but in the end I am good when I'm in the centre of the street. Then I'm out of the way. And it is difficult to control the airplane, because it is so big, and I'm not entirely comfortable, because it is not mine and the situation is a bit weird. Once I'm more or less okay with the situation I'm expecting a girl, maybe because she announced she would be coming, but the dream does not last long enough for me to see her.
End of a dream.
I had been up and down the road between Leuven and Herent already, now from Herent to Leuven, halfway after the Windgat, light, I am alone, whereas before I wasn't. I am driving a plane suddenly, while this is not even mine, but since I'm in it I'm the one responsible, so I move the thing, being in the cockpit. I am in the middle of the street, not in the right lane, and I maneuver a little to the left and should go more to the right, but in the end I am good when I'm in the centre of the street. Then I'm out of the way. And it is difficult to control the airplane, because it is so big, and I'm not entirely comfortable, because it is not mine and the situation is a bit weird. Once I'm more or less okay with the situation I'm expecting a girl, maybe because she announced she would be coming, but the dream does not last long enough for me to see her.
Thursday, 2 January 2014
Theologian
1. Hage
Light, inside, much space, different levels, many people, merriment, maybe a public place, me in a corner. Hage is there.
Light, inside, much space, different levels, many people, merriment, maybe a public place, me in a corner. Hage is there.
Wednesday, 1 January 2014
Paper almost Finished
1. Reconciliation
Dream about Woli in the night and mostly alone, out on the streets.
2. Notebook
Inside, light, lots of space, I sit on the floor, many people about, merry atmosphere, maybe my father is there, maybe this is a distorted version of house of parents. I get a notebook pc as a present. It is much smaller than the one I have and am happy with it. I have usb sticks with me, and another laptop or tablet. Part of the dream later is outside, I am always comfortable. I end up later with a third machine and then it becomes difficult for me since I have to decide on which computer I will work. There is one main paper I am working on and it is almost finished, I have it certainly on a stick. Much of the dream was about this paper, it seemed very important, like a life's work. And I was content about it. Some interaction with others that I can't remember.
Dream about Woli in the night and mostly alone, out on the streets.
2. Notebook
Inside, light, lots of space, I sit on the floor, many people about, merry atmosphere, maybe my father is there, maybe this is a distorted version of house of parents. I get a notebook pc as a present. It is much smaller than the one I have and am happy with it. I have usb sticks with me, and another laptop or tablet. Part of the dream later is outside, I am always comfortable. I end up later with a third machine and then it becomes difficult for me since I have to decide on which computer I will work. There is one main paper I am working on and it is almost finished, I have it certainly on a stick. Much of the dream was about this paper, it seemed very important, like a life's work. And I was content about it. Some interaction with others that I can't remember.
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