1.
Outside, party with friends, other people there. Grass. there is a ditch with water on one side. Tables of wood. Fun.
More people come from the right. I see a girl that I'm interested in and try to focus to see if it is really her. I focus and it is her, but her appearance changes, she is now Clsm.
One person in her group is drunk and pursues her. I recognize him, have been to school with him, primary school. He is Mael.
I see he his troubling her and she does not like it one bit. She goes away from him, and goes to the water side. I already stand up and move toward the scene. I see she wants to jump into the water, it is a lake now, just to get away from him. I try to avoid that by colliding into the drunk man, a friend of long time ago. And bring him to senses. I see from the corner of my eye that Clsm stays where she is. So that's good.
Now I don't know what to do with Mael, but I try to stop him, bear hug him. In his drunken mood he thinks it is funny and starts to dance, very clumsily, and moves away in that way. I hang on to him and think this is better than the alternative.
He radiates the quality of being spirit possessed.
DREAM of Saturday 18 April
1.
Early dream. I meet Chwe. At some point I try to make a prolonged effort for her to touch me. Then we are near the toilets and I take her with me, she is somewhat reluctant. I still keep coming. In the toilet, she somewhat agrees, and we start to undress each other. At that point I know it will not be able to hold it and regret already that it will be over soon. I touch her body while uncovering her as much as I can but I come anyway and the dream ends.
2.
Morning dream.
There is a weekend camp, our taiji group is there as well, in the evening we have class, and Tivd is teaching. We train on one side of the square. The square is surrounded by tall buildings, skyscrapers. We are on the side that is closest to our rooms. Huge buildings anyway. Can't remember everything.
When we did the taiji it was already darkening and we moved with large stone slabs, which is unconventional and difficult. I am half sleeping and don't really pay attention. With all the stones of the floor underneath broken up and while we hug those stones it looks like a site of rocks that I once visited in Germany.
Then in the morning I wake early and go outside. Many people are up already, from other groups. The ligth is nice outside from early morning dawn. There are lots of birds in the air, in flocks, ever more, and chirping, and I like the sound. Listen to them and watch them. I think they are a good omen because birds signify the presence of spirits.
After a while the birds (spreeuwen) start to change as if unfolding, from the belly side they open and become bats or maybe flying squirrels. There are many. I wonder if we are in danger, this does not look good. They obviously symbolize some evil.
But they stay high in the air and I know they are harmless there. If they would come down it would be trouble, for all of us. No need. Here the dream is lucid and stays lucid.
To my right I see on the large building four unicorns, one on each corner of the roof. They look out from their, each in his direction. The one closest to us watches the bats.
Then at some point the flock of bats in the morning light start to merge and become one big bat or demon and they or it looks ominously, in the direction of the unicorn.
I see the unicorn point his horn toward the bat demon and then he shoots a beam of light from its horn, brilliant white light, and it hits and pierces the bat.
Down below I can't believe what I witness, and after the event I go inside and people are there. It looks like no one has actually seen what I saw. And exhilarated I shout "that is the dissipation of glamour" like it is the school example of what needs to be done, and it can be done. And people look and smile about what I say but I don't have the feeling they really understand. To me, this felt like a very big moment.
What I witnesses was the actual technique to dissipate glamour.
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Sunday, 19 April 2015
Wednesday, 15 January 2014
Technique of Nakedness
1. Nudity
(Wet dream)
I remember being in a house, lower part, many folk, I am on the right, I know many of them. I am dressed in white as are some others. Many are already here and doing what is asked of them when I arrive. I also know what I have to do, but I do it on my own, no one else is involved in it, though I suppose everybody has the same task or whatever, though slightly different according to personality.
I take off my clothes, all of them, so that I am naked. I am not ashamed, but this is part of the process, I seem to be more experienced than many others, because I am the only one undressing, but it makes the task at hand easier. Something with papers.
I do my thing. Then I stay naked. I see others follow my example, among which a young girl that I now fancy. Though these people have already performed there tasks, they were now merely waiting. Still they try the technique. Two people at least, among which this girl. I mentally support them, but I become conscious of my own nudity, though it feels very pure. I don't want to attract too much attention to my nudity so I put on a shirt, white. But remain naked from the waist down.
I then go sit behind the girl. She likes me I know. We are on a bench, of wood, light colour, though the room is dark, the kind of bench you have in a sauna, but this is not a sauna. Other people sit on the bench, but we close to each other. She has her back to me, but I approach, surely my cock becomes hard. I pull her toward me at the waist, my right hand on her right hip. She moves back to me, everything fits perfectly. I come. I try to hold back, but succeed only a little, so I spill seed.
+2. Phone Broken
Last dream. Again a low place, this is the shop, but looks different, and Ancl is at the till when I arrive, managing. She is a taiji person. Basement, spacious, but dark.
Niru is there. When I'm in trouble he helps me. I don't know if I have to help in the shop or am just visiting. I stay on the side. Niru is a customer. My problem is that my phone does not work. I have it with me, though I don't own a mobile. He hands over his so I can try ring my phone. But I am clumsy with mobiles, and I'm so much in the dark that I don't see anything. I don't trust myself, so I return his phone without success. More happened but it all turned out to be me getting frustrated.
Then I leave the shop. Up on the street to the left I see a woman undressing, her house is halfway below the street and I see her through the window. She has grey hair to the shoulders. She has a grey and red shirt that she tries to unbutton. Shall I help?
+3. Inro
Dream before that. In house of parents, dining room, which is a place of transition. I am there, possibly parents and brothers, but many other people too, of which I know most. I sit down at the side of the table where there is least people. Most stand up. I am working on something, this involves kneeding my hands as if in wet paper to make some kind of pastry, I can't remember correctly.
The room is a real passagethrough because it forms part of a big corridor of a building. At some point Inro comes from my right or left, from the corridor and walks fast and must be at work, she sees me and says hi, is joyful as she usually is these days. She just passes by briefly and noticed me is all, but when she passes and goes on with her own business she takes the road behind me and goes to my left away. When she passes I stretch out my hand and instinctively we hold hands for a while. This is a nice moment, though she is on my back and she is on her way out. So this is a fleeting moment. Yet she says as a remark that I have warm hands. And this is because I was doing this work with my hands. In fact I feared touching her because my hands were dirty because of the work, but she makes a positive remark. I say nothing but am happy.
(Wet dream)
I remember being in a house, lower part, many folk, I am on the right, I know many of them. I am dressed in white as are some others. Many are already here and doing what is asked of them when I arrive. I also know what I have to do, but I do it on my own, no one else is involved in it, though I suppose everybody has the same task or whatever, though slightly different according to personality.
I take off my clothes, all of them, so that I am naked. I am not ashamed, but this is part of the process, I seem to be more experienced than many others, because I am the only one undressing, but it makes the task at hand easier. Something with papers.
I do my thing. Then I stay naked. I see others follow my example, among which a young girl that I now fancy. Though these people have already performed there tasks, they were now merely waiting. Still they try the technique. Two people at least, among which this girl. I mentally support them, but I become conscious of my own nudity, though it feels very pure. I don't want to attract too much attention to my nudity so I put on a shirt, white. But remain naked from the waist down.
I then go sit behind the girl. She likes me I know. We are on a bench, of wood, light colour, though the room is dark, the kind of bench you have in a sauna, but this is not a sauna. Other people sit on the bench, but we close to each other. She has her back to me, but I approach, surely my cock becomes hard. I pull her toward me at the waist, my right hand on her right hip. She moves back to me, everything fits perfectly. I come. I try to hold back, but succeed only a little, so I spill seed.
+2. Phone Broken
Last dream. Again a low place, this is the shop, but looks different, and Ancl is at the till when I arrive, managing. She is a taiji person. Basement, spacious, but dark.
Niru is there. When I'm in trouble he helps me. I don't know if I have to help in the shop or am just visiting. I stay on the side. Niru is a customer. My problem is that my phone does not work. I have it with me, though I don't own a mobile. He hands over his so I can try ring my phone. But I am clumsy with mobiles, and I'm so much in the dark that I don't see anything. I don't trust myself, so I return his phone without success. More happened but it all turned out to be me getting frustrated.
Then I leave the shop. Up on the street to the left I see a woman undressing, her house is halfway below the street and I see her through the window. She has grey hair to the shoulders. She has a grey and red shirt that she tries to unbutton. Shall I help?
+3. Inro
Dream before that. In house of parents, dining room, which is a place of transition. I am there, possibly parents and brothers, but many other people too, of which I know most. I sit down at the side of the table where there is least people. Most stand up. I am working on something, this involves kneeding my hands as if in wet paper to make some kind of pastry, I can't remember correctly.
The room is a real passagethrough because it forms part of a big corridor of a building. At some point Inro comes from my right or left, from the corridor and walks fast and must be at work, she sees me and says hi, is joyful as she usually is these days. She just passes by briefly and noticed me is all, but when she passes and goes on with her own business she takes the road behind me and goes to my left away. When she passes I stretch out my hand and instinctively we hold hands for a while. This is a nice moment, though she is on my back and she is on her way out. So this is a fleeting moment. Yet she says as a remark that I have warm hands. And this is because I was doing this work with my hands. In fact I feared touching her because my hands were dirty because of the work, but she makes a positive remark. I say nothing but am happy.
Monday, 6 January 2014
Dating Game
1. Preparing for the London Conference
(Wet dream)
There was talk about me visiting London, for which I was preparing, the February conference.
At some point I lie on the floor and Bale too, and she has her back to me and I am close to her, and the atmosphere is erotic, and when I approach her it is what she wants, and I am ready to enter, though I am still not sure. From behind, but when I make ready it is the front and I know I am so roused that I will immediately come, so I think I might as well kiss her at the same time. And I seem to have multiple penises. I am clumsy and I come. This is a wet dream. I wake after this.
Maybe in the same dream.
Dining room of parents, and people are gathered there and there is some dating game going on, and when it starts I am still ignorant of what it is, then a girl in red to my left, she has a lady friend with her, young both, calls my name, so that means I have to answer questions she asks me, in public. And she asks me what my worst personality trait is, and the situation becomes such that I answer: my analytic thinking, and everyone laughs because it suits the situation, which I forgot now.
2. Private Discussion
I am in the living room of parents, visiting Dive, this is a rare moment, because I have not seen him since a long time. Also, this place is meant for just the two of us, no one else knows of it, and thus the place becomes like a place between places, so it feels. But my colleague List is also there and therefore I don't talk to Dive, List thinks this is weird, but I can't talk with Dive as long as she is in the room. This takes a long time, after a while a topic comes up that suits me and I start talking too. Other things happen.
(Wet dream)
There was talk about me visiting London, for which I was preparing, the February conference.
At some point I lie on the floor and Bale too, and she has her back to me and I am close to her, and the atmosphere is erotic, and when I approach her it is what she wants, and I am ready to enter, though I am still not sure. From behind, but when I make ready it is the front and I know I am so roused that I will immediately come, so I think I might as well kiss her at the same time. And I seem to have multiple penises. I am clumsy and I come. This is a wet dream. I wake after this.
Maybe in the same dream.
Dining room of parents, and people are gathered there and there is some dating game going on, and when it starts I am still ignorant of what it is, then a girl in red to my left, she has a lady friend with her, young both, calls my name, so that means I have to answer questions she asks me, in public. And she asks me what my worst personality trait is, and the situation becomes such that I answer: my analytic thinking, and everyone laughs because it suits the situation, which I forgot now.
2. Private Discussion
I am in the living room of parents, visiting Dive, this is a rare moment, because I have not seen him since a long time. Also, this place is meant for just the two of us, no one else knows of it, and thus the place becomes like a place between places, so it feels. But my colleague List is also there and therefore I don't talk to Dive, List thinks this is weird, but I can't talk with Dive as long as she is in the room. This takes a long time, after a while a topic comes up that suits me and I start talking too. Other things happen.
Monday, 30 December 2013
Scotland Beach
1. Guide Through the Morning University Building
There is a fragment of dream in which I wake up early in the morning, too early, and I have to get somewhere, and I go to the building which is part of the university, so this must be Leuven in the dream, though nothing is as in reality, but I know the streets in the dream, and I am in the city centre. I meet a lady, she works at the KULeuven, and she knows me from the shop, and she helps me, she helps me to get in and through the hallways inside. I don't want to be seen with her, but I let her.
When we get out the other side of the building, I don't want to be seen with her at all. This place is more busy, as if more public, there is also more light, but still early morning. There is a road right in front, and some large bridge across. And I see Toha who is there with a friend, and he is obviously drunk and has partied the whole night long, and he does not recognize me, but I'm okay with him being the one facing me, he's alright. This was towards the end of the dream.
2. White Handbag
Bale and I walk through a small market, there are lots of stalls, outside, walls, we enter it, almost dark. At a first glance most are about clothes and I'm not interested. At one particular stall Bale is thrown a lady's bag over her shoulder by the merchant and he tries to convince her she should buy it. I immediately think she should not, and she has no mind to either, but she is more gentle than me, though I haven't even spoken my mind. The bag (sacoche) is small and white, the leather is white. In fact it looks good, and the longer I look at it the more I think it suits her, but I won't admit it. She does not want it, and I try support or even force her, which is not necessary, because she is smart enough to not make someone let her buy something she does not need. She has a bag, and this one is big, and brown, but a big one is what she really needs. We did not come here to buy things anyway.
After we pass this we enter a building, this is an in between space, where a market could be set, but there is not. There are pillars holding up the roof. Merchants walk here. Traders. At a table to the right, long table, sit A&D and their son Ro, and they sit there as if waiting for something, in a non permanent way. I go to them. Ro has a white t-shirt, and if I remember correctly he is trying to make something out of it, and I go to him, though his mother does not really want it, but I take the t-shirt and a red marker which happens to be near and I start spelling his name in runes on the shirt. This looks good, Ro is impressed. And it seems harmless enough for the mother not to get worried, which means that initially Ro had other plans of creativity with the t-shirt.
Later I am in a room which looks like a sports hall for martial arts, not a very warm place, some people are about, and I lose contact with Bale, who must still be there. Most people are black skinned here, and most are girls. I don't really notice this at first, but I do when one of them starts to crawl on top of my when I lay down for some reason, and I'm starting to get an idea what this is. I had seen her just the moment before, and she is younger than me, possibly a student, and I know her from somewhere, possibly she's a customer in the shop. Now she comes from behind me, when I lie down, and she crawls on all fours over me, and I like it, there is some sexual tension, which I'm not sure she realizes is there, but when she is close enough, I let myself be drawn by it and reach out and kiss her lips and stick my tongue a little bit in her mouth, and she had apparently not expected that, but at the same time I can't hold back anymore and I come. This is a wet dream.
Possibly in the same dream there was some idea about writing an article about runes and language, Viking Runes, and this must have been in the area with Ro.
3. Brewing Beer and a Beach in Scotland
I'm at the old school where I went as a kid and even younger, so primary school and kindergarten.
If I remember correctly I came here on my bicycle from the other way than I used to in reality. Light, day. I go first to the part of the school which is for the youngest kids, and this is on one side of the road.
I am here because I quickly need to obtain some ginger, for cooking, and something else, which I have now forgotten.
At the back wall of the playground there are two doors with two shops and one of them is one of the sandwich bars where I sometimes go. Only, the left one is this sandwich bar, and the right one is something else.
I am thinking about how I will peel the ginger root, if only small, when I am home, I won't do it here or at my place, but at place of parents. I am taking it with me to their place.
I am too late.
Across the street, where the primary school is, when I leave the other part of the school, I see a lorry. The doors of the school are closed, and this is normal because it is holiday, though I don't remember them having such a heavy gate. The porter is there too. My intention was to go there to see if I could obtain there what I still lacked.
The lorry is in the middle of the way so that I can't pass easily, but I don't anyway, I watch what happens. The driver is unloading bottles of beer, and the porter has opened a small door within the large gate, and this is a little bit open, for the beer must be brought in. Already I know they have a cellar with beer in the school. The porter is the former director of the school where I did my secondary school.
I am happy they are busy, because of that the door is open and I can sneak in. One slight moment I am considering the fact that I may not get back out when I go in, but then I decide that this is something I should worry about later, not now. And this is a new trend in my personality too, but it causes me to make decisions more rapidly and efficient.
So I sneak in. Of course I'm not completely at ease. There is someone else on the inside, or maybe two other people, and one of them speaks about the beer cellar. Nothing of interest happens here, but the beer is important.
The scene changes, and now we are on the roof of the school and there is a big container there and the top is open, so you can easily see what it is and apparently they are home brewing beer. I'm not sure this is completely legal, but I don't say anything. They open some of the bottles that were just delivered, but that lot mixes with what they brew themselves, so I don't really see the link anymore, these were two different scenes.
Same dream still, but can't remember how it happened. Someone is making a leaflet for the holidays, there must be a connection with the school, but I'm not sure now, maybe it is a teacher organizing this. People can choose a holiday inland or at sea, but the beach is emphasized and that is all I see when the dream focuses on the location and the person doing the recon. All of it is in Scotland, but the beach is beautiful and this person is there and he is the only person there, which is beautiful, this is because it is holidays now. A little further you can see an island and this is almost completely beach, it is ideal. I would want to go there myself, and maybe I am making plans in my head when I see it.
Again something about a bottle of beer.
Possibly in a room, later, I shake a bottle and try to spray it to the others who are present, who they are I don't remember.
4. Grapefruit Treat
There is a class with small children, and they chant the runes. This is in or at a swimming pool. Can't remember the context or details.
There is food in the hallway, this is some kind of taiji camp, and Tivd is there.
Some of my favourite foods are here, this has been taken care of, especially for me, I don't understand why. When we walk the halls from where we were busy to where we will pause to eat, we pass a corner and there is on a table many pieces of grapefruit. I am happy and take a piece. Others do too, which means they are happy with it too, though this is done especially for me.
I have also bread in my hands. And on the plates there is food, which I can't remember now, but the chips is missing, only they will be bringing this too. All is perfect. I am stunned.
There is little room at the table.
Something about there still being work, and something about settling a bill of school teachers and the director, can't remember what this is about.
At my return at the table there is the grapefruit (so this was earlier).
Same dream possibly.
Outside, I join, again for eating. A long table beneath some sort of long booth, as if we all sit at a wall, the whole distance. And they are sectioned per pair. And you need to plug in something to make ready your dinner. And the plugs or sockets are on top, so you have to reach up. There are two right next to each other, and so for each booth, as it were. My dad sits on my right, someone else sits on my left. I try first, the others follow. Then things become difficult, because there are only two sockets and we are three. Many more people sit at the table, or wall, but for us there is only these two, and they both use it, so I am left out just when I want to use it to prepare my food for real, so I have to wait, nothing to do about it. There is soup in our bowls albeit not a lot. Cutlery I remember. This is all towards the end of the dream.
There is a fragment of dream in which I wake up early in the morning, too early, and I have to get somewhere, and I go to the building which is part of the university, so this must be Leuven in the dream, though nothing is as in reality, but I know the streets in the dream, and I am in the city centre. I meet a lady, she works at the KULeuven, and she knows me from the shop, and she helps me, she helps me to get in and through the hallways inside. I don't want to be seen with her, but I let her.
When we get out the other side of the building, I don't want to be seen with her at all. This place is more busy, as if more public, there is also more light, but still early morning. There is a road right in front, and some large bridge across. And I see Toha who is there with a friend, and he is obviously drunk and has partied the whole night long, and he does not recognize me, but I'm okay with him being the one facing me, he's alright. This was towards the end of the dream.
2. White Handbag
Bale and I walk through a small market, there are lots of stalls, outside, walls, we enter it, almost dark. At a first glance most are about clothes and I'm not interested. At one particular stall Bale is thrown a lady's bag over her shoulder by the merchant and he tries to convince her she should buy it. I immediately think she should not, and she has no mind to either, but she is more gentle than me, though I haven't even spoken my mind. The bag (sacoche) is small and white, the leather is white. In fact it looks good, and the longer I look at it the more I think it suits her, but I won't admit it. She does not want it, and I try support or even force her, which is not necessary, because she is smart enough to not make someone let her buy something she does not need. She has a bag, and this one is big, and brown, but a big one is what she really needs. We did not come here to buy things anyway.
After we pass this we enter a building, this is an in between space, where a market could be set, but there is not. There are pillars holding up the roof. Merchants walk here. Traders. At a table to the right, long table, sit A&D and their son Ro, and they sit there as if waiting for something, in a non permanent way. I go to them. Ro has a white t-shirt, and if I remember correctly he is trying to make something out of it, and I go to him, though his mother does not really want it, but I take the t-shirt and a red marker which happens to be near and I start spelling his name in runes on the shirt. This looks good, Ro is impressed. And it seems harmless enough for the mother not to get worried, which means that initially Ro had other plans of creativity with the t-shirt.
Later I am in a room which looks like a sports hall for martial arts, not a very warm place, some people are about, and I lose contact with Bale, who must still be there. Most people are black skinned here, and most are girls. I don't really notice this at first, but I do when one of them starts to crawl on top of my when I lay down for some reason, and I'm starting to get an idea what this is. I had seen her just the moment before, and she is younger than me, possibly a student, and I know her from somewhere, possibly she's a customer in the shop. Now she comes from behind me, when I lie down, and she crawls on all fours over me, and I like it, there is some sexual tension, which I'm not sure she realizes is there, but when she is close enough, I let myself be drawn by it and reach out and kiss her lips and stick my tongue a little bit in her mouth, and she had apparently not expected that, but at the same time I can't hold back anymore and I come. This is a wet dream.
Possibly in the same dream there was some idea about writing an article about runes and language, Viking Runes, and this must have been in the area with Ro.
3. Brewing Beer and a Beach in Scotland
I'm at the old school where I went as a kid and even younger, so primary school and kindergarten.
If I remember correctly I came here on my bicycle from the other way than I used to in reality. Light, day. I go first to the part of the school which is for the youngest kids, and this is on one side of the road.
I am here because I quickly need to obtain some ginger, for cooking, and something else, which I have now forgotten.
At the back wall of the playground there are two doors with two shops and one of them is one of the sandwich bars where I sometimes go. Only, the left one is this sandwich bar, and the right one is something else.
I am thinking about how I will peel the ginger root, if only small, when I am home, I won't do it here or at my place, but at place of parents. I am taking it with me to their place.
I am too late.
Across the street, where the primary school is, when I leave the other part of the school, I see a lorry. The doors of the school are closed, and this is normal because it is holiday, though I don't remember them having such a heavy gate. The porter is there too. My intention was to go there to see if I could obtain there what I still lacked.
The lorry is in the middle of the way so that I can't pass easily, but I don't anyway, I watch what happens. The driver is unloading bottles of beer, and the porter has opened a small door within the large gate, and this is a little bit open, for the beer must be brought in. Already I know they have a cellar with beer in the school. The porter is the former director of the school where I did my secondary school.
I am happy they are busy, because of that the door is open and I can sneak in. One slight moment I am considering the fact that I may not get back out when I go in, but then I decide that this is something I should worry about later, not now. And this is a new trend in my personality too, but it causes me to make decisions more rapidly and efficient.
So I sneak in. Of course I'm not completely at ease. There is someone else on the inside, or maybe two other people, and one of them speaks about the beer cellar. Nothing of interest happens here, but the beer is important.
The scene changes, and now we are on the roof of the school and there is a big container there and the top is open, so you can easily see what it is and apparently they are home brewing beer. I'm not sure this is completely legal, but I don't say anything. They open some of the bottles that were just delivered, but that lot mixes with what they brew themselves, so I don't really see the link anymore, these were two different scenes.
Same dream still, but can't remember how it happened. Someone is making a leaflet for the holidays, there must be a connection with the school, but I'm not sure now, maybe it is a teacher organizing this. People can choose a holiday inland or at sea, but the beach is emphasized and that is all I see when the dream focuses on the location and the person doing the recon. All of it is in Scotland, but the beach is beautiful and this person is there and he is the only person there, which is beautiful, this is because it is holidays now. A little further you can see an island and this is almost completely beach, it is ideal. I would want to go there myself, and maybe I am making plans in my head when I see it.
Again something about a bottle of beer.
Possibly in a room, later, I shake a bottle and try to spray it to the others who are present, who they are I don't remember.
4. Grapefruit Treat
There is a class with small children, and they chant the runes. This is in or at a swimming pool. Can't remember the context or details.
There is food in the hallway, this is some kind of taiji camp, and Tivd is there.
Some of my favourite foods are here, this has been taken care of, especially for me, I don't understand why. When we walk the halls from where we were busy to where we will pause to eat, we pass a corner and there is on a table many pieces of grapefruit. I am happy and take a piece. Others do too, which means they are happy with it too, though this is done especially for me.
I have also bread in my hands. And on the plates there is food, which I can't remember now, but the chips is missing, only they will be bringing this too. All is perfect. I am stunned.
There is little room at the table.
Something about there still being work, and something about settling a bill of school teachers and the director, can't remember what this is about.
At my return at the table there is the grapefruit (so this was earlier).
Same dream possibly.
Outside, I join, again for eating. A long table beneath some sort of long booth, as if we all sit at a wall, the whole distance. And they are sectioned per pair. And you need to plug in something to make ready your dinner. And the plugs or sockets are on top, so you have to reach up. There are two right next to each other, and so for each booth, as it were. My dad sits on my right, someone else sits on my left. I try first, the others follow. Then things become difficult, because there are only two sockets and we are three. Many more people sit at the table, or wall, but for us there is only these two, and they both use it, so I am left out just when I want to use it to prepare my food for real, so I have to wait, nothing to do about it. There is soup in our bowls albeit not a lot. Cutlery I remember. This is all towards the end of the dream.
Sunday, 27 October 2013
New York Cruise
1. Hurdle Race and Naked Rune Session
(wet dream)
In the garden of parents. Lots of people, young people. D&S are there, and their friends.
I arrive, they are doing some sort of sports or competition, in this case running a race on the field. This is improvisation, but they take it serious. There are long wooden poles, more like dark grey wooden planks, weathered, three of them, stick up in the lawn and mark the stations that need to be passed. Dark. These planks upright in the lawn are in random places.
There is one boy who starts running and has some trouble advancing, maybe to the point that he needs to crawl, but he goes forward. He presses on, makes an effort. But because of this he can only go forward, which is a problem when he needs to turn back. This is a friend of D. From the last hurdle, the boy runs backward.
There is another person who goes with the feet first, and thinks he'll be faster this way.
I am encouraged by all to also run, but I don't want to, then I do it anyway, family is also there, like aunt M and possibly aunt D and uncle B, and they watch me. I don't like that.
Only afterward I am given advice by all of them.
Then the second round or the next round starts, and all of these challenges are improvised. And they want to do a series of such sports, but I only arrived with this hurdle race. Now the next thing will be inside. Veranda. Tables, some kind of free game, I had already forgotten but I knew how it was played.
Then it is my turn, I don't know very well what to do or how, but I have something in my hands, which are things you need to play chess or checkers with. And then I change my mind to my original idea, which is to use the runes, because I know that best, and it is allowed. So I choose Uruz. People from Jeka, long ago, are here also and watch. My original plan is to go through each of the runes and couple a rune to each of the people, but I can't, because one rune is enough, otherwise it will take too much time. So I stick to Uruz.
Later I draw Pertho, too, with an Uruz rune in it, in the side branches.
And later, also, I sit across Elbe, and she is naked, and I am naked, light, sit on chairs or in the sofa, in front of each other, and some third person is nearby, but I can't care about that. And he is also naked. And my cock is stiff. And Elbe says: it lives, it is alive. And I answer: well, that is healthy. And we sit so close that my dick is actually resting on her left thigh, and at first I leave it, but when I become conscious of it, it is hard to not get sexually roused, and the dream ends wet. But in this rare case, I was able to withhold it (?).
2. Touch Naked Knee
(wet dream)
We're on a ship, and sailing, this is a big ship. Three (?) young girls, one on my lap, or better I sit on her lap, so she is behind me, but her knees are bare, and they are of course in front of me, so I touch them and see an opening there. She more or less cups my body, and I hold her knees.
She leans back and forth, I withhold. Arve and Loli are there, and other familiar faces.
Later inside. In the kitchen, this is the kitchen of parents, Elbe has cooked, and Rume is there also, and I am there, and what is served are scampi and mashed potato.
At some point I look at Elbe and she looks back, and there is some tension in the air of not being sure how to behave toward each other, because in the other dream we were so close and touched each other's body. And now it feels like we have a past, and that makes things rather uncomfortable, especially because Rume is there, who is her partner.
Also, looking for a book, and I am at the till. Something about house keeping. Can't read notes well.
3. New York Cruise
First. On the Bondgenotenlaan, I leave something and start going home, maybe leaving a party, lots of people in the streets, I walk toward the station, though that is not even where my house is, though near enough. And light like as by day. In the crowd, a girl my age addresses me. I don't recognize her immediately. She says she saw me the other day, and she keeps talking. She is going toward the station and I am going the same way. At the station it is really crowded with people. She sticks around so much that I almost feel obliged to ask her out, at least ask her name. This I do, but even to this she hesitates to answer, as if it is too much, and she can't do it, because it is not proper. But I expect she will so wait and she cannot but say her name, which is Ine. After that I leave her and she goes to the station, and I go home, the right way, which is indeed a bit back down the road of the Bondgenotenlaan.
At home strange things happen and house and apartment look different than in reality, more dreamlike. Different floors, more open, but arranged very different, much light, colours.
Then something with books.
Then, end of the dream, making ready for taking a cruise. This I organized and my friends and family will come along. We get on the boat, we are early, and yet already lots of people have gathered, all of them in groups, we stay in the hall, but some people go on to the next room, and others to the right where you can go outside, but we feel more safe in this middle room, which is the first you enter, we don't venture further. And I realize I am in my pajamas. But I don't really care and continue my business. I hope everyone I invited will come and things will turn out fine, because I organized this. Stco arrives. My brothers are here with me. There are lots of people I know, even in the other groups.
This boat will cruise to New York, but we will take the short route, which means that we will go back after we reach Britain, maybe London. The ship will do many stops, but most of them will be in the beginning, and we will take one of these stops.
The ship is very posh, everything utterly chic. We wait here as other people keep streaming in and in the meanwhile night sets, and some groups are already served food. And I am waiting for this too, while waiting for still more friends. I am considering going to one of the other rooms, just to see some progress and get some food, too, the apero and champagne which should be served.
I see others getting things. And most of these go outside or back outside, where there is the terrace on the ship, and that must be very romantic. This is what I am thinking.
Food will be served, and we sit in the corner. I'm not sure what to do, want to go outside. There are many possibilities, and they feel like opportunities.
(wet dream)
In the garden of parents. Lots of people, young people. D&S are there, and their friends.
I arrive, they are doing some sort of sports or competition, in this case running a race on the field. This is improvisation, but they take it serious. There are long wooden poles, more like dark grey wooden planks, weathered, three of them, stick up in the lawn and mark the stations that need to be passed. Dark. These planks upright in the lawn are in random places.
There is one boy who starts running and has some trouble advancing, maybe to the point that he needs to crawl, but he goes forward. He presses on, makes an effort. But because of this he can only go forward, which is a problem when he needs to turn back. This is a friend of D. From the last hurdle, the boy runs backward.
There is another person who goes with the feet first, and thinks he'll be faster this way.
I am encouraged by all to also run, but I don't want to, then I do it anyway, family is also there, like aunt M and possibly aunt D and uncle B, and they watch me. I don't like that.
Only afterward I am given advice by all of them.
Then the second round or the next round starts, and all of these challenges are improvised. And they want to do a series of such sports, but I only arrived with this hurdle race. Now the next thing will be inside. Veranda. Tables, some kind of free game, I had already forgotten but I knew how it was played.
Then it is my turn, I don't know very well what to do or how, but I have something in my hands, which are things you need to play chess or checkers with. And then I change my mind to my original idea, which is to use the runes, because I know that best, and it is allowed. So I choose Uruz. People from Jeka, long ago, are here also and watch. My original plan is to go through each of the runes and couple a rune to each of the people, but I can't, because one rune is enough, otherwise it will take too much time. So I stick to Uruz.
Later I draw Pertho, too, with an Uruz rune in it, in the side branches.
And later, also, I sit across Elbe, and she is naked, and I am naked, light, sit on chairs or in the sofa, in front of each other, and some third person is nearby, but I can't care about that. And he is also naked. And my cock is stiff. And Elbe says: it lives, it is alive. And I answer: well, that is healthy. And we sit so close that my dick is actually resting on her left thigh, and at first I leave it, but when I become conscious of it, it is hard to not get sexually roused, and the dream ends wet. But in this rare case, I was able to withhold it (?).
2. Touch Naked Knee
(wet dream)
We're on a ship, and sailing, this is a big ship. Three (?) young girls, one on my lap, or better I sit on her lap, so she is behind me, but her knees are bare, and they are of course in front of me, so I touch them and see an opening there. She more or less cups my body, and I hold her knees.
She leans back and forth, I withhold. Arve and Loli are there, and other familiar faces.
Later inside. In the kitchen, this is the kitchen of parents, Elbe has cooked, and Rume is there also, and I am there, and what is served are scampi and mashed potato.
At some point I look at Elbe and she looks back, and there is some tension in the air of not being sure how to behave toward each other, because in the other dream we were so close and touched each other's body. And now it feels like we have a past, and that makes things rather uncomfortable, especially because Rume is there, who is her partner.
Also, looking for a book, and I am at the till. Something about house keeping. Can't read notes well.
3. New York Cruise
First. On the Bondgenotenlaan, I leave something and start going home, maybe leaving a party, lots of people in the streets, I walk toward the station, though that is not even where my house is, though near enough. And light like as by day. In the crowd, a girl my age addresses me. I don't recognize her immediately. She says she saw me the other day, and she keeps talking. She is going toward the station and I am going the same way. At the station it is really crowded with people. She sticks around so much that I almost feel obliged to ask her out, at least ask her name. This I do, but even to this she hesitates to answer, as if it is too much, and she can't do it, because it is not proper. But I expect she will so wait and she cannot but say her name, which is Ine. After that I leave her and she goes to the station, and I go home, the right way, which is indeed a bit back down the road of the Bondgenotenlaan.
At home strange things happen and house and apartment look different than in reality, more dreamlike. Different floors, more open, but arranged very different, much light, colours.
Then something with books.
Then, end of the dream, making ready for taking a cruise. This I organized and my friends and family will come along. We get on the boat, we are early, and yet already lots of people have gathered, all of them in groups, we stay in the hall, but some people go on to the next room, and others to the right where you can go outside, but we feel more safe in this middle room, which is the first you enter, we don't venture further. And I realize I am in my pajamas. But I don't really care and continue my business. I hope everyone I invited will come and things will turn out fine, because I organized this. Stco arrives. My brothers are here with me. There are lots of people I know, even in the other groups.
This boat will cruise to New York, but we will take the short route, which means that we will go back after we reach Britain, maybe London. The ship will do many stops, but most of them will be in the beginning, and we will take one of these stops.
The ship is very posh, everything utterly chic. We wait here as other people keep streaming in and in the meanwhile night sets, and some groups are already served food. And I am waiting for this too, while waiting for still more friends. I am considering going to one of the other rooms, just to see some progress and get some food, too, the apero and champagne which should be served.
I see others getting things. And most of these go outside or back outside, where there is the terrace on the ship, and that must be very romantic. This is what I am thinking.
Food will be served, and we sit in the corner. I'm not sure what to do, want to go outside. There are many possibilities, and they feel like opportunities.
Monday, 14 October 2013
Kettricken
1. Wedding for Married Couples
(Wet Dream)
Location of a party, and afterward I run through the town streets on my own in a hurry, because there is just a lot to do. Light, and these are the back streets, though it may be night, streets mostly deserted, but not all the time, reminds me of Oudstrijdersstraat. I think some young kids follow me sometimes.
Now I am a guest in Herent somewhere, N is there, and there is a wedding and I am invited.
Ludr is there, she is a neighbour of parents. I come to this place because I am invited, but feel a stranger among the many people about, even if I know them, because some were neighbours once, and my own family is here, parents and brothers. Where I enter is behind the facade of a large building, like that of a school, then where I am now is like a playground, there is to the right (in the dream the front) a terrace with people waiting. To my left there are steps down to another playground with the shade of trees, and this is the actual entrance to the party and I am near it. N is still at the first level, but he can move freely and has been here long. I am not late, but many people are already here.
I do what I think I should which is entering, but before I am halted by Ludr, who stands near me and was approaching the gate, because there is a queue to go inside to the nether playground. And she addresses me asking me casually if my situation has changed: are you married? She means if I have married since last time I saw her, which would be possible, since it has been a very long time that I saw her, but no I am here alone, and she knows well enough that I am single. She explains or implies that only married people can go in. I'm confused. I am actually angry, upset with her. And I go on anyway, because I have a right. Hafr is also here.
I continue and mix with the people, I have to look out for my brother N, because he is chasing me, and I don't want that. Maybe the early part of the dream was much like that, and it only continues here. I run away from him.
Among other things I have to do the press (?), and there are four tasks I have to fulfill and I have to fulfill them everytime. That is what I am so busy with.
This party may be the wedding of Stco, who was also a neighbour once.
My mother is there, and she is angry at me, and I walk away from her. Can't remember well why she is angry. Because I run away I come in the hall where the children are left behind while the grown-ups do this party. This is to the right (front) of the second playground. Still light and sunny.
All the children look up, surprised, and remain distant. They even look scared, when they see me.
I know I can't stay here, so I go back and away, back up to the first playground, and try to remember my way how I came here, and I make a real effort to visualize the town and the streets, things are blue and vague as if I imagine things, but in the meanwhile I am outside, and I make a real effort to go along the streets up and to the left, but it takes me so much effort that I have to crawl, not really over ground, but rather hovering. I really want to get away, and do my best to follow a path I know leads somewhere.
At some point the dream becomes normal again, and I find a place to enter in a back alley, or a larger street, but the place is small, and cramped when I look in it, because people are there waiting. And it looks like a wellness centre, but I know the place.
I enter this place, because I see naked ladies, but I am not allowed, surely because this place has separate quarters for men and women. They are all waiting to be treated. I squirm my way in anyway, and because I don't want to entice the anger of those girls and women, I try to leave the place as soon as I can. I see a door to the left. All is white, they are browned, they have white towels, you enter this small cabin immediately through the front door, but I see to the left another door that leads inside and it stands a little ajar, and this is my only way to get away from the ladies and be polite, so I go there.
Now I enter the room where the men are treated. Nothing but naked men. This place is much bigger, and something is funny. Two people oversee this, and they are at the other wall, behind a counter, a man and a woman, she is the only woman here. I think I see a door far away in the left opposite corner which might be the regular entry for this room. All the men have towels too, but some are stark naked. All are treated, and there is a lot of water, like this is one big complex shower. Some are halfway in a bath, one sits in a shower like he is drunk. There is something slightly off here, and I suspect the woman who is in charge is the cause, as if to keep the men under her thumb. And so on. All of them seem to have lost will. This is not a good place for me to stay. The water is clear and flows abundantly, that is the only thing I like. But I continue to the right, behind where the ladies room was, to see if I can go on. They look very vulnerable.
When I continue to see what is behind, I see only more men and shake my head, I have to go back. Again effort, and this is a rather lucid decision that I make. And I look for the room with the ladies again, venture forth, find them, and cannot go further than the first girl I see, naked, back to me, towel around her waist. Yet I stand behind her and take her from behind and feel it coming but I can't hold it back, and let it got. This is a wet dream.
2. Future Article
Fragment in which I see or find the new edition of the Viking magazine that I write for, with the blue cover. Possibly in my home. Since this is the new one and I have not written an article yet, I am curious whether there would be an article by me in it. I want to look at it.
3. Loyalty Card
First part of the dream lost to me.
Then in the shop. Busy. Light. I know I have a sweater or fleece lying about, and the weather is cold, so I go and wear it. It lies behind me, but it is a different one than I remember, but I put it on, this one is a bit stiff and too warm in fact. It reminds me of my winter coat, but more lean. Yet then I also open a window, the shop does not have such a one in reality, but it is the same window as I have in my apartment. When I do that, this is on my right, I see also that one of the doors is open and I think that is a good idea. The door must have been open the whole time, this is the right door. And that might have been why I was cold, but the window I open for fresh air.
I'm back at the till, a few customers are there but I don't feel the pressure. A young woman first and I help her. An older woman after her, but she smiles, and I think I know her as a customer who is friendly and understands patience. Someone else behind them. The young woman hands me a book she wants to buy, she wants an invoice and the book made as a present, no problem. She goes to where she can pay with the card. Then she says something, about how it must be wrapped, or what must be entered as an accompanying phrase on the invoice or in the computer at least to register the present, somehow. The other customer is listening. I can't remember exactly, but she says something about God. And I am thinking, this I can't do, she must mean 'gods', but I realize that most people around will only be familiar with the one God, so I think hard. At first I shake my head and discuss things in a friendly way and joking about it, while I try typing things in the box on my screen where it should go, and then I find a better expression, and I ask her what she thinks about it: God offers this present. Something like that. Formulated like that it is less distant than what she said. And she agrees, but changes it again, but I can't remember. And I tell her in passing, that I'm sure God would not eat meat. Maybe the book is a cookbook, with meat recipes, I'm not sure, maybe it was just the way she expressed herself at first that associated god with eating meat in my mind, which cannot be correct. I change it again and it becomes a long phrase when I enter it. The other lady nods all the while, she understands and thinks I'm doing a good job, but I can't rightaway tell them that I can't associate with their concept of God anymore.
When they are gone, another customer comes. Before that, or in between then, I was working on my own, at the till, and had spread all the necessary papers in front of me on the counter, I can't remember what it all was, but I have to make some room when the customer comes, he has a pile of books. And has a wife with him. And then there is also Liha who comes up from the basement and brings me a book, though it is not clear what I should do with it. But I take it and try to check it out via the till, but it does not work, then I understand. This is something only I can solve. The book misses the cover, or is bound wrongly from back to cover. The title is very clear: Kettricken. The whole book is about her. I take a look, interested and intruigued, but wonder what can be in it that won't be in the other books. When I try to scan it, it does not work, the price is wrong. When I type in the ean code, it does not work, it says on the computer the book is sold out, like this: U U. And the ean code is also split in sections of numbers, too old to be still updated. So I will have to use another method and will look for it. That is when the customer comes, and I put the book and thought aside. And take their books.
I ask him whether he wants a loyalty card. And he says yes, and I understand he is from Holland. Tall man, slightly bearded, brown hair. I had scanned the card, and then the books, but before he pays, lots of things are on the counter, among which his own leather purse (etui), he hands me another card, and I scan it but then I realize something and recognize this is a 10 percent card, I can't give him that. And I try to void the transaction, but then the computer does something weird, as if the programs are updated and I am not informed yet, a new window pops up and suggests what I can do with the transaction and the discount given, and I try to follow its directions, but it complicates things, and I have to void the whole thing anyway. I tell the man sorry, and take the books out of the plastic bag again and tell him I have to scan things again, he is okay. I do it, but the computer remembered the discount given and things go wrong again. This all takes a lot of time and now the customer is a bit unnerved. I stay very calm and tell him I will have to do it a third time. Now I will do it my way, properly and clean.
In the meanwhile, another colleague comes when I was busy with the books and doing something with them, so it appeared that the till was free and this colleague comes and stands at my till and I tell her to go to the other one, because I'd like to finish things here, though it could as well have been at the other till. But she listens and moves. She brought a customer with me, which tells me she had just helped this customer and now will settle the bill with her. The funny thing is that I don't know this colleague, and I realize this in the dream. She is middle age, woman, a little shorter than me, blond hair, short, smiling, friendly, easy with the computer. She reminds me of different people.
When I check the books of the Dutch customer a third time that is when the dream ends.
(Wet Dream)
Location of a party, and afterward I run through the town streets on my own in a hurry, because there is just a lot to do. Light, and these are the back streets, though it may be night, streets mostly deserted, but not all the time, reminds me of Oudstrijdersstraat. I think some young kids follow me sometimes.
Now I am a guest in Herent somewhere, N is there, and there is a wedding and I am invited.
Ludr is there, she is a neighbour of parents. I come to this place because I am invited, but feel a stranger among the many people about, even if I know them, because some were neighbours once, and my own family is here, parents and brothers. Where I enter is behind the facade of a large building, like that of a school, then where I am now is like a playground, there is to the right (in the dream the front) a terrace with people waiting. To my left there are steps down to another playground with the shade of trees, and this is the actual entrance to the party and I am near it. N is still at the first level, but he can move freely and has been here long. I am not late, but many people are already here.
I do what I think I should which is entering, but before I am halted by Ludr, who stands near me and was approaching the gate, because there is a queue to go inside to the nether playground. And she addresses me asking me casually if my situation has changed: are you married? She means if I have married since last time I saw her, which would be possible, since it has been a very long time that I saw her, but no I am here alone, and she knows well enough that I am single. She explains or implies that only married people can go in. I'm confused. I am actually angry, upset with her. And I go on anyway, because I have a right. Hafr is also here.
I continue and mix with the people, I have to look out for my brother N, because he is chasing me, and I don't want that. Maybe the early part of the dream was much like that, and it only continues here. I run away from him.
Among other things I have to do the press (?), and there are four tasks I have to fulfill and I have to fulfill them everytime. That is what I am so busy with.
This party may be the wedding of Stco, who was also a neighbour once.
My mother is there, and she is angry at me, and I walk away from her. Can't remember well why she is angry. Because I run away I come in the hall where the children are left behind while the grown-ups do this party. This is to the right (front) of the second playground. Still light and sunny.
All the children look up, surprised, and remain distant. They even look scared, when they see me.
I know I can't stay here, so I go back and away, back up to the first playground, and try to remember my way how I came here, and I make a real effort to visualize the town and the streets, things are blue and vague as if I imagine things, but in the meanwhile I am outside, and I make a real effort to go along the streets up and to the left, but it takes me so much effort that I have to crawl, not really over ground, but rather hovering. I really want to get away, and do my best to follow a path I know leads somewhere.
At some point the dream becomes normal again, and I find a place to enter in a back alley, or a larger street, but the place is small, and cramped when I look in it, because people are there waiting. And it looks like a wellness centre, but I know the place.
I enter this place, because I see naked ladies, but I am not allowed, surely because this place has separate quarters for men and women. They are all waiting to be treated. I squirm my way in anyway, and because I don't want to entice the anger of those girls and women, I try to leave the place as soon as I can. I see a door to the left. All is white, they are browned, they have white towels, you enter this small cabin immediately through the front door, but I see to the left another door that leads inside and it stands a little ajar, and this is my only way to get away from the ladies and be polite, so I go there.
Now I enter the room where the men are treated. Nothing but naked men. This place is much bigger, and something is funny. Two people oversee this, and they are at the other wall, behind a counter, a man and a woman, she is the only woman here. I think I see a door far away in the left opposite corner which might be the regular entry for this room. All the men have towels too, but some are stark naked. All are treated, and there is a lot of water, like this is one big complex shower. Some are halfway in a bath, one sits in a shower like he is drunk. There is something slightly off here, and I suspect the woman who is in charge is the cause, as if to keep the men under her thumb. And so on. All of them seem to have lost will. This is not a good place for me to stay. The water is clear and flows abundantly, that is the only thing I like. But I continue to the right, behind where the ladies room was, to see if I can go on. They look very vulnerable.
When I continue to see what is behind, I see only more men and shake my head, I have to go back. Again effort, and this is a rather lucid decision that I make. And I look for the room with the ladies again, venture forth, find them, and cannot go further than the first girl I see, naked, back to me, towel around her waist. Yet I stand behind her and take her from behind and feel it coming but I can't hold it back, and let it got. This is a wet dream.
2. Future Article
Fragment in which I see or find the new edition of the Viking magazine that I write for, with the blue cover. Possibly in my home. Since this is the new one and I have not written an article yet, I am curious whether there would be an article by me in it. I want to look at it.
3. Loyalty Card
First part of the dream lost to me.
Then in the shop. Busy. Light. I know I have a sweater or fleece lying about, and the weather is cold, so I go and wear it. It lies behind me, but it is a different one than I remember, but I put it on, this one is a bit stiff and too warm in fact. It reminds me of my winter coat, but more lean. Yet then I also open a window, the shop does not have such a one in reality, but it is the same window as I have in my apartment. When I do that, this is on my right, I see also that one of the doors is open and I think that is a good idea. The door must have been open the whole time, this is the right door. And that might have been why I was cold, but the window I open for fresh air.
I'm back at the till, a few customers are there but I don't feel the pressure. A young woman first and I help her. An older woman after her, but she smiles, and I think I know her as a customer who is friendly and understands patience. Someone else behind them. The young woman hands me a book she wants to buy, she wants an invoice and the book made as a present, no problem. She goes to where she can pay with the card. Then she says something, about how it must be wrapped, or what must be entered as an accompanying phrase on the invoice or in the computer at least to register the present, somehow. The other customer is listening. I can't remember exactly, but she says something about God. And I am thinking, this I can't do, she must mean 'gods', but I realize that most people around will only be familiar with the one God, so I think hard. At first I shake my head and discuss things in a friendly way and joking about it, while I try typing things in the box on my screen where it should go, and then I find a better expression, and I ask her what she thinks about it: God offers this present. Something like that. Formulated like that it is less distant than what she said. And she agrees, but changes it again, but I can't remember. And I tell her in passing, that I'm sure God would not eat meat. Maybe the book is a cookbook, with meat recipes, I'm not sure, maybe it was just the way she expressed herself at first that associated god with eating meat in my mind, which cannot be correct. I change it again and it becomes a long phrase when I enter it. The other lady nods all the while, she understands and thinks I'm doing a good job, but I can't rightaway tell them that I can't associate with their concept of God anymore.
When they are gone, another customer comes. Before that, or in between then, I was working on my own, at the till, and had spread all the necessary papers in front of me on the counter, I can't remember what it all was, but I have to make some room when the customer comes, he has a pile of books. And has a wife with him. And then there is also Liha who comes up from the basement and brings me a book, though it is not clear what I should do with it. But I take it and try to check it out via the till, but it does not work, then I understand. This is something only I can solve. The book misses the cover, or is bound wrongly from back to cover. The title is very clear: Kettricken. The whole book is about her. I take a look, interested and intruigued, but wonder what can be in it that won't be in the other books. When I try to scan it, it does not work, the price is wrong. When I type in the ean code, it does not work, it says on the computer the book is sold out, like this: U U. And the ean code is also split in sections of numbers, too old to be still updated. So I will have to use another method and will look for it. That is when the customer comes, and I put the book and thought aside. And take their books.
I ask him whether he wants a loyalty card. And he says yes, and I understand he is from Holland. Tall man, slightly bearded, brown hair. I had scanned the card, and then the books, but before he pays, lots of things are on the counter, among which his own leather purse (etui), he hands me another card, and I scan it but then I realize something and recognize this is a 10 percent card, I can't give him that. And I try to void the transaction, but then the computer does something weird, as if the programs are updated and I am not informed yet, a new window pops up and suggests what I can do with the transaction and the discount given, and I try to follow its directions, but it complicates things, and I have to void the whole thing anyway. I tell the man sorry, and take the books out of the plastic bag again and tell him I have to scan things again, he is okay. I do it, but the computer remembered the discount given and things go wrong again. This all takes a lot of time and now the customer is a bit unnerved. I stay very calm and tell him I will have to do it a third time. Now I will do it my way, properly and clean.
In the meanwhile, another colleague comes when I was busy with the books and doing something with them, so it appeared that the till was free and this colleague comes and stands at my till and I tell her to go to the other one, because I'd like to finish things here, though it could as well have been at the other till. But she listens and moves. She brought a customer with me, which tells me she had just helped this customer and now will settle the bill with her. The funny thing is that I don't know this colleague, and I realize this in the dream. She is middle age, woman, a little shorter than me, blond hair, short, smiling, friendly, easy with the computer. She reminds me of different people.
When I check the books of the Dutch customer a third time that is when the dream ends.
Tuesday, 8 October 2013
Chninkel
1. Wet Dream
I remember having a wet dream, felt it coming, had not enough vitality to keep it back, so it was long and soft, which is okay. The dream itself I don't remember, but there was light and the colours were of a good quality. Yellow things and blue things.
2. Old Comic Book
Daddy gives comic books to us, to me in particular but it is meant of my brothers and me. I am in charge. But I see from afar that nothing remarkable is among the comics. I don't really want to take it.
After a while, one stands out, because there must be at least one, and this is one I know already, but have read only once and some years ago already, about the Chninkel. I don't think it is a very good one, but better this than nothing. There are others, such as Jommeke, and a list of RPG things, but nothing with a story (?). Kitchen.
I also have to take care of dinner, but there is nothing in the house, nothing in stock. N will go out. So I stay behind alone.
I remember having a wet dream, felt it coming, had not enough vitality to keep it back, so it was long and soft, which is okay. The dream itself I don't remember, but there was light and the colours were of a good quality. Yellow things and blue things.
2. Old Comic Book
Daddy gives comic books to us, to me in particular but it is meant of my brothers and me. I am in charge. But I see from afar that nothing remarkable is among the comics. I don't really want to take it.
After a while, one stands out, because there must be at least one, and this is one I know already, but have read only once and some years ago already, about the Chninkel. I don't think it is a very good one, but better this than nothing. There are others, such as Jommeke, and a list of RPG things, but nothing with a story (?). Kitchen.
I also have to take care of dinner, but there is nothing in the house, nothing in stock. N will go out. So I stay behind alone.
Thursday, 3 October 2013
Juniper Massage
1. Key
Paying books, takes a long time, waiting till all has arrived.
Something about a swop. All books are set against only one. I hold that one as important as all the rest together, I can't part of that one book, and all the others are not important. Tama is there. Calculations between the many books and the one don't agree. Doesn't work out. Dark.
So, one other book. Laughing. Paying then.
And my personal quest is outside, through a village and its country side.
There is a key which is hidden. This key has been handed down from generation to generation in this area. I am now locating it, hope to find it.
I walk. There is a slope, grass, a bent in the road, wide. Colourful and light.
2. Tickets for a Massage
Street in a city, there is a new shop, I enter. Something about a massage. The street reminds me of the shopping street and pedestrian area of Diestsestraat. Sunny day and I see this place, door in the middle, windows on left and right, with dark leather seats, a woman to each, and white towels. Clearly this is a kind of wellness centre. I know about the place but I have not been here before. Now I go in.
In fact, I have coupons that I hope to use here, which is why I try my luck. When I enter I am happy not many other people are around. I got two vouchers with me, and two others that come along with it, both orange coloured, but the second set is darker. Small, like stamps, but rectangular. Each coupon is good for a fifteen minute massage. I am looking forward to an hour then.
I wait inside, not to deep in the shop yet. Bale is also there. And Frre, because she knows about the coupons and so on.
At last it is my turn. I have been standing idly the whole time and have seen only the two ladies that work here, and my own friends. But now the employees make clear that they don't have much time and that I also cannot use the second set of coupons, but that means I can still enjoy half an hour. This they cannot refuse. They shook their head first.
I am ready to be handled. I have not only the coupons with me in my hand, but have also a rather big and clumsy office folder with me, such as I use for press documents or Frre has for all kinds of papers. There must be a link with press. I have these with me for a reason, but once the massage starts it makes no sense and I don't have it with me anymore.
Since both ladies are free, it is not clear who will tend to me. The lady who was in the right window when I entered is my favourite, though they are both beautiful. In the meanwhile I have seen deeper in the shop, there are also two men working here, further in the back to the right. And a lady boss, who happens to be dressed as a pirate (this is already late in the dream). Those two men do some special treatment there with a very large water bed kind of thing which I don't see but the info that it is there is communicated to me. I don't go there, I don't want to.
So, eventually I am the one making the choice, and I go for the one I fancy and she is okay with it, and I go sit in her seat, which is still the same and in the same corner at the window. The girl has difficulties starting with me. She asks her colleague for advice a few times. One of the things she wants is Juniper, which might be some kind of oil that she'll be using. There was another kind too, but I can't remember. Anyway, the colleague advises against juniper, but this girl insists. Someone else who came with me to the shop also says no to the use of juniper, because it sticks (?).
Then the girl joins me in the seat and there is less room, and our legs become strangled, and a minute later another girl too sits in front of me, so I share the seat with two beautiful women. And to hold on and sit comfortably, I have to touch the knee of this girl I fancy, which is rather sexy.
The other girl starts saying thing and she sounds like an oracle. It was actually meaningful to me, but I can't remember what she said, only that she talked a lot and repeated herself, and the other girl listened. She oracled something like "messy", meaning that I'm not tidy, it was meaningful in the dream and I think I could actually relate it to real life.
The girl I fancy has her legs bare, and in fact I'm not wearing pants at this point. I slide my hand underneath her leg first, and stay close to my own body, but even that is stimulating, so I decide to put my hand on her knee, which is so soft and smooth and exciting that it almost turns into a wet dream, and I must class it as such, even though I barely spilled, because I could interrupt it. Of course that is where it ends.
3. Running Nose
Fragments.
Wory was there and I said to him: why don't you write a book? This was at a table, he on my left, Keva on my right opposite me. And I did not want Wory in my neighbourhood, so I said something like that to have him back off, but of course he already wrote a book.
Other fragment. I watch myself in the mirror and my nose is running, this is in the bathroom where I live, and I have a cloth to tend myself, but I tend to my lips, my mouth and lips are really big.
Paying books, takes a long time, waiting till all has arrived.
Something about a swop. All books are set against only one. I hold that one as important as all the rest together, I can't part of that one book, and all the others are not important. Tama is there. Calculations between the many books and the one don't agree. Doesn't work out. Dark.
So, one other book. Laughing. Paying then.
And my personal quest is outside, through a village and its country side.
There is a key which is hidden. This key has been handed down from generation to generation in this area. I am now locating it, hope to find it.
I walk. There is a slope, grass, a bent in the road, wide. Colourful and light.
2. Tickets for a Massage
Street in a city, there is a new shop, I enter. Something about a massage. The street reminds me of the shopping street and pedestrian area of Diestsestraat. Sunny day and I see this place, door in the middle, windows on left and right, with dark leather seats, a woman to each, and white towels. Clearly this is a kind of wellness centre. I know about the place but I have not been here before. Now I go in.
In fact, I have coupons that I hope to use here, which is why I try my luck. When I enter I am happy not many other people are around. I got two vouchers with me, and two others that come along with it, both orange coloured, but the second set is darker. Small, like stamps, but rectangular. Each coupon is good for a fifteen minute massage. I am looking forward to an hour then.
I wait inside, not to deep in the shop yet. Bale is also there. And Frre, because she knows about the coupons and so on.
At last it is my turn. I have been standing idly the whole time and have seen only the two ladies that work here, and my own friends. But now the employees make clear that they don't have much time and that I also cannot use the second set of coupons, but that means I can still enjoy half an hour. This they cannot refuse. They shook their head first.
I am ready to be handled. I have not only the coupons with me in my hand, but have also a rather big and clumsy office folder with me, such as I use for press documents or Frre has for all kinds of papers. There must be a link with press. I have these with me for a reason, but once the massage starts it makes no sense and I don't have it with me anymore.
Since both ladies are free, it is not clear who will tend to me. The lady who was in the right window when I entered is my favourite, though they are both beautiful. In the meanwhile I have seen deeper in the shop, there are also two men working here, further in the back to the right. And a lady boss, who happens to be dressed as a pirate (this is already late in the dream). Those two men do some special treatment there with a very large water bed kind of thing which I don't see but the info that it is there is communicated to me. I don't go there, I don't want to.
So, eventually I am the one making the choice, and I go for the one I fancy and she is okay with it, and I go sit in her seat, which is still the same and in the same corner at the window. The girl has difficulties starting with me. She asks her colleague for advice a few times. One of the things she wants is Juniper, which might be some kind of oil that she'll be using. There was another kind too, but I can't remember. Anyway, the colleague advises against juniper, but this girl insists. Someone else who came with me to the shop also says no to the use of juniper, because it sticks (?).
Then the girl joins me in the seat and there is less room, and our legs become strangled, and a minute later another girl too sits in front of me, so I share the seat with two beautiful women. And to hold on and sit comfortably, I have to touch the knee of this girl I fancy, which is rather sexy.
The other girl starts saying thing and she sounds like an oracle. It was actually meaningful to me, but I can't remember what she said, only that she talked a lot and repeated herself, and the other girl listened. She oracled something like "messy", meaning that I'm not tidy, it was meaningful in the dream and I think I could actually relate it to real life.
The girl I fancy has her legs bare, and in fact I'm not wearing pants at this point. I slide my hand underneath her leg first, and stay close to my own body, but even that is stimulating, so I decide to put my hand on her knee, which is so soft and smooth and exciting that it almost turns into a wet dream, and I must class it as such, even though I barely spilled, because I could interrupt it. Of course that is where it ends.
3. Running Nose
Fragments.
Wory was there and I said to him: why don't you write a book? This was at a table, he on my left, Keva on my right opposite me. And I did not want Wory in my neighbourhood, so I said something like that to have him back off, but of course he already wrote a book.
Other fragment. I watch myself in the mirror and my nose is running, this is in the bathroom where I live, and I have a cloth to tend myself, but I tend to my lips, my mouth and lips are really big.
Thursday, 26 September 2013
Returning from France
1. Touched by Fire
(Wet dream).
Very thrilling dream about fire. At some point, maybe in the kitchen of parents, I am there with a lady, possibly Chwe, and I am cautioned by someone, maybe N, not too touch her with fire yet, but I do it anyway, far too early, but she reacts, and this causes the dream to be wet. When I touch her with the fire in my fingers, all is set aflame. No, it was Digr telling me. He says that I can do it, so he incites me, but I know it myself too. This time, I did not need any guiding.
People in the dream are organized in two groups, and I think the dream had some end of the world feel to it.
N and D are here.
At the end of the dream I sit down at a table, normal length, but narrow, I suppose the others will sit down too in a minute.
2. Number 33
Something about the number 33. People are watching something something stuffed toy animals. People look on. Full moon. Helping (I do?) one 'rosol' (?) (can't read it properly).
3. A Hostel in France
Fragment of being in a shop. There is a boy there, he has to go to Herent, so I give him directions. I something something who is awake.
Maybe related to the fragment, I walk the streets in the neighbourhood of where we are staying, and I see Rale, the younger brother of Bale, and I see him from behind and I think it is better to leave him. Then he meets a woman. He never looks in my direction, the streets are empty, it is night.
We are somewhere outside, going somewhere. We stop because we want to take a break. I am underway with my colleagues, in particular Digr and List I remember. We are traveling in France. I see both colleagues more definitely a second time when they come from somewhere, but still the same scene.
We are on our way home, I something something (can't read notes), home something. I enter, Digr says or asks whether there isn't something I want to eat first? But I want nothing to do with him, yet I go with him. This is outside in some village we stopped for the night. There is a small square of the road with benches which is quite and leads to the hostel, but I remain outside, while my colleagues go in and take care of their rooms. I don't want to. I sit on a bench. But then when I went with them a little because Digr asked, and I return I see that new people have arrived and sit on the bench that I occupied, because it is the first one, and I can't sit there anymore, but that is okay because I see other benches and I take another closer to me now.
This other group stays outside too. They are three women with blond hair, and their children. One (child or woman?) wants to do something with me, maybe share food, and (can't read notes), so we sit together at one table. I stay behind with them when Digr and List go on an expedition.
Rains. Inside, restaurant. This is later. First outside, on a field of grass. There are zombies too, and this place is related to the little cosy square of before. Now it is night and dark. Pesl is here, but on the side of the zombies. There are many and people take up their weapons. I ask someone for a sword, but they have no more, so he gives me a club with spikes, but it is a toy one like we have at home. Better than nothing I think and I accept.
The zombies try to get the dead body to their camp, so someone must have fallen or died recently that people know of (I can't remember). Sword fighting. Naturally, these zombies don't die. We hit them often. I count, like we did at Live Acting Role Play, but when I reach ten I start to think that there is no end to it. Then I reach 20 and still they stand. And I only count my own hits, of course, after 10 hits I switch to another zombie, because it becomes too dangerous to stay with one, though we surround one with three. But I am thinking that they don't go down because I keep switching between them, but even when I reach 20 they still stand.
4. Orange Crystal Room
Inside, a shop, dark. At first this is a Delhaize, one I know, I am still traveling and just arrived here, but people are closing up, and I wanted to buy stuff. I had a whole list in my head, but the more I look around the less there is and the more I see the employees cover things up. And I ask them whether I can still buy something, because obviously, they want to go and I have no time left, but they say yes, go ahead, but then they also explain I can use the till myself when they are gone. I'm not sure about this, but am happy enough to be able to buy things, yet by that time I have forgotten what I needed. Maybe Anpi is there or she comes later.
All the employees are women and after a short while they leave the shop. When they are closed I am still here, and then other people arrive, and I explain. But when someone wants to buy something, then I go to the till and touch the screen, because it is with a touch screen, and the screen is horizontal, but it does not make sense to me and I always am wrong, so it does not work. After that I look for a manual, because there is bound to be one, but the dream gives me no time or opportunity.
Then this place because the secret place to gather for a conference of occult talks. Fras is here, and maybe Dapa, and some Jews too. There will certainly be a talk about necromancy. Speakers are already preparing in the adjacent rooms.
When all is ready people are guided to their speakers, and I realize the program is so full that you have to choose between three speakers. Everyone else is prepared, I see the program on a sheet of paper. I follow Fras, or go my own way but end up in the same room as her. I go through the first room, which is big, much bigger than the shop, then go to the second and stay there. As big. The whole room is darkened, but soft light is spread by the crystals, orange to red, placed about the room, this is wonderful. So many stones together I had not seen yet. Stones are arranged in different places, but always in groups, and one group contains many stones. And they all shine. The man who is going to do something is at the other end, and I see Fras there, but I stay where I am, the man is assisted by a woman.
5. Try to Watch a DVD
One of the last dreams. I'm home, though it looks very different and feels very different than reality. White, light, small. I just watched a film, cartoon, and when I finished I see that loads of dvd's are packed behind me. All the same ones, packages, but they contain part two and three of what I just watched, something with a penguin on the cover. These dvd's are from work, which is why they are here. But when I look carefully, I see that some packages are open, and I might take the dvd and watch it, which is what I plan to do.
When I want to do that, the scene changes and we are in a different living room, with my brothers and the children of the street, neighbours, and about to watch a dvd. My brothers are in charge.
There is a computer and I want to access it, not waiting for my brothers, because I want to do something too. But there is a code, and it seems this is the account of Beha and I don't know his password, although the first letter is given, which is 'a', and I remember what it should be, so I enter it, but another screen with password is given then. This is more difficult because it refers to characters from children's series, but they are written in the way children pronounce them, not the right spelling, and I can't read it, but behind me I hear the others read each of the names out loud together. At that point I am at another computer in the same room but a little further on the left.
6. Back Problems
There was also someone with a back problem who sat in a chair. Maybe Joja cared for him, I sat opposite them at the table, and more people were at the table, light. The helper explained, that his lower vertebrae were rusted, and that when he sat in a couch, he would look very strange, because he can't sit upwards. Now, only on a hard chair he can sit, because of the very straight position.
7. Veranda Get Together with Neighbours
Last dream. Home of parents, day, light, I go to the veranda, there are many of us gathered already, all the neighbours, of our age. They sit at a table, round one, in the middle of the veranda. I go there from the living room and sit on one side. Later Stco arrives too, and he has a young child with him, holding him against his chest. Now I can't remember what happened, but Stco was laughed at for some reason and I did not laugh, and Stco stayed serious.
(Wet dream).
Very thrilling dream about fire. At some point, maybe in the kitchen of parents, I am there with a lady, possibly Chwe, and I am cautioned by someone, maybe N, not too touch her with fire yet, but I do it anyway, far too early, but she reacts, and this causes the dream to be wet. When I touch her with the fire in my fingers, all is set aflame. No, it was Digr telling me. He says that I can do it, so he incites me, but I know it myself too. This time, I did not need any guiding.
People in the dream are organized in two groups, and I think the dream had some end of the world feel to it.
N and D are here.
At the end of the dream I sit down at a table, normal length, but narrow, I suppose the others will sit down too in a minute.
2. Number 33
Something about the number 33. People are watching something something stuffed toy animals. People look on. Full moon. Helping (I do?) one 'rosol' (?) (can't read it properly).
3. A Hostel in France
Fragment of being in a shop. There is a boy there, he has to go to Herent, so I give him directions. I something something who is awake.
Maybe related to the fragment, I walk the streets in the neighbourhood of where we are staying, and I see Rale, the younger brother of Bale, and I see him from behind and I think it is better to leave him. Then he meets a woman. He never looks in my direction, the streets are empty, it is night.
We are somewhere outside, going somewhere. We stop because we want to take a break. I am underway with my colleagues, in particular Digr and List I remember. We are traveling in France. I see both colleagues more definitely a second time when they come from somewhere, but still the same scene.
We are on our way home, I something something (can't read notes), home something. I enter, Digr says or asks whether there isn't something I want to eat first? But I want nothing to do with him, yet I go with him. This is outside in some village we stopped for the night. There is a small square of the road with benches which is quite and leads to the hostel, but I remain outside, while my colleagues go in and take care of their rooms. I don't want to. I sit on a bench. But then when I went with them a little because Digr asked, and I return I see that new people have arrived and sit on the bench that I occupied, because it is the first one, and I can't sit there anymore, but that is okay because I see other benches and I take another closer to me now.
This other group stays outside too. They are three women with blond hair, and their children. One (child or woman?) wants to do something with me, maybe share food, and (can't read notes), so we sit together at one table. I stay behind with them when Digr and List go on an expedition.
Rains. Inside, restaurant. This is later. First outside, on a field of grass. There are zombies too, and this place is related to the little cosy square of before. Now it is night and dark. Pesl is here, but on the side of the zombies. There are many and people take up their weapons. I ask someone for a sword, but they have no more, so he gives me a club with spikes, but it is a toy one like we have at home. Better than nothing I think and I accept.
The zombies try to get the dead body to their camp, so someone must have fallen or died recently that people know of (I can't remember). Sword fighting. Naturally, these zombies don't die. We hit them often. I count, like we did at Live Acting Role Play, but when I reach ten I start to think that there is no end to it. Then I reach 20 and still they stand. And I only count my own hits, of course, after 10 hits I switch to another zombie, because it becomes too dangerous to stay with one, though we surround one with three. But I am thinking that they don't go down because I keep switching between them, but even when I reach 20 they still stand.
4. Orange Crystal Room
Inside, a shop, dark. At first this is a Delhaize, one I know, I am still traveling and just arrived here, but people are closing up, and I wanted to buy stuff. I had a whole list in my head, but the more I look around the less there is and the more I see the employees cover things up. And I ask them whether I can still buy something, because obviously, they want to go and I have no time left, but they say yes, go ahead, but then they also explain I can use the till myself when they are gone. I'm not sure about this, but am happy enough to be able to buy things, yet by that time I have forgotten what I needed. Maybe Anpi is there or she comes later.
All the employees are women and after a short while they leave the shop. When they are closed I am still here, and then other people arrive, and I explain. But when someone wants to buy something, then I go to the till and touch the screen, because it is with a touch screen, and the screen is horizontal, but it does not make sense to me and I always am wrong, so it does not work. After that I look for a manual, because there is bound to be one, but the dream gives me no time or opportunity.
Then this place because the secret place to gather for a conference of occult talks. Fras is here, and maybe Dapa, and some Jews too. There will certainly be a talk about necromancy. Speakers are already preparing in the adjacent rooms.
When all is ready people are guided to their speakers, and I realize the program is so full that you have to choose between three speakers. Everyone else is prepared, I see the program on a sheet of paper. I follow Fras, or go my own way but end up in the same room as her. I go through the first room, which is big, much bigger than the shop, then go to the second and stay there. As big. The whole room is darkened, but soft light is spread by the crystals, orange to red, placed about the room, this is wonderful. So many stones together I had not seen yet. Stones are arranged in different places, but always in groups, and one group contains many stones. And they all shine. The man who is going to do something is at the other end, and I see Fras there, but I stay where I am, the man is assisted by a woman.
5. Try to Watch a DVD
One of the last dreams. I'm home, though it looks very different and feels very different than reality. White, light, small. I just watched a film, cartoon, and when I finished I see that loads of dvd's are packed behind me. All the same ones, packages, but they contain part two and three of what I just watched, something with a penguin on the cover. These dvd's are from work, which is why they are here. But when I look carefully, I see that some packages are open, and I might take the dvd and watch it, which is what I plan to do.
When I want to do that, the scene changes and we are in a different living room, with my brothers and the children of the street, neighbours, and about to watch a dvd. My brothers are in charge.
There is a computer and I want to access it, not waiting for my brothers, because I want to do something too. But there is a code, and it seems this is the account of Beha and I don't know his password, although the first letter is given, which is 'a', and I remember what it should be, so I enter it, but another screen with password is given then. This is more difficult because it refers to characters from children's series, but they are written in the way children pronounce them, not the right spelling, and I can't read it, but behind me I hear the others read each of the names out loud together. At that point I am at another computer in the same room but a little further on the left.
6. Back Problems
There was also someone with a back problem who sat in a chair. Maybe Joja cared for him, I sat opposite them at the table, and more people were at the table, light. The helper explained, that his lower vertebrae were rusted, and that when he sat in a couch, he would look very strange, because he can't sit upwards. Now, only on a hard chair he can sit, because of the very straight position.
7. Veranda Get Together with Neighbours
Last dream. Home of parents, day, light, I go to the veranda, there are many of us gathered already, all the neighbours, of our age. They sit at a table, round one, in the middle of the veranda. I go there from the living room and sit on one side. Later Stco arrives too, and he has a young child with him, holding him against his chest. Now I can't remember what happened, but Stco was laughed at for some reason and I did not laugh, and Stco stayed serious.
Tuesday, 10 September 2013
White Cane
1. Colleagues
Situation in which many colleagues were prominently present, such as Frre and Digr. Work related, evening. Maybe making ready for going out together.
List and Tama were there, as also Brva and Keva. And something about the Windgat in Herent, the way towards Herent, from Leuven. Wide place. I don't remember the details.
2. Hot Pot
I am making food in a kitchen which has more than one stove, I go to the left and claim it as my own, which is the same place as it is in my own house. Other people are busy behind me, there is a long table, light. I am preparing food for me, but I have to wait with actually cooking it, since if I start cooking now it will be ready too early and my timing will be off, so I leave it there and think that by Thursday I might have time to eat this. It is related to work, so I am waiting for some things to happen, before which it is not recommended to eat. But what I have already, is in my opinion very good. I will basically be steaming food, and I have many layers on top of each other in different cooking sections put above a pot with water. I really have to keep myself from starting. Some sections are filled with vegetables, but others have noodles, and that is what I'm looking forward to. There is no order in the sections between vegetables and noodles. And I keep adding things, and it is becoming a whole tower.
3. Wet Dream
Wet dream, but I can't remember what happened. It woke me and I was barely able to stop it. Did not have enough energy or was not rested enough to revoke it.
4. Late Night Lasagna
My brothers and I in the living room, watching telly.
Some sort of lasagna with which I am having difficulties, this is in the night, in the kitchen, and this is only preparation. And I am putting two things together. At the sink in the kitchen of my parents. N comes and helps me, though uninvited. I take the lasagna out of one dish and put it in another, but I also add honey, every time, honey with thyme, and after a while I start to be conscious of it and I see that I've almost put a whole flask of honey in the dish, which is rather much, but that is what the recipe is like. This is when N comes to help, parents are either out or asleep.
The lasagna is very good, I taste some, what stays behind in the first dish, cheese, and tomato sauce, very good. I use a small kitchen knife to do things.
Same dream, later at the same place in the kitchen, I see things hover beneath me, close to the ground, but not touching it. One pumpkin stands out, because it is oval and I see a small dent on top and below, for example where it was attached to the plant, but I realize that it marks exactly the axis around which it turns. And that is more or less when I realize I am watching a miniature version of planets, and this is great didactic material. It is dark in that corner, and I look down or kneel. I think I use the knife in this situation.
Other things are floating, but are smaller and are more on the background. I am fascinated. My brother N is still there to witness.
Maybe the same dream, because it was linked with the honey, I have a text, and it is about joy, and I think the text is very precious, and I am about to do something with it, or want to keep it, but I am not strong enough in the dream to hold on to it, and I think that is the end of the dream, this was with light.
5. Young Girl in my Arms
There is a fragment of the end of a dream I remember, which has me carrying small Hafr in my arms in the back garden of my parents. There are other people about, but all spread around the yard. When I realize, I think this is very sexy, and I put my hand between her legs now and then while I walk to and fro in the garden, just to feel if she is wet. And slowly the desire grows to enter her, but this is not a good place because people are watching.
At that point, I am starting to wake and start to rationalize, so I reason that I can go to the front garden where there is no one and we can do whatever we like. We go there but that is where the dream ends, and this is certainly not the wet dream.
6. Shared Table
There is a fragment I remember where we go to a table that has been prepared for us, and I want to take my seat, but do not, when I see other people coming and I want to be in a better position. Most of the table, on the right, is taken by people from another shop, there is some greyness about them, old women, I don't know any of them.
Then I sit down more to the left, and this happens to be right beside Tama, on my left, which I think might be too obvious, and might have been the subconscious reason for not taking my seat immediately. Brva is also there. Our shop people sit down later, but I was just early. We are just a few of our shop.
7. White Cane
Last dream, maybe hypnagogic.
I'm in the city and am returning, going home, I have to find my car, though I also came by bicycle, and now I am on foot. There are a lot of people about, this is an unfamiliar town, though not in the dream, light. Peaceful atmosphere, many people about, sharp focus, I see them all very clear.
I am walking on the pavement, left of the street, which is in the shadow at that point, but it is the shortest way home. I carry a stick for blind people and am using it. It is white as usual, and it is very long, much longer than usual, and made in such a way that the stick can be made shorter or longer, I think that is normal, but it is really long and where it touches the ground that must be two meters in front of me. And at the end there is a thing that looks like a hoover, but much smaller, and it sticks on the floor and slides across the pavement, which is very handy, when there is a bump, it goes over the bump, and I feel the sensation.
When the dream starts and I have this stick in my hand, I am also wearing glasses, but I think people will be confused if I have both, so I consider doing something about my glasses and what I do is put them on my head, as you do with sunglasses, which is something I usually never do.
Then I pretend I am blind and use the stick the whole time. I walk a little too briskly, and can easily avoid bumping into people. This is a very strange experience, and I can't really match things myself, and I think the people around me are confused too. I walk alone, but many citizens are about.
I walk a long way, and I put up my act until the very end. At the end of the street I turn left, there is more space here, more light, and across on my right is the parking lot. I pass that first for some reason going a little while ahead, and then I turn and go to the parking lot.
You have to descend a little when entering the lot, and the ground is sandy. On the left of it are trees and fields.
This is where I left my car, so now I have to look for it, still I pretend to be blind, which is weird, because I can see. Lots of cars and many people, at the other end, which is down, there is a complex, maybe shopping maybe sports, one floor only.
I thought I would immediately remember where the car was, and I am confident when I go about the cars, but then I don't find it immediately, and I can't remember what the car looked like. I go to the opposite corner, and there is a white car with a German license plate, and some family is loading the car, the hatch is open, which is black on the inside. Cars are parked very close here, and the hatch almost touches that of the opposite car.
I have my cycle with me or I find it beside the car. The cycle is dark or black and my first reaction is to put it in the car, since the hatch is open anyway. When I start to become a little more conscious, I understand all this cannot be right, and this is maybe my car or maybe not and I leave my cycle on the side, and I can't remember what happened next in fact, but not long after the dream ends.
I think when I talk to those people, principally a woman, who must be the mother, short hair, German, white top, dark pants, slim, I can no longer pretend being blind, so I do something about that, and take out my glasses again, something like that. And I also think I must have gone to the driver's side too, whereas my bicycle was on the right.
Situation in which many colleagues were prominently present, such as Frre and Digr. Work related, evening. Maybe making ready for going out together.
List and Tama were there, as also Brva and Keva. And something about the Windgat in Herent, the way towards Herent, from Leuven. Wide place. I don't remember the details.
2. Hot Pot
I am making food in a kitchen which has more than one stove, I go to the left and claim it as my own, which is the same place as it is in my own house. Other people are busy behind me, there is a long table, light. I am preparing food for me, but I have to wait with actually cooking it, since if I start cooking now it will be ready too early and my timing will be off, so I leave it there and think that by Thursday I might have time to eat this. It is related to work, so I am waiting for some things to happen, before which it is not recommended to eat. But what I have already, is in my opinion very good. I will basically be steaming food, and I have many layers on top of each other in different cooking sections put above a pot with water. I really have to keep myself from starting. Some sections are filled with vegetables, but others have noodles, and that is what I'm looking forward to. There is no order in the sections between vegetables and noodles. And I keep adding things, and it is becoming a whole tower.
3. Wet Dream
Wet dream, but I can't remember what happened. It woke me and I was barely able to stop it. Did not have enough energy or was not rested enough to revoke it.
4. Late Night Lasagna
My brothers and I in the living room, watching telly.
Some sort of lasagna with which I am having difficulties, this is in the night, in the kitchen, and this is only preparation. And I am putting two things together. At the sink in the kitchen of my parents. N comes and helps me, though uninvited. I take the lasagna out of one dish and put it in another, but I also add honey, every time, honey with thyme, and after a while I start to be conscious of it and I see that I've almost put a whole flask of honey in the dish, which is rather much, but that is what the recipe is like. This is when N comes to help, parents are either out or asleep.
The lasagna is very good, I taste some, what stays behind in the first dish, cheese, and tomato sauce, very good. I use a small kitchen knife to do things.
Same dream, later at the same place in the kitchen, I see things hover beneath me, close to the ground, but not touching it. One pumpkin stands out, because it is oval and I see a small dent on top and below, for example where it was attached to the plant, but I realize that it marks exactly the axis around which it turns. And that is more or less when I realize I am watching a miniature version of planets, and this is great didactic material. It is dark in that corner, and I look down or kneel. I think I use the knife in this situation.
Other things are floating, but are smaller and are more on the background. I am fascinated. My brother N is still there to witness.
Maybe the same dream, because it was linked with the honey, I have a text, and it is about joy, and I think the text is very precious, and I am about to do something with it, or want to keep it, but I am not strong enough in the dream to hold on to it, and I think that is the end of the dream, this was with light.
5. Young Girl in my Arms
There is a fragment of the end of a dream I remember, which has me carrying small Hafr in my arms in the back garden of my parents. There are other people about, but all spread around the yard. When I realize, I think this is very sexy, and I put my hand between her legs now and then while I walk to and fro in the garden, just to feel if she is wet. And slowly the desire grows to enter her, but this is not a good place because people are watching.
At that point, I am starting to wake and start to rationalize, so I reason that I can go to the front garden where there is no one and we can do whatever we like. We go there but that is where the dream ends, and this is certainly not the wet dream.
6. Shared Table
There is a fragment I remember where we go to a table that has been prepared for us, and I want to take my seat, but do not, when I see other people coming and I want to be in a better position. Most of the table, on the right, is taken by people from another shop, there is some greyness about them, old women, I don't know any of them.
Then I sit down more to the left, and this happens to be right beside Tama, on my left, which I think might be too obvious, and might have been the subconscious reason for not taking my seat immediately. Brva is also there. Our shop people sit down later, but I was just early. We are just a few of our shop.
7. White Cane
Last dream, maybe hypnagogic.
I'm in the city and am returning, going home, I have to find my car, though I also came by bicycle, and now I am on foot. There are a lot of people about, this is an unfamiliar town, though not in the dream, light. Peaceful atmosphere, many people about, sharp focus, I see them all very clear.
I am walking on the pavement, left of the street, which is in the shadow at that point, but it is the shortest way home. I carry a stick for blind people and am using it. It is white as usual, and it is very long, much longer than usual, and made in such a way that the stick can be made shorter or longer, I think that is normal, but it is really long and where it touches the ground that must be two meters in front of me. And at the end there is a thing that looks like a hoover, but much smaller, and it sticks on the floor and slides across the pavement, which is very handy, when there is a bump, it goes over the bump, and I feel the sensation.
When the dream starts and I have this stick in my hand, I am also wearing glasses, but I think people will be confused if I have both, so I consider doing something about my glasses and what I do is put them on my head, as you do with sunglasses, which is something I usually never do.
Then I pretend I am blind and use the stick the whole time. I walk a little too briskly, and can easily avoid bumping into people. This is a very strange experience, and I can't really match things myself, and I think the people around me are confused too. I walk alone, but many citizens are about.
I walk a long way, and I put up my act until the very end. At the end of the street I turn left, there is more space here, more light, and across on my right is the parking lot. I pass that first for some reason going a little while ahead, and then I turn and go to the parking lot.
You have to descend a little when entering the lot, and the ground is sandy. On the left of it are trees and fields.
This is where I left my car, so now I have to look for it, still I pretend to be blind, which is weird, because I can see. Lots of cars and many people, at the other end, which is down, there is a complex, maybe shopping maybe sports, one floor only.
I thought I would immediately remember where the car was, and I am confident when I go about the cars, but then I don't find it immediately, and I can't remember what the car looked like. I go to the opposite corner, and there is a white car with a German license plate, and some family is loading the car, the hatch is open, which is black on the inside. Cars are parked very close here, and the hatch almost touches that of the opposite car.
I have my cycle with me or I find it beside the car. The cycle is dark or black and my first reaction is to put it in the car, since the hatch is open anyway. When I start to become a little more conscious, I understand all this cannot be right, and this is maybe my car or maybe not and I leave my cycle on the side, and I can't remember what happened next in fact, but not long after the dream ends.
I think when I talk to those people, principally a woman, who must be the mother, short hair, German, white top, dark pants, slim, I can no longer pretend being blind, so I do something about that, and take out my glasses again, something like that. And I also think I must have gone to the driver's side too, whereas my bicycle was on the right.
Friday, 6 September 2013
Cell Time
1. Lane
Outside, long lane.
2. Sex with a Colleague
Dark, inside, Tama, and other colleagues. Tama has a sister, some family business, she is much younger than Tama.
Brva is also there. At some point, in another room, waiting, we are shut closed with a few people, square brick building like a prison. I have an erection, I see Brva in the corner and think I could as well have sex with her. Other people in the cell have sex with each other. But I want to do it in a particular way, standing, so that it is less difficult for me and so I ask her to turn around so I can take her from the back. I touch her between her legs and she is wet, which means to me that she is willing. And she does not say no all the time, which surprises me a little, but I continue. Because she is wet I am confident. She supports herself against the wall of the cell, I want to enter, she wears some yellow clothing, my dick becomes a little soft, I go in anyway, but before I am entered well I come. (Wet Dream).
The dream continues back in more public places inside, as if a shop, but is still dark, colleagues there. Can't remember what happened.
At some other point I come again, but I can't remember why.
3. Translating in Greek
Inside, classroom, light, Digr and Brva. Digr wants us to translate texts, first he starts with the Latin one, which he gives to Brva, and then the Greek one, which he gives to me, but I can't make anything of it. The text is printed blue and dark pink on white and in Dutch, and the Greek text is transcribed in the Latin alphabet. I read it and the first two words I encounter I can't already translate from Dutch to Greek and I know it is hopeless. The sentence starts with "He smiles". I don't know what smiling in Greek is.
4. Dutch Customers
(Hypnagogic dream)
Outside, next to the shop, I arrive, two customers are there, I know them from a year ago, difficult ones. From Holland, one can't decide, the other buys more than she needs, also inside in the shop itself. She buys stuff for children, also in the street she wants a picture to be taken. Can't remember perfectly.
Outside, long lane.
2. Sex with a Colleague
Dark, inside, Tama, and other colleagues. Tama has a sister, some family business, she is much younger than Tama.
Brva is also there. At some point, in another room, waiting, we are shut closed with a few people, square brick building like a prison. I have an erection, I see Brva in the corner and think I could as well have sex with her. Other people in the cell have sex with each other. But I want to do it in a particular way, standing, so that it is less difficult for me and so I ask her to turn around so I can take her from the back. I touch her between her legs and she is wet, which means to me that she is willing. And she does not say no all the time, which surprises me a little, but I continue. Because she is wet I am confident. She supports herself against the wall of the cell, I want to enter, she wears some yellow clothing, my dick becomes a little soft, I go in anyway, but before I am entered well I come. (Wet Dream).
The dream continues back in more public places inside, as if a shop, but is still dark, colleagues there. Can't remember what happened.
At some other point I come again, but I can't remember why.
3. Translating in Greek
Inside, classroom, light, Digr and Brva. Digr wants us to translate texts, first he starts with the Latin one, which he gives to Brva, and then the Greek one, which he gives to me, but I can't make anything of it. The text is printed blue and dark pink on white and in Dutch, and the Greek text is transcribed in the Latin alphabet. I read it and the first two words I encounter I can't already translate from Dutch to Greek and I know it is hopeless. The sentence starts with "He smiles". I don't know what smiling in Greek is.
4. Dutch Customers
(Hypnagogic dream)
Outside, next to the shop, I arrive, two customers are there, I know them from a year ago, difficult ones. From Holland, one can't decide, the other buys more than she needs, also inside in the shop itself. She buys stuff for children, also in the street she wants a picture to be taken. Can't remember perfectly.
Wednesday, 21 August 2013
Fair Justice and her Boat
1. Mental Exercise
I am in my badminton outfit, sports hall.
I take a few paces backwards, but all happens with the mind. There is a connection between what I think and what happens in the dream, as if the dream is passive, but my mental body is very active and everything is translated in images, although it is very sober, dark and simple, like back and forward stepping.
I mentally think of retreating I think, and I push something back, and I do that again, so I repeat, but I can't help doing it in fact, because I'm in a state of mind in which I'm not very awake, and the dream responds.
Something about turning about in bed, which would indicate someone's age.
Then notes I can't read, and then it says: still the same possibilities, which means I think that I try to think in a certain way so that I don't exclude options.
2. Gods
Something about looking for ... and something about gods, but I can't read my notes and I don't remember what it refers to.
3. Gods and Dragons
Mefa is here, Leuven, cycling. We find each other, meaning that it happens incidently.
Then we go somewhere, day out, Woli comes along, and we'll be doing something esoteric.
Long way in the country side, long scene, but then there is a train, at the water, as if in a cave, with a canal in between, and cars or vehicles coming from the other side (can't remember what is meant).
Goes rather fast, but I like it. Fire, and water. Man power drives the train's engine. Somehow, because I think it was the passenger by being in the train that drove it, maybe by thought power?
Fire was important, but can't remember context.
Something about the Aesir.
Land of the farmer indicates the different places, field, and says: the pile or hill or mound must go. I think this refers to a mole.
But I don't want that, and there are other animals sealed in it.
It is difficult to remain stable, standing, upright (can't remember context), the ground has been divided in the territoria of animals, small animals, and a dragon, and a snake.
Another snake, and something I don't know what it is, and something else, and they are all my friends.
And my brother N arrives here before me.
4. Fair Justice
(wet dream).
Friends of mine have a boat, two ladies, their names are Faith Justice and Anna Wolkranz (not sure of the second last name). Faith Justice says that she is only spending time there, on the boat, and then something about Justice. And either both or one of their names is on the boat.
I understand her. Faith Justice is the younger one and the more extravagant, while Anna is a short woman who is younger than me, but might as well be my mother's age, she wears red and does not move a lot, Faith is the tall one, more blue, but rather dark.
So we all go on the ship, me first, before they have the time to take a way the gangplank, which is rather large and consists of three square planks, and on the left is a stone wall in the water, but there is so much wood that you can't tell there is water underneath, gives a safe feeling, except that Faith has the kind of character to pull the thing away unexpectedly. Yet I am fond of her, in exchange for the boat trip we have to play music, dj.
From the start she says she will only eat a starter, main course or desert, and not the other things. They thought of this or the did not? What it entails is that I have to make a decision for her. She gives me the option to choose, but whatever I will choose will affect everyone else, because everyone else can only have what she is having.
So she has already given it though, I have not, which means I'm at a disadvantage.
Everyone is on the boat, we sail.
Something about Jommeke is Joja comic collection, in specific number 135, which has the word Vater in it.
And there is also experimenting with sex, I with her, I suppose I mean Faith, and there is a girl on the boat that I see now while we are experimenting who is a little nymphomanic, so I keep an eye out. She wanted sex already from when she something something.
And later we do some more exchanging, though I only see the female partners, and I take someone from behind, there are more girls than boys, and not all have them want to join, because of the toy, sex toy, which might be the game itself.
The other girls lay her on the table, because they know best how it is done, they know their own bodies best and take care of one another, it is their game and their fun, and I'm fine with that. It is very practical, I see that the minute they lay her on the table. (Who? I can't remember). I take her from behind, this is certainly the second time I do it with her and the first time was marvelous, and this time I'm not hard enough and it is a bit difficult to get in, but I come anyway. This is a wet dream. Yet at that moment I tried to do the technique of keeping it in, but I have not enough energy, so I let it go and keep the though of restraint at the same time, and as a matter of fact I can't tell whether it worked or not. (I checked my underwear in the morning and I'm not sure, which means that if I soiled it it can't have been much, so it might have worked).
Something about getting home and crossing the street, and Mago, an old friend from school is he and Pesl, they know each other. This is outside on the street, unknown place, crossroads, but where we are is a broad pavement as if for a little market and it reminds me of Borough Market, the outside part, in London. For some reason when they meet me they hug me. Of Mago I would have done that spontaneously for some reason, but he hugs more tight and seriously than I reckoned he would, but Pesl also hugs, and I had not expected that. I was the last of my friends to cross the street, but Mago and Pesl came behind, they were not part of the party at all, though I suspected the coming of Mago.
And someone on the boat says: good music, something something plays still. (This before).
There is a part in the dream which is more or less close up and I see a table on which are three or four red cystal skulls, fist size, on a dark red and yellow cloth, in a corner, this is on the boat. And a woman is there, and my mother is there, game. Can't remember the context.
5. In Need of Shower
Inside, upper floor, light. I have to go to the bathroom, there is one outside. First on the place itself, height or bed apart, sex toy (can't remember the details at all).
Bale is there. We have sex, first normal, than a second time from behind. She is uncertain. But I am sure, and I look with my hand for her fanny, and she is still wet a little, so I go for it.
And old woman who is nearby wants to have an orgasm too, she comes because she wants me to do it, and I don't want it and I tell her someone else has to do it.
Later when all is done I remain naked, and I want to have a shower, but the shower is far away. Something with a monkey?
Veranda, grass, brothers, dad.
Water to rinse, cleanse my body, I cannot do something which the others are doing nonetheless, and this is because I am naked. This restricts as if by a law of nature.
I go outside because I want to go to the toilet, school, I find the toilets, but there are no showers, (dream reminds me of dreams I had long ago). There are other people, girls.
With Bale on the couch, this was earlier, and I see her lips and I would have kissed them, but that would not be appropriate, so I don't, but I do have sex with her. I go for her vagina and very intensely kiss those lips.
6. Shot in Magazine
Close up type, reading magazine, I only see the cover or the first page, one page only, and a big picture is on it, green and blue, and our big smiling boss is on it, I think in the dream, is this real, is it really him, I mean the big boss, who is still young. Magazine or newspaper.
I am in my badminton outfit, sports hall.
I take a few paces backwards, but all happens with the mind. There is a connection between what I think and what happens in the dream, as if the dream is passive, but my mental body is very active and everything is translated in images, although it is very sober, dark and simple, like back and forward stepping.
I mentally think of retreating I think, and I push something back, and I do that again, so I repeat, but I can't help doing it in fact, because I'm in a state of mind in which I'm not very awake, and the dream responds.
Something about turning about in bed, which would indicate someone's age.
Then notes I can't read, and then it says: still the same possibilities, which means I think that I try to think in a certain way so that I don't exclude options.
2. Gods
Something about looking for ... and something about gods, but I can't read my notes and I don't remember what it refers to.
3. Gods and Dragons
Mefa is here, Leuven, cycling. We find each other, meaning that it happens incidently.
Then we go somewhere, day out, Woli comes along, and we'll be doing something esoteric.
Long way in the country side, long scene, but then there is a train, at the water, as if in a cave, with a canal in between, and cars or vehicles coming from the other side (can't remember what is meant).
Goes rather fast, but I like it. Fire, and water. Man power drives the train's engine. Somehow, because I think it was the passenger by being in the train that drove it, maybe by thought power?
Fire was important, but can't remember context.
Something about the Aesir.
Land of the farmer indicates the different places, field, and says: the pile or hill or mound must go. I think this refers to a mole.
But I don't want that, and there are other animals sealed in it.
It is difficult to remain stable, standing, upright (can't remember context), the ground has been divided in the territoria of animals, small animals, and a dragon, and a snake.
Another snake, and something I don't know what it is, and something else, and they are all my friends.
And my brother N arrives here before me.
4. Fair Justice
(wet dream).
Friends of mine have a boat, two ladies, their names are Faith Justice and Anna Wolkranz (not sure of the second last name). Faith Justice says that she is only spending time there, on the boat, and then something about Justice. And either both or one of their names is on the boat.
I understand her. Faith Justice is the younger one and the more extravagant, while Anna is a short woman who is younger than me, but might as well be my mother's age, she wears red and does not move a lot, Faith is the tall one, more blue, but rather dark.
So we all go on the ship, me first, before they have the time to take a way the gangplank, which is rather large and consists of three square planks, and on the left is a stone wall in the water, but there is so much wood that you can't tell there is water underneath, gives a safe feeling, except that Faith has the kind of character to pull the thing away unexpectedly. Yet I am fond of her, in exchange for the boat trip we have to play music, dj.
From the start she says she will only eat a starter, main course or desert, and not the other things. They thought of this or the did not? What it entails is that I have to make a decision for her. She gives me the option to choose, but whatever I will choose will affect everyone else, because everyone else can only have what she is having.
So she has already given it though, I have not, which means I'm at a disadvantage.
Everyone is on the boat, we sail.
Something about Jommeke is Joja comic collection, in specific number 135, which has the word Vater in it.
And there is also experimenting with sex, I with her, I suppose I mean Faith, and there is a girl on the boat that I see now while we are experimenting who is a little nymphomanic, so I keep an eye out. She wanted sex already from when she something something.
And later we do some more exchanging, though I only see the female partners, and I take someone from behind, there are more girls than boys, and not all have them want to join, because of the toy, sex toy, which might be the game itself.
The other girls lay her on the table, because they know best how it is done, they know their own bodies best and take care of one another, it is their game and their fun, and I'm fine with that. It is very practical, I see that the minute they lay her on the table. (Who? I can't remember). I take her from behind, this is certainly the second time I do it with her and the first time was marvelous, and this time I'm not hard enough and it is a bit difficult to get in, but I come anyway. This is a wet dream. Yet at that moment I tried to do the technique of keeping it in, but I have not enough energy, so I let it go and keep the though of restraint at the same time, and as a matter of fact I can't tell whether it worked or not. (I checked my underwear in the morning and I'm not sure, which means that if I soiled it it can't have been much, so it might have worked).
Something about getting home and crossing the street, and Mago, an old friend from school is he and Pesl, they know each other. This is outside on the street, unknown place, crossroads, but where we are is a broad pavement as if for a little market and it reminds me of Borough Market, the outside part, in London. For some reason when they meet me they hug me. Of Mago I would have done that spontaneously for some reason, but he hugs more tight and seriously than I reckoned he would, but Pesl also hugs, and I had not expected that. I was the last of my friends to cross the street, but Mago and Pesl came behind, they were not part of the party at all, though I suspected the coming of Mago.
And someone on the boat says: good music, something something plays still. (This before).
There is a part in the dream which is more or less close up and I see a table on which are three or four red cystal skulls, fist size, on a dark red and yellow cloth, in a corner, this is on the boat. And a woman is there, and my mother is there, game. Can't remember the context.
5. In Need of Shower
Inside, upper floor, light. I have to go to the bathroom, there is one outside. First on the place itself, height or bed apart, sex toy (can't remember the details at all).
Bale is there. We have sex, first normal, than a second time from behind. She is uncertain. But I am sure, and I look with my hand for her fanny, and she is still wet a little, so I go for it.
And old woman who is nearby wants to have an orgasm too, she comes because she wants me to do it, and I don't want it and I tell her someone else has to do it.
Later when all is done I remain naked, and I want to have a shower, but the shower is far away. Something with a monkey?
Veranda, grass, brothers, dad.
Water to rinse, cleanse my body, I cannot do something which the others are doing nonetheless, and this is because I am naked. This restricts as if by a law of nature.
I go outside because I want to go to the toilet, school, I find the toilets, but there are no showers, (dream reminds me of dreams I had long ago). There are other people, girls.
With Bale on the couch, this was earlier, and I see her lips and I would have kissed them, but that would not be appropriate, so I don't, but I do have sex with her. I go for her vagina and very intensely kiss those lips.
6. Shot in Magazine
Close up type, reading magazine, I only see the cover or the first page, one page only, and a big picture is on it, green and blue, and our big smiling boss is on it, I think in the dream, is this real, is it really him, I mean the big boss, who is still young. Magazine or newspaper.
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