What Just Happened?

Dream Wednesday 10 July 2015

Last dream of the night
I start becoming aware of the dreaming in a taiji context.
Then I am in my room, it is morning and I should be getting ready to go to work. This is my room in the house of my parents. The door is open. And I am here a few times, sometimes other people are in the room, they are lethargic, not moving, one of them is Digr, he sits on the bed, though he should be going to work as well.
I prepare, knowing that I will be late. I think I did the taiji outside in the morning light, on the street, and then abruptly ended because I realized I am already overdue. Indeed, it is five past nine and I start work at nine. And I have to cycle to Leuven first, which takes me about half an hour. So I'll be late anyway. I make ready, but not in haste. Even in my room I am reluctant to leave, but I know I have to, so I go.
Then I leave the house, and at the end of the street things become crowded, I have to turn left, but a group of schoolchildren and teachers comes my way, blocking the way. I stay calm and find my way. After this everything is quiet.
Before I get to the end of the street, cars pass me, all of them sports cars. They seem to only have rear wheels, and maybe very small front wheels so that you don't see those.
I know the way to Leuven well, I have done it many times, in the dream, and I remember those occasions.
At some point the way becomes steep, cobbled, with many other cyclist going the same way. The slope is very steep upward. And the street narrow. The sun shines and there is lots of light.
Rather soon I see a girl cycle in front of me and I lock on her and follow her, though she is a distance away. I keep tracking her, though we all go in the same way, around me are other cyclists but they follow their own speed and I don't follow theirs although they are closer to me, but I link to the girl in front. Sometimes the distance increases sometimes decreases. When I get to far behind I catch up.
At some point I leave the group that surrounds me, people I don't know anyway, and overtake the girl in front. Then halfway up the steep hill with medieval like houses on either side looming, she suddenly stops, I pass her and then look back and call out: "what just happened". I quietly am aware that other people can hear me, and I don't even know this girl anyway, but there seems to be an inherent connection between us, but no one minds and I had the guts to call out anyway. Now I also stop. She looks ahead. Now I see, when I look back in front of me, there is a troupe of cyclers coming down the hill, that can be very dangerous.
The girl does not say a word though.
Afterwards we all get to the top and there's room and sunshine there and we all go our separate ways. But before I do, I decide to go to her and talk. I want to know if she would like to see me again. I ask her name, and again and again, because I have difficulties to remember, especially because she also gives her address and other details and I can't remember everything. So I focus on her name which is H. Van Kamp. The girl looked like a customer that was in the shop the day before. Interestingly, she is the one who makes notes and writes down everything, name, address etc, and then we part, so I don't have a note with her details, but she does and I have to memorize. Which I do. I memorize her name.
Then we leave and we seem to go the same way still, so we go together though not much happens, to a particular place in town, a little further the dream ends. To be resolved in the future.

Four Unicorns and the Demon Bat

1.

Outside, party with friends, other people there. Grass. there is a ditch with water on one side. Tables of wood. Fun.
More people come from the right. I see a girl that I'm interested in and try to focus to see if it is really her. I focus and it is her, but her appearance changes, she is now Clsm.
One person in her group is drunk and pursues her. I recognize him, have been to school with him, primary school. He is Mael.
I see he his troubling her and she does not like it one bit. She goes away from him, and goes to the water side. I already stand up and move toward the scene. I see she wants to jump into the water, it is a lake now, just to get away from him. I try to avoid that by colliding into the drunk man, a friend of long time ago. And bring him to senses. I see from the corner of my eye that Clsm stays where she is. So that's good.
Now I don't know what to do with Mael, but I try to stop him, bear hug him. In his drunken mood he thinks it is funny and starts to dance, very clumsily, and moves away in that way. I hang on to him and think this is better than the alternative.
He radiates the quality of being spirit possessed.

DREAM of Saturday 18 April

1.
Early dream. I meet Chwe. At some point I try to make a prolonged effort for her to touch me. Then we are near the toilets and I take her with me, she is somewhat reluctant. I still keep coming. In the toilet, she somewhat agrees, and we start to undress each other. At that point I know it will not be able to hold it and regret already that it will be over soon. I touch her body while uncovering her as much as I can but I come anyway and the dream ends.

2.
Morning dream.
There is a weekend camp, our taiji group is there as well, in the evening we have class, and Tivd is teaching. We train on one side of the square. The square is surrounded by tall buildings, skyscrapers. We are on the side that is closest to our rooms. Huge buildings anyway. Can't remember everything.
When we did the taiji it was already darkening and we moved with large stone slabs, which is unconventional and difficult. I am half sleeping and don't really pay attention. With all the stones of the floor underneath broken up and while we hug those stones it looks like a site of rocks that I once visited in Germany.

Then in the morning I wake early and go outside. Many people are up already, from other groups. The ligth is nice outside from early morning dawn. There are lots of birds in the air, in flocks, ever more, and chirping, and I like the sound. Listen to them and watch them. I think they are a good omen because birds signify the presence of spirits.
After a while the birds (spreeuwen) start to change as if unfolding, from the belly side they open and become bats or maybe flying squirrels. There are many. I wonder if we are in danger, this does not look good. They obviously symbolize some evil.
But they stay high in the air and I know they are harmless there. If they would come down it would be trouble, for all of us. No need. Here the dream is lucid and stays lucid.
To my right I see on the large building four unicorns, one on each corner of the roof. They look out from their, each in his direction. The one closest to us watches the bats.
Then at some point the flock of bats in the morning light start to merge and become one big bat or demon and they or it looks ominously, in the direction of the unicorn.
I see the unicorn point his horn toward the bat demon and then he shoots a beam of light from its horn, brilliant white light, and it hits and pierces the bat.
Down below I can't believe what I witness, and after the event I go inside and people are there. It looks like no one has actually seen what I saw. And exhilarated I shout "that is the dissipation of glamour" like it is the school example of what needs to be done, and it can be done. And people look and smile about what I say but I don't have the feeling they really understand. To me, this felt like a very big moment.
What I witnesses was the actual technique to dissipate glamour.

three pairs of socks

dream of today

slept bad, woke because of mavt
when she left, I slept another hour and dreamed the following.

at the end of the dream I am in my bathroom and clean up and then I see on my left a bathtub and another one behind that, and both are filled with water, already cooled off. The first tub is the one I currently use, but I suddenly see that I still have three pairs of socks in the other tub. They were meant to be washed. I take them out immediately and lay them aside on my right, I intend to wash them as soon as possible.

Pink Snake

Monday 12 January 2015

1.
at night, outside, cycling home maybe, Chwe is there, on a cycle too, I take her hand, at first insecure, in fact, the whole time it is on and off.

2.
in a college building, I try to get away. The building is associated with my mother, or it is from her that I run. At long last I climb away, this is outside, a steep hill, and this takes me a real effort, all the way to the top, there are trees, and schoolgirls, I hope to see someone I know.
I want to get back in, the building on top. I enter, and leave and enter again. I am looking for a lift to go to the upper floors, there is a lift, I know, someone is there, I go in the lift, but it is too small, in the wall, and then the person is in my way, and has a snake, very big, and pink. I let it be and stand there. I wait a long time to see what happens, I think all the time that the snake will bite me, but it never does, I suppose the dream ends there thinking that the snake will bite me anyway.

3.
Something about taiji. This dream was connected with the snake dream.

4. In the car, driving to maybe my brother N, at least going to see, and already in the sea country, I can tell by the trees and the wind, lots of both. I like the sensation. Dad is driving, mom is in the passenger seat, I am in the back, where I usually am. This is nice.

5.
Last dream, I am made bishop, this is inside a building and with light. Good feeling, but don't want to make too much of it. Parents are there. Other folk, like in a conference room. I did not expect this would happen but I accept. Then a key is also given, and my dad receives it but immediately gives it to me. I don't want to accept it, because I don't want the attention. I tell him I will take it when we get home.
That is the end of that dream.

Swimming in the Pool and Eating Egg

Dream halfway the night after which I woke up and had difficulty sleeping again because of this being the first shift.
Dream ends when I am at a pool inside and dark of night, someone else is there, a girl, she is Bale. The pool is somewhere down, and when I look up I can see where I came from originally, the surface is over the walls let's say.
There is room beyond the pool, a stone floor, but it is already getting wet as I hesitate to get into the water. There is no one else, there is in front of me, or at my back, at least opposite the pool, a door to the outside. Beyond the pool there are rooms and entrances that lead into the building.
Bale is already in the pool and waiting I suppose. I know I have to do this. This is the meaning of being here, which I set up myself. I approach the edge of the pool. No words. I take of my slip, which is the only thing I was wearing. I am surprised to see I wear another one, which looks a little childish, but I take off this one too, if another is still there beneath it I don't care. She beckons me into the pool.
Bale has short sleek hair, wet, a different face than I am used to, I don't really trust this, but I go in anyway. It is also cold. And I know the water will be cold, this is because I have been waiting too long, it was warm at first. But not now. Not anymore.
Once in the water the cold is not so bad, and I swim and I like the sensation of swimming, I sometimes touch Bale when I swim length after length, not paying attention to what she does. Though I know I have to confront her at some point. That's when I realize she is also still wearing her socks. I see I wear mine too, that's okay. It'll be cold otherwise.
Then when I am back at the original edge of the pool after a certain length, someone comes near and hands us an egg, one for each of us. I don't want it, but she pushes it into our hands anyway. I take it, though I think it is too big for me, I'd rather have the other egg, which is also unusually big and round, but less than mine. Nothing to do about it, I take it gratefully then being still in the pool and start eating it, looking for the yellow. The egg was already broken and started falling apart when I took it, so I eat fast, but there is a lot of it. It is well cooked, but there may be a trace of running yellow, and I look for that and eat it before continuing with the rest.