Menstruating

1. Hijacking the Space Ship

Some place I can't remember, buildings, out of the way, we are a group of people. Don't remember the start and the middle of the dream.
Toward the end, we decide to hijack a spaceship, a small one, and do what we think is best, even if it is against authority's decision, so we must take care that they don't see us.
We run toward the more open and lighted place, outside, pavement, and around the corner where the shuttle is. Two of us go in, it is a really small one, just place for two. Mavh and Pheg go in and sit tight opposite each other. They seem to know each other well. There is a yellow button behind and above Mavh. We push this one, even if we know it means the death of them two, but it is the only way to solve this problem we are facing, maybe something like the end of the world. We're not seen when they launch. Then I see in the cockpit, though I'm not in there. They talk to each other, all the time, but they can't hear each other because there is no medium or ether, they're in space, though not that high up in space either. And at some point I can make out words from the lipping of Pheg, the words 'no problem' are in it. They seem to like each other.
Then they get caught. Don't know what happens then.
It turns out the yellow button is an illusion, we are caught, I feel it though it is both of them who are kicked out by the commanding officer, on that same pavement, which is in front of the barracks. His team is there too. He kicks Mavh and Pheg into the mud. They are naked I think.

2. Menstruation Blood of Pregnance

The scene changes. Still the same dream.
Light, I arrive somewhere, happy to be there and rather on a whim, but others seem to be present, all people that I know. First I meet two people on the way, and they were going the same way but I overtake them. I can't remember who. Then on the doorstep where a street crosses and I want to go left, there is Grdr and Clsm, who are chatting in the door, for it is one of either's house.
I have a paper bag with baguettes in it, three or four, don't know why I'm carrying it, and feels a bit awkward, but then the other two from earlier come too and have the same as if all this is planned. And I say hello to Grdr and Clsm, but I don't want to be too familiar either, so I don't know what expression to wear on my face. Recognition or not.
Then I continue my walk, and turn to the right. Here I meet Joja and his friend Kadv. And we are going the same way. This looks like a coincidence, but they seem to know what I am up to.
We discuss something, I can't remember what. 
Then we come in a back alley, but there is light, though a dead end, and people sit on the street floor, among which a lady, and they have wares to show. And we go there and I stop by the lady, and the three of us kneel, and to the right is something which is called 'klima', it draws my attention, though it is exceptional in her stall. And I immediately understand this object is about 'glima' the wrestling of viking age times. And I say as much. And Joja takes a moment to consider. But the lady, our age, says we can still enroll and should do.
That is when I see in this place many people stand up and making ready to fight, all of the men, young and tall. Before I know it I am among them. Earlier I said something about recalling the same in a film about Wolverine.
Now I am fighting one, then the other. And the last one takes the most time and I can't knock it down, nose to nose, so close are we, he is blond, short hair, almost red. We fight, but neither of us can win. I am a bit frustrated by it.

3. Airplane Crash

Still the same dream.
I don't know where I come from but I leave the group which hides in safety and I venture into more public places and this involves returning home, and I have to make sure no one sees me. I'm sure my mother is there, but she does not see me. I go into my apartment, there is a balcony and a small room adjacent to it. I go there to be alone. I have cloths and rags and towels with me, some a bit grey or dirty. But I press them to my behind and there is blood there. And this is why I am here, am the only one that could do this. This is menstruation blood, and it means I am pregnant.
The next moment I realize it is not me, I knew all along, but the negro woman that was in the group who was too afraid to come up here to show herself and speak up and tell she is pregnant. So the blood is all hers, though I am the one bleeding.
Can't remember all of it.
Then I see the night sky and I go out, and when I do it changes into the back of the house of parents. And I see an airplane, quite big, or rather it is low, too low in fact, and goes behind me, to the east, and I follow it with my eyes, curious as to where it goes. Then it suddenly dives down and I think this can't be right. It goes behind the houses so I don't see it. I don't follow it immediately, but then I think I should check and indeed when I go to the front of the house I see on the horizon the skyline of Leuven and the centre of it collapsing. Fire. Again and again I see the church tower collapse. And then two more planes crash and things feel rather apocalyptic and I don't know what to think, thinking this is important and will have serious and lasting consequences, but yet it seems disconnected of me.

Lightning Path

1. Deep Sea Ship

Mefa, car. We are a full car, I'm in the right front seat and don't have a good sight of who is with us. Two male friends and two female. Maybe Rigr is there.
At some point I am on my cycle. On the road, behind a bus, there are many buses and where I go coincides with their routes, partially, and I know this so when I come to this T crossing I know I have to be careful. I follow, (possibly I mean behind the bus). 

At some point there is something about the bottom of the sea, and this is really deep and I am pulled down constantly, although I don't even resist. Someone goes down to the bottom to get something, maybe this someone is Woli. He is happy, until something or someone has gone and got it. This was a very powerful dream, the current was strong.
There is a ship, very big, deep and in wild water. Woli or something something is beneath the ship. The ship is colossal (reminds me of hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy). He can't breathe or move.
Mefa says something to Rigr, something like: you smell after alcohol and you're not even Chwe.

2. Wind and Lightning Storm

I've been gathering money, like in a shop, but this is my own project, although the money is not necessarily mine. I'm outside.
There is a field, it reminds me of the one across where my parents live, but the whole surroundings is different. You can see far, because the landscape is somewhat flat. There is a path. I am on a road, too. Nature.
In the shop, Woli is coming, he asks something and wants to order it. He changes into Toha.
Before anything else I have to tidy up behind the counter, and possibly the little room behind that. Only after this do I come to help. There are comic books of Lucky Luke, and others.
I am able to give all of the comics their right place in the shop, this is difficult because of time pressure. Seeing something something, and more comic books will arrive in the shop.
Toha orders something, or maybe it is Woli. I have to look it up, then I find it. My second try is what he looks for, this is a pdf file, either about GTA or Thief, and I show it on the computer on the left till. The file is a manual, it is not exactly what he is looking for, but it is what I find, I don't find anything else. He was looking for two things and asked me at the till. At that point I am already watching the horizon and I am in this field.
There are low chairs maybe for children in the shop, and tables. 
I do away with the pdf file because I am thinking that this is wrong anyway, and why give him false hope. And yet I ask whether it is what he is looking for, and I ask him: is it about pc gaming? Toha does not know what it is, really. It is a present for something something, but that means he does not need to know exactly. Again I try to open the file, to show him, because I had closed it because I thought it was wrong anyway, now I have to show him, because I asked him this question. I can't get it open.
Later in the field, I drop my money, most are notes, and of different currency, and I leave them there in the field or on the field track. Wind starts to blow. I see lightning at the horizon, it is silent because it is faraway. It has rosy, red, and orange colours. I think it is beautiful. It is all around me in front, not behind me. The storms gets heavier, wind and lightning. There is always this red hue when the lightning strikes, and you can see the outline of the clouds.
I go inside, N and D and Beha are there.
Then I run outside again, possibly to connect my money anyway. And the path I run along is struck by ground lightning on my left and right on both sides along the whole length of the path. Like fire crackers, only on the ground, not in the air, but it lights my way in the twilight, bright white yellow sparks, very fiery. I don't know whether I have to be careful or frightened, but I go on anyway, and I think this is special too. It is actually electricity going off all the time, and it does that because the atmosphere is dry. It is dangerous, I know this, but continue anyway.
N is the one going with me outside, I don't think anyone else dares to follow, this is my initiative, N backs me up, I am in front.
N and me walk or run between the firing electricity, like small lightnings, fireworks, a lot of it.
Then the wind increases in strength. And I can tell the paper money will be spread by the wind, so I want to be there before that happens, but the wind picks it up anyway. Immediately I start working to gather the money. I walk to and fro and pick it up from the earth. This goes a lot easier than I had imagined. There are pounds and euros, and there are also pink shrimp which look very tasty. Maybe there is other food. I must have carried this in my arms before, with the money.

3. Leek

I remember something about the green of leek, this on a table, inside.

Returning from France

1. Touched by Fire
(Wet dream).

Very thrilling dream about fire. At some point, maybe in the kitchen of parents, I am there with a lady, possibly Chwe, and I am cautioned by someone, maybe N, not too touch her with fire yet, but I do it anyway, far too early, but she reacts, and this causes the dream to be wet. When I touch her with the fire in my fingers, all is set aflame. No, it was Digr telling me. He says that I can do it, so he incites me, but I know it myself too. This time, I did not need any guiding.
People in the dream are organized in two groups, and I think the dream had some end of the world feel to it.
N and D are here.
At the end of the dream I sit down at a table, normal length, but narrow, I suppose the others will sit down too in a minute.

2. Number 33

Something about the number 33. People are watching something something stuffed toy animals. People look on. Full moon. Helping (I do?) one 'rosol' (?) (can't read it properly).

3. A Hostel in France

Fragment of being in a shop. There is a boy there, he has to go to Herent, so I give him directions. I something something who is awake.
Maybe related to the fragment, I walk the streets in the neighbourhood of where we are staying, and I see Rale, the younger brother of Bale, and I see him from behind and I think  it is better to leave him. Then he meets a woman. He never looks in my direction, the streets are empty, it is night.
We are somewhere outside, going somewhere. We stop because we want to take a break. I am underway with my colleagues, in particular Digr and List I remember. We are traveling in France. I see both colleagues more definitely a second time when they come from somewhere, but still the same scene.
We are on our way home, I something something (can't read notes), home something. I enter, Digr says or asks whether there isn't something I want to eat first? But I want nothing to do with him, yet I go with him. This is outside in some village we stopped for the night. There is a small square of the road with benches which is quite and leads to the hostel, but I remain outside, while my colleagues go in and take care of their rooms. I don't want to. I sit on a bench. But then when I went with them a little because Digr asked, and I return I see that new people have arrived and sit on the bench that I occupied, because it is the first one, and I can't sit there anymore, but that is okay because I see other benches and I take another closer to me now.
This other group stays outside too. They are three women with blond hair, and their children. One (child or woman?) wants to do something with me, maybe share food, and (can't read notes), so we sit together at one table. I stay behind with them when Digr and List go on an expedition.
Rains. Inside, restaurant. This is later. First outside, on a field of grass. There are zombies too, and this place is related to the little cosy square of before. Now it is night and dark. Pesl is here, but on the side of the zombies. There are many and people take up their weapons. I ask someone for a sword, but they have no more, so he gives me a club with spikes, but it is a toy one like we have at home. Better than nothing I think and I accept.
The zombies try to get the dead body to their camp, so someone must have fallen or died recently that people know of (I can't remember). Sword fighting. Naturally, these zombies don't die. We hit them often. I count, like we did at Live Acting Role Play, but when I reach ten I start to think that there is no end to it. Then I reach 20 and still they stand. And I only count my own hits, of course, after 10 hits I switch to another zombie, because it becomes too dangerous to stay with one, though we surround one with three. But I am thinking that they don't go down because I keep switching between them, but even when I reach 20 they still stand.

4. Orange Crystal Room

Inside, a shop, dark. At first this is a Delhaize, one I know, I am still traveling and just arrived here, but people are closing up, and I wanted to buy stuff. I had a whole list in my head, but the more I look around the less there is and the more I see the employees cover things up. And I ask them whether I can still buy something, because obviously, they want to go and I have no time left, but they say yes, go ahead, but then they also explain I can use the till myself when they are gone. I'm not sure about this, but am happy enough to be able to buy things, yet by that time I have forgotten what I needed. Maybe Anpi is there or she comes later.
All the employees are women and after a short while they leave the shop. When they are closed I am still here, and then other people arrive, and I explain. But when someone wants to buy something, then I go to the till and touch the screen, because it is with a touch screen, and the screen is horizontal, but it does not make sense to me and I always am wrong, so it does not work. After that I look for a manual, because there is bound to be one, but the dream gives me no time or opportunity.
Then this place because the secret place to gather for a conference of occult talks. Fras is here, and maybe Dapa, and some Jews too. There will certainly be a talk about necromancy. Speakers are already preparing in the adjacent rooms.
When all is ready people are guided to their speakers, and I realize the program is so full that you have to choose between three speakers. Everyone else is prepared, I see the program on a sheet of paper. I follow Fras, or go my own way but end up in the same room as her. I go through the first room, which is big, much bigger than the shop, then go to the second and stay there. As big. The whole room is darkened, but soft light is spread by the crystals, orange to red, placed about the room, this is wonderful. So many stones together I had not seen yet. Stones are arranged in different places, but always in groups, and one group contains many stones. And they all shine. The man who is going to do something is at the other end, and I see Fras there, but I stay where I am, the man is assisted by a woman.

5. Try to Watch a DVD

One of the last dreams. I'm home, though it looks very different and feels very different than reality. White, light, small. I just watched a film, cartoon, and when I finished I see that loads of dvd's are packed behind me. All the same ones, packages, but they contain part two and three of what I just watched, something with a penguin on the cover. These dvd's are from work, which is why they are here. But when I look carefully, I see that some packages are open, and I might take the dvd and watch it, which is what I plan to do.
When I want to do that, the scene changes and we are in a different living room, with my brothers and the children of the street, neighbours, and about to watch a dvd. My brothers are in charge.
There is a computer and I want to access it, not waiting for my brothers, because I want to do something too. But there is a code, and it seems this is the account of Beha and I don't know his password, although the first letter is given, which is 'a', and I remember what it should be, so I enter it, but another screen with password is given then. This is more difficult because it refers to characters from children's series, but they are written in the way children pronounce them, not the right spelling, and I can't read it, but behind me I hear the others read each of the names out loud together. At that point I am at another computer in the same room but a little further on the left.

6. Back Problems

There was also someone with a back problem who sat in a chair. Maybe Joja cared for him, I sat opposite them at the table, and more people were at the table, light. The helper explained, that his lower vertebrae were rusted, and that when he sat in a couch, he would look very strange, because he can't sit upwards. Now, only on a hard chair he can sit, because of the very straight position.

7. Veranda Get Together with Neighbours

Last dream. Home of parents, day, light, I go to the veranda, there are many of us gathered already, all the neighbours, of our age. They sit at a table, round one, in the middle of the veranda. I go there from the living room and sit on one side. Later Stco arrives too, and he has a young child with him, holding him against his chest. Now I can't remember what happened, but Stco was laughed at for some reason and I did not laugh, and Stco stayed serious.

Fair Justice and her Boat

1. Mental Exercise

I am in my badminton outfit, sports hall.
I take a few paces backwards, but all happens with the mind. There is a connection between what I think and what happens in the dream, as if the dream is passive, but my mental body is very active and everything is translated in images, although it is very sober, dark and simple, like back and forward stepping.
I mentally think of retreating I think, and I push something back, and I do that again, so I repeat, but I can't help doing it in fact, because I'm in a state of mind in which I'm not very awake, and the dream responds.
Something about turning about in bed, which would indicate someone's age.
Then notes I can't read, and then it says: still the same possibilities, which means I think that I try to think in a certain way so that I don't exclude options.

2. Gods

Something about looking for ... and something about gods, but I can't read my notes and I don't remember what it refers to.

3. Gods and Dragons

Mefa is here, Leuven, cycling. We find each other, meaning that it happens incidently.
Then we go somewhere, day out, Woli comes along, and we'll be doing something esoteric.
Long way in the country side, long scene, but then there is a train, at the water, as if in a cave, with a canal in between, and cars or vehicles coming from the other side (can't remember what is meant).
Goes rather fast, but I like it. Fire, and water. Man power drives the train's engine. Somehow, because I think it was the passenger by being in the train that drove it, maybe by thought power?
Fire was important, but can't remember context.
Something about the Aesir.
Land of the farmer indicates the different places, field, and says: the pile or hill or mound must go. I think this refers to a mole.
But I don't want that, and there are other animals sealed in it.
It is difficult to remain stable, standing, upright (can't remember context), the ground has been divided in the territoria of animals, small animals, and a dragon, and a snake.
Another snake, and something I don't know what it is, and something else, and they are all my friends.
And my brother N arrives here before me.

4. Fair Justice
(wet dream).

Friends of mine have a boat, two ladies, their names are Faith Justice and Anna Wolkranz (not sure of the second last name). Faith Justice says that she is only spending time there, on the boat, and then something about Justice. And either both or one of their names is on the boat.
I understand her. Faith Justice is the younger one and the more extravagant, while Anna is a short woman who is younger than me, but might as well be my mother's age, she wears red and does not move a lot, Faith is the tall one, more blue, but rather dark.
So we all go on the ship, me first, before they have the time to take a way the gangplank, which is rather large and consists of three square planks, and on the left is a stone wall in the water, but there is so much wood that you can't tell there is water underneath, gives a safe feeling, except that Faith has the kind of character to pull the thing away unexpectedly. Yet I am fond of her, in exchange for the boat trip we have to play music, dj. 
From the start she says she will only eat a starter, main course or desert, and not the other things. They thought of this or the did not? What it entails is that I have to make a decision for her. She gives me the option to choose, but whatever I will choose will affect everyone else, because everyone else can only have what she is having.
So she has already given it though, I have not, which means I'm at a disadvantage.
Everyone is on the boat, we sail.
Something about Jommeke is Joja comic collection, in specific number 135, which has the word Vater in it.
And there is also experimenting with sex, I with her, I suppose I mean Faith, and there is a girl on the boat that I see now while we are experimenting who is a little nymphomanic, so I keep an eye out. She wanted sex already from when she something something.
And later we do some more exchanging, though I only see the female partners, and I take someone from behind, there are more girls than boys, and not all have them want to join, because of the toy, sex toy, which might be the game itself.
The other girls lay her on the table, because they know best how it is done, they know their own bodies best and take care of one another, it is their game and their fun, and I'm fine with that. It is very practical, I see that the minute they lay her on the table. (Who? I can't remember). I take her from behind, this is certainly the second time I do it with her and the first time was marvelous, and this time I'm not hard enough and it is a bit difficult to get in, but I come anyway. This is a wet dream. Yet at that moment I tried to do the technique of keeping it in, but I have not enough energy, so I let it go and keep the though of restraint at the same time, and as a matter of fact I can't tell whether it worked or not. (I checked my underwear in the morning and I'm not sure, which means that if I soiled it it can't have been much, so it might have worked).
Something about getting home and crossing the street, and Mago, an old friend from school is he and Pesl, they know each other. This is outside on the street, unknown place, crossroads, but where we are is a broad pavement as if for a little market and it reminds me of Borough Market, the outside part, in London. For some reason when they meet me they hug me. Of Mago I would have done that spontaneously for some reason, but he hugs more tight and seriously than I reckoned he would, but Pesl also hugs, and I had not expected that. I was the last of my friends to cross the street, but Mago and Pesl came behind, they were not part of the party at all, though I suspected the coming of Mago.
And someone on the boat says: good music, something something plays still. (This before).

There is a part in the dream which is more or less close up and I see a table on which are three or four red cystal skulls, fist size, on a dark red and yellow cloth, in a corner, this is on the boat. And a woman is there, and my mother is there, game. Can't remember the context.

5. In Need of Shower

Inside, upper floor, light. I have to go to the bathroom, there is one outside. First on the place itself, height or bed apart, sex toy (can't remember the details at all).
Bale is there. We have sex, first normal, than a second time from behind. She is uncertain. But I am sure, and I look with my hand for her fanny, and she is still wet a little, so I go for it.
And old woman who is nearby wants to have an orgasm too, she comes because she wants me to do it, and I don't want it and I tell her someone else has to do it.
Later when all is done I remain naked, and I want to have a shower, but the shower is far away. Something with a monkey?
Veranda, grass, brothers, dad.
Water to rinse, cleanse my body, I cannot do something which the others are doing nonetheless, and this is because I am naked. This restricts as if by a law of nature.
I go outside because I want to go to the toilet, school, I find the toilets, but there are no showers, (dream reminds me of dreams I had long ago). There are other people, girls. 
With Bale on the couch, this was earlier, and I see her lips and I would have kissed them, but that would not be appropriate, so I don't, but I do have sex with her. I go for her vagina and very intensely kiss those lips.

6. Shot in Magazine

Close up type, reading magazine, I only see the cover or the first page, one page only, and a big picture is on it, green and blue, and our big smiling boss is on it, I think in the dream, is this real, is it really him, I mean the big boss, who is still young. Magazine or newspaper.

Water Plantation

1. Voucher Machine Crashed

Shop, try to print a voucher, but the machine does not do what it should, I hadn't thought this could happen to me.

2. Singing and Shouting

Home of parents, back side, veranda, light, good colours, both parents are there. Circle of people. Mention of Stephen Covey.
There is singing. First of all I see someone outside coming from the neighbours' place coming this way, shouts but with a clear voice. And this is an example of communication.
Later there is singing within the circle, but I don't think I join.
Anpi sits on my left. After two something something she leaves, but when she leaves she stands up from her chair and holds my hand, both hands, like she is used to do, and I don't know how to behave because there are many people about, but she holds them for some time and it is difficult to let go, both for her and for me but for her especially, and that is when I realize what I should have done, which is to give total emptiness and give nothing back.

3. Too Posh at the Party

Can't read my notes, but I remember I arrive late at the wedding party, which is outside and sunny, and my brothers are there and my father too and other people, and they are all dressed rather casually, while I arrive fully in costume and am by far the best clothed person around, which makes me cringe, because I don't want to stand out, firstly, and I also see Beha, whose wedding this is, and I don't want to be better dressed than him. So I feel embarrassed. D is there, and a woman. Sunlight, light.

4. Wedding Activities

Maybe the same dream. We go inside, it is time to play badminton. This is unusual but may become a new trend, that for a wedding such activities are planned in the afternoon. And there are two alternatives, but we all choose badminton. This is a large sports complex, square building, big halls. We go up by the stairs and find the place where everybody leaves his shoes or takes shoes for doing sports. And this place is a little dark. And I am on my own and I can't really decide what to do. People choose shoes, and I stay behind and wander about. Other people come in, leave again. I go back to the front, where the door is, and decide to join everyone else.
Then I also have to go to the bathroom, so I look for the toilets, and nobody is there, but I take this one toilet which has something propped in it, so the water can't flow. I go anyway and am a bit uneasy about the fact that the toilet is now full and clogged.
Something about Bale, she was there, at the door, could make better decisions than me.

5. Badminton in Skirts

Related but not the same dream.
Same building, more light, we are four and we are going to play badminton, the hall is on the right this time and ground floor, not on the left upper floor. And I follow everybody, knowing that I am the only decent player. And one of us is a tall guy clothes as a girl, his dress is rather short and you can see most of his legs, and the colours are bright green and bright purple and it is a marvel to look upon. And the other two are normal people, one of them might have been Krvh.
And we find a court. But the courts are paired, and it is not clear were everyone wants to play and this mixes the teams, because it was already arranged, certainly in my mind, who would play with who so that the teams would be equal, but now because of the confusion to play in the back or front court, this does not work out and I notice that the others are not too happy about it, because I will certainly win. The intention was that Krvh would play with me, but now she is on the other side, with the gay guy. He is the one marrying.

6. Burning Trees

Don't know how the dream started but it was apocalyptic. We go outside, which means that at first things happened inside, or we went through the whole cataclysm inside. End of the world type of dream.
Outside everything is burned, it is light, but it should be dark, there is no real atmosphere any more. People are short on water, it is very expensive, you either own water or you don't. There are fields with plastic bottles and they all contain water, for private use.
Early in the dream there was some text about Cthulhu, and other texts in the same vein. We walk away and go on our way, with a party of a few people. All the land is devastated. Nature is no more. After a while it becomes obvious. The trees are all dead or are dying. Nothing is left of the woods, and this is the worst thing of all. When we go further, we see on the way trees whose chopped tops are still aflame and blazing.
There in the neighbourhood off of the path we are taking on our right we see a plantation and stalks with water bottles hanging from strings. They are all very tight. Of course we want water, though I don't feel the need, but we have to be careful. This plantation is own by powerful people who are bad and we want to avoid them, we don't want them to know we were here at all, so I avoid the place.
The bottles are hung with string, and also they are connected to each other with string, so that if you touch one bottle, all the others will resonate and the owners will know. So we go the other side, which is in the woods, and I am really depressed about the state of the trees. That is about when the dream ends.

Fluffy Spider

Saturday 10 August 2013

1. Singing in Pairs

Meat. Special class, Woli and I happen to be there. There is also a girl present that is with us. Something is done a lot. Difficult.

Outside. Students, everyone is pairing up, and in theory this happens from a distance, which means in advance of seeing each other.
I am alone. Mother is there. At the end mother is the victim of a practical joke. All this has to do with each other, the pairing up.
There is a lot of singing. People sing a lot. She (mother?) is being laid in water, under water. The song is called "from B to D" (which are the names of my uncle and aunt). I help her go under water, she falls, after that everyone makes fire, but I did not bring anything because I did not know. But Rome is there too and he wants something something, but he misswallows himself. Something something.

2. Neighour's Apartment

Something something, apartment, neighbours. (Can't read the rest of my notes at all).
(Can't read notes).
Toothpaste, night.

3. Poem of the Year 2000

Living room, food is being served. There is not a lot of space in the sofa. Maki stands next to me, we have a discussion about Dutch as a language. Can Dutch be closer something something. She sits so close to me that I sometimes wish she would move a little and then we would match perfectly and she would sit on my lap and it would fit perfectly, her body on my body. But there are too many other people around so I don't try anything, and she is innocent in her closeness.
Outside, coming home from somewhere. Something is broke that must be made. Seven times (?).
Someone comes up to me and says that she or he wants a poem that I wrote in 2000, the person is very specific.
Margriet Hermans. Mother wants to tell me something, but she does not have the courage. Something something, and then I am on the phone.
Food. Maybe a choir.

4. Stones

Maybe connected with previous dream. Living room, sofa, plates with food, box with stones, a woman plays with them to get some order. Something about the woman.

5. Two Cats in the Shop

Bale, shop, condoms, I have a plate in my hands. Queuing at the till. Large shop and I am a customer. Different sections, till is all the way in the back. I am in the middle section when I start queuing, before that I was looking around. Bale is in the neighbourhood, but both of us are not connected, though she knows this place better than me.
I noticed cats when I came in, two of them in specific, still young and playful, wanting attention, but not assertive enough to come up, so I leave them be.
When I am in the middle section, there is a chair and I sit there to do something. High stool. And suddenly I notice that both cats are under the stool with me, and on my left. I see them and they want attention. By now the cats are very distinct in colour, the one is like a lion and the other like a tiger (and they remind me of the cats that were present at the workshop Wednesday). So I stretch out my left hand and the lion cat takes it and sets its teeth in me, but playful, never bites for real, and grabs me with her paws, very gentle, but strong enough. And I like it. And Bale sees it, and she wonders if they don't hurt me. First I give attention to this cat only, then the other one too.
From the shop I don't take anything with me, but something to lock my bicycle.

6. Chocolate

Sit at table, time to eat, I got a package from someone, all is wrapped in aluminum and I open it, there are bars of chocolate.

7. Pink Spider

Much earlier dream. At home of parents. First bathroom. I am alone there, I prepare. I see a spider. The atmosphere is grey and white. And the spider does not move, is big, and has the same colours. In fact, the spider stands out because of the colours. The legs are very long and white. The body has two or three colours, first of all white, but also grey, and then in two places pink, a dark pink. And the spider has fluffy parts and looks very special. But I'm not sure I want to get closer. In the dream I remember what kind of spider it is and what it means, it is a rare kind.
When it comes closer or something else happens, for example when I leave the bathroom and get in the hall next to it, I am thinking that this kind of spider needs to get in my body to make new spiders. And yet I know I should make contact, because it would yield me a lot of positive things, yet I am a bit worried that it will lodge in my body, so I go away.
But when I enter the other room, hallway, I see another such spider. And this is weird enough, because there should be only one. But one of them is spinning already, and that is why it is dangerous for me now to stay, the spider makes a sort of cobweb that looks like a cotton candy, spun sugar. And it works like a cocoon, but if I stay here I will be caught in the thing, although now it is only in proportion to the spider, but it has the size of a real cotton candy, and the spider is maybe the size of my fist, legs longer.

Underground Hoodoo Altar

1. Train to Holland

On the way back from Germany, with the train, first going to Holland, my brothers are with me, especially D. I see the countryside, blue and green, trees. We are outside, stop in between, discussion, uncertain about next step. Something about the borders, Limburg. We follow him, or her? D? Get on the train, food, sausages?
Something about the accent of the people living here. I understand what they're saying anyway, but it is funny. At the same time there is a group old people, inside on the train, and we share the cabin with them, they sit on one side. I don't mind, they're harmless.
This was an early dream, first I remember, first cycle of the night.

2. Candle Magic

Same dream, what happened later in the dream.
Train. Outside. Bale is there, Joja and my mother. I don't like it that Joja is here, because I don't want to be disturbed, and he always makes a fuss or gives comments.
Inside, on one side, I do something on my own, which is burning candles, I have an altar ready here and it is always on it seems, but three of the candles are not burning well and I have to tend them again and again. I go back and relight the wicks. Only three, the two behind are not necessary. The three are the middle, west and south. Bees wax all of them, except maybe the middle one. There is all kinds of stuff on the altar. The altar is on a weird place, like the underground subway station, the rails nearby, a public place. Right next to the stairs, yet I don't think anyone else sees this. Voodoo.

Every time I relight the candles. Joja is nearby, doing something else, like waiting for the train or figuring out which train to take. I think he suggest going to Roma (can't read notes). Anyway, I tell him no, so I stay behind.
Across of the rails I see white animals, maybe like hermelijn, ermine. Many of them, a whole population, they are like animals of another world, they watch, I see them, but there is no interaction. They live there in the dark and wait. Some of them are on the rails.
A girl stays behind too, young, and she is wild. And we connect in some way, and I tear my pants, hinder part, but the whole length of the left leg. And at the end of the dream I sit on the girl (?) or the other way around (I can't read my notes and can't remember). At the same time on the stone stairs, broad, I see Kaco, this is a lucid moment. I cannot let it bother me.
First dream of the night.

3. Training

I'm training to go to the ... (can't read notes), and something about Suske and Wiske, which I now can't remember, but they were like real people, and were in the dream a long time, though only in one scene.
Garage of parents at home. Elite something. Something about a space shuttle, can't remember.
Something something, maybe Great Force (?), spirit (?), teacher, notebook about dreams. And something else I can't read anymore.

4. Take my Job

I'm in the Diestsestraat, noon time, electro shop Expert, which is in the dream all the way at the end of the street, near the station (normally not so far). I go in. Two guys are working there of whom I now they've been working there for a long time, but a new person is also there, a girl, young. Long hair, maybe red? She's new. I have no real business here yet I am here, in my break. This is her first day, but she is being taught, and she will start in July, or September. 
The boss of the shop sees me, he knows me. The shop is empty, but big, and square. He comes and gets me and says I can start in August, because when I enter it seems like I'm looking for a job, but I have to declines, because as he should know I am working. I am surprised he does not take that into account
The parents of the girl are also there, distracted. When I come in I hang my jacket at the wall with the thing for jackets. The girl and her parents see this and they do the same as well. I think they are happy someone showed them. I did not do this on purpose.
I look around, obviously I am well acquainted with the shop and its owners, for what reason I cannot say. When I start to go back I see a wall with books, that interests me, though it is not the kind of book of my interest. All big with hardcover, light, white covers, photographs, interior and so on, art maybe.
Then I will need to go back to my job.

Later in the same dream. Taiji. I show my taiji, to a woman who is interested.
I am alone with a girl that is interested. She is doing another form, but does not mind, and I don't mind, although Joja is very critical. He follows me around. I show her pushing hands, especially double shoulder roll, because in the dream I think this is the most all around exercise in which everything can be explained, and I start very detailed, first with one arm, left, and then both, and at every time I say what needs to be done, very meticulously. This is exactly what she wants.
She does her exercises. This is when she sits down on her bottom and starts to spin. I think this is very weird and I stand by. And she explains this is for sensing energy. And I'm sure it works, but she stays on the floor and lies full length, and after a moment of considering I go to her and pick her up by the waist, like you would with a cat. And she trusts me, she does not even notice I have to replace my hands, because I had not a good grip on her body.

5. Taiji Contract

Related to the above (4). I enter the side of a building, but it is the only place to enter, and I have to be in this building for preparing taiji class or workshop. When I enter there is also a woman and she is interested in what I do. The hallway is very small, and narrow, and there is also a long table or closet, so less place even. That is where I meet her and she hands me papers, about five, and this must be some kind of agreement, colour coded, red, blue and green, I think.
After that I go to the main hall, which is just next door, and my brother N and my mother are there, and the training hall is empty, this is a school sports hall. On the far end there is the seats. I go there. Preparations need to be made. Or maybe things need to be broken up?

6. Staples dropped in Bath Tub

The staples I pulled out of my pants drop in the water. This happens by accident, I don't mean to. And I had done water in the bath, so that is where it is. I have a plate, I want to take all of the staples out.

Broken Puzzle

1. Fabric for Photos

Time traveling.
Two stories about ??? or overlap each other.

Something something in a Japanese school. When outside, looks like or is Hoover square in Leuven, looking at university library. Students, they make music. Something about making music.
Contract. Something something (can't read notes, go camping?). There is a tablet. If I remember correctly this was on the table, my brothers were there, especially D, who was on my left. Kitchen table. Much light, throughout the whole dream. This tablet is someone else's, that is, the person is not present. And it lies on the right far side. I can see from where I am sitting that the tablet is open and shows facebook, so to check facebook. And I am curious. Come closer.
I take the machine and look. It shows pictures, six to eight on a page, and I browse a little more because I want to see the normal page and not the pictures. But I can only find pictures. In the meanwhile I see they are from Tivb, and now I'm interested of course, because I like her. And I take a closer look.
In the meanwhile my brothers and me are here on a job, though this may well be our home. And someone suggest we need more material, fabric, like in linen, to sew especially. That is what we do, but we are very relaxed about it. Someone literally asks: what do you want. But she means more fabric. And I can't see her, as she would be behind me and this might be the supervisor.
(Then I can't read my notes). Sleep? Something about a difficult object. Something instead of something else, this might be about the fabric, like in a better option.
Do I remember an eagle?
Something about 25 years. This might refer about the years of work, but I can't remember now. It was important though.

Somehow the dream shifts, still the same people, but in a different location, and still has to do with the work we were doing, only it might be a break. Still light, but not as brilliant as the beginning of the first part.
I am in a small corridor that is actually a very clumsy conduit from one place in the building to another, behind me are rooms higher up, and in front too. On the left is nothing. It is small, narrow. And on the right is a wall, but not all the way to the ceiling, maybe a meter high, but beneath is an other conduit, much lower, and behind me are stairs that lead there. I also look over this small wall and look down. Things are hanging down from the ceiling, wood, is part of the shop. Like mobile.
I sit in this somewhat long narrow place with another man, at a table and I have the feeling we are much in the way, taking up all the space. And this man is Rodn, or reminds me of him.
We stumble upon some interesting conversation. He is supposed to be my teacher, but we are both here by coincidence and don't really know what to say, while I am thinking that I should be the one to keep the conversation going. But somewhere along the way interesting things are being said, and it is about angels, and I try to prove my knowledge by speaking up before he can finish his sentences.
He mentions Metatron. That is when my interest peaks. And I tell him what I know about this being, saying that I the name is not the usual Hebrew, but that I think it is Greek, but that I don't know the meaning of it. And he starts saying something about Metatron, not agreeing on the Greek, and he is about to reveal the meaning of the name, when other people interrupt and I don't hear the answer.
When the others arrive, I suppose this means we have to get back to work, and the nice conversation is broken up and I stand up, while Rodn was standing all along. And when I get up or do something else I accidentally topple an oversized wooden puzzle that hangs from the ceiling. And it falls on the low conduit, so I leave my place and go down the stairs to next of the wall beneath and try to be very careful and pick up as many pieces that I can of the puzzle because it has not fallen so badly but in three big chunks, which will be easy to reconstruct. Only I have to take care that I don't break them up as I lift them and carry them upstairs. So I am careful. Puzzle of De Morgen.
That is about where that fragment ends.

And a new scene starts which is again in the first place, and this is certainly still the same dream. And now a girl, blond and beautiful and young, comes to me and gives me a lot of attention while ignoring the others, but I am very aware of the others watching, and am a bit embarrassed, but I let it go. This is Tivb and she sits on top of me, on my lap and looks at me, watches me intently, and then she also starts to go up and down as if having sex. And I am a bit uneasy by the fact that other people are still in the room, but I let it happen. I see her from very close up, and the thing she has on her face is red like a candy stuck on her face. After a while she looks really wild and not herself anymore and I'd rather have that it stops.
That is about when it ends and I was awake enough in the dream already to decide and take the necessary notes.

This was the first dream of the night, and the recording is not very good, because the two lines in the beginning of the story were true during the whole dream.

2. Broadcast

Sketches are being broadcast, this is an idea of N, D, and Beha. Father is near. Beha something something. Utterable Titanic (?). I want feedback about something, and I remember something...

3. Heating the Stove in the Shop is not Allowed because of too many Mobile Phones

Shop, till. List and me there. List wants to heat the stove of the shop, which would be behind us, where there is normally a table top. Wood stove. She is not allowed to do that, because there are too many mobile phones.
Other fragment later in the dream. Outside, front garden of parents, at night, or in the meanwhile it has become night, and I stand there and watch and I see two small volcanoes, craters in the garden, one very active that I think will never die out, but I don't want them to die out, they have to keep burning. But it is a very nice and impressive sight, even if they're so small, but they go back deep into the core of the earth, and at first they were bigger, but I can't remember that. This thing lasts really long in time, though I can't remember it, but in the dream it was so, I now have lost that sensation.
One of the craters lasts very long, bright red glow.

4. Double Volcano in the Garden

Somewhere inside, reminds me of a prison, no roof though, high walls and people packed together, grey. Deep, the outside we cannot see, but I know there is an entrance behind me and another door that leads somewhere else in front of me. Square room. The floor is of earth and grey and is not smooth.
D is there. Lots of people. We wait. I don't know what we're doing here. I have a feeling that all these people are caught here permanently. I however know that this is just a place in between, I have oversight enough in the dream to know that we come from somewhere and need to go somewhere else, and in my mind I even see the rooms and places, though only in the abstract, no visual.
There are different groups.
Other stuff I can't remember.

Burning Ship at Sea

1. Taking in the Monkey

There is a monkey that clings to me, I take it inside with me. Even if I don't know if that is good idea. Dark. House. Urban setting.
Someone, maybe me, has a whole load of food brought along for the monkey. Currently it lies on the floor, I see there is a lot of meat among the food, raw steak and stuff like that, big pieces. It is in a transparent plastic bag. I leave it there for the time being. I wonder a moment if monkeys eat meat, let alone that much, this is more like for a tiger. Brown, slim monkey. Clings to me all the time.
The monkey does what it wills, I have no control over it and it does funny almost mischievous things, which I expect from it, so I don't care. It is only a monkey, it cannot understand.

2. Family Gathering

There is a family get together. My uncle J is there. (Can't read notes). 

3. Hiding from the Sea

We're in Holland with the family, at the end of the world, kind of feel, at the sea, nothing else beyond that point, although I see a ship at the horizon, at some point.
I go to that place, the dunes are high just before where the sea begins, which feels threatening, dark, and stormy looking. Not really dunes, because there is a lot of vegetation. Terp. I go there once, alone, and then go back, because I should not get up there and look at this sea. I think my brothers and parents are here too, but they don't come along. 
Later I go back up, this is when I have gathered more courage in myself and am prepared to face this sea. Still I don't want to show myself to the sea, and I try to hide from where I am sitting at the top of this terp or dune. There is a lot of grass, high, and reed maybe, but it makes it easy to hide. This is when I see the storm, at the horizon on my left are dark clouds gathering, they are really impressive, but a long way ahead, I would have time to go back at leisure and go inside. 
This is also when I see fire, at my right side, closer by, and this appears to be a ship that has caught fire. There is a lot of smoke, black smoke, and that makes the atmosphere even darker. And by this I am more impressed, because maybe there are people on it still, I think I can see human activity, trying to salvage whatever possible. The whole ship has burned, metal, big.
But I decide it is better to get back inside, and this is what I do and that is more or less the end of the dream. The last thing I do.

4. Buying Condoms with a Book

I am in Leuven, evening, wandering about, not many people about because of the time, and maybe it is Sunday. I am in the part where the Grote Markt and the Oude Markt connect. There is a shop instead of the street, in the corner, greenish, I go in because it is open. I have been here before, according to the dream. And I look around, seeing what they sell. When I leave a thought has formed in my mind and I decide to buy condoms because this might be the right moment. I want to have some with me and now not a lot of people are in the shop so no too many will see. I go to where they are and there is only one kind, I pick it up, it is a big package, sort of the size of a book, but square, and on one side the prize is stuck on, which I try to remove for some reason, I get it off only half, the rest sticks on the pack, I don't mind. The bar code is on this thing, dark, purple, black, and it looks a bit like a voucher that you sometimes find on supermarket articles, and can fold open. I take all this to the counter and check whether people see me, two other people are approaching the till, but I am sure to be first, this will be okay. Someone is behind the till, so I expect everything to go smoothly.
I hand over everything, she, or he, scans it, and says the price, which is € 29,95, which at first I think is a lot, but then I think these must be luxury ones and a lot of them maybe. I pay, not to make a fuss. At that point the package is red, a nice red, not too shiny. I take everything with me, under my arm, and at that point this pack is indeed a book and I am surprised to discover that, because I had not expected to find a book with the condoms, but that is a nice surprise and look forward reading it.

5. Taiji Staff

Fragment, dark, in which I or someone else wields a taiji staff. This staff looks like the one I have.

6. Drinking Coffee

Fragment in which I am with other people, someone has a coffee and for some reason I too drink coffee, it is suddenly there and I had not realized, but for the moment when I drink it and taste it. I decide I still not like it.

Flame Throwers and Dinosaurs

1. Fighting Dinosaurs

At some point in a dream I am in a house, ground level, the place is divided in three parts, we came in in the upper part. Every section is a little lower. The highest part is the safest place. We have to go to the middle part to do what we need to do. But the lowest part, the farthest away, is inhabited by primordial beings, scaled, green, dinosaur like beings, monstrous and big that look evil and threatening. They remind me of Cthulhu beings. 

Some of these beasts are smaller and some are bigger. At first I see only one, then three, then more.

My brothers N and D are here, as is Stco. The whole thing looks like a pc game.

Of course, the only way to defeat these creatures is to use the flamethrower. I have such a pistol with and go to the side, from where I aim to the beasts. A line of some fluid comes out but never fire. I assume this is the oil, but it reminds me of sperm, as if we are shooting sperm to these beings. But it is the only thing we can do, so I keep to it. Someone else does the same, and the same happens. The beasts should disappear if you hit them long enough. After a while my weapon is empty.

Plated kind of dinosaur.

2. Soy Beans

I am eating soy beans, alone, table, light, room, reminds me of kitchen, unfamiliar surroundings, inside, open.

Later my brothers and parents.

Something about healing. Hat. Leuven?

N has read a book. Is it any good? Niab has read it too, so that is a recommendation.

3. Time Traveling

Something about time traveling. At some point I am in a city at night and choose to walk through a narrow street that goes upward, rather steep. And really narrow. But this leads to where I live. It is cold, dark, slippery, but I know the way.

Something about a birthday?

Newspaper Book

1. School Toilets

I'm at a school, dark, upper floor. Big halls. I am or I feel out of place. The long or big hall is the refectory. Windows on two sides.

At some point I am looking for the toilets. It is a difficult quest, and I wander through many different places. In the morning no one is here, in the evening, the place is full with school kids, girls.

At some point I see a particular girl that I don't know, she is small and wears lipstick. I follow her.

Before that at the lift, there were three or two girls waiting, blond, all of them. One in particular looked very nice, and this one I patted on the bottom when I passed. 

It is clear that the small girl wants me to follow her. I feel rather embarrassed and I wait a long time before I follow, namely when I think that everybody's attention is no longer directed at me. This means I have to go fast to catch her.

I find her still, I see her walking a long distance away from me in parts of the school that look like underground garages. When I finally stand before her, we both stand still and I don't know what to say. This is the moment we have both been waiting for and now I don't know what to do or how. So I ask her whether she is looking for the bathroom, and whether I might go with her.

When we stand there, still, she kisses me, her mouth open, it feels a little clumsy, but I help her and it is okay. I am thinking that she had red or purple hair. I notice I taste her lipstick, but I don't let it get to me.

Then we roam about the place together, mostly among the teachers, because we are now in a part of the school that is not for the students, just so that we would not be seen. We don't want to be seen.

Then I start to guide her. We go outside for a while and enter the building somewhere else, as if I know where we are going. Maybe Wa of Leca is here. Maybe a place that looks like the alma, student restaurant.

I am looking for a place where we can make out safely, but I can't find any, and I drag her along, gently.

Finally we come into a big hangar which is also a garage like place. A film will be shown here and there is a lone bench in the middle of the space, more on the right and I sit down, and she sits down, on my right, but not close, there is a lot of space between us. We sit down and are very good.

There are other couples here and especially a lot of female teachers. They are all very good looking.

2. Lightning in the Shop

I am in the shop. At some point there is lightning, it looks like it is not real but drawn, as in a cartoon. But very big and impressive. Don't know the connection with the rest of the dream anymore.

Someone buys something (From notes), I am at the computer when I arrive. Brva and someone else are here.

For some reason, everyone, all the colleagues are at the computer, this is because she has difficulties. This is the situation when I arrive, and I am thinking, who is going to help the customer.

So this one customer buys something and I tend to him. He comes with a pile of newspapers which are his to start with probably. There is also a book, but the next time I look, there are even more newspapers on top of it, so the book itself is hidden away in between. And I am thinking, will this person be able to carry it all?

There is also a part in the dream which comes first, in a part of the shop that does not really exist, which is small and long and we stock stuff here that we usually don't use. All grey. Brva is here. Maybe Digr at some point, but only briefly.

There are these metal plates that we put on the wall to present books. They are much larger and a lot more, all stocked. And there are on the walls and on other places spaces to slide these in. I do that or try, because it is necessary. This is a way to detract the lightning when it strikes, so it must be done. I am the one doing this. Apparently it does not work.

Sliding Floor

1. The Mare

(From notes). I go outside for a moment, Bale is there. A small girl appears. I hold her against my chest. (This was the most emotional part of the dream). Apparition. I try something something. (From notes). But after that she still follows I don't know what, can't read notes. With me something other something something.

All this happens in the night. If I remember correctly, this is on a patio, back of a house. Dark. I leave everyone to their own business and go back inside.

Outside, jogging, or doing sports of some kind. She comes after me, I can't remember who. Something like a cliff, or rock with long I don't know what. I run to somewhere. I climb the cliff, together with someone else. All this is part of a challenge. I can't back out now.

This was the first dream of the night, very early.

2. Business Fair Escape

The main dream, light, turquoise, big complex, business building, with terrains on the left, and parking lots on the right, they are all down, on a lower level. The surface level is behind us, which is the boundary with the normal world, which is this building, of many stories. We are on one of the higher stories. Central building, modern. White.

There are many halls in this building too, and hallways and stairways. A business fair is going on.

Somewhere in the dream there is Inla.

We are here to attend the fair, we went there in the first part of the dream, then came back, and in the second part we had to go again, while I wanted to leave. I can't remember the sequence of events very clearly.

Maybe family, mayb Dohe? Brother N must be here too.

One of the stalls outside is manned by people of Knack, and all the others are also work related. The fair is outside. Press fair.

At the end of the dream, I am looking out of the window trying to plan my way out of here. A few people are here with me, we want to go. The location of the parking lot has changed.

3. Housewarming

It is Woli's housewarming and I arrive in his apartment. People are already there. I go through the hallway, which looks a bit like that one of the Lintstraat, if that is the correct street.

In enter through the door on my left. That is where people are gathered. Light inside, dark in the hallway. I shake hands and meet old friends, all familiar faces. Mefa is there. And a lady from badminton. Sien is there too, maybe. I start talking to the lady because I am surprised to find her here, I did not realize we had the same friends, Woli and Mefa are surprised that I do this. No problem. In the meanwhile I want to press on because I am eager to get things started. Behind these first few people, I see people I don't know, there is one guy with a beginning beard, brown hair, next to the table, I go to him and shake hands. It was my goal to greet everyone personally. Now that I've done that I can go on.

In order to get to this last guy and meet him, I have to pass other people, and I don't give a damn if I have to shove people to the side. So I'm a bit hard.

After all that I still got a feeling that things don't go forward and I'm a bit frustrated.

When I said hello, we all go to the next room, which is through another door back in the same hallway, and then we cross the hallway and enter a door on the other side. There is more light there. Woli goes first, but I'm not far behind. I'm one of the first. Someone who is very close to me is beside me, he is unacquainted with any of the others, but has wisdom. Or maybe it is Racr.

This new room is the place where we will have the real party. Someone warns us that the floor is rather steep and deceives people, so take care not to fall. So we stay in the door opening, both of us, and we look at the floor, it is an old, yellow squared one, I don't like the floor, but I can't see anything wrong with it. Maybe a little further, the floor is a little bent, but nothing dangerous. So we go in.

Some other people, like Chwe, are already there, they weren't in the first room to start with, have always been here. Then, my friend goes in first, and when he takes a few more steps he slides.

So it is true after all.

That is when the dream ends.

The last dream.

4. Enflamed

Fire all about my body. Enflamed. Real.

I don't know how this dreaming came about. Last dream.