Castle Rooms

1. Castle Spook

First outside, fighting with someone. Then cleaning up something, there is a rail like for trains, taking flight we are, but it does not work. It is night or evening at that point, so dark outside.
Then, still in the dark, there is a fragment where I see Dabe at a table. This is already at the castle, which is on a height, I know the place well, and used to be very welcome here, now I am here as an escapee and trying to keep a low profile. Most people who work here know me and know who I am, but no one else can know. And when I see Dabe, I know I should be careful and he cannot recognize me or that would bring danger on me. He sits outside, which is like a terrace and a balcony at the same time. At a table in the corner, there are maybe two other people with him, among which a woman. The terrace has a shoulder high stone wall all around. I suppose the castle is built on a mountain cliff. Now it is mostly a hostel, but very private and exquisite.
From where I see Dabe is between inside and outside, to my left (but on the right if you would draw a plan) is the main door and beside that is a path for cars to come to the back, I think, but where I am is next to this door and this is like a bar and we stand there, some people are tending to visitors, who are staying here, so I should say guests, and I am one of the guests, on my own, while the others are not. People have a drink and so on.

Dabe is drinking coffee. It is a round table. I go to him to serve him drink, that will give me an opportunity to meet him, but I must be careful, I don't want him to recognize me, so I am putting myself in danger, but I want to see him anyway. At the table I struggle with the change, because he pays for the coffee, but I am gathering coin to give him his change.
While I am there I converse with him and boast a bit by changing language now and then, I try German among other languages, also because I am not sure which language he prefers, but I try them all, just short phrases. And this is a way for me to let him know it is me, but at the same time I psychically hide myself, so that he does not see or recognize me. The bill to be settled might be the one of his room here. Yet I did not know he was staying here, but I just arrive, thinking this to be a safe haven.
Then he searches for something and starts to do something that looks like a trance, and I am leaving at that point, and I pretend to be dazed. I pretend as if I am under his spell, as if what he did has affected me. But I choose to do it consciously so as not to rouse suspicion. But before I go back in, I suddenly stay still and feel numbed or dazed, unable to move. I shake it off me and go on, but something of it sticks, and I wonder if this is because I pretended and so brought it on me.
Later, in the castle. Many rooms. Bale is there. All people familiar to me and they know each other, but I am the odd one out. Now it is late at night and everyone is making ready for bed and the rooms are being made, and the rooms are such that you can walk through them in a circle, and I don't help, because I think I'm not a part of this and should not help, but at some point someone chides me for it.
They are in fact all preparing for one person, though I don't know who he is or if he is even here.
At some point in all this, there is also another person, a boxer, a tall man with short hair, and muscled, he is looking for me and goes his way without being disturbed in the castle. He is looking for me, but even when he sees me he does not act, but I have a little fear because the threat is always there.
There was a moment when he did hit me, and something about sticks, and I hide behind a door, but he keeps hitting his stick at it, but the door takes it all. I know he can see me, and I also know there is rather a lot of space, so if he wanted he would be able to come after me.
Then beds, bedding, and furniture all has to be moved, and people carry it from the place where I am standing to the inner rooms. There are dvd's lying about somewhere.
Everyone is present, I say something like: a king would not know where to put his bed. When I say this I am already with the rest of them in the inner rooms, though I haven't done much and feel a little bad about it. What I said means that there is too much luxury everywhere, but also no room is better than the other, they are equally luxurious.

The boxer is still there. I know in a little while we will all go to sleep and my peace will be over, because I know the boxer will look for me then, and hit me I think.
About DB, there was also something about a city, and a track or rail of a train, and the number 29, though I don't know what it refers to anymore.

2. Cats Left on their Own

In Leuven, near HDC, my home is there, at some point I am in my home there and Chwe's two cats are there, the black ones, and I play with them, and they crawl over me and such. I remember I brought them with me, but I remember (in the dream) that Chwe then suddenly had to leave, and me too, though maybe for different reasons, but that caused the cats to be caught in my house.
So when I come home I am relieved to see that the cats are still there and that they are alive and happy. I've been away for the whole weekend, and they were here. And I know Chwe has no key of this house, so she could have never come and rescued her cats.
Now I plan to go by her so I can take the cats with me, but I will first make the effort to take care of the cats, and give them water, but I realize I have no food for them. Chwe did have all those things.
Then in the car, the cats are on my arms, and over my body, I sit in the back seat, right, and I don't know who is driving.
And this is also possible in the dream: maybe Chwe did have a key and did really come and get the cats. This was true while the other was also true.
Then something about the gym of a school, which has been refurbished, and someone gets new sports shoes because of it (?) but something something already of the school.

Late for Talk

1. Leuven Workshop, Eating Books, Phone Conversation

Alth is here, Chwe is here, Keva is here and chooses colours for ribbon that the police will use to seal a crime scene. He picks to colours of orange, and I think that is stupid and want to add my idea to it which would be at least a white one, so that the orange is broken a bit. I think it is stupid to have two kinds of orange, please choose one.
In another fragment I have the chance to see Elbr. She has her something something.

In Leuven, afternoon in the weekend, me and my friends take a break, then continue, but I continue first.
There is a place that looks like the Ladeuze square, which has been fenced off all the way. We come from Hoover square, where we took our break. It is day, and light. I lead and the others follow, and I want to cross the square but we can't, so I am looking if we can somehow trespass, for I have already seen that some places in the fence are open. There is no one on the square, but it looks like a place where they are working.
Then I see people and I go through an opening anyway, so I enter the working site. Lots of people are seated in front of a podium, down, and are waiting, we pass between them and the podium, because there is a specific place we have to go to, at least I am. At the other side is some kind of kiosk. We go in, you can order food here, there is some taiji something going on here, and then this is a chips tent, and we sit down at a table on the right to have chips.
Then there is another restaurant like this beside it. In the one we are a Chinese person is behind the bar to tend to us, he waits. Maybe Chwe and Woli are here. I want to eat something first, but in the dream I have in fact just eaten a hamburger.
I pity the Chinese cook, his food is burning, he is making lasagne, I don't know if you can order this, too.
Then my mother who is also there starts to talk about all the recent deaths and becomes rather emotional. I don't want to be part of this. My brothers are here. I don't know about my dad.
I was going to give the workshop here or at least at that day in the afternoon.

The end of the dream is when I am having a telephone conversation with a girl, I only hear her voice and my own voice. The conversation is rather long. She speaks me about a long lake in Copenhagen in which you can swim up, and I visualize the lake when I think of it but am not sure if it is reality. The lake slopes up and is long like a loch. She says in the end that when I am at the top then I can swim down again on the 'baanrug' which translates as the Road Back. She asks me: will you try? And I say: yes. That is where it ends and I realize I was dreaming, and I wake up.

2. Heading Home in Leuven

Something like a Skill Quest, Leuven. Night, dark, alone over the Grote Markt. And I put something at the police station, and something something.
Something about the price label of a book, I have to think about Kaco a long while in the dream, but don't plan making contact with her, I am aware of my thinking. (Can't read my notes).
I am going back to where I parked my bicycle. While I go I have to avoid the buses hitting me, at least two. Keva is there, and tells someone something, about Kessel-lo, and something (I can't read my notes).
First together going somewhere with other people, but then I am alone.
This might have been an earlier dream than the upper one.

3. Party Time at Night

Traversing a square, to go somewhere, dream maybe connected to dream 2. I see a lady who is half naked, dressed in bikini, and some kind of light jacket. She is with boys, but lots of people are outside in the night, this is at the Grote Markt, and they are surely waiting to go to some party or do something like that. Lots of people have gathered there. I see this when I pass them and then I see more girls with the same outfit, though they don't know each other. Just before, Joja passed me, but he does not see me and I don't go after him, I press on.
When I pass this mass of people I come to another area, but this second area is a dancing too, and many people are there partying. To my left is a door downstairs which leads to a discotheque. When I passed all those girls I thought I might take advantage of the situation, but I don't feel like it at all, so I don't. Then when I want to follow people down, I see across of me my niece R, and go to her and she welcomes me heartily, which surprises me, but I feel good by it, and not a long time later she is joined by her brothers, among which D. R asks me what I would like to drink, and I am thinking I can't just ask for water so I order a coke. Beyond them is another party going on. They obviously plan on dancing all night, but I don't want to do that. I don't know why I'm here, and I want to be gone quick enough, but I go with them for a while to the back.
To my surprise there is a lot of sunshine there, and while we wait which I find bothersome I choose to stand in the sunshine, because it is warm and light.
Cousin D asks me something, and I don't know whether I am tired and want to go to bed or not. I can't decide. But the dream ends there.

4. Esoteric House

This is the continuation of dream 1, which means that is the last dream of the night, but I have confused the notes.

At the chips shop, I am eating books, I am carrying five books with me, two of which I have devoured already, then I start with the third one but don't want to eat it, because I still want to read it. But the other two I don't want to eat either, because I value these two even more. 

I realize that it is Sunday or Monday afternoon and I am about to give a talk to my friends.
Then I realize I actually have to be in London and not in Leuven, and I wonder why I am in Leuven at all, maybe someone said it could not be done in London, but I feel cheated and tricked into it and still want to make it for London, if I go now I might still arrive in London, not in time, but late, but I will be there nonetheless, today. Because I promised.
The whole time at the square everything was said and done like this that I thought I was right in doing the talk right there in Leuven.
Now I get to London far too late, but I know they will be waiting, which is a bad feeling.
So first I leave Leuven, there is a place called Werk&Werk, or Work and Work, that I pass, I am by car and stop halfway on the road at this house which I know is an esoteric centre. And I knock, or in fact just enter. And the dining room I see is furnished so that it looks like something esoteric, yet at the same time this seems like a private house, but I go in anyway. Oddly enough, no one greets me. When I go in I see in another room further away two women chatting, an older lady to a younger lady, they have dark skin and live here. I hail, I suppose they work here, but I'm not sure this is a shop at all anymore.
They seem startled. I say hello, but they don't understand why I am here. So I was mistaken after all. I don't know what to say, because I am now confused.
Some time later I go outside to the left, and there is light and another woman, and she takes care of the situation, and leads me on, and there are other people too, and she takes all of us to another room to our left and there is a table set for a talk, and she will be giving it and I may join. No one is seated yet.

In a next scene I am no longer there but I enter a small room in a building in London, some upper story, and there everyone is waiting, two tables full, seventeen people, mostly men, and three known to me, Momo is there, and someone else who introduces me once I am there, in the dream I know him, but I can't say who he is. They were waiting. I am amazed by seeing so many people waiting for me, but I am ready to give my talk. The first thing I say is that I am sorry that I have already given my speech today, but in the wrong location. I say this because it is funny, but it does not sound like that when I utter it, but my English accent is impeccable.

Learning Japanese

1. Sushi

End part of a dream. We sit at a table, three of us. A man who is loud and chatty takes the lead into making sushi and learning Japanese. My dad is here too. The person is on my right, not next to me; the other person is closer to me, on my left. Inside. Bright moment.
I remember the rice to make the sushi. There was a piece of crab, small, with the rice, and I thought that should not be, because crab and rice are two different things, you don't cook them together, but on the other hand I thought that it was okay because you can also add crab to sushi. But it wasn't enough for a whole roll. 
I try to speak Japanese, but am not able enough to say anything, while I constantly want to say something I realize every time that I don't know the words. This is only the first lesson. And the person who teaches, who is much too merry for my taste, has a way of teaching as if you should know the basics already, which is what he expects, and at the same time tries to make things so simple that he should go into those easy things any more. This is frustrating for me, because it is the exact way of teaching that makes me learn nothing.

2. Room

I think Woli was in a dream, but I can't now remember. I also remember a living room of a house, square, and one wall not there so that I can see in it, though I might also have been in it. Warm atmosphere, wooden interior.

3. N&N

I remember in a part of a dream I talk about or I talk with Niru and after a while I find things are very confusing because when I say his name I can't decide anymore whether we are talking about Niru or my brother N. And at some point it seems that both persons are there and not at all at the same time. Another person or is there with which I make conversation. The atmosphere of the talk was excited.

Antwerp

1. Electricity Broken

Antwerp.
Earlier a small house, my house, deserted.
And earlier. We are having a rune afternoon meditation session, but it will be in the evening. At noon, Mith2 and Jusm are there, but in the evening no one is there, because it was changed on too short a notice.
The light does not work. The electricity is broken. And there is a stair to an upstairs floor, the last end, and is also broken (don't remember what is meant by that, possibly the light in the different rooms).
In a different place, we are attending to a talk, there is a school teacher, we sit on the steps, more people keep coming in but are late.
When we all say goodbyes we are at the parking lot. There is a Chinese looking girl (that I am supposed to know in the dream?). We kiss, she and me, and I want something something and she says that I can stay, then I can't read my notes, I have doubts. There is a pond or lake, and we see things float on top of it, like lilies but more like plastic or garbage, though it is green and it covers a wide area of the lake, but the funny thing is that it seems to spell a word, and I can almost read it although the first letters are not complete. And she reads 'balloon' in it, but I know this can't be, because of the first letters, because I know and should know the word. 
Earlier in the dream. Crossing a street with cousin D, we went somewhere, this might already be the Antwerp episode. So not earlier but this happens first in the fragment.
I am very sure Woli is in the dream, though he is sometimes cousin D, and he knows the way, and he leads me through the city, I talk with Woli for some time. D and I are following the others. We are looking for someone else (?) and want to visit something. This feels like a student place.
We come to a certain building, down some stairs outside. Below we go even further and turn, he knows his way, I do not, I am reminded of Dore. There is a queue, apparently that is where we were going. I was not aware. So we are now queuing, that is almost the end of the dream. Queue because it is weekend.
Can't remember much more.

2. Eat when you are Hungry

Fragment in which Bale features, we are at a table and she lectures me on hunger, that you should eat when you are hungry even if those times don't fit your time schedule. I try to discuss the point but know it is no use. She is really forward, and she does not even know what I'm thinking, nor did she say this because I did or said something, so no accusation, though it feels like that.

3. Long Thumb Nail

Other fragment, maybe earlier than both dreams, in which I have a fairly long thumb nail. Longer than it is in reality. I look at it, maybe the bathroom, but I don't remember a surroundings.

Mountain House

1. Rock Grid

Dream about Chwe and I, mostly alone, and near each other but never close. Mostly inside, but sometimes outside, long stretched building. Something that needed finishing. Something about a text, line per line. Tedious work.
One time outside big square maybe. Maybe something about Woli.
Sometimes other people were involved somehow.

Maybe the same dream. My crystal grid at home, though in the dream an unfamiliar place though my own, larger place, is incomplete, but that means that stones are taken to be used for certain work. I have one big stone, recently acquired, a yellow rock bigger than a fist, and I walk around with this and contemplate what I should do. When I am at the crystals I consider where I will put it, and in the end I place it somewhere, turning it in a position that seems to fit exactly, and no other position will do.

2. Two Fingers Signal

Outside. Light, pass the house, then to the meadow behind where all the people gather, and passed the house to its left side, some kind of happening. Parents and brothers are already there. We don't venture far out, but stay on the grass which is closest to the kerbside of the terrace, which is a little higher. They sit down and make ready to have picknick, all prepared. I sit with them, being the last person to arrive.
There is a tall blond girl who I've seen before, in passing, possibly in an earlier dream or earlier in the same dream, and possibly in real life too, that would be in the shop then. I watch her when she comes, because I know her and I know she wants my attention. When she is close by she walks passed, but I do what she wants and look at her and I see her put out two fingers, like a peace sign, but she holds the fingers almost horizontal and slanting down. But the signal is clear, and what I make of it is this that she wants me to follow her after two minutes, which is what I shall do. Though when I am clear about her intention, and she gives me leave in fact, I can't wait. Anyway, when she has passed by and goes to the terrace and then behind us to the house where the activities are, and a cafe, I rein in myself and tell myself to wait as she bade me.
At the same time parents and brothers are also waiting, but on one of there own party, and if I am correct they are waiting for the new girl friend of my brother N, but I don't care about this and want to follow this lady sooner. Anyway, the girl friend would have been here a long time, but she does not come at all, while they keep waiting, and I feel that I am the one causing her delay by wanting to follow the blond girl. And I am thinking that the girl friend might be Chwe, but even then.
I want to follow immediately, but I wait a little, but not very long and certainly not two minutes. So I go after her early. When I rise she is no longer there but there is only one place where she can go and that is the house with the cafe, so I go there and enter, alone.
When I am up and walking I realize I am not wearing pants, I do have underwear and a shirt, but no trousers. This was okay when I sat with my family, but it is a little awkward now, though I don't mind and go on anyway. People must accept me how I am.
When I enter the building she is not there, but I immediately notice that in the back there is a little room where they are giving a taiji class, and I remember suddenly in the dream that this was in the program and that I possibly promised to go and support them, so I will do that now. I seem to remember that I promised this girl I would be taking this class, so now the promise is fulfilled. According to the dream she would have told me about this taiji class.
So I go there, red atmosphere, and there is a Chinese woman teaching, and a handful other people, this place looks like the back of a cafe where they have parties, so not very welcoming. It does not matter. Maybe three other people following the woman's teaching. I join, I can follow what she does and try to link it with my own taiji, recognizing stances, but what she does is vastly different from what I know. And it is certainly not better. Very different than I am used to. There is not a lot of place. I seem to recognize 'lady works at shuttles' and 'repulsing monkey'.
Then the tall blond girl comes back, she has particular facial features and I am sure I have seen her in real life. She was at the toilet and now she is back, and in the same room is a table, two wooden tables, and she sits herself down at one, and is alone and clearly she is waiting till I'm done and will come to her. All is so clear, and I will carry out the plan flawlessly, except that suddenly Bale enters and sees me as if it is a long time ago and she wants to talk to me or she makes conversation. Her presence makes it difficult for me to go to the girl and talk to her, because now I am no longer alone.
Then the dream gets confused by the end and through our talk we are led to visions of America and trains, and I think that even the blond girl joins the discussion about trains in America from a long time ago, here and here, pointing at a map and I see the landscape and the rails, and the trains at the end of these rails, out of order and left behind since many many years. One such train is red.
The last scene is when we are in a city, I look at the weather, and see the shadow of the buildings, there is a great square, and we cross it on one side, up. And this is Italy, big modern city. Can't remember what happened in particular. At the end of the square something happened but not of major consequence, then we are back on trail and look for pizza, is it me who wants pizza badly. Do I follow my brother N? There is a lady with us, too. We end up in some private house of an Italian who also makes pizzas, but we pass the back of his house and his car is there, and it looks like he is working on it. That is about where the dream ends, we never go in.

3. The Mountain Road

Last dream.
In the mountains. I decide to pass somewhere (can't read notes).
Earlier in the dream a shop like environment.
There is a house which is build on a cliff, but a road passes to. So we are high up on a mountain and from the window you can see well the wide horizon. Friends are here.
At some point I am downstairs, the hall is big and I sit on the floor leaning against the front wall, this is where the front door is, and this door is really big and of wood, but not in perfect condition. I can't remember who else was there, but I felt comfortable. The other person or persons were across the room. We were utterly chilling.
Then suddenly Anta comes down from the stairs on the right, and it has been a very long time since I have seen her and am happy to see her. So we start to talk. She looks good.
She is very direct and tells me, while she is standing and I am sitting still, that she is free and that if I want to have sex with her this can be done. Of course she knows I want to because in the old days I let her know that. Now she is free and tells me. I'd rather first reacquaint .
We sit across each other at a table to the right, wooden table, but I'm sure that earlier I have already touched her body. I touched her breasts. (Can't read notes).
She explains to me that she still has her kid, because I know she is a mother, but that she will not have her child for much longer, so I should not worry. She really wants to hurry, which is not necessary for me at all. There is white in her clothing.
Then she starts to undress me and herself. She wants it all rightaway. I let her do.
Then N. (Can't read my notes here). Hall of a big house, big int itself, Anta does not continue, can't remember what happened. Someone entered.
Then I see Kivo, and then other colleagues too, they were her colleagues long ago too. When they enter and walk about, which I had never expected, Anta excuses herself and says that she should have prepared herself, like bringing a condom, but more especially to secure me so that we would not be disturbed by colleagues. That is, she should have planned it all better and taken me upstairs to her room in the first place.
I sit on the floor next to the door, and look outside and think that the view here is much better than at home.

The dream ends when we are urged into a 4X4 vehicle, with my brother N organizing this and this is a big car or jeep, but still we are many people in just one car. N is not driving but he is giving instructions. We wind down the mountain path which is always the side of the mountain. When we are more down we come to a more settled place, but it has rained in the passed few days though the weather is good now, but once we get to a certain point where people live though there are no houses but only some people, then the road is part of the lawn itself and you can see mud bubbles or mud bubbling up from underneath. It is almost impossible to see the road, but these mud bubbles are always on the path. I think it is a bad idea to drive over that, because we will surely sink, but we just continue and I trust it. Or we stop. Or we have to get back. Anyway at that place the dream ends.

Spider in the Sand

1. Leaving the Hotel

The place where I am looks like the side of my parents' home, where the side door is, though this place is longer, more open, and in different colours. This is some kind of hotel, where I have been staying the last few days, with other people I know, possibly also my brothers. Hotel is only at ground level, which is why it is long, but it is not wide.
We are making ready to leave the place and are packing. I am behind a bit, but I let the others go, not worrying, and I like it here.
Before that in the dream was another fragment, when I stayed there. The road goes down a long way and stretches a long way and reminds me of the road from Herent to Leuven. And on somewhere halfway the slope is where Siph is living and it is a long time since I've seen him, so we go to visit him. I want to do this. What happened before this I can't remember. But it is night and dark and we go in, his house is small. He is making soup, I think, I can't remember the rest.
Then back in the hotel is the time for us to leave, I must have been half awake or sleepy in the dream, for I remember being naked or half naked. So, all the others have checked out already, then I pass the place where the side door would be and this is like a living room, but no one is there and it has been tidied. But I see my laptop, notebook, lying there, on the floor, underneath one of the chairs. So I must have left it there from last night or something. I make a mental note to pick it up later, because now I have other things on my mind and am not gone yet.
I go back a little, where there is a little corner, outside, and there is some kind of sand box, for children to play in. I have some experiment going on here, though the sand wasn't here before, only when I decided I would be doing something like that, which has something to do with the dead, dead bodied, but I can't remember the particulars. Maybe digging them up from the sand. I also remember that in days past I or we played here with paper too, but this was on the right side of the sand and through time the paper must have mixed with the sand, but you can't detect it, because the paper has disintegrated in the meantime.
But I add something extra, also to the left side, which is the experimental side, and that is a big black spider, some dangerous exotic kind, but I want it there for experiment, though I don't remember what it should do, but obviously it does whatever I expect it to. After a while I think I should be careful, because the spider is dangerous, can bite or is poisonous. The spider can live underneath the sand and sometimes tears open the sand and reveals what is beneath, and I am surprised that underneath the sand is room, not too deep, but there is empty space there. The spider is rather intelligent. I stay there a long time, watching, or doing whatever else. I am mostly in the sand myself. Spider slices through the sand and can move more sand than I could imagine, and it makes holes too. Black Widow kind (?).

There is some other dream fragment which I think belongs to the same dream, and this is in a different place, close to a market square and some people go dressed as dinosaurs, all green. And we just arrive, but I have somehow known about this and want to join eventually. I look at the different dinosaurs, their size and hands in particular. There is only one who has hands with fingers. I am also observing how they mimic the size of the dinosaurs, and I try to see whether I can see which dinosaurs these are. Iguanodon is certainly among them.

Back at the hotel. (I can't read my notes well). Maybe a dog, wants to do something, kid is there, kid needs help. Then the electricity shuts down, but the machine with which we want to make a call is not completely down, the only buttons that are still lighted are the one we need. So this is near the hotel, but outside, at the other side of the road, in the dark, it must be night, and there is a phone booth, and the dog wants to make a phone call. And at first, the whole keyboard is lighted. Then this short circuiting or whatever makes it less easy to handle, and I think that it can't be done at all, or I just don't want to do this and go away, but I suppose the kid is still there and perseveres. The keyboard says something like 'kids only', those buttons light up, but that is okay, because it is for a kid. But the kid, boy, does not know who to call. Yet the possibilities are limited, this because of the shutdown.

There is also a fragment in which there is a truck. A white one, but very large, because when it passes other trucks that are similar and white, then it is indeed twice the size. This is the biggest one that we sent, and I did that. N and D are here, hotel site, and the brothers T&B possibly too.

2. Dream Photos

I'm in the living room of parents, sleepy, and yet doing stuff, at the same time this place is the same place as where I was in the former dream, with friends, in a hotel. The right side is still close to outside or there is no wall at all. The left side is inside and that is where I am, on the sofa, and sometimes on the table. I have my computer with me. Behind me are other people. I am checking something and then I find pictures that I did not know I had, because these are snapshots from the dreams I had tonight. And they are very clear and they are also very real, the whole atmosphere of those dreams is in it, so one picture differs seemingly in quality from another, but it is in actual fact the haziness of the dream itself that is captured.
First I see a series of photos that were taken in the same place but one or two dreams before, and I wonder about the technology, because no photographer or camera was involved. On these first few photos is a being that was in the dream and which I think is weird it is taken, because it is a spirit and not anyone could see it, in one picture he is clearly the devil of the tarot cards. The demon reminds me of Eliphas Levi, too. This demon is in different photos and always near me. White and black as if he is a drawing. And white haze on the photo, though it is in colour.
Another set of photos is more to my liking, because I might discern naked ladies on it and I know they were in my dreams. And in some I am right, but in others I am not, because you can't see it very well. But there is one beautiful photograph with a lot of red haired maidens and wide green ribbons dancing on a green hill, this is marvelous. And I have another picture of one of these maidens, and I know I have met her in one of my dreams.
I want to show these pictures to my friends behind me (I am reminded of Chwe), while I am still lying half asleep either on the table or on the sofa. And I am working on my table which is connected to my laptop, to get the pictures right. The tablet is in the far left corner and stands up so as to provide a good view.
I'm very proud of these pictures.
One picture was difficult to focus on because the centre consisted of light, but it moved with you when you looked around the photograph, and sometimes the light was stronger and sometimes fainter but it was always there, linked to the picture itself. I thought it was troublesome, because you can't see what is shot.

3. Worn Trousers

Fragment. I am wearing my new jeans and go over it with my hands and feel that it is worn already. This after only a few days, I think it is a pity, but I don't make a fuss about it.

Frozen Lake

1. Frozen Lake

Frozen ear goo.
Winter at a lake, dark, cold, night, taiji something, especially the stance Brush Knee, Tiger. My ears are stoppered suddenly, but I don't want anyone to know, so I stand back a little and put my finger to one of my ears and feel the frozen stuff that comes out of my ears. The lake is frozen too, maybe not all of it, but it is dark and a rather eerie sight.
I'm sure when I had this with the ear that I also screamed, very loud. (Maybe not so sure, according to notes it was the other dream).
Home. Everyone has gone to bed, but the light in the living room is still burning. I am still up, this is the house of parents, I want to be the last on purpose, so I waited in my room till everyone has gone and then I go back to the living room and find the lights on, which is what I hoped for, since as easily someone could have turned them off.
Maybe something about a wolf.
Going to eat somewhere. This must be at the lake. Somebody is making a stew. In the dream it was very clear, but I now only remember the awkward moment when I saw someone add more chocolate paste in it and I just watch thinking that it must be the right recipe or they might not have the right ingredient so they take this one. But then I see that the alternative is possible too, which I don't remember, and wonder why they don't all do it like that. But I suppose this was already my rational mind taking over.
I see a clock hanging from the ceiling, rather high, and it says 36. It is in the shape of a soup bowl, and is stocked in a dangerous place up on a shelf where I think it will fall.
They are trying to challenge me, I see something something, can't remember this.
Maybe about coterie.

2. Someone else's room

Park. Something about two houses (?), one is owned by Niab, the other (can't read notes). The other is owned by a girl. She is just leaving with a lady friend and they enter, but I see they forgot their key (?). I signal her, look at her first for a while considering whether I would say something, the moment she looks I gesture, but she leaves anyway. Light. Good colours.
I put the keys in my own pocket, in this way they are not lost. Then I can't read my notes, but I must have been thinking that it might not be a good idea to do that. So I stay home, in that way when she comes back I will be there with the key.
Water from sipwell. Two old bottles that I do back something something. I don't want to drink from it anyway. People I know are arriving and entering, Anle, Niab himself.
Taiji as opposed to something in the park (?). I first look at her mobile phone, on this I see every detail of her room, but no number. I am wondering whether I am breaking privacy. 
Outside, Joja, there are puddles. Yet we go on the lawn and prepare for doing taiji.
Eventually the lady returns.

3. Balloon

Time traveling with a balloon. Some girl comes after, but with a plane, she gets help from something something.
There is the patio of the castle, everything is like in a movie, a dog, no something something. Group of people comes outside. They receive the princes, kings and queens.
This is where I suddenly start screaming. Everyone is panicking. D is there. Eating, I mean there is food, but no time to eat it.
Something since a long time, getting buckets and water. Catch water?
Phpa is there and Stwi, both friends of Fras. Watching tv. Something about the English and Dutch language. There is confusion over the workshop.

Bring Fate to its Destination

1. Game of Tag

I am being chased and am carrying a certain fate which I can't escape and I have to do something with it, whatever the circumstances. Dark, outside. I try to get to a certain place for this, where I can leave this fate as if it is a package.
At some point the location becomes focused as a playground, two adjacent ones with possibly a building in the middle, like at my old school, only this one is freestanding and less high or less building anyway, and the playgrounds have patches of grass and slope a bit up from the second to the first, which is the bigger one.
From where I am it is all the way at the other side where I have to get, so I go from the smaller square to the bigger one. I try not to be seen by anyone. At that place I have to drop something of myself. This is my responsibility, no one else can do it and I have a duty to do it.
But I remember seeing this place in my mind's eye and it was on the ground, rough stone, but in the centre of it something glistened as if crystal of a kind, and this seemed linked to something deep within the earth, still I was puzzled about what the place really was. My fate however was very clear in the dream, though now I can't describe it.
I'm here for the first time since a long time, at that place, and this place looks like the back yard of the parents, the back of the garden itself, near the shed, though I don't see it, and I touch the spot, and it is as if when I leave my fate here I am planting a seed in a tree trunk stump. The trunk is fossilized and really only a stump is left.
All the time someone wants to stop me, several people actually. Other people move around too, but they are ignorant and are therefore harmless. So I am alone working this thing, though maybe one or two persons support me, though I can't remember. But a handful is working their will against me, and all the rest are ignorant souls.
At some point in the process I try to run fast, but it does not help me. I try at least twice to reach the spot, but always people are scattered across the field, as if players defending a goals while I try to score. The second time I see very clearly a possible path between all those people, there are less than before and a bit less wary. But once I start running they see me anyway and I have to zigzag my way and almost but never really get to my destination. But there was a straight line of sight when I started off. They catch me anyway. All this seems like a serious game of tag, but after that there is peace and time to rest.

2. Magic Healing

There is a wolf wounded at one of its front legs. This has to be taken care of. There are two other victims, of what I can't remember. But now the only thing that can help them is the use of magic.
Other fragment. Something about getting help. Can't read my notes. Something something very strong.

3. Protecting my Teacher

I am at Fras's place, the house is on a slope and right next to another, both are build rather askew. I must have come here cycling, because I parked my bicycle outside in a row of cycles in front of the two houses where the border between the two is. My bicycle is the last in line. The front yards of those houses, it seem twin houses, are made for cars to reach the garage.
I have come here to study magic, as simple as that. I am also here to protect her, something something (can't read notes), but she herself is not home at the moment, I stay behind. The family of Dr are here also by car and are leaving also, can't remember the context.
The back side of the house resembles the house of parents. Of the family Dr there are G and B. They drive a car when they leave, but they cannot but pass on the back, because they can't turn otherwise, so they circle clockwise around it and then at the back drive over the terrace and I am amazed that there is just enough room for all that, and am happy they don't drive over the lawn, and from there they drive back to the front.
I too have to leave, I should not stay too long, but come back (?), outside, line of bicycles. And the magic something something and does not work, maybe orochimaru. There are two helpers, from Poland or somewhere else in Eastern Europe, something about the car and the garage, I enter anyway. (This from notes).

4. Iron Garden Plot

I'm in Scotland with Bale. Highlands.
Everyone is waiting, ready (?), talks will be given, I am one of the speakers, but no one knows that.
The talks will be given downstairs, but upstairs is where we live, so we go back upstairs.
Downstairs they are doing a theatre. At first the place downstairs looks like the living room of parents, and I am waiting for my parents, while everything is being made ready.
Then the talks will follow. Me and Bale are alone and walk in the opposite direction of everyone else.
When we go downstairs, then everyone of upstairs is something something (clothed?). Then the talks start, I thought that they were something something, so I let them to as they please.
I want to start making a vegetable garden (upstairs?). But Bale has more energy than me, and I am reluctant to start working. There is no help, while I would have thought that everyone would work together in this.
Outside where we plan to make this, there are two small plots of land in the garden in the back, and to my left there is some substance in the earth which is a mineral and that is very special because you don't come across that often, and I am thinking that it will improve growing vegetables. Then on my right side I want to lay down iron slabs and before anyone else I already start moving those, because they are heavy, already three I put down there, this is necessary to grow the things I want, though I can't remember why or what. Possibly Elbe and Bale start to help, but it does not last long, since other things need to be discussed first.
At that point this plot of land is up on top of a hill, while before we were all the way down, and there is a patch of lawn in between, but we climbed this bit leaving all the others behind and found the free air up. And a road runs past, and once in a while cars drive by from left to right.
I start gesturing for a lift, but what I really want is help. No one something something, except an African mother that suddenly is there among us and starts to help or talk (can't read notes here).
Earlier at one of the talks, downstairs, I sit at the left behind, with friends around me. Someone else I know who is a teacher from school I know is in the centre, but sees me. At some point something is said about Greek gods. Classroom full of students. I put in my own opinion and start about Egyptian gods, and that is when the teacher in the class reacts to me and some sort of heated conversation goes on between those three points: the people in front who are giving class, the teacher to the right, and me and my table.

5. Young Elephant Pet

There is some last dream, which I don't quite remember, but there is someone with a small elephant as pet, and I lean back over the sofa and want to scratch him or rub his or her belly. And then a discussion starts about why the belly must be rubbed, and people have different opinions about this. And meanwhile sometimes the elephant changes into a young boy, but still lying on his back on the floor. At some other point he was next to his master or mistress, who sits on a seat, some sort of bench, which is behind me, and other people sit there too, and the elephant is on the side, which is out of reach for me. I can't remember the rest, but I know I was glad to have a dream with some intimacy and physical contact. I'm almost sure in the end I also hugged someone.

Three Deer

1. Early Morning

A big house, owned by Loli and Arve. Something about the fact that I too fall asleep. This is the first night. So obviously we are at least two nights with them. They themselves sleep upstairs, but I never go there, I only see the ground floor. Where I sleep looks like a garage, it is very big, white, no windows, no furniture except for one cupboard on my left but it is lost in the bigness of the place.
There is a bed, which is mine. I sleep alone in this place, but possibly other people stay the night and are in different rooms. The garage might be chilly at night (this is a thought that crosses my mind briefly). In the morning I am jealous on Loli and Arve, because Loli is wide awake so early and radiates, she really looks good, and me, I am up as well, but not so bright, because I'd like to sleep some more, but I can't. I want to sleep in, but I get up anyway, because there are a few others here, and we are supposed to come together.
Something something living room.
Later outside, back yard, (can't read notes).
In the beginning (of the dream?) is a chips shop. Everyone is here, N, D, and the brothers T&B. I remember being in the kitchen of parents, and speaking about teeth, and Beha at one point tries to console me and talks to me about a set of false teeth. He is very positive about it. However, my brother N recommends to leave it open after taking a meal. He means that I should not use my teeth for eating, and leave them out after the meal.

Playing badminton and choosing teams, which is in another hall, or garage, so possibly the same dream still. We discuss about setting up the net, but we never do. Only the intention. There are two instructors and they try to get us in order, regarding the teams. But first we eat, and we eat chips.

2. Deer and Ponies

Last part of a dream is one I start giving explanations about simple bind runes, because there is some confusion about one in particular which looks like the DINGIR sign, but also like Hagall. The location looks like the back yard of my parents, the corner of the apple tree, but at the same time it might be inside, and light. Only a handful of people. I can't remember the purpose of being there with all of them, unfamiliar people, but the rune thing was a side track.
So I explain how Hagalaz and Gebo can be combined. And then I start to elaborate, and tell them how to vary their constructions and take Raido and Isa as an example.
I draw this on a whiteboard which looks like a broad flipchart, and use a long slip of coal to draw. Coal is fine, but it is flexible, so it is hard to use. That is why I sometimes use another thing, a simple black marker, that one writes perfectly. But for some reason I want or I have to use the coal. 

Before that I drove from a mansion where I visited people down the road. So we came from a hill, the father drives the car and the kid is next to him, I am on the back seat. The road meanders, green left and right, few houses, rich area. Top must be isolated. I watch to the right, because I sit to the right, and look out of the window, see the woods, and sometimes the clearings. And I spot a deer once, and this between the trees, and because it is a rare sight I want to have a good look while we drive past, and I see almost all of it. And I count myself lucky to have seen it. But a little later I see another, this time three of them, possibly one small one, and they were in a small field, looking towards the road.
Next I see a pasture with wild horses, they are smaller than normal horses, but they are obviously different breeds, and most are white. At least one with long hairs.
I visited these people because of taiji, and I was planning to go on foot, but they gave me a lift, wanted to do this for me.
The father and son talk to each other and the son is of such an age that his voice starts to break, and I am thinking that I must remember this deep voice, because that is what I will recognize when I see him again in the future, since now he is with his back to me, and therefore I don't see his face.
Long way down. Father and son reminded me of Ludr and J. And it is clear from their conversation, once we passed the deer, that J comes here often and knows the animals, and Ludr says to him at one point: all this is your garden still. And he means all the woods and fields to the side of the road, because J comes there often, and they connect with their own garden on the top of the hill.
While they talk to me they ignore me.

3. Selling Syringes

Fragment, maybe same dream. Back garden, but some close space in a corner where we sort out things and sell things, I can't remember well, but at some point the goods are syringes. Packets of it, for vaccination, though at that point I don't know why they are there. So before I sold other stuff. Paperwork. Before I also sold books, such as about health, those of Christine tobback or Lien Degol or Sonja Kimpen.

Eating Venison

1. Fair

Something about music, fair, Bale (? or Brva) with a child on the second thing you can go on at a fair. I can only see three contraptions.
We come after. Maybe Woli is there. Funeral atmosphere present.
Garage.

2. Spinning

Turing around, in circles, about my own axis if I remember well. And doing something that is not allowed, but I can't remember what. A key. Some sort of fair contraption.
Other fragment. Fitting shoes.

3. Sleepers

I go along with Anle to a taiji workshop, possibly Paris.
Something 10. I am there, Anle, maybe Joja, but the others are not. Anle feeds (?) something something and says that I have to write down her something something, there. Anle says very clearly in the dream and this is a lucid moment, that I should write down her number, meaning that I should contact her.
Something something folder.
I wait, the others take long, house, something upstairs, where everyone is present, which means they should come down to where I am (?).
I can hear and see people who are waking up, this in some sort of sleeping hut, this in different times, so I stay in the hallway and don't want to enter the room. I don't want to disturb them. There is quite a lot of people there.
All of them are customers, and I recognize faces from the shop, the whole family of across where the copy shop is is present. Svdb might be here. Am I interrupting?
And yelling something about teenagers, but the youngsters answer. All the mattresses are on the floor, and all touching, so close to each other, because there are so many.
I wait outside. Me first, then Keva, but he does not see me when he passes by. Keva is getting frustrated about something. To wit, making arrangements or appointments without a given hour or date. That is indeed difficult.

4. Deer Eating

We come back to a place, which might be something like a camp. A bit away from urban society but still luxurious enough. But we make another hike around.
Maybe there is a gate to go in, castle like within, all one floor.
On the way back to camp we take a long road, light, reminds me of B-street, which has houses on the left, but not on the right. There is a person to the left, looking down the river there and I recognize him from a series when I was young, but I can't remember which character he is. Then I see who he is, either Jacobus or Corneel. And another person with us, all my age, this a man, we are maybe only three, he points when he sees him suddenly and exclaims this or that name, but it is the other. I think the right one was Jacobus.
Other persons (?) someone is bothering Jacobus (can't read notes and can't remember).
Back inside, there is food served, people were already busy preparing while we were away. Among the things is steak, in small portions and grilled, looks good, I take all the other things, but I don't remember those. Big table, behind are sofas, high table, most food is self prepared. D and N are there, and the brothers T&B.
I remember someone cooking and he has all kinds of herbs with him, and I recognize most herbs. Though one is called Veek, and I see what it is and says so to this person, who is a little older and different than the others, maybe reminds me of Dapa. Veek is short for Fennel, and in particular the green is meant. Nettle was among the other herbs, I think.
Maybe Jome was there too.
Eating deer meat, and then the hunters come  back and someone of them says that they indeed met deer in the wood, and now again served on a plate. I can't remember the exact wording. Deer always comes back, which means they hunted it in the woods and now find it here on the table.
The host of the castle weekend must also have been there.

Join the Dance

1. Dancing around the Table

At home with parents, mother strongly present. At some point everyone starts dancing, about the table, so I join and dance too. They do this to camouflage something. I suppose it takes their mind of something else they don't want to be faced with. I just go along, because I don't care if they're honest or not.
Against the wall in the living above the hearth is a rail with pictures and poems, light, to the right are three poems that I long ago made for our mother, I am proud of those, one is with flowers even, protruding from the portrait, white paper. Dried flowers, which I picked myself (?). All the other papers are made by N and D.

On a pc, looking up something about skiing. Jumping from a long slope (schans).

2. Five Minutes Late

Something about Dore.
Me, Bale, Elbe and Ande, we are far away from where we should be. On our way. There are children. It is late. Up the stairs and on the road. Big and sloping, we descend.
N is there.
We are not going in the right direction. We have to go back, so we will be late (can't read notes exactly). Maybe snow.
They all cross the road, light, but I just go straight on, which is the right direction, but there are buses coming my way, so it is dangerous, there might not be place on the road for both the buses and me, they come from the other direction, right lane. Besides, there are scaffolding on my own side of the road, so if I have to pass these, then I am in the middle of the road. But I have no fear at all.
Then we are back where we started. I see the enemy, I pass there anyway, a field of grass, maybe at parents' place (?).
I throw a pebble, because they are going the wrong way, so to attract there attention. We will be late, and for once I would like to be on time. We still have five minutes and there is a possibility to make it and I know it, but if they go that way we will not make it.
Something about Kakashi, a character from Naruto. I am using ninja techniques, but can't remember for what.

There is something about wanting to be on time, but as it is we will only arrive at 4pm, while I should be back at noon. This I promised my colleagues. I know I will not make it and I can't help it, they will have to wait. This is inside, steps up into a different room, many other people. Small rooms, a bit alternative.

Also a fragment about waiting at a car outside, with a few people, maybe under a bridge.

Late at the Swimming Pool Complex

1. Cycling

Herent, on my cycle. The others are already a long way ahead and I stay behind, but eventually leave as well. Dark, outside. I find my way. There is a field of grass, wide. A small boy at some moment, blond hair, I play with him.

2. Pat the Small Boy

Maybe later. I am in the sofa, at home, at the place where normally my dad sits. To my right is the small boy, he must be on a table then. I put my hand on his head to pat him, as if he is a pet. He does not really want that. N and D are there, watching TV. 

3. Swimming Pool Complex

Maybe still the same dream.
Swimming pool, big complex, I don't know why I am here, but people are here and I must come here too. I am here to meet people. I think it has been a long time since I've been at a swimming pool, and such a nice complex as this. Grand hall, up the stairs in front is the main one, to the left is another, to the right in front is another room. I'm sure at some point in the dream I go to that last room. I'm also sure that I go to different rooms and see the water and don't go in it.
My dad is waiting for me, he might already have been there, but I think he also guides me along. N is there. I am late but that is because I don't want to be here and meeting other people.
At some other point, we order Chinese takeaway, in  the street. There is a fridge with many kinds of drink, but I only see variations of grapefruit. The fruits are whole, but most are half peeled, and in this way they are in glasses. The fridge must be somewhere in the complex, in the centre, at the end of a wall, and where two big halls meet.
Our dad often comes here, and the cook here is the Indonesian shop-keeper from Holland (Dewi). He asks 50 euro of me as a deposit for the food, and I think that is a lot of money and will be almost the total, and what's more, we don't even have chosen yet what we will take, because I can't decide.
Then something something on a closet or cabinet, and I already have the something something from back then in my room.
Something about a bed, my bed.

Work Without Break

1. Boy on my Back

First day back at work. Crowded, almost noon. List is also working. Things get busy, and customers are fickle and have piles of books, which makes things difficult, because soon enough I am tending to two or three customers at the same time. Waiting, and halfway having people paying for their goods, then they want something else and wander off, and so on. I just continue as best I can, but when all comes together, more people clog together and things stop. List is at the computer, tending to another customer, so I am alright with doing this on my own.
There is one man I tended to first and he is back and he has other requests too, which makes settling the bill difficult, especially because it concerns things that I don't know about, like vouchers unknown to me because they were issued when I was in leave. And there are obviously presents to be made, too, all the dvd's separately. That will take a long while, so through the crowd I shout to my upstairs colleague, and luckily, Keva answers immediately and comes down. I don't mind the queue. I mind this one customer however, because he seems to have little trust. When I finish with him, I indeed see that I forgot to do something with his vouchers, I look at them, they are black and white, square, and of different values, but worth much, while I made him pay the total sum without subtracting those. Now I realize I don't know how to do it, but I tell him I will set things straight, so I am confident, but he is wary, says nothing upsetting though.
Liha is also there, and at some point during all this I have that feeling again that all comes on my shoulders again without anyone seeing my need and helping me out.
It is past noon already and I should go for my lunch break. The queue is better now but I can't go away because there is no one to replace me, though I think someone is helping at the other till. Yet at some point a small boy that I know well and am fond of comes to me and says it is my time to take a break and I tell him I can't do that because so many people still have to be helped, but I squat and tell him he can climb my back for a while if he wants. And he does. I intended for him to sit on my shoulders, but I am not patient enough and he does not by himself, so he is on my back and uncomfortable when I get up again. I continue working, then decide this is too difficult and let the boy go. Then I keep working till all is done, and then it is 2.30 pm, and I take my break, and that is when Liha and Digr come instead, but Digr was not aware of anything until that point, and Liha informs him.

2. Parsnip and Sausage Sandwich

Possibly the same dream. Time to eat and I was looking forward to this, because I had something special promised to me, and there is indeed the sausage with parsnip, and all is ready and cooked, and there are ciabatta breads, or french bread, and I cut it open and put this in between. The parsnip is cooked well and cut in the middle and the sausage goes in the middle. And I smear chocolate paste on this too, that would be good. But when I go across the room, which must be a catering kitchen, working tables in the middle, but at the other end is a table with the stuff on it, and I make a second, then I see mustard and think I should have used that to smear my bread with, so I make a second one. I will enjoy this.
Then when I want to start eating, I notice other people, they were already in another room and maybe I am going there. Pi is also here somewhere, and maybe he helped prepare all the food, though I make it myself.

3. Matchsticks

Same dream still. Different room, in which I am alone and this time it is dark as if people left me here, they don't even know I'm here, and this is some old lady's living room, but I know the place, and I have some business here, though I don't want to see other people.
Then someone else is there, and she lives here, and I know her, feel her presence, she knows I'm here, too, and she needs to get something from this room, which is near a cupboard under a table near where I am, wood, and she will take this to the other area through the door, which is also near me, where the other people are, and there is light there, though the door is closed. She is looking for the matchsticks, the ones you use for New Year's Eve, and these are larger than normal. She's got a real bunch of them but is clumsy and drops some and can't carry the lot and I think about how clumsy she is and reach out to help saying a few words, but keeping myself from it all the same. Yet it sparks something in me as if I want to be a part of socializing again, and I see something else pinned to the closet, I am sitting on the floor, and see the candy, like smarties and other sugar coated chocolate, and ask her if she wants me to take this, too, and she said yes, so I busy myself with it, happy. Though all is very soft.

4. Parked Car and Church Meeting, Maybe Dead End

Outside, parked, I am in the car, front, passenger seat, and light, church in the neighbourhood, others outside doing business, this is where the street ends, and we are parked here. There is another car just in front of me and people get out from that car, tall, looking like mafia, and there is a third one that goes to the others of my group, now one of the other persons from the car comes to our car and through the window leans in and wants to rummage through stuff and do things as if it is his own car, I think that is arrogant, and want to stop him. He stops after a while, that is followed by the reappearance of all the other people, and they are going to the church, it was this in the past, now it is only a meeting hall, but a meeting is what we are holding. From the other side comes another man who is supposed to be ozzie osbourne, and not everyone recognizes him, which makes him angry, other people were with him. I see it all happen. But he comes in to the meeting hall, which is up and to the left, and we all enter. Wooden long table and benches, narrow, but comfortable, stylish in a way. Can't remember the rest, it was already towards the end of the dream.