1. Practice Taiji Wave
Taiji. There is a moment when we do partner exercises, I am paired up with Tama. Then we change exercise, there is a man, pair up with different partner. Some explanation is given on the wave of power through the body. If I remember correctly, I want to make this clear to this man, though I don't know how, because I am not the teacher, but I see he is not doing it and I'd like to tell him. When I practice with him, I do the exercise consciously about five times. Two of those times are very good, what it should be in reality.
There are students who have not long ago joined taiji and they are allowed or invited to come and see, maybe that motivates me to do it properly. I give thought to every movement. Dark, corner.
This must be one of Pake's lessons, but he is not in the immediate neighbourhood, I don't see him.
2. Boulevard
Dike at sea, boulevard. Light, lucid but stretched grey atmosphere, spacious. I don't feel at home. There is a cafe, eat there, I have to pay too much (?). I can't remember the main course, but the second one is with sausages, and there are more plates still. There is certainly too much food, like in a cafetaria, all on a tray, though I don't see that in the dream, but I do get all these plates and dishes.
I am being watched, and I try to escape it. Then I go upstairs (?). I go away with the car (?), at night, evening. Maybe even my own brothers who are after me. I don't press it but I try to stay out of their neighbourhood.
3. Third Shop
There is a third SB shop in Leuven, which in the dream location would correspond to the police station in Leuven, but there is a station too. Not a lot of folk about, strange hour of the day. Joja is with me and leads the way. Obviously he has been waiting for me. Can't remember what happened before, but all was connected, a reason why he wanted to show me.
How do I get home.
Dream interpretation
This is a dream journal. The intention behind it is to also give interpretations on the recorded dreams. In my experience, much of the dream content is prophetic and can be linked to events following the night of dreaming.
Throughout the year 2013 I will keep to the discipline of recording my dreams every morning and interpreting them every evening. That way, people may start to get a feel of how dream symbolism works.
Throughout the year 2013 I will keep to the discipline of recording my dreams every morning and interpreting them every evening. That way, people may start to get a feel of how dream symbolism works.
Thursday, 31 October 2013
Wednesday, 30 October 2013
Foreign Magical Techniques
1. Seidr Ritual
House, which is high, reminds me of Elbe her house of parents, light, garage in front, house on top of it, pathway to the side, reminds me of house of B&D. I'm at the backside of the house. Parents and brothers are there. Veranda.
I am making ready to perform a Seidr ritual, but my brothers just now come from the veranda, so I want to involve them in the project.
Inside, dark, I've got four chairs to represent the four corners, cardinal points. I want to do this rite specifically to extract knowledge, to learn something secret, to know something specific, but the preparation takes so long that I become conscious of dreaming and the reason why I do it recedes into the background. What I want to know is whether some specific magical technique works or not. Possibly this is something from another tradition, but I want to try with runes. Or, maybe I use knowledge from other traditions to start the rite, to do the opening. So, N and D have to cooperate, though they are not used to it and maybe even don't want to. I let them do things, there is only the opening of the rite, that builds the more I get into it, and I improvise it on the way, but the opening of the rite, because I get carried away, because in itself so long, that in the dream I never get to the core rite. Moreover, because I become more awake, I have forgotten the why.
One of the things that I improvise which everybody can do is chanting vowels, but using the runic vowels. This is fun and takes a long time, then our parents come and have a look and mother obviously wants to take her evening nap, which is difficult for us, because that means we have to stop what we do. Therefore, she does not want us to continue. She is really against it.
So the rite is paused, but I think that is okay, because I was improvising anyway. Later we can do the rest.
N, D, are already elsewhere, in the house I suppose. I follow later. It is cold in the veranda, no heating.
Then we get company, a visit. I am ill, and am a bear, actually in the shape of a brown bear, and I should eat something, mother organizes things and wants to give or feed me bread, I am in something something with N & D, and eating something something, which is good.
2. Quick Grandfather
Maybe living room of aunt M. Grandfather is there, at table, his brother and sister beside him, on either side. At one end of the table. I notice he is not using his cane, and when he stands up, frequently, he is very quick and alive. Cousin D is there. There are marbles on the table, and grandfather is explaining something, I think about the card game he used to play. Now he uses his cane to move the balls on the table, like billiard, and to victory.
N, cousin D, and me look for something something, which is ancient, ages old.
3. Blue Green Book
There is a list with English words, with which I still need to do something. And there is my dad, he stands out, he is again the only one helping me out. Resting, either him or me, can't remember. So I leave the visit behind, him or me (?). At home of parents, dining room. I am busy with something (can't read notes well).
On the table is a blue green book, and I open it because I wanted to read it, it is my dad's, and I open it and the pages itself are blue and green, pages and print. But I don't like what I see, because it is in Dutch, and I don't want to read it in translation, and the text is not as strong as I thought.
House, which is high, reminds me of Elbe her house of parents, light, garage in front, house on top of it, pathway to the side, reminds me of house of B&D. I'm at the backside of the house. Parents and brothers are there. Veranda.
I am making ready to perform a Seidr ritual, but my brothers just now come from the veranda, so I want to involve them in the project.
Inside, dark, I've got four chairs to represent the four corners, cardinal points. I want to do this rite specifically to extract knowledge, to learn something secret, to know something specific, but the preparation takes so long that I become conscious of dreaming and the reason why I do it recedes into the background. What I want to know is whether some specific magical technique works or not. Possibly this is something from another tradition, but I want to try with runes. Or, maybe I use knowledge from other traditions to start the rite, to do the opening. So, N and D have to cooperate, though they are not used to it and maybe even don't want to. I let them do things, there is only the opening of the rite, that builds the more I get into it, and I improvise it on the way, but the opening of the rite, because I get carried away, because in itself so long, that in the dream I never get to the core rite. Moreover, because I become more awake, I have forgotten the why.
One of the things that I improvise which everybody can do is chanting vowels, but using the runic vowels. This is fun and takes a long time, then our parents come and have a look and mother obviously wants to take her evening nap, which is difficult for us, because that means we have to stop what we do. Therefore, she does not want us to continue. She is really against it.
So the rite is paused, but I think that is okay, because I was improvising anyway. Later we can do the rest.
N, D, are already elsewhere, in the house I suppose. I follow later. It is cold in the veranda, no heating.
Then we get company, a visit. I am ill, and am a bear, actually in the shape of a brown bear, and I should eat something, mother organizes things and wants to give or feed me bread, I am in something something with N & D, and eating something something, which is good.
2. Quick Grandfather
Maybe living room of aunt M. Grandfather is there, at table, his brother and sister beside him, on either side. At one end of the table. I notice he is not using his cane, and when he stands up, frequently, he is very quick and alive. Cousin D is there. There are marbles on the table, and grandfather is explaining something, I think about the card game he used to play. Now he uses his cane to move the balls on the table, like billiard, and to victory.
N, cousin D, and me look for something something, which is ancient, ages old.
3. Blue Green Book
There is a list with English words, with which I still need to do something. And there is my dad, he stands out, he is again the only one helping me out. Resting, either him or me, can't remember. So I leave the visit behind, him or me (?). At home of parents, dining room. I am busy with something (can't read notes well).
On the table is a blue green book, and I open it because I wanted to read it, it is my dad's, and I open it and the pages itself are blue and green, pages and print. But I don't like what I see, because it is in Dutch, and I don't want to read it in translation, and the text is not as strong as I thought.
Tuesday, 29 October 2013
Bus Incident
1. Weekend End and Bus Incident
First a scene in a shop like environment, differently oriented, and looks different, more in tune with nature, organic place almost, maybe even half outside, and close to a road on which other side is nature. I come at the counter and this is full with piles of books, most of these are currently needed, so I can't remove them. Also, someone else is in charge, and I only happen to be there and can be of help, so I help out but leave everything on the counter.
This other person is on the right.
Then a customer comes and I need one of these books, most are rather thin, a green one. These are part of a certain promotion, Cera. I understand why all these books are here.
This is the last of a weekend event in the shop (opendeurdagen). This is the next scene, which is outside, where all people are gathered for the different workshops, everyone is merry and preparing to say goodbyes and leave for home again. Sheds, like scout huts, natural environment. I organized this, but I seem to be the least important person, I don't mind. I go back home too. Then brighter light. The sheds are a little down of the road. Lisl is there. And when I start leaving she is too, and we pack our things together, then things become a little difficult, because my bicycle is on the right, but her car is on the left, across the street at the parking lot. And I am okay with going with her but I want to get my bike, but she sticks to me somehow and even suggests she can go by bike too, only she can only do this by going the other way still.
Lots of people here, time to go, end of weekend. I chat with Lisl, and she would like to come with me. I don't think this is very practical.
Because of this two directions thing we are threatened by being separated.
But somehow everyone ends up on the same bus, that is the easiest thing, no trouble with own transport, someone will do it for you and we can enjoy the drive. Is going the right direction. Big bus and full. I suppose I organized this too.
Then it becomes night, and we drive on the highway, it rains. At some point I see the bus drives past the exit we need to take, he drives a little more but then takes his opportunity to stop and turn, but this too will be rather complicated, because he can't reach that exit from here, even if he turns. But I think it is at least good he turns around.
Actually, the bus never gets turned, but goes to the right lane and exits there, rightaway, and we all get off, and people me included are confused, and carefully or frantically look for the right way to get home. This is some kind of hostel by the road. L shape. People walk stairs up and down and over the roof of the house and in the house, but they can't find their way. This looks desperate and I observe it while I am also a part of this.Outside is a stair and eventually we go up there thinking it will lead us back into the bus, but it ends nowhere, I even never get so far.
At the start of the dream maybe something about London.
2. Old Fashioned and Modern
Something about buying a comic of Lucky Luke, in the garage of parents, a customer, and I watch, and he comments to me that the original is better, but that these modern ones are consciously made more complicated because they think they must make a difference with the old ones and so on... But he would rather have had an old one.
3. New Set of Teeth
Fragment in which I have something at my teeth, lower half, and think I should replace them, but am uncertain. Then a woman, who reminds me of Chdr, shows her new teeth, also under, and they really stick out are of plastic or whatever, green and black, and really modern, almost futuristic, but she is happy, and that makes me more comfortable.
First a scene in a shop like environment, differently oriented, and looks different, more in tune with nature, organic place almost, maybe even half outside, and close to a road on which other side is nature. I come at the counter and this is full with piles of books, most of these are currently needed, so I can't remove them. Also, someone else is in charge, and I only happen to be there and can be of help, so I help out but leave everything on the counter.
This other person is on the right.
Then a customer comes and I need one of these books, most are rather thin, a green one. These are part of a certain promotion, Cera. I understand why all these books are here.
This is the last of a weekend event in the shop (opendeurdagen). This is the next scene, which is outside, where all people are gathered for the different workshops, everyone is merry and preparing to say goodbyes and leave for home again. Sheds, like scout huts, natural environment. I organized this, but I seem to be the least important person, I don't mind. I go back home too. Then brighter light. The sheds are a little down of the road. Lisl is there. And when I start leaving she is too, and we pack our things together, then things become a little difficult, because my bicycle is on the right, but her car is on the left, across the street at the parking lot. And I am okay with going with her but I want to get my bike, but she sticks to me somehow and even suggests she can go by bike too, only she can only do this by going the other way still.
Lots of people here, time to go, end of weekend. I chat with Lisl, and she would like to come with me. I don't think this is very practical.
Because of this two directions thing we are threatened by being separated.
But somehow everyone ends up on the same bus, that is the easiest thing, no trouble with own transport, someone will do it for you and we can enjoy the drive. Is going the right direction. Big bus and full. I suppose I organized this too.
Then it becomes night, and we drive on the highway, it rains. At some point I see the bus drives past the exit we need to take, he drives a little more but then takes his opportunity to stop and turn, but this too will be rather complicated, because he can't reach that exit from here, even if he turns. But I think it is at least good he turns around.
Actually, the bus never gets turned, but goes to the right lane and exits there, rightaway, and we all get off, and people me included are confused, and carefully or frantically look for the right way to get home. This is some kind of hostel by the road. L shape. People walk stairs up and down and over the roof of the house and in the house, but they can't find their way. This looks desperate and I observe it while I am also a part of this.Outside is a stair and eventually we go up there thinking it will lead us back into the bus, but it ends nowhere, I even never get so far.
At the start of the dream maybe something about London.
2. Old Fashioned and Modern
Something about buying a comic of Lucky Luke, in the garage of parents, a customer, and I watch, and he comments to me that the original is better, but that these modern ones are consciously made more complicated because they think they must make a difference with the old ones and so on... But he would rather have had an old one.
3. New Set of Teeth
Fragment in which I have something at my teeth, lower half, and think I should replace them, but am uncertain. Then a woman, who reminds me of Chdr, shows her new teeth, also under, and they really stick out are of plastic or whatever, green and black, and really modern, almost futuristic, but she is happy, and that makes me more comfortable.
Monday, 28 October 2013
Secret House
1. Secret House in College
At some point in a dream there is Chwe sitting I think, and I am behind her, am about to say goodbye, me leaving. Dark. I lean over, over her left shoulder, and I near her, because now I would like to kiss her lips, but when I am about to, she obviously does not want to, but a moment later she clearly changes her mind and she kisses me. And at first it is very soft, because I'm not sure what to do with it, but she continues, so I can only follow, tongue.
Later in the same dream. House, large, halfway in the ground. At first with a lot of other people, maybe different location. Students.
Elbe is there. Maybe this whole complex reminds me of a college (reminds me of Goodenough College in London), at the same time my house is somewhere here, in the complex, to the left, in a part that is not accessible to others, and therefore secret, and even to me this is new. But Elbe is looking for something to study, and she tells me she wants to learn Kabbala, as if I am the person knowing everything about this university. It is not because I live here that this is the case. But I happen to see tables with leaflets, and underneath shelves with all the information, so I browse through it and after a while I find the Jewish Mysteries leaflet. I go past it first, to see if more specific courses are given, then turn back and take it. All those leaflets are colourful, but with a white background. I hand it over to Elbe.
After that we go outside, which is inside of the complex, to the side, is a pavement, and a corridor which is higher above ground.
(From notes) Somebody tells us something, other place already (?).
And then bedtime, so I retire to my secret house, and the storm outside is raging, and I am all alone, and it is still bright, outside, the light seeps in. And I am at the upper story to the right, where my bedroom is, but all the rooms are large. When I can't sleep I get up and go down and to the left, and these are the living room quarters, and I see what I feared, the lights are on everywhere, but what is also wrong is this that some of the windows are open, some only a little bit, the top ones, but one or two completely. The strange thing is that they give access to another world outside, a different world than when you would walk the inside of the complex or outside. This is a different world behind my house, which is why it is secret, and underground.
While I go down to check the lights, something else happens. Staples, unused, hover on my right hand, as well as a plastic paying card, it sticks to the back of my hand, and so do the staples, and sometimes they circle about my hand, when I shake them. This is a weird sight, and I think it is something like static, but this is real magnetism. I try to leave it behind, but it is difficult, then I give it no more thought.
When I am downstairs and see the windows, which are large, ajar, the great boss, chief of this complex, is also here, some yuppie, very rich and powerful, and full of himself. He comes to check with me, now that I am awake. I don't trust him at all.
I realize that it was not me who opened all these windows, something is wrong here, and I don't feel safe anymore, because that means that people can just walk in into my house without my knowledge, and what is more so, even this boss can do so. I don't like that. I think that it was maybe his daughter who did all this, or the people who work for him, goons, because the house is embedded in the university, and the university is his, which means the house is his, and this means I can stay and live here because he wants it. I am somehow under his power.

It is then that I notice the front door, which is one that I can't use, but he came through it, and now that I see it, I am curious enough, and he goes back through it to leave the house, and I follow to see where it leads, because I see a room with maybe one or two passing people when he opens the door. Again, a different world behind it, but a familiar one, the same as the outside university in fact. When we walk through I recognize the room as one of the library chambers, warm, wood, dark, students present, they see us coming, though the entry is secret, you can't see it from the library. More students are in the room. This chamber is downstairs or underground also.
2. Tomb Stone Rite
First part I can't remember, but it was light, hectic, inside and with lots of people, among which D. At least two rooms, and I was mocked at, but can't remember reason nor situation.
Later, to the right, there is a place for eating, I go there, and Jeve is there, she just got something to eat, and I sit opposite her.
There was also some Greek words spoken by someone, maybe the names of lesser known gods, like Arete. And I understand that the end -e is indeed pronounced as -ee.
Lica is also here, she is on my right at the table. We are all eating. Jeve is telling some sort of story, can't remember what, and some of the food is the same which she has and what I have, I think. But she has also mushrooms, but I don't want those. At the end, both of them have eaten all the mushrooms, because Lica also likes them, but then Jeve wants more, and they are all gone, and I've always said not to mushrooms, but now I see them to the left of my plate, on the table, not even on a plate, and wonder whether I will eat that. I must have forgotten that I had these.
The situation was more complex than that, some other thought or discussion was involved at the same time and linked to the eating situation, but I can't remember it.
Last part of the dream, back inside to where the living room is, this happens to be my house, but rather large, and that is when I remember, this is indeed my house but I had forgotten is was so big. The house reminds me of the one I lived in with Bale three years ago.
D is there. And something needs to be done, and I even if this is not my business everyone expects me to lead the ritual, and I know what is to be done. In the living room, which has three sections, there are three graves, you can see the stone slab in the floor, in each section. And I tell them that I want to do the rite there, at the first tomb stone. D has a little fear about this, while I think this will create a splendid link with the otherworld. D is suspicious so he inspects the inscription on the stone at one side, opposite is a door, and I do think it is wise to close it, because otherwise unwanted spirits might enter. But I am happy to do the ritual here, though in the meanwhile I don't remember what it is about, this is because I am starting to wake up. The inscription that D reads makes him shudder and he has some fears. Other people were there that should be in the rite, or for whom the rite would be done.
At some point in a dream there is Chwe sitting I think, and I am behind her, am about to say goodbye, me leaving. Dark. I lean over, over her left shoulder, and I near her, because now I would like to kiss her lips, but when I am about to, she obviously does not want to, but a moment later she clearly changes her mind and she kisses me. And at first it is very soft, because I'm not sure what to do with it, but she continues, so I can only follow, tongue.
Later in the same dream. House, large, halfway in the ground. At first with a lot of other people, maybe different location. Students.
Elbe is there. Maybe this whole complex reminds me of a college (reminds me of Goodenough College in London), at the same time my house is somewhere here, in the complex, to the left, in a part that is not accessible to others, and therefore secret, and even to me this is new. But Elbe is looking for something to study, and she tells me she wants to learn Kabbala, as if I am the person knowing everything about this university. It is not because I live here that this is the case. But I happen to see tables with leaflets, and underneath shelves with all the information, so I browse through it and after a while I find the Jewish Mysteries leaflet. I go past it first, to see if more specific courses are given, then turn back and take it. All those leaflets are colourful, but with a white background. I hand it over to Elbe.
After that we go outside, which is inside of the complex, to the side, is a pavement, and a corridor which is higher above ground.
(From notes) Somebody tells us something, other place already (?).
And then bedtime, so I retire to my secret house, and the storm outside is raging, and I am all alone, and it is still bright, outside, the light seeps in. And I am at the upper story to the right, where my bedroom is, but all the rooms are large. When I can't sleep I get up and go down and to the left, and these are the living room quarters, and I see what I feared, the lights are on everywhere, but what is also wrong is this that some of the windows are open, some only a little bit, the top ones, but one or two completely. The strange thing is that they give access to another world outside, a different world than when you would walk the inside of the complex or outside. This is a different world behind my house, which is why it is secret, and underground.
While I go down to check the lights, something else happens. Staples, unused, hover on my right hand, as well as a plastic paying card, it sticks to the back of my hand, and so do the staples, and sometimes they circle about my hand, when I shake them. This is a weird sight, and I think it is something like static, but this is real magnetism. I try to leave it behind, but it is difficult, then I give it no more thought.
When I am downstairs and see the windows, which are large, ajar, the great boss, chief of this complex, is also here, some yuppie, very rich and powerful, and full of himself. He comes to check with me, now that I am awake. I don't trust him at all.
I realize that it was not me who opened all these windows, something is wrong here, and I don't feel safe anymore, because that means that people can just walk in into my house without my knowledge, and what is more so, even this boss can do so. I don't like that. I think that it was maybe his daughter who did all this, or the people who work for him, goons, because the house is embedded in the university, and the university is his, which means the house is his, and this means I can stay and live here because he wants it. I am somehow under his power.
It is then that I notice the front door, which is one that I can't use, but he came through it, and now that I see it, I am curious enough, and he goes back through it to leave the house, and I follow to see where it leads, because I see a room with maybe one or two passing people when he opens the door. Again, a different world behind it, but a familiar one, the same as the outside university in fact. When we walk through I recognize the room as one of the library chambers, warm, wood, dark, students present, they see us coming, though the entry is secret, you can't see it from the library. More students are in the room. This chamber is downstairs or underground also.
2. Tomb Stone Rite
First part I can't remember, but it was light, hectic, inside and with lots of people, among which D. At least two rooms, and I was mocked at, but can't remember reason nor situation.
Later, to the right, there is a place for eating, I go there, and Jeve is there, she just got something to eat, and I sit opposite her.
There was also some Greek words spoken by someone, maybe the names of lesser known gods, like Arete. And I understand that the end -e is indeed pronounced as -ee.
Lica is also here, she is on my right at the table. We are all eating. Jeve is telling some sort of story, can't remember what, and some of the food is the same which she has and what I have, I think. But she has also mushrooms, but I don't want those. At the end, both of them have eaten all the mushrooms, because Lica also likes them, but then Jeve wants more, and they are all gone, and I've always said not to mushrooms, but now I see them to the left of my plate, on the table, not even on a plate, and wonder whether I will eat that. I must have forgotten that I had these.
The situation was more complex than that, some other thought or discussion was involved at the same time and linked to the eating situation, but I can't remember it.
Last part of the dream, back inside to where the living room is, this happens to be my house, but rather large, and that is when I remember, this is indeed my house but I had forgotten is was so big. The house reminds me of the one I lived in with Bale three years ago.
D is there. And something needs to be done, and I even if this is not my business everyone expects me to lead the ritual, and I know what is to be done. In the living room, which has three sections, there are three graves, you can see the stone slab in the floor, in each section. And I tell them that I want to do the rite there, at the first tomb stone. D has a little fear about this, while I think this will create a splendid link with the otherworld. D is suspicious so he inspects the inscription on the stone at one side, opposite is a door, and I do think it is wise to close it, because otherwise unwanted spirits might enter. But I am happy to do the ritual here, though in the meanwhile I don't remember what it is about, this is because I am starting to wake up. The inscription that D reads makes him shudder and he has some fears. Other people were there that should be in the rite, or for whom the rite would be done.
Sunday, 27 October 2013
New York Cruise
1. Hurdle Race and Naked Rune Session
(wet dream)
In the garden of parents. Lots of people, young people. D&S are there, and their friends.
I arrive, they are doing some sort of sports or competition, in this case running a race on the field. This is improvisation, but they take it serious. There are long wooden poles, more like dark grey wooden planks, weathered, three of them, stick up in the lawn and mark the stations that need to be passed. Dark. These planks upright in the lawn are in random places.
There is one boy who starts running and has some trouble advancing, maybe to the point that he needs to crawl, but he goes forward. He presses on, makes an effort. But because of this he can only go forward, which is a problem when he needs to turn back. This is a friend of D. From the last hurdle, the boy runs backward.
There is another person who goes with the feet first, and thinks he'll be faster this way.
I am encouraged by all to also run, but I don't want to, then I do it anyway, family is also there, like aunt M and possibly aunt D and uncle B, and they watch me. I don't like that.
Only afterward I am given advice by all of them.
Then the second round or the next round starts, and all of these challenges are improvised. And they want to do a series of such sports, but I only arrived with this hurdle race. Now the next thing will be inside. Veranda. Tables, some kind of free game, I had already forgotten but I knew how it was played.
Then it is my turn, I don't know very well what to do or how, but I have something in my hands, which are things you need to play chess or checkers with. And then I change my mind to my original idea, which is to use the runes, because I know that best, and it is allowed. So I choose Uruz. People from Jeka, long ago, are here also and watch. My original plan is to go through each of the runes and couple a rune to each of the people, but I can't, because one rune is enough, otherwise it will take too much time. So I stick to Uruz.
Later I draw Pertho, too, with an Uruz rune in it, in the side branches.
And later, also, I sit across Elbe, and she is naked, and I am naked, light, sit on chairs or in the sofa, in front of each other, and some third person is nearby, but I can't care about that. And he is also naked. And my cock is stiff. And Elbe says: it lives, it is alive. And I answer: well, that is healthy. And we sit so close that my dick is actually resting on her left thigh, and at first I leave it, but when I become conscious of it, it is hard to not get sexually roused, and the dream ends wet. But in this rare case, I was able to withhold it (?).
2. Touch Naked Knee
(wet dream)
We're on a ship, and sailing, this is a big ship. Three (?) young girls, one on my lap, or better I sit on her lap, so she is behind me, but her knees are bare, and they are of course in front of me, so I touch them and see an opening there. She more or less cups my body, and I hold her knees.
She leans back and forth, I withhold. Arve and Loli are there, and other familiar faces.
Later inside. In the kitchen, this is the kitchen of parents, Elbe has cooked, and Rume is there also, and I am there, and what is served are scampi and mashed potato.
At some point I look at Elbe and she looks back, and there is some tension in the air of not being sure how to behave toward each other, because in the other dream we were so close and touched each other's body. And now it feels like we have a past, and that makes things rather uncomfortable, especially because Rume is there, who is her partner.
Also, looking for a book, and I am at the till. Something about house keeping. Can't read notes well.
3. New York Cruise
First. On the Bondgenotenlaan, I leave something and start going home, maybe leaving a party, lots of people in the streets, I walk toward the station, though that is not even where my house is, though near enough. And light like as by day. In the crowd, a girl my age addresses me. I don't recognize her immediately. She says she saw me the other day, and she keeps talking. She is going toward the station and I am going the same way. At the station it is really crowded with people. She sticks around so much that I almost feel obliged to ask her out, at least ask her name. This I do, but even to this she hesitates to answer, as if it is too much, and she can't do it, because it is not proper. But I expect she will so wait and she cannot but say her name, which is Ine. After that I leave her and she goes to the station, and I go home, the right way, which is indeed a bit back down the road of the Bondgenotenlaan.
At home strange things happen and house and apartment look different than in reality, more dreamlike. Different floors, more open, but arranged very different, much light, colours.
Then something with books.
Then, end of the dream, making ready for taking a cruise. This I organized and my friends and family will come along. We get on the boat, we are early, and yet already lots of people have gathered, all of them in groups, we stay in the hall, but some people go on to the next room, and others to the right where you can go outside, but we feel more safe in this middle room, which is the first you enter, we don't venture further. And I realize I am in my pajamas. But I don't really care and continue my business. I hope everyone I invited will come and things will turn out fine, because I organized this. Stco arrives. My brothers are here with me. There are lots of people I know, even in the other groups.
This boat will cruise to New York, but we will take the short route, which means that we will go back after we reach Britain, maybe London. The ship will do many stops, but most of them will be in the beginning, and we will take one of these stops.
The ship is very posh, everything utterly chic. We wait here as other people keep streaming in and in the meanwhile night sets, and some groups are already served food. And I am waiting for this too, while waiting for still more friends. I am considering going to one of the other rooms, just to see some progress and get some food, too, the apero and champagne which should be served.
I see others getting things. And most of these go outside or back outside, where there is the terrace on the ship, and that must be very romantic. This is what I am thinking.
Food will be served, and we sit in the corner. I'm not sure what to do, want to go outside. There are many possibilities, and they feel like opportunities.
(wet dream)
In the garden of parents. Lots of people, young people. D&S are there, and their friends.
I arrive, they are doing some sort of sports or competition, in this case running a race on the field. This is improvisation, but they take it serious. There are long wooden poles, more like dark grey wooden planks, weathered, three of them, stick up in the lawn and mark the stations that need to be passed. Dark. These planks upright in the lawn are in random places.
There is one boy who starts running and has some trouble advancing, maybe to the point that he needs to crawl, but he goes forward. He presses on, makes an effort. But because of this he can only go forward, which is a problem when he needs to turn back. This is a friend of D. From the last hurdle, the boy runs backward.
There is another person who goes with the feet first, and thinks he'll be faster this way.
I am encouraged by all to also run, but I don't want to, then I do it anyway, family is also there, like aunt M and possibly aunt D and uncle B, and they watch me. I don't like that.
Only afterward I am given advice by all of them.
Then the second round or the next round starts, and all of these challenges are improvised. And they want to do a series of such sports, but I only arrived with this hurdle race. Now the next thing will be inside. Veranda. Tables, some kind of free game, I had already forgotten but I knew how it was played.
Then it is my turn, I don't know very well what to do or how, but I have something in my hands, which are things you need to play chess or checkers with. And then I change my mind to my original idea, which is to use the runes, because I know that best, and it is allowed. So I choose Uruz. People from Jeka, long ago, are here also and watch. My original plan is to go through each of the runes and couple a rune to each of the people, but I can't, because one rune is enough, otherwise it will take too much time. So I stick to Uruz.
Later I draw Pertho, too, with an Uruz rune in it, in the side branches.
And later, also, I sit across Elbe, and she is naked, and I am naked, light, sit on chairs or in the sofa, in front of each other, and some third person is nearby, but I can't care about that. And he is also naked. And my cock is stiff. And Elbe says: it lives, it is alive. And I answer: well, that is healthy. And we sit so close that my dick is actually resting on her left thigh, and at first I leave it, but when I become conscious of it, it is hard to not get sexually roused, and the dream ends wet. But in this rare case, I was able to withhold it (?).
2. Touch Naked Knee
(wet dream)
We're on a ship, and sailing, this is a big ship. Three (?) young girls, one on my lap, or better I sit on her lap, so she is behind me, but her knees are bare, and they are of course in front of me, so I touch them and see an opening there. She more or less cups my body, and I hold her knees.
She leans back and forth, I withhold. Arve and Loli are there, and other familiar faces.
Later inside. In the kitchen, this is the kitchen of parents, Elbe has cooked, and Rume is there also, and I am there, and what is served are scampi and mashed potato.
At some point I look at Elbe and she looks back, and there is some tension in the air of not being sure how to behave toward each other, because in the other dream we were so close and touched each other's body. And now it feels like we have a past, and that makes things rather uncomfortable, especially because Rume is there, who is her partner.
Also, looking for a book, and I am at the till. Something about house keeping. Can't read notes well.
3. New York Cruise
First. On the Bondgenotenlaan, I leave something and start going home, maybe leaving a party, lots of people in the streets, I walk toward the station, though that is not even where my house is, though near enough. And light like as by day. In the crowd, a girl my age addresses me. I don't recognize her immediately. She says she saw me the other day, and she keeps talking. She is going toward the station and I am going the same way. At the station it is really crowded with people. She sticks around so much that I almost feel obliged to ask her out, at least ask her name. This I do, but even to this she hesitates to answer, as if it is too much, and she can't do it, because it is not proper. But I expect she will so wait and she cannot but say her name, which is Ine. After that I leave her and she goes to the station, and I go home, the right way, which is indeed a bit back down the road of the Bondgenotenlaan.
At home strange things happen and house and apartment look different than in reality, more dreamlike. Different floors, more open, but arranged very different, much light, colours.
Then something with books.
Then, end of the dream, making ready for taking a cruise. This I organized and my friends and family will come along. We get on the boat, we are early, and yet already lots of people have gathered, all of them in groups, we stay in the hall, but some people go on to the next room, and others to the right where you can go outside, but we feel more safe in this middle room, which is the first you enter, we don't venture further. And I realize I am in my pajamas. But I don't really care and continue my business. I hope everyone I invited will come and things will turn out fine, because I organized this. Stco arrives. My brothers are here with me. There are lots of people I know, even in the other groups.
This boat will cruise to New York, but we will take the short route, which means that we will go back after we reach Britain, maybe London. The ship will do many stops, but most of them will be in the beginning, and we will take one of these stops.
The ship is very posh, everything utterly chic. We wait here as other people keep streaming in and in the meanwhile night sets, and some groups are already served food. And I am waiting for this too, while waiting for still more friends. I am considering going to one of the other rooms, just to see some progress and get some food, too, the apero and champagne which should be served.
I see others getting things. And most of these go outside or back outside, where there is the terrace on the ship, and that must be very romantic. This is what I am thinking.
Food will be served, and we sit in the corner. I'm not sure what to do, want to go outside. There are many possibilities, and they feel like opportunities.
Saturday, 26 October 2013
Maiden Bone
1. Crossroads Stairs
Last of the last dream. Outside, sun, crossroads. Chwe is there, N and D, groups, something with stairs, this seems to be inside stairs, but it may still be outside, inside of a building, but maybe like a playground or patio, rather big. Stairs against the brick walls.
Someone wants to come over to sleep. Rather hectic dream.
2. Bone
Last fragment I remember. Chwe in my house, upstairs. Different times, every time the same, I suppose I try to seduce her every time, but at one point very much, her legs are naked and I start kissing these heavily, start low and then higher and higher. Excited atmosphere, she pulls back, she says that still has her 'bone', with which she means her thing for menstruation, what women wear. She means she can't go into my flirt now. I see her bone, it is a white thing like it is, between her legs, underneath her panty.
Last of the last dream. Outside, sun, crossroads. Chwe is there, N and D, groups, something with stairs, this seems to be inside stairs, but it may still be outside, inside of a building, but maybe like a playground or patio, rather big. Stairs against the brick walls.
Someone wants to come over to sleep. Rather hectic dream.
2. Bone
Last fragment I remember. Chwe in my house, upstairs. Different times, every time the same, I suppose I try to seduce her every time, but at one point very much, her legs are naked and I start kissing these heavily, start low and then higher and higher. Excited atmosphere, she pulls back, she says that still has her 'bone', with which she means her thing for menstruation, what women wear. She means she can't go into my flirt now. I see her bone, it is a white thing like it is, between her legs, underneath her panty.
Friday, 25 October 2013
Hot Oil and Water
1. Caught Red Handed
Cooking, when I do I quickly start to mess around, which means that I drop things on the floor in the process, I let it go, even if it is quite a lot, which is not what I usually do. I sometimes make things dirty when I cook, but not like this. I leave it on the floor and continue.
At home, N is there, me, and two small girls, and I am about to get up to leave. The two girls stay behind in the house, and I don't trust them, and I know they are waiting until we are gone to do mischief, so I pretend go out, this is the kitchen door, but glass, so I can peek through, which I do. And then want to catch them red handed.
N must be with me, though he did not move, but at that point the girls are left alone, and N is with me.
In the kitchen, there is a pot with opium (? not sure about this), kitchen table, and they use hot oil, this is a pot on top of another pot, all metal, and some construction to heat, a little oil is heated first, and then something else, the main thing, will be added. I know the process.
I want to extinguish this, but also them, so when they leave the kitchen and go into the veranda, I go back in and I take a plastic bottle of water, and I signal to N so that he can stop those two, because I want to empty the bottle above their heads. There is also a flame, because this is what happens first, the girls with their experiment want to add a can of water to the oil, and I know this will set things ablaze, so I tell N to stop them. But a flame bursts anyway. That is when I return inside.
They go to the veranda, and I want to cool down her, this is one girl, with a glass of cold water (according to notes), but I don't manage.
I keep the glass in my hands and chase her, and in the end I want to hide it in my room, bedroom, where they can't find it, but D is following me, so I can't do this unseen.
In the end I do empty the bottle over the head of that girl, but only half, so I don't feel as if I have succeeded.
2. Breen
Kitchen. D, N, me, this seems to be at a balcony, we look out to what is underneath us, and there are two tables where we are, one on the left where we are, and one on the right, where the food is that we like to prepare. And there are tomatoes on that table. Strange thing is that we make the food, while we are at one table and the food is at another. The tomatoes are not red entirely, but a bit green, and by the light, they seem a bit brown as well. And I think it is D who says that those tomatoes are 'breen' (Broen), which is green red, or green brown. We philosophize about it.
3. Sexy Dance Window
Krvo, who is a colleague in the other shop is in my house, and sits in the sofa, behind the computer. I let her. She is working on it, and I let her. I see that she uses internet, and that some dubious site is in the browser or thing with favourites, and I don't want her to see that. At first I play dumb and I don't interfere, then I start to become anxious, and I take over the mouse and want to close that particular window before she sees it, and I click the x, but the window opens, and now I can't shut it. And Krvo sees it and a lady (Miso) is in it, half naked, and in different positions, and blues, and dark, and rather nice, and different windows or pictures at the same time, and they move, so it is a film, which I did not know. And Krvo is interested, she watches. I don't know what to think, I am a bit embarrassed. The girl on the screen is dancing, and Krvo likes that, movements are rather sexy.
Cooking, when I do I quickly start to mess around, which means that I drop things on the floor in the process, I let it go, even if it is quite a lot, which is not what I usually do. I sometimes make things dirty when I cook, but not like this. I leave it on the floor and continue.
At home, N is there, me, and two small girls, and I am about to get up to leave. The two girls stay behind in the house, and I don't trust them, and I know they are waiting until we are gone to do mischief, so I pretend go out, this is the kitchen door, but glass, so I can peek through, which I do. And then want to catch them red handed.
N must be with me, though he did not move, but at that point the girls are left alone, and N is with me.
In the kitchen, there is a pot with opium (? not sure about this), kitchen table, and they use hot oil, this is a pot on top of another pot, all metal, and some construction to heat, a little oil is heated first, and then something else, the main thing, will be added. I know the process.
I want to extinguish this, but also them, so when they leave the kitchen and go into the veranda, I go back in and I take a plastic bottle of water, and I signal to N so that he can stop those two, because I want to empty the bottle above their heads. There is also a flame, because this is what happens first, the girls with their experiment want to add a can of water to the oil, and I know this will set things ablaze, so I tell N to stop them. But a flame bursts anyway. That is when I return inside.
They go to the veranda, and I want to cool down her, this is one girl, with a glass of cold water (according to notes), but I don't manage.
I keep the glass in my hands and chase her, and in the end I want to hide it in my room, bedroom, where they can't find it, but D is following me, so I can't do this unseen.
In the end I do empty the bottle over the head of that girl, but only half, so I don't feel as if I have succeeded.
2. Breen
Kitchen. D, N, me, this seems to be at a balcony, we look out to what is underneath us, and there are two tables where we are, one on the left where we are, and one on the right, where the food is that we like to prepare. And there are tomatoes on that table. Strange thing is that we make the food, while we are at one table and the food is at another. The tomatoes are not red entirely, but a bit green, and by the light, they seem a bit brown as well. And I think it is D who says that those tomatoes are 'breen' (Broen), which is green red, or green brown. We philosophize about it.
3. Sexy Dance Window
Krvo, who is a colleague in the other shop is in my house, and sits in the sofa, behind the computer. I let her. She is working on it, and I let her. I see that she uses internet, and that some dubious site is in the browser or thing with favourites, and I don't want her to see that. At first I play dumb and I don't interfere, then I start to become anxious, and I take over the mouse and want to close that particular window before she sees it, and I click the x, but the window opens, and now I can't shut it. And Krvo sees it and a lady (Miso) is in it, half naked, and in different positions, and blues, and dark, and rather nice, and different windows or pictures at the same time, and they move, so it is a film, which I did not know. And Krvo is interested, she watches. I don't know what to think, I am a bit embarrassed. The girl on the screen is dancing, and Krvo likes that, movements are rather sexy.
Thursday, 24 October 2013
Czech Ferry
Wednesday 23 October 2013
1. Czech Visit
Evening, in Leuven. I am taking a walk, either going home or just roaming about, but I decide to take a different route than usual. If I remember correctly, I was going home, and it was late enough to expect only a few people outside.
Night. Soon enough I lose my way, though I recognize the neighbourhood and know well enough I am in Leuven still, within the ringroad. Now, to not get lost more, I have to continue my way, yet I am rather certain that I will find my way back again if I continue, only I will have to walk more than necessary.
At some point there are people behind me, and I don't want to be a bother so I let them pass. But I do take the same path as they do, which happens to be right. In the meanwhile we come to a place that looks like university or college buildings, and even picturesque, I really remember this from long ago, so to say, in the dream. There are gardens to my left, and they are separated by hedges.
They are all going home, surely from a night out, I continue my path, which is the same as one of them, a girl, the group was with three. I act normal, do not want to bother her. I don want to know who she is, and look at her. We come at the Dijle, Lao-Dijle (?).
At this point there is a lot more folk out, there is some school or student housing complex, this is in fact at the other side than before, and more light, maybe morning even. I when I see this on my left (I turned left and then left again, so in a way I am on the right track by having turned back) I know for sure that is will be a very long way.
I continue to walk, and look for a short cut, at the other side there are even more students.
I've got friends with me, they live here in the first place. I don't know this place (?) and we meet friends. Wabo is here, and brother (?), they live here or want to move house. I never have known this place, I continue to walk. But I do look into the house, simple, no one there, I recognize the person's interior.
When I or we continue, this is some time after, then we arrive in the Czech Republic, first of all in a hospital, we pass there, and go in, and then back out to the same street but through different doors. The building is as good as deserted. I don't want to stay there. I am in a wheel chair, and I still meet familiar faces.
Here too I look for the shortest route, but only find the long way around. And I don't feel safe here. A long way from home.
When we go back outside, we turn into a group of tourist and continue our way. This makes things a bit more complex, because there are now more people to consider. We walk through the desolated town. There is a lot of water, and it is dirty. After a while, once we passed the city centre, on the right is a canal or river. We have a certain direction, a clear goal where we are going, lots of people, all going the same direction, I think that is not good, because that too will impede our progress. And things start to jam, as I feared. I still walk through the throng and to to the very end of the square, which is a quay, and there is water not just to the right but in front too, and I wanted to take the ferry there, and maybe take my group with me, or the one girl that I bonded with most, but the more people the more difficult. Before: dead end, I can't see how we can continue, so I stay still, people around me push, there is a boat. Czech people are on it and command it, allow no one on it yet.
We have to wait. We sit down, someone already pays, but there is no ferry yet, only next morning. Again, we still stand there.
At first the cars must go on the boat, something something to answer, responsibilities, this will never work, everyone goes back. We don't, because we already have a something something, and another couple.
This does not work after all. But we still get sparkling water, but the elderly couple gets champagne, this is still at the quay.
We drink it quickly, and then leave. We go away, and I realize that we have waited outside the whole night. Such an ordeal.
Later we continue and arrive somewhere, still in Czech Republic, but also many Turkish people. Be careful. This is at another building, simple, alone standing, and in the fields, some hills, seems winter here.
When we leave we go first to the back of this building, for herbs, such as thyme, I want to do this, it is a present for my mother, these herbs, can only get them here in nature. I will be able to dry these herbs at the place of Ru and Ro, neighbours of parents.
Then we go back and turn to the main entrance of the building, at least I do. I go as first, stairs up and again, upper floor, second floor this is, which is where Kula and Leds live, and I was hoping to meet them. Everything is simple. The underneath rooms are not lived in, but the whole thing is own by the state. I am glad I found them before people of the state catch us and remove us from it, from the country.
I ask them if it would help if they got more company, if more people would visit them, and Kula definitely says yes. At the uppermost floor there is a bed.
Leds is reading my book, in the corner at a desk, and more books are there, but she covers mine, because she is embarrassed about it. The book she covers it with is one of Procopius.
2. Pay by Proton
Somewhere I have to pay, and I use Proton., this is in a bank, woman at the desk. Something about 10 or 11 euro, one I pay, the other I still have afterwards. After me another customer.
3. Second Meal
Bale, group of four, sit together. Second time, meal, same table as before, but with other people. (Can't read notes). Is okay by me, then I see other people for once, which is good. Books
Enter from the side, inside, table is not for four anymore, maybe a quiz night, but tables are put together, Bale was already there, and other people sat themselves down, but not near her, so I sit with them and not with her, but she remains alone. No one opposite her. The tables are in an L.
4. Shaving on a Boat
On a ship, inside, get up in the morning, find the common bathroom, and find two shaving devices in it in the wall in the bathroom, one is Digr's and the other is Keva's.
1. Czech Visit
Evening, in Leuven. I am taking a walk, either going home or just roaming about, but I decide to take a different route than usual. If I remember correctly, I was going home, and it was late enough to expect only a few people outside.
Night. Soon enough I lose my way, though I recognize the neighbourhood and know well enough I am in Leuven still, within the ringroad. Now, to not get lost more, I have to continue my way, yet I am rather certain that I will find my way back again if I continue, only I will have to walk more than necessary.
At some point there are people behind me, and I don't want to be a bother so I let them pass. But I do take the same path as they do, which happens to be right. In the meanwhile we come to a place that looks like university or college buildings, and even picturesque, I really remember this from long ago, so to say, in the dream. There are gardens to my left, and they are separated by hedges.
They are all going home, surely from a night out, I continue my path, which is the same as one of them, a girl, the group was with three. I act normal, do not want to bother her. I don want to know who she is, and look at her. We come at the Dijle, Lao-Dijle (?).
At this point there is a lot more folk out, there is some school or student housing complex, this is in fact at the other side than before, and more light, maybe morning even. I when I see this on my left (I turned left and then left again, so in a way I am on the right track by having turned back) I know for sure that is will be a very long way.
I continue to walk, and look for a short cut, at the other side there are even more students.
I've got friends with me, they live here in the first place. I don't know this place (?) and we meet friends. Wabo is here, and brother (?), they live here or want to move house. I never have known this place, I continue to walk. But I do look into the house, simple, no one there, I recognize the person's interior.
When I or we continue, this is some time after, then we arrive in the Czech Republic, first of all in a hospital, we pass there, and go in, and then back out to the same street but through different doors. The building is as good as deserted. I don't want to stay there. I am in a wheel chair, and I still meet familiar faces.
Here too I look for the shortest route, but only find the long way around. And I don't feel safe here. A long way from home.
When we go back outside, we turn into a group of tourist and continue our way. This makes things a bit more complex, because there are now more people to consider. We walk through the desolated town. There is a lot of water, and it is dirty. After a while, once we passed the city centre, on the right is a canal or river. We have a certain direction, a clear goal where we are going, lots of people, all going the same direction, I think that is not good, because that too will impede our progress. And things start to jam, as I feared. I still walk through the throng and to to the very end of the square, which is a quay, and there is water not just to the right but in front too, and I wanted to take the ferry there, and maybe take my group with me, or the one girl that I bonded with most, but the more people the more difficult. Before: dead end, I can't see how we can continue, so I stay still, people around me push, there is a boat. Czech people are on it and command it, allow no one on it yet.
We have to wait. We sit down, someone already pays, but there is no ferry yet, only next morning. Again, we still stand there.
At first the cars must go on the boat, something something to answer, responsibilities, this will never work, everyone goes back. We don't, because we already have a something something, and another couple.
This does not work after all. But we still get sparkling water, but the elderly couple gets champagne, this is still at the quay.
We drink it quickly, and then leave. We go away, and I realize that we have waited outside the whole night. Such an ordeal.
Later we continue and arrive somewhere, still in Czech Republic, but also many Turkish people. Be careful. This is at another building, simple, alone standing, and in the fields, some hills, seems winter here.
When we leave we go first to the back of this building, for herbs, such as thyme, I want to do this, it is a present for my mother, these herbs, can only get them here in nature. I will be able to dry these herbs at the place of Ru and Ro, neighbours of parents.
Then we go back and turn to the main entrance of the building, at least I do. I go as first, stairs up and again, upper floor, second floor this is, which is where Kula and Leds live, and I was hoping to meet them. Everything is simple. The underneath rooms are not lived in, but the whole thing is own by the state. I am glad I found them before people of the state catch us and remove us from it, from the country.
I ask them if it would help if they got more company, if more people would visit them, and Kula definitely says yes. At the uppermost floor there is a bed.
Leds is reading my book, in the corner at a desk, and more books are there, but she covers mine, because she is embarrassed about it. The book she covers it with is one of Procopius.
2. Pay by Proton
Somewhere I have to pay, and I use Proton., this is in a bank, woman at the desk. Something about 10 or 11 euro, one I pay, the other I still have afterwards. After me another customer.
3. Second Meal
Bale, group of four, sit together. Second time, meal, same table as before, but with other people. (Can't read notes). Is okay by me, then I see other people for once, which is good. Books
Enter from the side, inside, table is not for four anymore, maybe a quiz night, but tables are put together, Bale was already there, and other people sat themselves down, but not near her, so I sit with them and not with her, but she remains alone. No one opposite her. The tables are in an L.
4. Shaving on a Boat
On a ship, inside, get up in the morning, find the common bathroom, and find two shaving devices in it in the wall in the bathroom, one is Digr's and the other is Keva's.
Pick a Date
1. Watching a Video
End part of last dream. We assemble, gather, my brothers and me, inside. Tama is also there, and Bale. The intention behind the summoning is to pick a date to watch a film together. Sometimes the dream is in the living room of parents, sometimes in a different house with more light and which is much bigger, too.
Brother N looks over my shoulder to see if all is right. I can't remember the detail.
Not a lot of weekends are still available for all, and it will result in this, that there will only be one date, but in the dream this is never said.
Then the film itself, this is in the living room. I want to see it badly, and I've waited long for this, and what's more, all this is my initiative, but I could convince all the others to take part in it, and that is why we look for a date.
But now we have to agree on what film we want to see. I have already something something (can't work out notes).
We're all in the sofa. Name of film I choose is something like New Buddies, or View Buddies. The film starts, and after a short while already, because I am watching intently, but the others are still about, especially N, tell me quickly enough that we should better wait and go to some other place, because this is indeed the same film that Dado had planned, and it is this same day, only at 3 pm, which is later in the day, now it must be noon. If I understand well, they have played it before and will now play it again as if it is the first time.
Of course he lives in Antwerp, so people are excited to go there, except me, because my initiative is undermined, but N leads it. The dream never takes it so far.
At some point in the dream, can't remember the exact context, I notice there are quite a lot of plants in the house, not just more, but exotic kinds too, and they are all N's, or he takes care of them. Everywhere in the house, especially in the living room, which means they are in places that seem a bit clumsy, too.
Something about my dad, maybe he sees a film lying about and wants to recommend it to us, and this is a horror movie, but it is on the list to be watched. None of us comment.
At some point near the end of the dream, Niru and his partner come in and say hello. N something.
Either Dado or we are in the Naamsestraat, which makes the move there not very long.
More notes, but I can't read them.
End part of last dream. We assemble, gather, my brothers and me, inside. Tama is also there, and Bale. The intention behind the summoning is to pick a date to watch a film together. Sometimes the dream is in the living room of parents, sometimes in a different house with more light and which is much bigger, too.
Brother N looks over my shoulder to see if all is right. I can't remember the detail.
Not a lot of weekends are still available for all, and it will result in this, that there will only be one date, but in the dream this is never said.
Then the film itself, this is in the living room. I want to see it badly, and I've waited long for this, and what's more, all this is my initiative, but I could convince all the others to take part in it, and that is why we look for a date.
But now we have to agree on what film we want to see. I have already something something (can't work out notes).
We're all in the sofa. Name of film I choose is something like New Buddies, or View Buddies. The film starts, and after a short while already, because I am watching intently, but the others are still about, especially N, tell me quickly enough that we should better wait and go to some other place, because this is indeed the same film that Dado had planned, and it is this same day, only at 3 pm, which is later in the day, now it must be noon. If I understand well, they have played it before and will now play it again as if it is the first time.
Of course he lives in Antwerp, so people are excited to go there, except me, because my initiative is undermined, but N leads it. The dream never takes it so far.
At some point in the dream, can't remember the exact context, I notice there are quite a lot of plants in the house, not just more, but exotic kinds too, and they are all N's, or he takes care of them. Everywhere in the house, especially in the living room, which means they are in places that seem a bit clumsy, too.
Something about my dad, maybe he sees a film lying about and wants to recommend it to us, and this is a horror movie, but it is on the list to be watched. None of us comment.
At some point near the end of the dream, Niru and his partner come in and say hello. N something.
Either Dado or we are in the Naamsestraat, which makes the move there not very long.
More notes, but I can't read them.
Tuesday, 22 October 2013
Coloured Dominoes
1. Walk her to the End
There is a big house, inside, this is Tama's, I see one floor, but really spacious, dark, reds. Her mother is in a wheel chair, and we are made aware of it or know it, though we never see her.
Then a group of strangers enters the house and we go away to another part of the house to seclude ourselves, to have some privacy.
Before this fragment, there was my brother N and we were outside.
Now I have to take care of Tama. Outside is more light. I stay in the hallway, the people are on the right. I don't want to mix or show my presence, am a bit shy. There is something secret that Tama has in the house, her property, and she cannot show it where other people are, but she can where I am. This is already late in the dream. The hallway is one that stretches from the front door to the back door, behind are gardens, and the rooms to the left are unknown to me. A few lost people walk about, among which a girl.
Tama hands me her secret thing, which is a bag of domino stones, but they are no longer in the bag, I take them, and want to keep them in my hands, need both hands, and keep them arranged as she handed them to me. They are blue, red, yellow and green, and in the middle is a dot of the same colour in which a word is inscribed (or a number or a letter or a symbol, I can't remember well, but I can read it). I wonder what they are for.
I go back to my place, which is more to the front. Tama was in the back. Now I take a seat, and play with the dominoes. Yet I almost show them to someone who happens to be nearby, she should not be here at all. The dominoes are already in disorder, they shuffled when I took them to the seat, which I think is natural, but I wanted to avoid it, could not.
Then a blond girl, maybe my age, tall, comes in, and I had seen her earlier in the dream. And she goes out through the back door because she wants to take a walk. And I was planning myself to go out for a walk. So when I see her this second time I don't hesitate and get up and go with her, and I actually lead her, to the right once we are outside, but she wanted to go left, because she had already walked right. But I insist because I need to go a certain course, and there is one thing in particular I want to show. So she comes along. I take her by the hand, I also have my arm wrapped around her at some point. And she has hers about me, on my shoulder or waist.
She is rather fast, and I try to slow her down, once we turned the corner, back to the left, there is a long stretch of road that leads to a street and that end part looks more urban, so I don't want to go further than the end of the street, but before the end is a gang of men and they look like trouble. They see her. Can't remember exactly what happened.
At least I go to the very end, and there at the street I see Kula and I tell him I still have his Thorgal comic books in my house, if he ever wants them back, because now I keep them safe for him. But he does not react.
Later, at table, group of people sitting there, somebody has a backache. We must be in a restaurant, but reminds me of the veranda. We sit in a corner, private enough. Then the host comes and asks if everything is okay, but the maid or boy of the host comes to help instinctively the person with the backache, who might be a girl. The Asian looking boy leans against her back, while she remains on her chair, and then he hangs over her, and I think that this is too intimate. And then they do other things to help her, and it helps a little, but not really. Among these things is the hostess giving a massage.
In the end, my dad, who sits next to them, which is opposite of me, decides to help and does something to the girl's chest, and we almost hear a click, and the rib is back in place and everything is alright.
2. Ketchup
There is a fragment in which there is a second bottle of ketchup, because the first is empty, table, chairs, food, four people maybe.
3. Shaving Feet
There is a late dream fragment in which I shave my body, and I see the hairs on my body, and I remember shaving my feet, so I was looking at my legs in the first place, and this is not real shaving but showing how it is done.
There is a big house, inside, this is Tama's, I see one floor, but really spacious, dark, reds. Her mother is in a wheel chair, and we are made aware of it or know it, though we never see her.
Then a group of strangers enters the house and we go away to another part of the house to seclude ourselves, to have some privacy.
Before this fragment, there was my brother N and we were outside.
Now I have to take care of Tama. Outside is more light. I stay in the hallway, the people are on the right. I don't want to mix or show my presence, am a bit shy. There is something secret that Tama has in the house, her property, and she cannot show it where other people are, but she can where I am. This is already late in the dream. The hallway is one that stretches from the front door to the back door, behind are gardens, and the rooms to the left are unknown to me. A few lost people walk about, among which a girl.
Tama hands me her secret thing, which is a bag of domino stones, but they are no longer in the bag, I take them, and want to keep them in my hands, need both hands, and keep them arranged as she handed them to me. They are blue, red, yellow and green, and in the middle is a dot of the same colour in which a word is inscribed (or a number or a letter or a symbol, I can't remember well, but I can read it). I wonder what they are for.
I go back to my place, which is more to the front. Tama was in the back. Now I take a seat, and play with the dominoes. Yet I almost show them to someone who happens to be nearby, she should not be here at all. The dominoes are already in disorder, they shuffled when I took them to the seat, which I think is natural, but I wanted to avoid it, could not.
Then a blond girl, maybe my age, tall, comes in, and I had seen her earlier in the dream. And she goes out through the back door because she wants to take a walk. And I was planning myself to go out for a walk. So when I see her this second time I don't hesitate and get up and go with her, and I actually lead her, to the right once we are outside, but she wanted to go left, because she had already walked right. But I insist because I need to go a certain course, and there is one thing in particular I want to show. So she comes along. I take her by the hand, I also have my arm wrapped around her at some point. And she has hers about me, on my shoulder or waist.
She is rather fast, and I try to slow her down, once we turned the corner, back to the left, there is a long stretch of road that leads to a street and that end part looks more urban, so I don't want to go further than the end of the street, but before the end is a gang of men and they look like trouble. They see her. Can't remember exactly what happened.
At least I go to the very end, and there at the street I see Kula and I tell him I still have his Thorgal comic books in my house, if he ever wants them back, because now I keep them safe for him. But he does not react.
Later, at table, group of people sitting there, somebody has a backache. We must be in a restaurant, but reminds me of the veranda. We sit in a corner, private enough. Then the host comes and asks if everything is okay, but the maid or boy of the host comes to help instinctively the person with the backache, who might be a girl. The Asian looking boy leans against her back, while she remains on her chair, and then he hangs over her, and I think that this is too intimate. And then they do other things to help her, and it helps a little, but not really. Among these things is the hostess giving a massage.
In the end, my dad, who sits next to them, which is opposite of me, decides to help and does something to the girl's chest, and we almost hear a click, and the rib is back in place and everything is alright.
2. Ketchup
There is a fragment in which there is a second bottle of ketchup, because the first is empty, table, chairs, food, four people maybe.
3. Shaving Feet
There is a late dream fragment in which I shave my body, and I see the hairs on my body, and I remember shaving my feet, so I was looking at my legs in the first place, and this is not real shaving but showing how it is done.
Monday, 21 October 2013
Four Armed Alien Invasion at Sea
1. Eva
I arrive at home, veranda, for lunchtime and to eat something. My father is here. My brothers are also somewhere. I eat a banana.
Something with a telephone, Tama is there, nothing to something something. Something (can't read notes).
At some point in the dream I was also at the beginning of the street of parents.
Something about the Hebrew origin of the name Eva, which means 'life', Chavah, that it is almost a palindrome. It means 'being'. Other names were said too. This was inside. Other people.
Back home, same dream I think, my brother D something (can't read my notes), school something (can't read), via phone.
The whole dream started at noon and ended at evening.
2. Black DVD
Brva comes to bring me a dvd, which she brought especially for me, and this is more or less clandestine, no cover, shape of a cd. She developed a new system, so that I can get these dvd's without anyone knowing. She will put these in my pigeon hole, and I can smuggle them. This is at work, she comes from downstairs to bring it. Something is called 'in the restaurant', possibly the dvd.
This is at the same time at a school where I went, HDC, and I am the main character. Stairs, downstairs, small something (can't read), girl. I arrive, her sister comes and has change with her, this is at the till, and I just arrive to take it and put it in the till, but I have to count it first.
She needs to pay something, but only has change, which she puts in piles of 1 euro on the counter, but each pile is made up of 5 cent, though not completely, some 2 cent and one 1 cent, which makes it difficult to count. The coins look like metal. I want to count it piece by piece, but she is impatient and makes things difficult. To do all this, I have also developed some sort of system.
I start to count backward, in front are those two women, but I do not trust them, which is why I want to recount. The till looks like a classroom bench.
Digr is there, he makes some comment, while the other people are still there, about me, why I should hit on them, and he is too open in this, and I am ashamed or put at unease. There was some nudity somewhere, and he made a remark, now I can't remember well. He assumed that I would go for it. But I did not like him being so public about it.
3. Long Brown Hair
I remember a dream in which I saw myself and my hair was longer on top, but not to the side, and more greasy too, and I had trouble keeping it down, but at least it was healthy, brown. Dark.
4. Alien Invasion and the Jewish Shelter
At sea. Daylight, light, open space, sea on my left, big city buildings on the right, lots of space between the buildings and the sea itself. I walk there.
First part of the dream was me on my own walking there with some mission I think, going home I think, I can't remember what, but there were other people about, and some people I know, because this is a close community, but at that time I am alone, and I want to be alone, which might be the reason why I am walking.
Then next or maybe the next day, something happens that I feared would happen, which is a space ship that lands, and I know it is the first of many. And there is reason to be afraid and seek shelter. People do this, it takes a while before people realize, but not long. The one ship lands still far away, which buys us some time. But then all the other space ships descend and the situation is hopeless, and they land in the same area, but where they land they destroy everything, and living beings they shoot or kill. And they leave their ships and go about the city and kill everyone as if to clean this place and make it theirs. This is an alien invasion, and they have no mercy.
This is the morning then.
At that point I am at a place where the road splits, one part leads up to where they are and the other leads down to where I saw someone else run to hide, there are cars, I go there, but I also watch the ships and the aliens. I see them walking the streets, and at first there are only a few, but not long after it is really an invasion, troops, army, like a colonization. When I watch them I see they are human, and I think I construct something in my mind to make them look more alien, so that we can see the difference between them and us, otherwise it would be impossible for us to see the difference, but they will always know.
And that is why they have four arms. But some hide it and they look like us, only taller, I remember now. They all go the same way, toward the centre of town. Dressed alike, loose upper shirt. I try not to expose myself, but I also pretend as if I have an extra set of arms and walk the same direction as they do, now they have reached this end of the street, which is wide. And I see some distance from me, in front, another alien, I think he has eight arms, and two legs, this must be a chief, but he is the only one different, and I am not sure I can trust what I see, because I know it might be a construct of my own imagination. They move their lower set of arms continually, as if to stress that they have more arms than us, so I try to mimic that with my own pair of arms. I don't get caught, but I try to keep a low profile.
In any way, it is too late for me to run and hide where I would have gone first, down the other road, so I decide to go in the same direction, and then see if I can knock on a door and slip through before they notice.
When I am a little more toward the centre, but still near the sea, which is always near, I see a young girl with a lot of courage. She is part of a Jewish family, that lives in that house, from which she comes. I know them because they live here, but she comes out of the door, opens it, and calls over aliens to invite them in, I can't remember why, but she had a plan, and her family did not agree to it, but she was cunning. The family is ready to run, but they are inside, father and mother, and the rest I can't remember. But I think this is my one time opportunity so I go in, the girl after me, and I see the Jewish family hurry about to prepare for flight. And the first room I enter is the living room, lots of wood, warm atmosphere.
I spend some time there. Don't know what happens next exactly, but I think the dream continues the next day, and that is when things have calmed down. The aliens have taken over everything, and murdered most people who got in their way, but they were not very thorough, did not intend to, but had no mercy either. Now the situation is different, they are the majority and control the situation.
The day is bright and sunny, and maybe morning, and we come out, we have to, and there are a few others with us. I am with the Jewish girl, and some friends I know are here in a corner outside near a park, away from the main street that is crowded with aliens, we stay a little away, because we don't know whether it is safe.
Aliens sit on the meadow near us, and clearly they are in a mood of peace and take a rest. So I venture out and dare to face them, because there is not much else we can do, either we die, or we die, so I go one of them, a young man, who sits with his friends, but this one is turned toward me and he looks as if you can talk to him. So I go to him and ask him: can we be friends, you and I. And I mean humans and aliens, because I need to know, I want to know my fate. He sits on the grass but he says no. There is some short conversation which I can't remember word for word, but it is clear that they cannot spare us. There is no future, he makes clear, between the lot of us and them. That seals it.
To make his point clear, he shows me a metal can with a red liquid in it which looks like soup, but is more bright, maybe the colour of raspberry. And I can see and feel from where I am standing that this is some sort of quantum device, and he explains that he can teleport me to another place, but I understand very well that if I go through this portal, I will not come alive out of the other end. Except for the Jewish girl, the others are afraid and stay behind. Then the man says that that is indeed their intention, and I understand it is some kind of execution method which is in some ways human, because it is not direct. But today or tomorrow, they will gather all the humans and have them step in the soup. And I know from the moment I would step in this that I will disappear, foot first, the rest not yet, because the foot will already be in a different dimension, but cannot stand the wormhole conditions, so this is bad.
5. Baby Turns into a Blond Guy
Possibly the same dream, or at leas the same rem. Tama is there, she is on the left. She has a baby, but the baby is not always with her. She is on the couch. Inside. I am there, Digr is there, other people.
At some point the baby crawls on top of her, and there is something that she needs to do, which might be something I suggest, because the time is right and if she don't she will not have a chance later, this to have her baby survive I think. What needs to be done is that the baby copulates with her.
First, when the baby crawls over her, this is the second time, he becomes a young man, blond, handsome, young, but still a child in mind. Tama before put cookies on top of her body to lure the baby on top of her, on her lap, on her face, and elsewhere, maybe the chest. When the baby transforms into a grown person, this guy looks like her. He is dressed, but not completely, and not very conscious, but he is now able to enter her. It must be done. Once is enough, but of course once he starts, he wants more. He enters her three times. But Tama must now also be strong and not let herself be carried away, because it is still her son, she cannot see him as a boyfriend. So if they keep going things will be lost, too, but they stop, can't remember how or why, because I even remember Tama saying to the boy if he wants more, and I felt his seed ready to come at that point, so maybe I prevented it.
I arrive at home, veranda, for lunchtime and to eat something. My father is here. My brothers are also somewhere. I eat a banana.
Something with a telephone, Tama is there, nothing to something something. Something (can't read notes).
At some point in the dream I was also at the beginning of the street of parents.
Something about the Hebrew origin of the name Eva, which means 'life', Chavah, that it is almost a palindrome. It means 'being'. Other names were said too. This was inside. Other people.
Back home, same dream I think, my brother D something (can't read my notes), school something (can't read), via phone.
The whole dream started at noon and ended at evening.
2. Black DVD
Brva comes to bring me a dvd, which she brought especially for me, and this is more or less clandestine, no cover, shape of a cd. She developed a new system, so that I can get these dvd's without anyone knowing. She will put these in my pigeon hole, and I can smuggle them. This is at work, she comes from downstairs to bring it. Something is called 'in the restaurant', possibly the dvd.
This is at the same time at a school where I went, HDC, and I am the main character. Stairs, downstairs, small something (can't read), girl. I arrive, her sister comes and has change with her, this is at the till, and I just arrive to take it and put it in the till, but I have to count it first.
She needs to pay something, but only has change, which she puts in piles of 1 euro on the counter, but each pile is made up of 5 cent, though not completely, some 2 cent and one 1 cent, which makes it difficult to count. The coins look like metal. I want to count it piece by piece, but she is impatient and makes things difficult. To do all this, I have also developed some sort of system.
I start to count backward, in front are those two women, but I do not trust them, which is why I want to recount. The till looks like a classroom bench.
Digr is there, he makes some comment, while the other people are still there, about me, why I should hit on them, and he is too open in this, and I am ashamed or put at unease. There was some nudity somewhere, and he made a remark, now I can't remember well. He assumed that I would go for it. But I did not like him being so public about it.
3. Long Brown Hair
I remember a dream in which I saw myself and my hair was longer on top, but not to the side, and more greasy too, and I had trouble keeping it down, but at least it was healthy, brown. Dark.
4. Alien Invasion and the Jewish Shelter
At sea. Daylight, light, open space, sea on my left, big city buildings on the right, lots of space between the buildings and the sea itself. I walk there.
First part of the dream was me on my own walking there with some mission I think, going home I think, I can't remember what, but there were other people about, and some people I know, because this is a close community, but at that time I am alone, and I want to be alone, which might be the reason why I am walking.
Then next or maybe the next day, something happens that I feared would happen, which is a space ship that lands, and I know it is the first of many. And there is reason to be afraid and seek shelter. People do this, it takes a while before people realize, but not long. The one ship lands still far away, which buys us some time. But then all the other space ships descend and the situation is hopeless, and they land in the same area, but where they land they destroy everything, and living beings they shoot or kill. And they leave their ships and go about the city and kill everyone as if to clean this place and make it theirs. This is an alien invasion, and they have no mercy.
This is the morning then.
At that point I am at a place where the road splits, one part leads up to where they are and the other leads down to where I saw someone else run to hide, there are cars, I go there, but I also watch the ships and the aliens. I see them walking the streets, and at first there are only a few, but not long after it is really an invasion, troops, army, like a colonization. When I watch them I see they are human, and I think I construct something in my mind to make them look more alien, so that we can see the difference between them and us, otherwise it would be impossible for us to see the difference, but they will always know.
And that is why they have four arms. But some hide it and they look like us, only taller, I remember now. They all go the same way, toward the centre of town. Dressed alike, loose upper shirt. I try not to expose myself, but I also pretend as if I have an extra set of arms and walk the same direction as they do, now they have reached this end of the street, which is wide. And I see some distance from me, in front, another alien, I think he has eight arms, and two legs, this must be a chief, but he is the only one different, and I am not sure I can trust what I see, because I know it might be a construct of my own imagination. They move their lower set of arms continually, as if to stress that they have more arms than us, so I try to mimic that with my own pair of arms. I don't get caught, but I try to keep a low profile.
In any way, it is too late for me to run and hide where I would have gone first, down the other road, so I decide to go in the same direction, and then see if I can knock on a door and slip through before they notice.
When I am a little more toward the centre, but still near the sea, which is always near, I see a young girl with a lot of courage. She is part of a Jewish family, that lives in that house, from which she comes. I know them because they live here, but she comes out of the door, opens it, and calls over aliens to invite them in, I can't remember why, but she had a plan, and her family did not agree to it, but she was cunning. The family is ready to run, but they are inside, father and mother, and the rest I can't remember. But I think this is my one time opportunity so I go in, the girl after me, and I see the Jewish family hurry about to prepare for flight. And the first room I enter is the living room, lots of wood, warm atmosphere.
I spend some time there. Don't know what happens next exactly, but I think the dream continues the next day, and that is when things have calmed down. The aliens have taken over everything, and murdered most people who got in their way, but they were not very thorough, did not intend to, but had no mercy either. Now the situation is different, they are the majority and control the situation.
The day is bright and sunny, and maybe morning, and we come out, we have to, and there are a few others with us. I am with the Jewish girl, and some friends I know are here in a corner outside near a park, away from the main street that is crowded with aliens, we stay a little away, because we don't know whether it is safe.
Aliens sit on the meadow near us, and clearly they are in a mood of peace and take a rest. So I venture out and dare to face them, because there is not much else we can do, either we die, or we die, so I go one of them, a young man, who sits with his friends, but this one is turned toward me and he looks as if you can talk to him. So I go to him and ask him: can we be friends, you and I. And I mean humans and aliens, because I need to know, I want to know my fate. He sits on the grass but he says no. There is some short conversation which I can't remember word for word, but it is clear that they cannot spare us. There is no future, he makes clear, between the lot of us and them. That seals it.
To make his point clear, he shows me a metal can with a red liquid in it which looks like soup, but is more bright, maybe the colour of raspberry. And I can see and feel from where I am standing that this is some sort of quantum device, and he explains that he can teleport me to another place, but I understand very well that if I go through this portal, I will not come alive out of the other end. Except for the Jewish girl, the others are afraid and stay behind. Then the man says that that is indeed their intention, and I understand it is some kind of execution method which is in some ways human, because it is not direct. But today or tomorrow, they will gather all the humans and have them step in the soup. And I know from the moment I would step in this that I will disappear, foot first, the rest not yet, because the foot will already be in a different dimension, but cannot stand the wormhole conditions, so this is bad.
5. Baby Turns into a Blond Guy
Possibly the same dream, or at leas the same rem. Tama is there, she is on the left. She has a baby, but the baby is not always with her. She is on the couch. Inside. I am there, Digr is there, other people.
At some point the baby crawls on top of her, and there is something that she needs to do, which might be something I suggest, because the time is right and if she don't she will not have a chance later, this to have her baby survive I think. What needs to be done is that the baby copulates with her.
First, when the baby crawls over her, this is the second time, he becomes a young man, blond, handsome, young, but still a child in mind. Tama before put cookies on top of her body to lure the baby on top of her, on her lap, on her face, and elsewhere, maybe the chest. When the baby transforms into a grown person, this guy looks like her. He is dressed, but not completely, and not very conscious, but he is now able to enter her. It must be done. Once is enough, but of course once he starts, he wants more. He enters her three times. But Tama must now also be strong and not let herself be carried away, because it is still her son, she cannot see him as a boyfriend. So if they keep going things will be lost, too, but they stop, can't remember how or why, because I even remember Tama saying to the boy if he wants more, and I felt his seed ready to come at that point, so maybe I prevented it.
Sunday, 20 October 2013
Quiz Night
1. Quiz Night
First part of the dream I forgot, but then there is a break, and after the break we continue, so there are many people, in groups, like a quiz evening. After the break I sit at a different table and I am still eating, while the rest is not. Lettuce. Before the break we were in the same house, this is someone's place.
During the break information is given about this or that, information that is important is being broadcasted.
Dark, reds, big room, a different group at each table. We at one table to the left, behind me another such with other people, that we somehow interact with. We are in the vicinity of this other table, and after the break, the organization starts with music, that is how they herald a part of the evening, and I recognize it immediately, because it is Lacrimosa. I see the people at this other table, to which I am close, also recognize it, and they look like heavy metal or gothic people, mixed group of men and women. And I say it is Lacrimosa playing and they are surprised, in particular one lady.
At my own table I set myself good, so that I am comfortable. Niab is there, and Bale, and my brothers N and D.
2. Thesis
Maybe the same dream. Taking notes for some kind of paper, college paper, thesis. (Can't read my notes here).
3. Voice Training
I remember something about voice control. When I am talking, at table, I pay attention to how I pronounce the V or G, and my dad who sits across of me, sees it and says something about it.
4. Black Bean Sauce
Fragment. Someone is cooking, and I stand near him, he has a big pan, and there is lots of sauce in it, and I am looking forward eating that, if I am allowed. This is black bean sauce, though it is coloured much lighter in the dream.
First part of the dream I forgot, but then there is a break, and after the break we continue, so there are many people, in groups, like a quiz evening. After the break I sit at a different table and I am still eating, while the rest is not. Lettuce. Before the break we were in the same house, this is someone's place.
During the break information is given about this or that, information that is important is being broadcasted.
Dark, reds, big room, a different group at each table. We at one table to the left, behind me another such with other people, that we somehow interact with. We are in the vicinity of this other table, and after the break, the organization starts with music, that is how they herald a part of the evening, and I recognize it immediately, because it is Lacrimosa. I see the people at this other table, to which I am close, also recognize it, and they look like heavy metal or gothic people, mixed group of men and women. And I say it is Lacrimosa playing and they are surprised, in particular one lady.
At my own table I set myself good, so that I am comfortable. Niab is there, and Bale, and my brothers N and D.
2. Thesis
Maybe the same dream. Taking notes for some kind of paper, college paper, thesis. (Can't read my notes here).
3. Voice Training
I remember something about voice control. When I am talking, at table, I pay attention to how I pronounce the V or G, and my dad who sits across of me, sees it and says something about it.
4. Black Bean Sauce
Fragment. Someone is cooking, and I stand near him, he has a big pan, and there is lots of sauce in it, and I am looking forward eating that, if I am allowed. This is black bean sauce, though it is coloured much lighter in the dream.
Saturday, 19 October 2013
Cat with Stick
1. Emerald Token
Towards the end of a dream. I clearly remember the cat V in the living room, light, and I go towards her, and she on a stool, and I stroke her, and the cat likes it and we play with a stick too, which is a bit strange. This is a white stick, like a straw, but longer, but not a cane, and I think it gets stuck in her mouth, but I can mover her through moving the stick then. So I hold the stick in my hand and move her about because it sticks in her mouth. At the same time I pet her. And she also turns around, showing her belly, and I continue. This was a long time. And I went away from where I was with friends. At a high table, plenty of room in this living room, so on the right is where I was first, and to the left to the front is even more space.
What happened before I really can't remember though flashes of memory came back through the day. Inside, dark, but colours of quality.
The cat V, it is her who herself bites the stick and will not let go of it. I pet her on the head, behind the ears and so on.
Last part of the same dream is the stage in which I am awakening and remembering the dream fragments of before.
At table, there is a conversation, lots of people. There is a girl who is talking rather openly about why she just left a second ago and now returned to stay among the friends. She went away to put a necklace with a crystal around her neck, but I went with her and I come back with an emerald about my neck, rather large, so I win more than her. But this whole procedure I do to ask out somebody, a certain person called Isabelle. That is why it is intriguing why the girl talks openly about it, going away with a boy while you are in public company is not something you do, but you might just get laid.
This fragment reflected the situation which happened in the first part of the dream, which I can't remember. Especially the group of friends together, but also the stones, personal stone for everyone, I think.
2. Comic Rain
Maybe in the same dream, though I can't say. Rain, in a comic book story, but rains a lot and is so impressive that you experience for real in the dream. And Wabr is there.
Dogs, bows and arrows, maybe osso bucco.
Towards the end of a dream. I clearly remember the cat V in the living room, light, and I go towards her, and she on a stool, and I stroke her, and the cat likes it and we play with a stick too, which is a bit strange. This is a white stick, like a straw, but longer, but not a cane, and I think it gets stuck in her mouth, but I can mover her through moving the stick then. So I hold the stick in my hand and move her about because it sticks in her mouth. At the same time I pet her. And she also turns around, showing her belly, and I continue. This was a long time. And I went away from where I was with friends. At a high table, plenty of room in this living room, so on the right is where I was first, and to the left to the front is even more space.
What happened before I really can't remember though flashes of memory came back through the day. Inside, dark, but colours of quality.
The cat V, it is her who herself bites the stick and will not let go of it. I pet her on the head, behind the ears and so on.
Last part of the same dream is the stage in which I am awakening and remembering the dream fragments of before.
At table, there is a conversation, lots of people. There is a girl who is talking rather openly about why she just left a second ago and now returned to stay among the friends. She went away to put a necklace with a crystal around her neck, but I went with her and I come back with an emerald about my neck, rather large, so I win more than her. But this whole procedure I do to ask out somebody, a certain person called Isabelle. That is why it is intriguing why the girl talks openly about it, going away with a boy while you are in public company is not something you do, but you might just get laid.
This fragment reflected the situation which happened in the first part of the dream, which I can't remember. Especially the group of friends together, but also the stones, personal stone for everyone, I think.
2. Comic Rain
Maybe in the same dream, though I can't say. Rain, in a comic book story, but rains a lot and is so impressive that you experience for real in the dream. And Wabr is there.
Dogs, bows and arrows, maybe osso bucco.
Friday, 18 October 2013
German DVD
1. Upper Floor Shop Cleaning
Dark, upper floor of a building, cleaning in progress. Lots of bin bags, black, shop. If I remember rightly, then this upper floor is the shop, but we are now working in it to get it cleaned. Lots of clutter. The shop is still open at the same time, and it is difficult to split attention, three girls bought something, returned, because they had forgotten something. There is a man who has a question, about a German DVD. Everything lies on the floor, the floor is done with mats.
Everything is really a mess (slordig), but everyone of the shop is here to help (?). Certainly Brva, and interim Wo. We don't have dvd's in German, I try to explain. Tama is there, end of the day, and maybe someone something something. (Then I can't read my notes). Something about something Japanese, this is another question, in the basement (?), can't read notes, stairs.
And more came after, but I can't remember. I got up, because I had eaten too much the night before.
2. Taiji Dancing Class and Motor Gang
Hall, but not a training hall, this is more like the place where the scouts would gather. And three different main rooms, and in the corner of two is the garden, but this is more or less in the country side. And we are in the first room, and Tivd is there and will start to teach, so we never get to see the other rooms, yet I am curious. I know other people are in there doing something else. At least one other group, and this is in the next room, which is adjacent to ours.
Many people turned up for the taiji or whatever, because now Tivd does something weird. Instead of teaching taiji, she says we have to dance, and the feet must go in a certain direction, and this is totally the opposite of taiji, but people go along, and I am not sure what this is about. It is more dynamic, which is good, and I try it myself. But I have a feeling, she does not want to teach taiji today at all.
After this, we go outside, I am last as usual. Then go behind a certain wall, and the perspective changes as if I see things from faraway and from higher up, but I am among the crowd. We stay in one group, yet I see at the other end of the street other people, and the other members of the taiji group don't notice them. They are far away, and at their end the street is higher, slope, but I recognize them as a threat. They are a gang of motor cyclists, and I am sure they will come our way, my way in particular. I don't want to stay here. Of course, I am the one who is the most outward toward them.
At some point they spot us and I want to run away, but I stay. I make sure everyone else is safe first, although everyone was already going inside again, back, and I am last again, but I see how they come nearer and then I stay there alone, but I flee go back too at last.
When back inside, I come in and everyone is very comfortable and sits at table, and I can't take that, because obviously they did not take their responsibility to whatever happened outside.
Across sits Brdk, and after a few others I tell something, I accuse him of not being responsible, that at least he I expected to act responsibly, but he did not. I tell him this because he asked what it was what I accused him of. He does not understand me, does not understand what I try to say. I had difficulties putting things into words the whole time, too. I tell him it is irresponsible to leave someone behind like that, under threat, and being more mature than others, that is what I imply.
There is also food, and at a certain point I start to flirt rather openly with someone, though all friends around us, maybe even a man.
I wait but don't get an answer (Brdk?).
I am behind a computer, there are two, arranged as in the shop at the counter. I go toward one and then (can't read my notes) something something.
At some point they spot us and I want to run away, but I stay. I make sure everyone else is safe first, although everyone was already going inside again, back, and I am last again, but I see how they come nearer and then I stay there alone, but I flee go back too at last.
When back inside, I come in and everyone is very comfortable and sits at table, and I can't take that, because obviously they did not take their responsibility to whatever happened outside.
Across sits Brdk, and after a few others I tell something, I accuse him of not being responsible, that at least he I expected to act responsibly, but he did not. I tell him this because he asked what it was what I accused him of. He does not understand me, does not understand what I try to say. I had difficulties putting things into words the whole time, too. I tell him it is irresponsible to leave someone behind like that, under threat, and being more mature than others, that is what I imply.
There is also food, and at a certain point I start to flirt rather openly with someone, though all friends around us, maybe even a man.
I wait but don't get an answer (Brdk?).
I am behind a computer, there are two, arranged as in the shop at the counter. I go toward one and then (can't read my notes) something something.
Thursday, 17 October 2013
Chapter on Divination
1. Next Chapter
Bale in a dream, night, out in Herent, left far side, which is in the fields, maybe near Veltem.
I follow toward a school building. At the ground floor, I park my bicycle. Each of us something something.
Then we go up stairs, to the uppermost floor, this is the tourist department.
I am working on a text, or at least updating a text, and want to insert a certain chapter, though find difficulties in choosing where to put it appropriately, that is, I want it as early as possible in the original, but it must be suitable and it may not break the flow that is already there. So chapter after chapter I check if it is okay, and then I come to the end of the book, and can insert it between 12 and 14 as chapter 13. That means that chapter fourteen was originally chapter thirteen. This business reminded me of the editing work on my book, especially the chapter on divination, which I pushed all the way to the back, but not as the last chapter. The inserted chapter is also about divination, oracles, maybe numerology.
We stay close to the stairwell.
2. Kitchen Talk
There are Fras and Fras2, at the kitchen table, this of parents. I don't think I expected them there.
Ande is there. Something about oranges or an orange, maybe. And making a phone call. This is in the kitchen.
3. Bay Leaves
Something about giving back change in coin, 2.50 euro. And something in the same dream about laurel or bay leaves. Change 2 euro. Bay leaves were important in the dream. Something about installing an RPG.
Bale in a dream, night, out in Herent, left far side, which is in the fields, maybe near Veltem.
I follow toward a school building. At the ground floor, I park my bicycle. Each of us something something.
Then we go up stairs, to the uppermost floor, this is the tourist department.
I am working on a text, or at least updating a text, and want to insert a certain chapter, though find difficulties in choosing where to put it appropriately, that is, I want it as early as possible in the original, but it must be suitable and it may not break the flow that is already there. So chapter after chapter I check if it is okay, and then I come to the end of the book, and can insert it between 12 and 14 as chapter 13. That means that chapter fourteen was originally chapter thirteen. This business reminded me of the editing work on my book, especially the chapter on divination, which I pushed all the way to the back, but not as the last chapter. The inserted chapter is also about divination, oracles, maybe numerology.
We stay close to the stairwell.
2. Kitchen Talk
There are Fras and Fras2, at the kitchen table, this of parents. I don't think I expected them there.
Ande is there. Something about oranges or an orange, maybe. And making a phone call. This is in the kitchen.
3. Bay Leaves
Something about giving back change in coin, 2.50 euro. And something in the same dream about laurel or bay leaves. Change 2 euro. Bay leaves were important in the dream. Something about installing an RPG.
Wednesday, 16 October 2013
Tidy Up Room
1. Art Exhibition
In my apartment, an apartment. In Leuven, no something something. Antwerp, Brussels, Gent, there are. Two floors, of the apartment, which have to be reserved for an art exhibitions. Wide, warm rooms, the whole floor big, art gallery. Now empty. I have to reserve the rooms, before somebody else has a plan and does something else with it. So, I presume I promised this so someone.
2. Loud Music Yet Little Volume
At home, bedroom. The music is too loud. Bedroom in house of parents. I stay to myself, though family is home, door is open of my room, but I don't want to mix. Yet this music must play, but I can't get the volume down. I try several times, but for some reason the minimum is still a lot.
All sorts of papers are on the bed, and books, piles. This is there because I am making order, tidying.
Bale, N, Elbe, are all here somewhere, though I avoid contact with other people.
At some point eating a big ice cream (can't remember, this from notes). More notes, but I can't read them.
Penthouse, I mean by this the upper floor of a building, which is big, and reserved for a party, owner something something (can't read notes). Customers something. Maybe, they are afraid of the owner, what he expects them to do.
Joja there. Sunday. Ground floor, something about an aunt. Garden, Alth maybe, fixed group. Something twice, this was clear when I took notes, but now I can't remember.
In my apartment, an apartment. In Leuven, no something something. Antwerp, Brussels, Gent, there are. Two floors, of the apartment, which have to be reserved for an art exhibitions. Wide, warm rooms, the whole floor big, art gallery. Now empty. I have to reserve the rooms, before somebody else has a plan and does something else with it. So, I presume I promised this so someone.
2. Loud Music Yet Little Volume
At home, bedroom. The music is too loud. Bedroom in house of parents. I stay to myself, though family is home, door is open of my room, but I don't want to mix. Yet this music must play, but I can't get the volume down. I try several times, but for some reason the minimum is still a lot.
All sorts of papers are on the bed, and books, piles. This is there because I am making order, tidying.
Bale, N, Elbe, are all here somewhere, though I avoid contact with other people.
At some point eating a big ice cream (can't remember, this from notes). More notes, but I can't read them.
Penthouse, I mean by this the upper floor of a building, which is big, and reserved for a party, owner something something (can't read notes). Customers something. Maybe, they are afraid of the owner, what he expects them to do.
Joja there. Sunday. Ground floor, something about an aunt. Garden, Alth maybe, fixed group. Something twice, this was clear when I took notes, but now I can't remember.
Tuesday, 15 October 2013
Solitary Elephant
1. Wales, Elephant and Science Fiction Film
At home. Because I don't remember well, or was not awake enough after the dream when I took notes, it seems that two locations were used at the same time: home and at sea.
At home. Still morning, before noon, calm, not many people out, because holiday and early. We are waiting for people, a group. At home, N is here. At sea, this is Digr.
At home. I see an elephant, this is in the half dark, so maybe another timing, and I see the elephant sitting in a corner against the wall of the house of parents. I had not expected to see an elephant, it is a strange sight, but I see him every time and it starts to become familiar. Different places and positions. I can't remember anymore, but always the elephant is on his own, but looks as if part of the house, maybe a member of family. Small for an elephant, maybe a third of the real size, but impressive enough. This when N is in the neighbourhood.
Scene with Digr is in Wales, we are planning an excursion. He is impatient. The wind blows a little and the landscape is flat, and you can smell and touch the sea in it. This is on a T-crossing, large one. Concrete road ends in a T, and both ends lead to the sea.
I have been planning the excursion, and in an earlier fragment I am on my own with a map, and on the map I point the different places where I want to go, some of which are in Belgium too, but most in Britain. White paper, black markings. The pointing out of locations brings me there, but this is always very briefly, and in mind only, but I feel the potential when I do it. But I don't want to experience this now, so I retreat quick enough and leave the map and join Digr, who is at the crossroads itself, and I come along the concrete road. I suppose earlier in the dream it was shown where I came from, but I can't remember.
At home, 11 o'clock, no one has come yet. We will go scout already. Elephant is in the garage, sleeping. Something with a girl, can't remember. At some point when I see the elephant walking, with his back to me, on two legs, yes, he is striped like a tiger, brown and yellow.
At sea, when I join Digr, he starts anyway, explaining something to me, while I know this better than him, but I let him make the mistakes. He starts drawing a chemical formula, and when he does, there is a white blackboard on a pole, on the side at the T-crossing. I am on his left, he explains this molecule, which is made up of H, C and O, but when he numbers the atoms, I know he is mistaking, black marker on the white board. Then he is not sure and puts other numbers to correct on the right upper corner of the atoms, and then beneath, counts H10, C10, O10, and this can't be right at all, but it certainly is closer to the truth than what he was saying earlier.
Later I am alone in a room, and the place where I sit reminds me of the desk which used to be Cavs's place, but she no longer works with us. I have a laptop or computer there, which cannot be the one from work, because that one is on the left, and the one I have now is in front of me. I am alone, and I suppose I am taking a break, I sit myself here to sneak out and rest.
I browse and am faced with the ad of a new film, which I would like to see, and I zoom in, or click on it or just acknowledge that I am okay with seeing this, even if the ad comes on the screen quite uninvited. The film opens on the screen and takes the whole screen and even unfolds outside of the screen, as if projected holographically. Before I know it is a large screen in midair, and after the title, which I could then read very clearly, I am drawn so by the images, because they are so real, as if in a dream, that I am part of it, as if the film becomes my dream.
The title had three main words, and two smaller ones to link it, such as Slug at at Something something Something. That is what I see first, that the main character is a slug, and I suppose it is about a race of slugs. This one is flying a space ship in the upper atmosphere of a to me unknown planet, but a big one, though earth like, not gaseous. And he dives down, that is the first scene, the air, clouds, space ship that reminds me of Star Wars, and then this one slug on top of it. Clearly the slug is intelligent enough to drive the ship. Science fiction movie, and I decide I want to see it.
After that scene, I see many other space ships, all the same shape, and there is some war or fight going on, between the camp of the slug and the others, who might belong to the planet, though the slug party is the good guys.
A while after I find myself in a house, which is part of the film, and I live in with an uncle, but am no better than a slave, and he has a young girl or woman as consort or wife, and I have an eye on her, but mostly I am in a different room. This house is also midair, and on long stalks, so I presume these connect the houses with the earth. And the house itself is made up of three spheres, that I can remember, and each is a section of the house. But the spheres are connected as if rooms, but they overlap in height, so one is the lowest, then the middle, and then the upper, which I have not been to. I am mostly in the nether one. Then I serve both people, this is in the middle sphere. One sphere seems to be one room, but that is not exactly so.
There is some discussion. At first I stay a distance away, though I was ordered to do something, yet I want to remain in the background, and not draw attention to me, especially because I want his wife. Both of them are a distance apart. The uncle is on the right, and the wife is on the left, somewhat higher. Then something about her wanting to have her hair combed. I'm not sure how it was, maybe she asked him, but he did not want to. So after a minute I step in and comb her hair. There is singing at the same time, maybe by her. Can't remember well.
At home. Because I don't remember well, or was not awake enough after the dream when I took notes, it seems that two locations were used at the same time: home and at sea.
At home. Still morning, before noon, calm, not many people out, because holiday and early. We are waiting for people, a group. At home, N is here. At sea, this is Digr.
At home. I see an elephant, this is in the half dark, so maybe another timing, and I see the elephant sitting in a corner against the wall of the house of parents. I had not expected to see an elephant, it is a strange sight, but I see him every time and it starts to become familiar. Different places and positions. I can't remember anymore, but always the elephant is on his own, but looks as if part of the house, maybe a member of family. Small for an elephant, maybe a third of the real size, but impressive enough. This when N is in the neighbourhood.
Scene with Digr is in Wales, we are planning an excursion. He is impatient. The wind blows a little and the landscape is flat, and you can smell and touch the sea in it. This is on a T-crossing, large one. Concrete road ends in a T, and both ends lead to the sea.
I have been planning the excursion, and in an earlier fragment I am on my own with a map, and on the map I point the different places where I want to go, some of which are in Belgium too, but most in Britain. White paper, black markings. The pointing out of locations brings me there, but this is always very briefly, and in mind only, but I feel the potential when I do it. But I don't want to experience this now, so I retreat quick enough and leave the map and join Digr, who is at the crossroads itself, and I come along the concrete road. I suppose earlier in the dream it was shown where I came from, but I can't remember.
At home, 11 o'clock, no one has come yet. We will go scout already. Elephant is in the garage, sleeping. Something with a girl, can't remember. At some point when I see the elephant walking, with his back to me, on two legs, yes, he is striped like a tiger, brown and yellow.
At sea, when I join Digr, he starts anyway, explaining something to me, while I know this better than him, but I let him make the mistakes. He starts drawing a chemical formula, and when he does, there is a white blackboard on a pole, on the side at the T-crossing. I am on his left, he explains this molecule, which is made up of H, C and O, but when he numbers the atoms, I know he is mistaking, black marker on the white board. Then he is not sure and puts other numbers to correct on the right upper corner of the atoms, and then beneath, counts H10, C10, O10, and this can't be right at all, but it certainly is closer to the truth than what he was saying earlier.
Later I am alone in a room, and the place where I sit reminds me of the desk which used to be Cavs's place, but she no longer works with us. I have a laptop or computer there, which cannot be the one from work, because that one is on the left, and the one I have now is in front of me. I am alone, and I suppose I am taking a break, I sit myself here to sneak out and rest.
I browse and am faced with the ad of a new film, which I would like to see, and I zoom in, or click on it or just acknowledge that I am okay with seeing this, even if the ad comes on the screen quite uninvited. The film opens on the screen and takes the whole screen and even unfolds outside of the screen, as if projected holographically. Before I know it is a large screen in midair, and after the title, which I could then read very clearly, I am drawn so by the images, because they are so real, as if in a dream, that I am part of it, as if the film becomes my dream.
The title had three main words, and two smaller ones to link it, such as Slug at at Something something Something. That is what I see first, that the main character is a slug, and I suppose it is about a race of slugs. This one is flying a space ship in the upper atmosphere of a to me unknown planet, but a big one, though earth like, not gaseous. And he dives down, that is the first scene, the air, clouds, space ship that reminds me of Star Wars, and then this one slug on top of it. Clearly the slug is intelligent enough to drive the ship. Science fiction movie, and I decide I want to see it.
After that scene, I see many other space ships, all the same shape, and there is some war or fight going on, between the camp of the slug and the others, who might belong to the planet, though the slug party is the good guys.
A while after I find myself in a house, which is part of the film, and I live in with an uncle, but am no better than a slave, and he has a young girl or woman as consort or wife, and I have an eye on her, but mostly I am in a different room. This house is also midair, and on long stalks, so I presume these connect the houses with the earth. And the house itself is made up of three spheres, that I can remember, and each is a section of the house. But the spheres are connected as if rooms, but they overlap in height, so one is the lowest, then the middle, and then the upper, which I have not been to. I am mostly in the nether one. Then I serve both people, this is in the middle sphere. One sphere seems to be one room, but that is not exactly so.
There is some discussion. At first I stay a distance away, though I was ordered to do something, yet I want to remain in the background, and not draw attention to me, especially because I want his wife. Both of them are a distance apart. The uncle is on the right, and the wife is on the left, somewhat higher. Then something about her wanting to have her hair combed. I'm not sure how it was, maybe she asked him, but he did not want to. So after a minute I step in and comb her hair. There is singing at the same time, maybe by her. Can't remember well.
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