1. Minions
Pumpkin soup. My own apartment, two cats, morning to early noon, minions of Despicable Me.
Something about school. Waiting a long time.
2. Team Mission
Seeing to completing a mission, alone, but by working together.
3. Because Mom is Dead
In
the house, room with old stuff, our mother is dead, now she is here no
longer we are faced with all this old stuff. But there is light in the
room, that is, now light reaches the room. In one room, which is really
dusty and a bit dark at first, there are panels on which fabric is
stretched and I remember that our mother used these. And I am thinking
to maybe hold on to these because I could use them, but they are worn,
and the colours are gone, yellows and greens, in fact it is ugly. A bit
dirty too. However, I know if the time for deciding comes, I will bin
it.
House
of parents, but desolate, N is here, and me, and mother, who is present
emphatically. Later I am using the toilet to escape my mom. This is all
in the dining room. The colours are good quality and wood. Maybe my
brother and I were doing something, but then when mother shows up, I'd
like to go away and avoid her. N is not disturbed.
So
the first thing I do is flee to the toilet, which in this case is in
the corner of the dining room and the kitchen, right from the door to
the kitchen. I enter, but I can't get the door closed, something is
wrong with the lock, but I have another chance, because there is another
door opposite, which in such a small room is immediately behind me, but
I can't shut that one either, so I am rather exposed. I get this second
door a bit closed and am a bit relieved, but even with the door closed
you can see everything. Walls don't count.
So
I leave this compartment and go more to the right, which is the front
door in this case, and I can even see the outside, which is a unkempt
garden, but rather big. And this front door is the side of the house.
The hall of entry is what I escape to because it is a bit special,
hi-tech, and full automatic, but it has been a long time since I've been
in this house, and things don't work as I remember. I enter the
hallway, which is royal and posh, and this is like a lift and it should
therefore take me away from the main house, and it lifts when I enter
and then swings to one side, and then makes a loop, and turns this way
and that as if the thing is not fastened to the house at all, and I know
this is not normal, but I don't panic. Things go rather fast, but I'm
not sure if I'm getting away in this way.
I
go through all of this because I did not want to take the staircase
inside the house, because this was firstly too easy, and secondly too
close to where my mom was. This stair was on the left, living room,
wood, never seen it, but knew it was there.
When I finally land I see outside a car arriving.
Friends of mine get out of the car, men and women, maybe two, maybe
four, and they want to help me, come my way. There is a barrier, wooden
(slagboom) beam to close the gate as if, and this they have to lift, but
they can open it. The beam is long and rough, this is at the street
side, which is up.
Outside,
there is more folk. Dive and Ancl are there, and Bale is there, all in
the garage, and there are plants, this is when we go past the house,
which should have been the front originally, and all my friends go with
me, and Bale knows her way well, and there is a little patch with plants
and herbs and stuff, and more to the right a shed with garden tools,
all very different than reality, very dream like, but real looking.
I
can't remember why I am there so I turn again, pass Bale, she says
something about a particular herb there, klitkruid, which is one that
has seeds that stick to your clothes. Bale is angry at me, but now I
don't remember why. There was in the shed also a grey cat which looked a
bit like S, but even in the dream it was clear that she wasn't the same
cat. Yet I'm happy to see that cat.
Then notes I can't read, and then: something about Africa, Johannesburg to Congo, there is a lawn, enclosure actually.
Here
I can't find my way and I get lost. This is behind and away from the
house and the lawn slopes down and I walk a long way and that is when I
loose my way. And Bale is all the time with me, and we also pass a large
building in the middle of this nowhere, which is rather upsetting,
reminds me most of a water tower, but also reminds me of an alien
military base, but no movement and I have no fear.
I
know I should head back, because I will not arrive where I was planning
to go. On the way back on the lawn, which is still a long way from
being back, I reach out for Bale and kiss her on the lips, several
times, quickly one after the other, and she does not react, and I want
keep going to see if her attitude changes.
At
some point, Toha and Beha are there, and there is something about a
cantus, I think Toha says something about this when we pass a certain
building, he must have been there the day before, on our left.
4. Pineapple Cocktail
Something about a pineapple
cocktail, at least two glasses, looks blue grey, and has a lot of
alcohol in it, but is refreshing too. Some other person there, too.
Residue.
ReplyDeleteDream 1. This is a residue of watching the film despicable me 2, much of it was in the dream and possibly in earlier dreams too.
Interpretation.
Dream 3. Mom dead means that there is this aspect in my psyche which I have conquered, no longer bothers me. Not all is under control though. Maybe a new person in my life. Friends come to support me, and all the difficulties times are over.
Interpretation.
ReplyDeleteDream 3. Before I went to bed yesterday, I did an evening walk, my usual way, and the day before I had already seen the new NHS post which is open late and in the weekends, but when I passed I happened to see Kaco, who I had not expected. She saw me, and I had passed by already. She was on the phone. So I retraced my steps, but she ignored, me so I left her. But obviously, she is my mother in the dream and the dream points to her feelings toward me, and my facing her then, by the way I saw her earlier as she passed the shop, but again she stubbornly ignored me.