Lost Home

1. Wrong House

I am arriving home from being away a long time.
On the road, the last part before arriving, is busy, there are quite a few cars, and most go against the direction I am going in, which is a trouble, but I continue anyway. These cars have nothing to do with me, they are impersonal. So I walk through Leuven, near the station, Bondgenotenlaan, where the Justus Lipsius begins.
When I arrive the house is a playground, there is an open door to the school building. I go through it and enter, the whole house is on the ground level, which is surprising. House of uncle B&D and my room is in the back.
The above means, that when I come home, I find that I have to pass through the playground of a school, so I enter that too, and the house where I live is on the left. Many people with children are on the playground and some kind of party is going on, German speaking people included, friends of B&D. But I desperately want to go home, being finally there.
Light on the playground, but inside the house it is dark. So this house is owned by B&D. All this was not clear to me when I arrived, but the dream presents it so, so I go into the house, and this is all the rooms of B&D. Living room, and a slide door window to the outside, to cater for the guests. Now dad and maybe other family is also there.
I just want to go to my apartment. I did not realize I was living in the house of B&D and while I am walking about in the house I am wondering why I moved in here at all, since I want to be and live alone. But I think at the same time that I might just as well move back to where I come from, and I'll be more at rest if I do. So I don't make a big deal out of it.
So I rent a room here. N and dad are here, I need to go to the bathroom. I have to wait, possibly because my dad goes to the toilet first. And this is the moment I make the considerations about moving house.
There is constantly the party of B&D going on. Inside the house people are calmer. Large living room, computer there, N there, something about playing pc games. And there is a dressed up guy, like a character from a game, and he is there to entertain guests, and explains this or that, and he reminds me of both Naruto and Mario Bros.
Then we are ordering food, of course because I am hungry and I haven't eaten at all since a long time. Everyone else is eating, and I have a leaflet with me to phone order, but I can't choose at all. At that point I am in a sofa, and I am tired being in the wrong place and taking care of my own business like nobody else cares. I'm really hungry. There's lots of different stuff on the menu to order from, but I don't like anything. One section had all kinds of noodle soups. A good part of the menu was Asian. So no food for me.
Then there is also my mother and I am really fed up with her.
Later there are still B&D but that does not solve my problems. I go back outside to the playground at some point, maybe toward the end of the dream.
I do have some understanding with my brother N. (Then I can't read my notes, and then). In the end I eat pork that my father serves me, this is at a long table, and I am on the right, and this is outside, or at least before this was part of the playground, but now it seems to be another room in the same location.
I don't feel like eating this bbq pork, but I do anyway since I've got nothing else, but it is only meat and nothing else, I really don't like that, but I have no choice. There happens to be a pocket book by Robert Jordan on the table which is mine, thick one, and I start eating the edges of it to go with the pork. I am actually eating the paper.

2. King End

Dream about King Filip, from close by, no background, dark, and his face was like a cartoon, but he was complaining and saying he has no good eye on the future of kingship, if I remember correctly. He was seeing a future in which things ended.