Hugging Mother

1. Mother Hug

At a party that feels like a new years eve party, home, with my parents and brothers. Dark, place that I don't know, but it may look like home. There are stages or floors, connected. Higher and lower. I remember my brother N and mother are on a lower level.

My parents want something. Maybe they yell to get it, but I can't remember well and I can't read my notes. Something courage. I resist, and mother crosses her arms, but N goes for it, he hugs mother, who is now on the right, while the original is on the left, and N was on the left first as well. Something friend courageous. I am doubting, what should I do, because again I see N do something that maybe I should do but never get to. Then I make up my mind and tell my mom that it is okay, and I go to her and I give her a hug, very long, and I don't know what to make of it, because it is a weird feeling to hug my mother, which is something I've never done before, and something I would detest doing in reality.

So naturally, the hugging releases a lot of emotions and they range from being okay with it to hesitation. And stronger. This was a very strong sensation, emotionally, in the dream.

Later in the dream, after the event, we are all in the kitchen, the whole family, and N gives his explanation of what just happens. I stand in the doorway, this is the kitchen of my parents as it is in reality. He is on the right and sits down. Mother is on the left, not her usual place, but I don't realize that in the dream. When I hear my brother explain things to my mother, I admit that it is all true. He talks about our difficult relationship in the past. I can't remember the details, it was rather detailed. I did not agree with everything, but that would have taken me too long, so I did not say anything, except tell my mother that it was just as N said.

2. Jump on Bus

(From notes). I am leaving somewhere, there is a car, a person, woman, she guides me. Something except for someone, I can't read the name anymore. Parking the car. Back part is loose (Can't remember what this is about).

Later I am taking a walk with someone, a guy. (???).

Maybe Rume is here. And I decide to jump on the bus. There is danger, and someone warns me. You have to hold on very tight. We try to follow, wooden box (Again, can't remember what this is about). Something with hands and feet, which is crawling. Along steep hills, downward. (Can't read). Maybe Dore and uncle B. In the meanwhile something behind me.

Can we go inside along everyone else? Behind the lift (No idea).

3. Wallet Stolen

Somewhere in the dream I leave a place or I have to go somewhere and follow someone in order to do that. We came by boat and now we disembarked and are on a square. This is where I find niece M. She will guide me. Much light, open space, crowded, people walking every possible direction. Busy city, but nice. We walk across the square, from a different angle now. She tries to speak Dutch, I try to speak German. We speak a lot, my German is not so good, but I do my best.
Maybe we went to a shopping centre in the neighbourhood first.

After the square I go alone. I pass a group of people that come my way and immediately recognize them. I've been at school with them. Actually I see one person many times. This is Habe. I don't think he recognizes me. On the left are big houses, shadow, on the right open. I follow the path or street straight on.

I go very quickly, I hasten. I have to be somewhere, in time. I am sure. (Something I can't read). Maybe, go along with less??? I ask???

I am in the middle of all those people. After the long stretch straight, there is a turn to the left, now this is more country and less city, and the path is wide, and there is still a lot of folk about, as if going to a festival, same kind of traffic, all on foot. I follow, they all go in the same direction. Earthen path. Few trees on the right. On the left still houses, but some way on the side, so there is a lot of room.

In the middle of the crowd, I think there are still friends with me, but I am alone for a moment at that point, I sense that my wallet has been stolen. I look around me, I immediately see the guilty person, also I immediately realize they are with two or three and it will be difficult for me to get it back. But one of the is not far off behind me. Young man, dressed in jeans, short hair, unshaven. I go to him, he yields immediately. But at the same time he passes on something to a third person in front of him, actually an innocent person and something which is not my wallet, but a tissue. Maybe to distract me, I now realize that the real boss is behind him. The young man falls on the ground, as if to surrender. So he probably has not got my wallet anymore himself. I ask him anyway. He is standing up now.

He gives me 50 euro and says to take it. I'm not happy, I want my wallet, I tell him I need the cards, while at the same time realizing that that is what they need. He says no, can't do. I should be happy with the 50 euro. Then he runs for it. I go stand in his way and follow his movements not ready to give up. (This is when he gives me the money).

His friend sees this and thinks that is weird of him to do. At this point they are three, though I only see two.

I don't want more money, that's not going to do it. After a while I get so angry that I consider hitting the person. But because they are with three, I don't do it. It would make me feel better, though. A smack in the face. When I look back at the money, I see I now have two bills of 50.

I still go all the way to the end of the path. They are there too, I follow them, don't give up. In the meanwhile things become a bit strange, because all the other people are gone and this would have been the place where they were all going. I enter the building, which looks like a scout's building or a garage (That of my parents) and there are windows and doors, and accesses to other rooms, but I don't go anywhere, I close the door behind me, that is the safest. (The whole place might remind me of the camping place in Mechelen where we had PaGE2012). But then all of a sudden I get worried. I am the only one here. I don't see the thieves, although they are inside. I am locked in the building, they can do with me as they please. Maybe I can't get out anymore. So I make a turn for it, I should have gone in the building a little more, but I returned. That is where the dream ends.