Taking the Test

1. Facing the Deer

We are five young people and participating in an experiment. We enter a building, which must be in a city, but may be located against a mountain wall. There are other people taking the exam, but we each go our way. It reminds me a little of Hungergames.

When we enter, room after room stretches beyond. It is one long building and you have to go through the whole and reach the end.

In the first room there is already action. It is a game, we play war. We jump and run and we take out our weapons, which is bow and arrow. We jump and stand on wooden boxes, like you would in a computer game. I carry a bow, which is small and very hard to draw. I try a few times if I can do it, but it has to do.

We clear room after room. I see a deer in one. We pass. I don't see the others seeing it, or even the other groups. They all walk past it. There's plants an all in the rooms.

At some point I see another deer, very big, bigger than a horse even, strong looking, but gentle. It startles me but I try to be very aware of it. Now the others see it too, and the other one with a bow wants to shoot it but I say to him, that is far too much meat for any of us to eat, even in a week. We can't do that. So, he doesn't shoot. I approach the majestic deer. It has a face like that of a human almost. Not deerlike in any case. I reach out with my hand to have him have a smell and the animal does not run away, and I try again, and then it starts to lick my hand, or nose it. Just very gently. But I have to go and continue, so the contact is only brief.

At the end of the row of rooms we enter one room, which is light, and looks like inside and is empty but for a table in the centre. I sink down, that means. I want to sleep, I lie myself down beneath the table. I want to do this, but it takes me some effort. In the meantime, I see tape recorders everywhere. And machines to put them in, with batteries and all. Everyone of the team has got one and I suppose we have to record our experiences. This is for the interview. Maybe an interview of application.

2. A Hill Path too Narrow for the Car

When we leave, we get in the car and drive away. Soon enough the street we have to follow ends into a field, there is a steep slope which is difficult, and the path becomes very small and unhardened, to for cars to drive on. I'm not driving, but a young guy is, with short blond hair. I don't know him. I don't think he will be able to do this. We drive through the fields, I don't think this was meant for us to do, but we have little choice now. Apparently, he does not know the way. Still we continue, the road changes a bit. I believe at the end we do get where we need to be.

This dream was part of a bigger dream.

3. Exams on the Playground

We are on the playground of a school, which is naturally enclosed. I am here with friends and we sit in a corner. There are lots of other folk about. Light.

We are preparing for the exams. We have got the papers with us. Stuff happens I can't remember. At some point we are called. You have to bring your papers. I forget two, maybe on purpose, I know they are still on the paves of stones of the playground. Someone else forgot the same, a girl I think, and she passed, so I'll be okay. I can do without those two sheets of paper.

Once inside the dream changes a bit. Big rooms. Light. We have to wait. We are all cramped into one big class room. At the other end I see Pake. Maybe Tivd is here too. The corridors of this place lead to another playground, which is bigger.

I have to go to the toilet. Is it raining? I see lots of water running some distance away across the stone paving of the playground. Dark.

Then, there is the actual examination. (Can't remember well, and can't read my notes). There is food. Place feels like it is in Holland. My brothers are here, mother and father too. Plants. Shrimp. Stall with food?

There is something with a helping hand. This is when a girl needs to stand up or something and she is not balanced, I push her, or put my hand up which she can use to lift herself. This is in a smaller room, against the windows looking out to the playground, light.

I keep silent throughout the discussion, this has a reason.

4. Chinese Restaurant Shop

After the exams we leave the complex. We follow the street, on our right is a place where we sit, maybe a pub. Across the street I see a Chinese restaurant, and I am a bit hungry, so I might go there, and I do, I leave the others behind and go for some food. Tivd is in the pub.

There is a Chinese man or woman tending to me. I look and see what they have, it is displayed like in a butcher's or something. And at first I want to go for the usual, whatever that is, but than I see big shrimp and also fresh salmon, heaps of it, and that looks really good. That is when the person behind the bar starts to make suggestions. There are also frog legs, but I'm not gonna take those. But I might just go for the scampi. The chef suggests to deep fry them, and of course I agree. This should be good.

Then another person enters the shop, he must be a regular. But this is about where the dream ends.

(This is also the point where I wake up, but I decide to sleep in and I do and get up only at 11am, but the dreams that come next are from that phase).

5. Ear Smear

I'm in my room. Big room, bedroom, but it is the only room I have. Square, though I only use one half. There is someone else with me, a guy, maybe someone I teach magic. Before he goes, I give him some of my ear smear because he might be able to use it. He accepts.

Then I lie on the bed to rest. Tv's. I see there is another ball of ear smear on the floor of some time ago, which has changed colour and hardened because it has been lying there for some time. It is the size of a big marble.

I still got ear smear on my hands, or I get it from my ear just then, and I put it in a bowl. You never know what you can use it for.

At another point in a dream I also masturbated but did not ejaculate, but a little drop of sperm natural came forth. I put it on my finger and tried it, put it in my mouth and swallowed it.

6. Chaos in the Library

We all go to the library, that is where we meet each other. Alternative people. Ka is there, who sits on my lap, hangs more likely. I stroke her hair, the others look up not expecting this from me, especially because De is also here. The library is a university library, it is dark and chaotic. I see lots of people talk and make noise. It is big and has two stories. The upper floor looks out over the main room, like a balcony.

After closing hours, we stand on the balcony and look down. Everyone is leaving. Just a moment ago, the whole room was still buzzing. I noticed many Japanese girls. Now it is empty, even the tables are gone, and all that is left are cardboard boxes, which would transform in tables.

We leave.

Bale is there and still has something to say. About her mineral excursion.

Outside it is dark and the streets are deserted because it is late already. We have to go home. The city has no flat surface, but is hilly. This is a big city, the streets are wide. We are now a small group. I am disappointed I did not meet a nice girl. There wasn't much choice either. We split up.

Three of us go up the hill towards the train station to get the tube. Someone else comes behind, but she has to go the other way. That is entirely the wrong direction for me, but that would have been the girl I would like to know better. She has smooth long blond hair and a nice face, young, nevertheless, she is Bale. I consider going after her, but it makes no sense, I would be farther from home in the end. This leaves me with a feeling of even more disappointment.

7. Rite of Purification

We are outside and lining up. It is light here, day. There is a bath, but you have to queue, it is a special place. It is on a hill, you have to take the shower first before you can enter the park or hilltop that is behind. We've come here to see that, so we have to take the bath. I am paired up with Bale. She is like she knows everything, like she knows what she's doing, or has been here before. It is also all her friends that have come with us. And I suppose they know what kind of place this is, whereas for me it is new.

The showers are in a light wooden shed, looks to be in a state of shambles. It is clearly built for exotic places, where it is always warm, places such as Indonesia I can imagine. There are two showers and an older man who guides the whole ritual.

We go in. I don't know what to do. I see buckets with a strange weed, green, which is meant to be used to cleanse yourself. It looks like seaweed, long thing stalks with segments. Maybe this is Japan.

Bale knows what to do, but the man tells me what to do, too. First he says to take off my watch, which I think is normal, but I fear I will not get it back. I give it to him. He puts it behind him, where it is dry. Behind him is another small area, it is deeper than where we are, square, well roofed, cemented, with gravel on the floor, grey. Very clean and empty. I don't know what he uses that room for. But he mostly stands there, so that he is lower than us.

Once the water flows I keep the bucket, which is on breastbone height, from falling, by leaning my body against it. This is rather uncomfortable. I am on the right. Bale is on the left. The man is on my right. I can't stand Bale's arrogance when she talks about how to take the shower.

Afterwards Bale leaves, I don't see the man anymore, he reminds me of a storyteller I know. Anyway, he obviously hasn't got my watch anymore, which was a very nice one, expensive, probably one I got from my father. So I enter the low crevice and look around there, but there is nothing there. I can see this room better know, and I notice there are different levels here too, at least three. It is all grey, gravel on the floor.

Maybe the same dream. Other people, Bale and me have gathered again, we're in the open. Bale wants to announce something. She wants to advertise for her excursion again. The others see it coming, they know her well, whereas I have no clue at all. She is organizing the thing, which is why she makes such a fuss about it. I am curious if this is right and I take the paper from her hands. The leaflet is much coloured, with orange and purple and what not, pink and white. Her names is among the people listed above who organise it indeed, but there's about seven of them, so her part is only a seventh, I don't know what that is worth. But she seems very proud of it. That is the end of the dream.