Car Gathering

1. Lunch

(From notes). Playing a quiz. It is Sunday, and we are in a hotel. All four pentagrams are drawn (?).

There is a girl in the garden of my parents. Dark, evening.

I've got an apple and two sandwiches with me, which is two sandwiches short. On a bench outside.

2. Car Gathering

I have an appointment with Racr and Kula in a remote place near the road, on top of a lone hill, in the bent of a road. The car is parked there. Many people have gathered here. Dark. Jaro is here, and Mive. So I am thinking, this is good, Kula and Mive will meet each other again. That has been a long time. So all kinds of good, decent people are here, this will be a good meeting. I came from off the road where something else was, like a house and another kind of gathering.

Never will all of us fit in the same car. I think we are seven.

3. Dominating a Girl

Eight euros. I don't pay. (I can't remember where this is). Someone remains being seated, can't read the name.

I fuck a girl, this is from behind, and in two attempts, middle of the living room, in public, because other people are around, but not necessarily looking. The second time I am over her better and penetrate. This is on the floor. She is more or less squatted.

Something in my room?

4. Taiji Lifting the Arms

I arrive in a room where people are waiting. They start with the exercises, guided by someone, but before I tell them what to do, and the person guiding has no real idea. The people do Taiji like exercises, like lifting the arms. I see that it is all wrong. This person helps Kaha, who is there, and is good in shaolin but not in taiji. When he lifts his arms they are extremely stiff. I try to shake them, or tell the person helping what to do, but it doesn't help. Kaha does not understand. The others don't either, they all work individually, or in pairs, but what they do is wrong. Light.

DVD Shards

1. My Dying Bride

In a house. Go to the end. There is a bed. I lie in it and relax. I come from outside. Hilly country, sun, day. Inside light. Screen divides where I lie and the rest of the room. People come rest with me, one girl, that another. I listen to music. At some point in particular My Dying Bride.

I'm naked. Girls crawl over me (Most emotional part of the dream). My parents are in the room. They don't understand why I listen to this kind of music.

I stretch to fetch a dvd that is lying about at the open end of the bed. Only a mattrass actually. Blue cover, I flap it open and again, and I have to be careful, because the inside is broken and there are shards of glass. The dvd itself is still intact. Reminds me of Avatar, this dvd.

The end of a dream this was.

Many other people were in it. Bale. Possible Frge and Vepi.

I make a detour, this must be to get to the house, which  is on a hill and stands alone.

Some discussion later with some people who are going on a holiday to France. Maybe Brfr. I say this country is called Normandy or Picardy.

Also a dream with Digr and List in it.

2. Win a Book

Other dream, with a person winning a book package. Maybe only one book.

Sliding Floor

1. The Mare

(From notes). I go outside for a moment, Bale is there. A small girl appears. I hold her against my chest. (This was the most emotional part of the dream). Apparition. I try something something. (From notes). But after that she still follows I don't know what, can't read notes. With me something other something something.

All this happens in the night. If I remember correctly, this is on a patio, back of a house. Dark. I leave everyone to their own business and go back inside.

Outside, jogging, or doing sports of some kind. She comes after me, I can't remember who. Something like a cliff, or rock with long I don't know what. I run to somewhere. I climb the cliff, together with someone else. All this is part of a challenge. I can't back out now.

This was the first dream of the night, very early.

2. Business Fair Escape

The main dream, light, turquoise, big complex, business building, with terrains on the left, and parking lots on the right, they are all down, on a lower level. The surface level is behind us, which is the boundary with the normal world, which is this building, of many stories. We are on one of the higher stories. Central building, modern. White.

There are many halls in this building too, and hallways and stairways. A business fair is going on.

Somewhere in the dream there is Inla.

We are here to attend the fair, we went there in the first part of the dream, then came back, and in the second part we had to go again, while I wanted to leave. I can't remember the sequence of events very clearly.

Maybe family, mayb Dohe? Brother N must be here too.

One of the stalls outside is manned by people of Knack, and all the others are also work related. The fair is outside. Press fair.

At the end of the dream, I am looking out of the window trying to plan my way out of here. A few people are here with me, we want to go. The location of the parking lot has changed.

3. Housewarming

It is Woli's housewarming and I arrive in his apartment. People are already there. I go through the hallway, which looks a bit like that one of the Lintstraat, if that is the correct street.

In enter through the door on my left. That is where people are gathered. Light inside, dark in the hallway. I shake hands and meet old friends, all familiar faces. Mefa is there. And a lady from badminton. Sien is there too, maybe. I start talking to the lady because I am surprised to find her here, I did not realize we had the same friends, Woli and Mefa are surprised that I do this. No problem. In the meanwhile I want to press on because I am eager to get things started. Behind these first few people, I see people I don't know, there is one guy with a beginning beard, brown hair, next to the table, I go to him and shake hands. It was my goal to greet everyone personally. Now that I've done that I can go on.

In order to get to this last guy and meet him, I have to pass other people, and I don't give a damn if I have to shove people to the side. So I'm a bit hard.

After all that I still got a feeling that things don't go forward and I'm a bit frustrated.

When I said hello, we all go to the next room, which is through another door back in the same hallway, and then we cross the hallway and enter a door on the other side. There is more light there. Woli goes first, but I'm not far behind. I'm one of the first. Someone who is very close to me is beside me, he is unacquainted with any of the others, but has wisdom. Or maybe it is Racr.

This new room is the place where we will have the real party. Someone warns us that the floor is rather steep and deceives people, so take care not to fall. So we stay in the door opening, both of us, and we look at the floor, it is an old, yellow squared one, I don't like the floor, but I can't see anything wrong with it. Maybe a little further, the floor is a little bent, but nothing dangerous. So we go in.

Some other people, like Chwe, are already there, they weren't in the first room to start with, have always been here. Then, my friend goes in first, and when he takes a few more steps he slides.

So it is true after all.

That is when the dream ends.

The last dream.

4. Enflamed

Fire all about my body. Enflamed. Real.

I don't know how this dreaming came about. Last dream.

Day Off

1. City

In the city, my father is there. Can't remember the rest, though I tried to memorize.

2. Emergency Call

At home of parents, sitting in the sofa, Brva next to me, watching telly. Suddenly we get a call. Brva's handy is ringing, she takes the phone, and it seems pressing. I can hear Lids speak through the phone, she calls from the shop in the Diestsestraat. They obviously have an emergency, I can hear the alarm sounding in her shop through the phone. I urge Brva to answer, and I try to help. I don't remember the case in particular.

3. Naked Shop Quiz

I'm in the shop. It does not look like the shop at all. At first it does, and they are refurbishing, of course I did not know about this, and I am here to work nonetheless. The shop is closed because of it. I am really surprised. Everyone is very busy. Brva and Digr are very busy, but other people, that I don't know are also here helping. One of them is a waitress from the lunch bar. She is cleaning the tills. They broke them out of their place and put them somewhere else. She is cleaning the inside with a strange instrument, and I think, that is over the top, I know I would never clean the inside, but you don't need to either. She is doing that.
In the meanwhile, the papers and magazines are taken out of the shelves, and chairs are placed on that side of the shop. I don't know where the tills will be set eventually, but for now they are also there, perpendicular to where they were before. All is different.
At some point, Jeve is also there and asks me a question. I look at her and think she is beautiful. I try to help her while at the same time apoligizing for all the work going on, because that means I can't help her. Because the shop is closed, maybe she can't go back either.
I am really surprised to hear later that Digr just gives us all a day off. And this is when the inside of the shop changes, we leave the front and go to the back, which looks like a deserted attic, or big hangar of an old antiquariat. Jeve is all the time there, and I keep an eye on her.
So there is a long hallway with stuff, at the end, there are couches, I put my bags there, later I will not be able to find them anymore. Behind the corner is more room, there are unused rooms even further. People are having fun, they have organised some quiz, at at least two different places there are televisions and people are watching films. Two sets every time. I am at the twin tv set in the hallway, at this point it is light, and we are watching films or music or documentaries, but we have to guess which one it is. That is the game. I'm not prepared for this at all. Someone on my right plays against me and people are standing behind us to cheer. We sit on the floor, and this is in the middle of the hallway.
I watch the screen. I don't remember the films.
Laterr I go to the back. People have finished there games here too, everyone seemed to know what this was all about. They watched very different stuff. Pebr/A was or is there, and he got some videos with him. I look in the box, big white box. He has videos and dvds with horror, one particular series, maybe Cthulhu. And the other half is something else.
At some point in the dream, halfway, I am naked. When all the commotion seems to have passed, I try to find my clothes, but I don't know where they are or where I put them in the first place, so I try to look for my bag, but don't find this either. I want to get dressed, because I want to go out to buy a sandwich. I only wear a white towel with which I cover my body.
Jeve is still here, at some point in the dream I incidentally touch her feet with my feet, but I keep it like that and touch some more, at first she does not care, but then she does not want that.
A little later I meet a blond girl, who looks very nice, still young, but with a fire in her eyes, who is supposed to work in the lunch bar as well, though I don't know her from real life. She knows what is going on and talks to me, she tries to comfort me and explain. She smiles and is happy.
I don't know where the dream ends, but in the end I'm at the back corner, watching what kind of films are in the box and I am still naked.

(23 minutes of writing)

Love Letter Drawing

1. Second Attempt

Outside, wandering, city, up, light, by day. I meet Mith underway, try to get close, but don't have the nerve, realize that she would like it, why do I have doubts. I see her again in the same dream, same city, a while after. This time I give her a real hug, we hold on long. I can't remember the details.

2. Love Letter

I arrive somewhere, maybe visiting, or maybe home, but I don't know the place in real life, I know it in the dream. Niab is there with me, first other building more public, like a school. We walk through the hallways, of that school like building, don't remember the details.
Again we meet Mith. I talk to her immediately, about music, and try to get her interest, try to involve Niab to make things look innocent.
All of us go home, this is the place I arrive, it is late at night, we sit around a table, dining table, in the living room. We are four people there. I want to show Mith something.
My mother is there, she sits on the left, head of table, her presence makes things difficult to accomplish. I get a drawing in my hand, maybe De is here too. And my brothers at some point. This is a drawing made by Mith, maybe while I look at it, she is not present, but in the dark of the night, I look at the painting, both sides of an A4.
I like it very much, though it is a bit childish, immature, teenagy. But I don't care, it is personal, and for me. On one side, in the left corner below, she has written words, this side of the paper has words all over, but not written, but also drawn, very stylish, like you would at school. It says how much she likes me. All these words express her attraction to me. I am touched.
After that I want to share something with her, so I suppose she is sitting on my right. I have something like a tablet, but looks like A4 size. I show her the music that I talked about earlier. What shows on the computer is Hopla, which is for children, really young children, but I still go for it, even if my mother does not approve. And we all watch, Niab, Mith and me, and maybe my brother N, who might be there. We go almost in the story of Hopla. I can't remember the details.
My mother really wants me to put that thing away, but for me it is an means to get close to Mith.
What happens next I'm not sure about.
Later we are all in the living room, chilling in the sofas, there is a lot more folk now, all friends, neighbours, like T&B, maybe H&B, both my brothers. Stco is there too. Mith and maybe Niab. It is late, and getting later.
Stuff happens.
In the end I suggest we can go out and watch this band, again this must be the music I talked about earlier. Not everyone is pro, but some are. I definitely want to, this will make the difference. We talk about how we will get there, by car, who will drive with who.
All was rather clear, but I can't remember now. I had the support of Stco. Every time I get close to Mith my mother was there, and I freeze. Did I eventually get close?

(15 minutes of writing)

+ more fragments of the same dream.
My father is there, this is in another room of the same house. He is going to boil eggs. One of the eggs is off. There is a dining table in the room, dining room, we are on one end, he on the side. Table looks like the one my parents have.
You can tell the egg is off because if you shake it you feel the yolk move. Something inside is a little bit too solid. Yolk has become hard.
Maybe about the cat V.
I am making soup, the rest of the people are still in the other room, this I like to do on my own. But at least one person is here to watch, out of curiosity, and maybe wants to try himself. Or herself. I make different kinds of miso soup, because I want to try the best combinations, I have to know this, I have different pots on the stove, with stock. At least three kinds, they all look good, yummy.

Late in the dream, and maybe the end of this dream. Inside still, living room and dining room. We are in one corner, maybe playing on the floor, someone walks by from right to left, does not look at us, some girls among us they think he is handsome, he has long hair, short. He reminds me of Bacl. He has nothing to do with what we are doing, and he walks to another group of people in a dark corner at the other end.
Dream fragment about Kaatje, the tv person that children like. Now I see her in real, I know it is her, but she does not look like her on tv at all, she looks spent, short, mean. I don't like her.
Dream fragment about my thumb nail. A piece of it was broken, and now the nail has receded even more and of itself. I'm a bit surprised by that, but it's okay.

Plenty of Copies

1. A Blue Candle

The end of a dream.

Everyone is present and I am about to give my presentation. We moved to this hall, which is dark, red, atmosphere. Low, lower than the outside where we came from, the back side of a house is where we came from. This space may be open to one side, maybe bordering a street. Lots of space.

On one side I make the preparations. Someone is with me all the time. He or she guides and tells me what to do. On the table, which is a drawer, are put all kinds of things.

Further in the middle of the room is where the guests are waiting, or will be waiting.

I have made copies of my presentation, plenty.

When I finally go to the centre, I see a small, low table, off the centre of the circle of people. There are candles on it, I did not do this, someone else has placed this altar here thinking it is appropriate. I don't really know. At first, I have a resistance against using it, but why not, so I see the central candle, which are two. One blue, and one wax candle. The blue one, tapered, is for Odin. And I will light that one first. Maybe we should do a ritual to start then? I am thinking in my head of what to do now that I see this new situation. I will use the candle, but will improvise anyway.

The person guiding me is a guy. He stands apart from the rest. He does not mix with the others, but is doing his best to help others, looking for solutions, working or doing work for helping others, behind the scenes, that is, and I am helping him with that, or I am in training with him, more likely.

Last dream. Confrontation with the circle of people ready and the light blue candle was the end of the dream.

2. Chips

Keva must have been earlier in the dream. Also stuff to eat. I remember chips, home made, white, light, kitchen, windows with outside view to garden. Small kitchen. Lots of chips. Even if some people think there will not be enough because we are with a lot, there will be more than enough. Chips in a big white bowl, actually more like a plastic box, but with kitchen paper as usual.

More of the dream was outside, can't remember.

Shield of Horn

1. Horn Shield

I'm in my room, other people, too, in the house. Door is open. Dark. I am looking for something, or I am going through my stuff of many years ago, and I am at my desk. I find a, object of horn, it is big and does not look like a drinking horn. I take it up, happy but surprised about my find, and look at it. Then I try it on. There is an opening. I put my left arm through it.

I am wearing my woolen pull over. The horn object may be a shield, I would use it for that. It remains a mystery, but it fits my arm and I would like to show the others. Maybe someone else is in the room too, who I can show this to immediately. I find that the horn shield does not suit with my pullover. I try it on my other arm and on this side it may temporarily become a telephone book, which would be able to protect me as well. But then I switch again.

I don't know what I have to do with this, but I keep it nonetheless.

Maybe it is evening or night, I go to N's room, my brother, because in the game I have to kill him. And I am in the room in between the bedrooms. He is still asleep and his door is closed. I think this is the right time to prepare to kill him, maybe it is not the right moment, because no one is watching and it is night, but if I do it now, I can succeed. By the chair by the door I see my knife. This is my ritual knife, but it is packed together with a normal kitchen knife. They are taped together. White tape. I will use my own knife only. I take it and then wait at the door.

Just at that moment, my brother (deja-vu writing this) opens the door, still a bit sleepy, and wants to go to the bathroom. Immediately I take my chance and put my knife on his throat. I don't cut him for real, but I make the mock movement, so it is clear that I got him. And so I win. His room is Aleister Crowley's room. It seems like I'm cheating, but I tell my brother, no other moment would have allowed me this chance.

That is where this dream ends

2. Car Quiz

Inside, house, unknown, common room. Different levels, two main levels. Quiz for sure. Board games too. While people are waiting. The tables are against the wall, the rooms are like one big hallway. It is dark. Me and two others, of which one is the game master, older guy. The game he suggests is for me, meant for me. No one else is awake at this point, and when he explains, I am of the opinion that I could give it a try.

There seems to be a compulsory act behind it, we are forced to play it. Someone has to, I will.

For this game, there are papers, with six or eight squares on a paper, each square contains other information, or you have to fill in your stats. Every one has to do this individually. I look at it. There is green and purple, and so on.

When I take a closer look and finally start, I see that one round is about license plates of cars, the numbers are jumbled, but on another paper the correct answers are given. I look at both, and see how it works. So I feel confident. Not just of cars, but trucks. I easily recognize the fragments of numbers.

Bale is here.

The rooms change a bit later, and other games are played.