Fox Valley

1. The Fox Lags Behind

I remember a fox. We were eight people in a group or team, out in the wild tracking. We were going to some place in particular. This is a valley. On the left side was a mountain wall. Green hills on the right and a small rivulet in the middle. It was a very picturesque landscape, with many colours and lots of light.

Halfway underway the fox gets separated, but we continue anyway, because we know that she (?) will find her way to us. She is smart and independent. She sneaks through the bushes.

On the upper levels on the right is another party, behind that must be houses and more civilized places. At some point we get in touch with them and exchange or talk. Exchange food maybe. Eat together.

This was the big dream, but I did not make the effort in the night to get up and write it down, so now I only remember this.

2. Socks and Shoes

(Hypnagogic dreams)

The dreams that come after that are mixed up, because they all look the same or cover the same theme, because I struggled with the fact of memorizing my dreams on the one hand and getting some more necessary sleep on the other.

The room we are in is small. From this point we will leave for the excursion. We have to prepare. Food of course is the main thing, but also socks.

There is one dream in which my father features prominently, and my two brothers are also present. And especially D is upset with me for having another opinion than the rest.

3. Flat Tyre

I'll be going out with my bicycle. I'm on my own but I have to be somewhere in time. I take my bicycle, but I notice there are creases in the tyre. I put my fingers around the tyre and press, and yes, air comes out as when you breathe. I am amazed by the ease and volume of air that comes out. This is not good. And it is not just in one place, but I see others too. I try once more. Air escapes. In this way, I will not make it. I am outside on the street, alone, dark.

+4. Sausage

Inside. Light. House. My brother is there. I open a cupboard, my brother asks me to hand over a sausage for his sandwich, I suppose he wants to make a hotdog, it is one of those long sausages that come in cans. This one is not in a can, it lies horizontally in the cupboard, with a bunch of others. It lies in some kind of container, like one that holds straws, but open on top, so there is no lid, no real inside or outside. I hand it over to him. It feels strange to me to have this in the house, if this is my house, because I usually have no meat in the house. But he will eat it, not me.


+5. Lack of Sleep
(Hypnagogic dreams)

There is a bed in the corner. A table on the left. A door in between. Light. White walls. Further down is the actual bedroom, where both my brothers sleep. There is a big window. It must be open to let fresh air in, because I can see the curtains swirl. Everyone is up and about, making ready for school. I am still in bed and I can't get out.

 

At some point I have the intention of visiting Kade and I see her house, but I think, if I knock on her door without having said to her that I'd come, then I might meet someone else entirely, because she does not live here anymore, possibly. I would take the chance. The outside is calm and deserted, light.

In another dream someone sits at the table, this is later in the day. It is Fras. My brothers and someone else sit with her. They ask her questions or listen to her stories. I am in a different room altogether counting my socks, the white and the dark ones and seeing which ones are still good, but many have holes in them (I suppose this refers to what I remember of the dreams, because they are only fragments now).

In that separated room, or it may be outside, is a stairway up. It is not clear where it leads. It is made of stones and looks turquoise. Other people that have nothing to do with us come there and meet us. I don't now how to behave. Maybe they want to hire this chalet after us. I am packing. My socks in particular. I know there are some that belong to Andh, who is here somewhere. She was here before, but she is out with the children possibly. I think of a dragon. So I take the socks and shoes and boots of the children to her suitcase and put them there. In the meanwhile, people are talking to Fras, they seem to enjoy it. Someone tells her something. She says that people should still have respect for the couple, because they too have children, only you can't see them, but the have a lot of spirit children to take care of. Someone responds, and that makes sense to her, she says: ah, that is why he gave that to me. But I can't remember what it was.
+ Fras looks very bright and lucid, especially her eyes. I wonder how the people who are talking to her can look her straight in the eye as if she is a normal person, because she is not. I would cower. She was a point of lucidity in the dream.