1. Return of Book
I met Niab in a dream and he promptly returned me the book I lent him about flatland. He said it did not interest him at all, did not read it either. I told him the mathematics might interest him, and he said I was right, but gave it back anyway.
2. Healing by Hids
At Hids's place, her practice. First in one room and then in another, two different sessions, of her doing healing work on my body. Not sure if I asked this. The second time she scanned my body with her arms, from head to about my waist, there I was already awake too much. Her mother was nearby during the second session. Hids and I talked about things.
Wednesday, 26 February 2014
Tuesday, 25 February 2014
Sharp Shots
yesterday I dreamed about a book with photo's, the pictures were very sharp and I said that out loud, I think Madm was there and agreed. This was outside. Light. A little later I wanted to call someone to me, and went in the hallway but the name I uttered was that of Mefa, which was not the person I was looking for, but he was there and I was okay with it, and suggested we both look at the pictures, because they were Woli's. In fact, Woli was in the dream.
(Later in the day I called Chwe asking her if she wanted to come over and have dinner, but she already expected Mefa, so I went up to them)
yesterday earlier dream. My apartment or bathroom, I was making ready to get up maybe and took off my night shirt, and suddenly saw a tick on my body, on the left, belly, to the side. A girl was there, she might have helped or else I would go to the doctor. After I was over the first panic I was okay.
day before that I dreamed that I wept though there was no reason. Only tears flowed. (Later in the day I did a meditation and tears flowed and I was reminded of the dream. this sometimes happens, not related to emotion, but maybe because of being tired and so forth)
(Later in the day I called Chwe asking her if she wanted to come over and have dinner, but she already expected Mefa, so I went up to them)
yesterday earlier dream. My apartment or bathroom, I was making ready to get up maybe and took off my night shirt, and suddenly saw a tick on my body, on the left, belly, to the side. A girl was there, she might have helped or else I would go to the doctor. After I was over the first panic I was okay.
day before that I dreamed that I wept though there was no reason. Only tears flowed. (Later in the day I did a meditation and tears flowed and I was reminded of the dream. this sometimes happens, not related to emotion, but maybe because of being tired and so forth)
Friday, 21 February 2014
Descent in the Museum
1. Bathtub Ejaculation
Nighttime, house, everyone gone to bed, I am the last one up and going to bed as well. House of parents, but on an upper floor and has more rooms, but all is on one floor. The room that is mine is somewhere stacked away in the back, behind the bathroom, which in reality is D's room.
Some people are still awake in the living room but they are not family, two Turkish or Moroccon people.
When I'm in the bedroom I suddenly have to go to the bathroom very quickly and I hold my hands in front of my crotch. I pass by the original bathroom but go to the large one a bit further down the hallway. From the corner of my eye I see the two people awake to my left, the door to the living room is open. They are also making ready to go to sleep.
I enter the bathroom, am in a hurry, there is a large white bathtub across and I loosen and relax. All at once I start to ejaculate heavily and enormously. I can't believe it myself, but it looks like a good inner clean up. The first moment took me unawares and then I immediately aim in the tub with both my hands. But the first shot already is all over the place and sticky and I know it will leave stains, but I don't feel like cleaning it, so if mother says anything about it in the morning then that is that.
Meanwhile the other two are also in the bathroom and at the sink. Greenish atmosphere.
I have filled the whole bottom of the tub with my ejaculation. The weird thing is that it does not coincide with a wet dream. The ejaculation reminds me of the one in one of the scary movie movies, I think. And it was rather fluid.
Then the two behind me sympathize with me, but I don't know what to think of them. They are looking for a knife, one of them at least, he looks like one of those restaurant holders of pita bar. Maybe he is joking, they only have a comb, which is natural in a bathroom. A third one comes in. I don't know to feel embarrassed or threatened. Maybe a bit.
2. Museum Lift and Bedding
There is a dream where I had a date with the girl from the museum and I go to the museum, lots of people, toward evening. I go through the grand portal and enter. Some lecture may be going on, school children, busy. Red atmosphere, a bit dark. Steps up to enter. This portal is in the street where I met her.
Don't really remember how, but then I met her and she took me in the lift. We were on one of the top floors, but now we take the lift down, and this goes really fast, I can barely stand on my feet and am a bit frightened by it, by the speed. We are going down real fast. She has all control, this is where she works. We pass level 24, but go down to zero or even negative.
Then all the way down we go in a horizontal way a little further, this I had not expected, and it goes fast too, a little bit sf like. Still in the same lift. Garages, basement.
Some other things happen that I can't remember.
At last, later, we are back up somewhere and I am supposed to sleep in the hall, the floor is one big bed and these are many beds, all red, next to each other, like a checker board, and there is just one space left on the side where I am and this is where I have to lie down and sleep. I do that. All other spaces are occupied.
She comes lie with me and immediately starts to get on top of me, her legs and waist heavy. But I am not comfortable with so many people around me and they can see how she wants to make love with me, I am a little embarrassed, so I hold out. I don't get a stiff one, can't if it is rushed so and with so many eyes on me. Then after a while something changes and she is on top of me again, but I can't hold back and take her and see my own penis and how the foreskin moves back further and further almost as if my whole penis is skinned after a while, and I am thinking this is the farthest I have ever gone, but this does not seem good for my body so I hold back a bit.
Nighttime, house, everyone gone to bed, I am the last one up and going to bed as well. House of parents, but on an upper floor and has more rooms, but all is on one floor. The room that is mine is somewhere stacked away in the back, behind the bathroom, which in reality is D's room.
Some people are still awake in the living room but they are not family, two Turkish or Moroccon people.
When I'm in the bedroom I suddenly have to go to the bathroom very quickly and I hold my hands in front of my crotch. I pass by the original bathroom but go to the large one a bit further down the hallway. From the corner of my eye I see the two people awake to my left, the door to the living room is open. They are also making ready to go to sleep.
I enter the bathroom, am in a hurry, there is a large white bathtub across and I loosen and relax. All at once I start to ejaculate heavily and enormously. I can't believe it myself, but it looks like a good inner clean up. The first moment took me unawares and then I immediately aim in the tub with both my hands. But the first shot already is all over the place and sticky and I know it will leave stains, but I don't feel like cleaning it, so if mother says anything about it in the morning then that is that.
Meanwhile the other two are also in the bathroom and at the sink. Greenish atmosphere.
I have filled the whole bottom of the tub with my ejaculation. The weird thing is that it does not coincide with a wet dream. The ejaculation reminds me of the one in one of the scary movie movies, I think. And it was rather fluid.
Then the two behind me sympathize with me, but I don't know what to think of them. They are looking for a knife, one of them at least, he looks like one of those restaurant holders of pita bar. Maybe he is joking, they only have a comb, which is natural in a bathroom. A third one comes in. I don't know to feel embarrassed or threatened. Maybe a bit.
2. Museum Lift and Bedding
There is a dream where I had a date with the girl from the museum and I go to the museum, lots of people, toward evening. I go through the grand portal and enter. Some lecture may be going on, school children, busy. Red atmosphere, a bit dark. Steps up to enter. This portal is in the street where I met her.
Don't really remember how, but then I met her and she took me in the lift. We were on one of the top floors, but now we take the lift down, and this goes really fast, I can barely stand on my feet and am a bit frightened by it, by the speed. We are going down real fast. She has all control, this is where she works. We pass level 24, but go down to zero or even negative.
Then all the way down we go in a horizontal way a little further, this I had not expected, and it goes fast too, a little bit sf like. Still in the same lift. Garages, basement.
Some other things happen that I can't remember.
At last, later, we are back up somewhere and I am supposed to sleep in the hall, the floor is one big bed and these are many beds, all red, next to each other, like a checker board, and there is just one space left on the side where I am and this is where I have to lie down and sleep. I do that. All other spaces are occupied.
She comes lie with me and immediately starts to get on top of me, her legs and waist heavy. But I am not comfortable with so many people around me and they can see how she wants to make love with me, I am a little embarrassed, so I hold out. I don't get a stiff one, can't if it is rushed so and with so many eyes on me. Then after a while something changes and she is on top of me again, but I can't hold back and take her and see my own penis and how the foreskin moves back further and further almost as if my whole penis is skinned after a while, and I am thinking this is the farthest I have ever gone, but this does not seem good for my body so I hold back a bit.
Thursday, 13 February 2014
Mugwort Smudge of Neighbour
1. Two Figs
I'm in a hallway, light, courtyard outside, pass a girl, handful of other people, very laid back atmosphere. I come back from somewhere with two figs, they are more juicy than I remember, though they are confit. Girl in the hallway too when I eat one of those figs. Maybe a school, school building.
2. Mugwort Plum
(Lucid dream)
I'm in the street of my parents, I am in front of the house of Ri, Wile. I am coming home from somewhere, it is late afternoon, maybe end of a school day. Light. Calm and peaceful. Certain quality. Lucid.
The door is open and I don't think Ri is inside, so I go in. When I pass the threshold I hold because I see two small children in the sofa watching telly or something. The one most to me is a girl with blond hair, ponytail. I suppose these are her grandchildren. I don't want them to see me, so I back out again.
After a while I see Ri inside. She must have come in from the back yard. I don't know how it happens, but then I am inside of the house, the living room, with her alone, and I immediately notice the smudges hanging around. She obviously does not know what to do with them, though I think she has a prize in her house. There are at least two. One is in a prominent position of the living room, and is different of shape. This is the main one. It gives off a lot of dust, but the whole smudge, which is spherical and looks like the blossom of a thistle, is so tight and tender that the dust is the material of the smudge itself. It is very good quality, I see it from afar. I would be proud to have such a thing.
These things are not hers, she has inherited them, maybe from an aunt.
She asks me what they are and I try to explain. It is hard to explain, because I look for words, no, I look for the plant itself. I tell her it is mugwort, which it is, and am sure she would recognize the plant if she saw it, so I am looking for it, in the house at first, but don't find it, then I look through the window and look to the garden. Through the window I see mugwort plants, first one, then more. I point and she recognizes what it is. She asks what it is for, or I try to explain, and I tell her it is like incense, but I don't say more.
Quite a time later I tell her all, that this is for trance inducing and attracting spirits. I was not sure she wanted to hear it, but out it goes, and she is happy I told her.
Later I am back in the living room and reading a children's book and this is in a sofa, by the window, light, and warm colours, and excited atmosphere, and the book hovers, because it has a balloon strung on it, the book is like that, it is a special kind of book and I like to read it.
Later my brothers come home from school. Can't remember the rest, maybe I show the book.
3. Nail under Nail
I am tearing a side nail from underneath my nail, from the ring finger of my left hand I think. When I am half way I see my mother to my left do the same, which is weird, but I continue anyway. Light. I am careful not to tear too much away, but after being patient, it works.
4. Going to Watch Rurouni Kenshin Film
Last part of the last dream, I can't remember the context, but at some point I enter the cinema. I had a 3D glasses with me already, but possibly for a different reason. In the first room where other people too, but I had no real connection with them. Then I decide to go to the film, the colour and light is better in that room, the till, I see they play Rurouni Kenshin, a real film, but anime, this was on my list to view, so I go, it has been playing for fifteen minutes already, but I don't mind. I go on my own. When I check in, the man at the counter says there is another playing not 3D behind me. I see it. But I stick with my decision. Someone else also joins. Not someone I know, maybe a girl. No connection.
I'm in a hallway, light, courtyard outside, pass a girl, handful of other people, very laid back atmosphere. I come back from somewhere with two figs, they are more juicy than I remember, though they are confit. Girl in the hallway too when I eat one of those figs. Maybe a school, school building.
2. Mugwort Plum
(Lucid dream)
I'm in the street of my parents, I am in front of the house of Ri, Wile. I am coming home from somewhere, it is late afternoon, maybe end of a school day. Light. Calm and peaceful. Certain quality. Lucid.
The door is open and I don't think Ri is inside, so I go in. When I pass the threshold I hold because I see two small children in the sofa watching telly or something. The one most to me is a girl with blond hair, ponytail. I suppose these are her grandchildren. I don't want them to see me, so I back out again.
After a while I see Ri inside. She must have come in from the back yard. I don't know how it happens, but then I am inside of the house, the living room, with her alone, and I immediately notice the smudges hanging around. She obviously does not know what to do with them, though I think she has a prize in her house. There are at least two. One is in a prominent position of the living room, and is different of shape. This is the main one. It gives off a lot of dust, but the whole smudge, which is spherical and looks like the blossom of a thistle, is so tight and tender that the dust is the material of the smudge itself. It is very good quality, I see it from afar. I would be proud to have such a thing.
These things are not hers, she has inherited them, maybe from an aunt.
She asks me what they are and I try to explain. It is hard to explain, because I look for words, no, I look for the plant itself. I tell her it is mugwort, which it is, and am sure she would recognize the plant if she saw it, so I am looking for it, in the house at first, but don't find it, then I look through the window and look to the garden. Through the window I see mugwort plants, first one, then more. I point and she recognizes what it is. She asks what it is for, or I try to explain, and I tell her it is like incense, but I don't say more.
Quite a time later I tell her all, that this is for trance inducing and attracting spirits. I was not sure she wanted to hear it, but out it goes, and she is happy I told her.
Later I am back in the living room and reading a children's book and this is in a sofa, by the window, light, and warm colours, and excited atmosphere, and the book hovers, because it has a balloon strung on it, the book is like that, it is a special kind of book and I like to read it.
Later my brothers come home from school. Can't remember the rest, maybe I show the book.
3. Nail under Nail
I am tearing a side nail from underneath my nail, from the ring finger of my left hand I think. When I am half way I see my mother to my left do the same, which is weird, but I continue anyway. Light. I am careful not to tear too much away, but after being patient, it works.
4. Going to Watch Rurouni Kenshin Film
Last part of the last dream, I can't remember the context, but at some point I enter the cinema. I had a 3D glasses with me already, but possibly for a different reason. In the first room where other people too, but I had no real connection with them. Then I decide to go to the film, the colour and light is better in that room, the till, I see they play Rurouni Kenshin, a real film, but anime, this was on my list to view, so I go, it has been playing for fifteen minutes already, but I don't mind. I go on my own. When I check in, the man at the counter says there is another playing not 3D behind me. I see it. But I stick with my decision. Someone else also joins. Not someone I know, maybe a girl. No connection.
Monday, 10 February 2014
Steep Road Down
1. Keep Control of Vehicle
Last part of a dream, I'm in a car, driving myself, doing something else at the same time, so that I don't really pay attention. Maybe looking at my tablet or mobile phone or something, something that is important to me. Even when I see that another car overtakes mine on the left and I should follow it, I still don't look up and mind the road. Though, then I see I should, because I have to keep control of the vehicle. The road is very dangerous, now there are suddenly many bends and the road goes down steep. It goes to the left at one time and then to the right at another, and it seems fragmented, though the main route is down to the left and I follow and I try to control the vehicle and somehow manage better than I had expected, especially because I am still not paying full attention. Then I have to lay down whatever it is that takes my attention in the car and mind the road, because it takes some control to keep to the road, as if it slides, but I never bump or crash.
Then I am down, this is in a tunnel and more cars are parked here, they all got here, it is like a traffic jam or a queue, we all get out of the cars. I go up to the front, there is a man there who is a bit out of control, he has a gun and points it, don't remember where, maybe to a lady who is next to him. I know her in the dream, not him, he is in a panic or shock situation. The girl talks to him, I know meanwhile that he will not shoot. I know that I might be a target, the target in fact, but fear no damage. I am confident. I come closer. This takes a long time, but he eventually puts the gun away himself. There was a light green colour in the tunnel or basement rooms down there, low ceiling, but light.
2. Hafr
Fragment of a dream in which I saw and went up to Hafr. Maybe she was also someone else.
Last part of a dream, I'm in a car, driving myself, doing something else at the same time, so that I don't really pay attention. Maybe looking at my tablet or mobile phone or something, something that is important to me. Even when I see that another car overtakes mine on the left and I should follow it, I still don't look up and mind the road. Though, then I see I should, because I have to keep control of the vehicle. The road is very dangerous, now there are suddenly many bends and the road goes down steep. It goes to the left at one time and then to the right at another, and it seems fragmented, though the main route is down to the left and I follow and I try to control the vehicle and somehow manage better than I had expected, especially because I am still not paying full attention. Then I have to lay down whatever it is that takes my attention in the car and mind the road, because it takes some control to keep to the road, as if it slides, but I never bump or crash.
Then I am down, this is in a tunnel and more cars are parked here, they all got here, it is like a traffic jam or a queue, we all get out of the cars. I go up to the front, there is a man there who is a bit out of control, he has a gun and points it, don't remember where, maybe to a lady who is next to him. I know her in the dream, not him, he is in a panic or shock situation. The girl talks to him, I know meanwhile that he will not shoot. I know that I might be a target, the target in fact, but fear no damage. I am confident. I come closer. This takes a long time, but he eventually puts the gun away himself. There was a light green colour in the tunnel or basement rooms down there, low ceiling, but light.
2. Hafr
Fragment of a dream in which I saw and went up to Hafr. Maybe she was also someone else.
Monday, 3 February 2014
Watchin Two Ships on the Water
1. Snakes
Maybe a dream about snakes, but I'm not sure.
2. Square Lake
At home, light, toward dinner time, kitchen, brothers are there. We are preparing food. All is on the table, and some things in the oven, which is open. We're busy, the kitchen is full. S is there too, possibly I. On the table is Vol-au-vent, and potatoes are in the oven.
Eventually our parents arrive, they are late. I fear mom will be mad about us using the kitchen, but I stand my ground.
Scene changes. War time, we are outside. The enemy is there. Behind us is a house, this is ours, we are now on this side of the house which is a different world. The other side of the house is the past, not now is a good idea to go there. We meet the enemy, they are three people, among which a young girl with long curly black hair and a guy my age or a bit older. They are the main ones. I meet them face on, they have more fear than me. When the confrontation is over, the girl lies on the floor, on the street. I know I have only one choice and that is to rape her. She expects it. I go toward her and she wears a jeans. I feel between her legs and I feel her pussy which is very wet. Though I have doubts about the wisdom of this, I know I'm left with no choice but entering. In fact, this makes something right, as if we are a couple now.
Then all of us go in the house, which is open as if there are no walls and you can see the other side, there are many people there. Stalls, like a market, selling fabrics and trinkets. Part of it is in the house. Most of it outside. They, the enemy persons, want to go outside, I have no intention to follow and stay in the mid-zone. I realize that the other side is the past.
Scene changes, we are outside, on the right side, we sit as if to watch a film, on a dike, there is a square lake, very big, lots of water. Four dikes around it. We all sit on one side. The girl is with me. We are about to watch a film. I wanted this. This was on my schedule, but no all the others are here with me and they don't have a clue about what is happening or will happen, because they have not seen the other two earlier parts. I briefly try to explain when the film starts. The film is what happens on the water. I fear it will make no sense to the others.
Close to where we sit are two boats, wooden both, one longer than the other, but both very big, and simple. And two people are there, in the water. They try to get in the boat, in one of the boats. One guy tries to get some long planks of wood in the ship, but I don't want that to happen. It never works.
At some point the big ship overturns and they're in the water. Then it takes the shape of a train. And then a train comes from behind us and we have to take care it does not overrun us, because we are almost sitting in that corner. They train passes. Another comes. We go down the slope. Now it is a meadow of grass, not water, and we run uphill. Another train tries to hit us. Then lots of people are on the green and run uphill. There is a giant, I see him aim his fist to hit, but also see he cannot see us or something so we don't have anything to fear. I run this way and that, but the orange giant hits the ground and I never stood in that place. Then again. Now it becomes harder to run uphill and I see another giant. This is about where the dream ends.
Maybe a dream about snakes, but I'm not sure.
2. Square Lake
At home, light, toward dinner time, kitchen, brothers are there. We are preparing food. All is on the table, and some things in the oven, which is open. We're busy, the kitchen is full. S is there too, possibly I. On the table is Vol-au-vent, and potatoes are in the oven.
Eventually our parents arrive, they are late. I fear mom will be mad about us using the kitchen, but I stand my ground.
Scene changes. War time, we are outside. The enemy is there. Behind us is a house, this is ours, we are now on this side of the house which is a different world. The other side of the house is the past, not now is a good idea to go there. We meet the enemy, they are three people, among which a young girl with long curly black hair and a guy my age or a bit older. They are the main ones. I meet them face on, they have more fear than me. When the confrontation is over, the girl lies on the floor, on the street. I know I have only one choice and that is to rape her. She expects it. I go toward her and she wears a jeans. I feel between her legs and I feel her pussy which is very wet. Though I have doubts about the wisdom of this, I know I'm left with no choice but entering. In fact, this makes something right, as if we are a couple now.
Then all of us go in the house, which is open as if there are no walls and you can see the other side, there are many people there. Stalls, like a market, selling fabrics and trinkets. Part of it is in the house. Most of it outside. They, the enemy persons, want to go outside, I have no intention to follow and stay in the mid-zone. I realize that the other side is the past.
Scene changes, we are outside, on the right side, we sit as if to watch a film, on a dike, there is a square lake, very big, lots of water. Four dikes around it. We all sit on one side. The girl is with me. We are about to watch a film. I wanted this. This was on my schedule, but no all the others are here with me and they don't have a clue about what is happening or will happen, because they have not seen the other two earlier parts. I briefly try to explain when the film starts. The film is what happens on the water. I fear it will make no sense to the others.
Close to where we sit are two boats, wooden both, one longer than the other, but both very big, and simple. And two people are there, in the water. They try to get in the boat, in one of the boats. One guy tries to get some long planks of wood in the ship, but I don't want that to happen. It never works.
At some point the big ship overturns and they're in the water. Then it takes the shape of a train. And then a train comes from behind us and we have to take care it does not overrun us, because we are almost sitting in that corner. They train passes. Another comes. We go down the slope. Now it is a meadow of grass, not water, and we run uphill. Another train tries to hit us. Then lots of people are on the green and run uphill. There is a giant, I see him aim his fist to hit, but also see he cannot see us or something so we don't have anything to fear. I run this way and that, but the orange giant hits the ground and I never stood in that place. Then again. Now it becomes harder to run uphill and I see another giant. This is about where the dream ends.
Saturday, 1 February 2014
Short Haircut
1. Inro
End of dream, light, inside, everyone leaving, me included. Inro is there, she has short hair and it is dark, like it used to be, but now it seems to be a new colour. She's with friends, also leaving. I like how she looks. Her hair at some point is really short, trimmed. I linger a bit in saying goodbye, because I had not seen her while I was there. But I have to go and she too, our ways part.
+ Just before the above happened, I showed Inro my golden ring, in response to her showing hers to me. And this was at a table, I splayed my left hand and pointed out I wear the ring, which is the one with my initial, on my middle finger, meaning that I am not married, as I fancy her and want to be available for her. Yet I still feared I thought she might think I had a partner. That would be one of the gods or goddesses then. And it meant something occult, but can't precisely remember. This was a fairly lucid moment.
End of dream, light, inside, everyone leaving, me included. Inro is there, she has short hair and it is dark, like it used to be, but now it seems to be a new colour. She's with friends, also leaving. I like how she looks. Her hair at some point is really short, trimmed. I linger a bit in saying goodbye, because I had not seen her while I was there. But I have to go and she too, our ways part.
+ Just before the above happened, I showed Inro my golden ring, in response to her showing hers to me. And this was at a table, I splayed my left hand and pointed out I wear the ring, which is the one with my initial, on my middle finger, meaning that I am not married, as I fancy her and want to be available for her. Yet I still feared I thought she might think I had a partner. That would be one of the gods or goddesses then. And it meant something occult, but can't precisely remember. This was a fairly lucid moment.
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