Inferno Hardback

1. Taking Notes on a Mattress

Blood?
Geometric patterns. Niab.
Grand Square in Leuven, it is late, I go to bed. Where I sleep is only a small room. To the roadside, in the length. Brick walls.
Mael is here, too.
When I wake up I am in London. The bed I slept on consisted of two mattresses on top of each other. Because I need to remember my dreams, the room is much bigger now, I have to take notes. Because I don't find paper and fear I will forget in a minute, I start writing on the second mattress. Blue ink, in the corner, right of where the head is. I think it is dirty, because you can't erase this ever. It stains the mattress, I'm a little troubled by that, but I can't think of anything else. Moreover, I have to hurry and go somewhere. People are expecting my presence.
This cell is different than the cell I went to bed in. It forms part of a bigger complex, I am on the second or third floor. The day is clear. There is no one else. Big building. Modern. Clean, lots of white.
I make myself ready to leave, I am leaving for a weekend. (That must be the end of the dream. I don't quite remember how it started. And the fact that it jumps from one scene to another means I might have been in a process of awakening).

2. Shop Desk Mess

Comic books.
I'm in the shop. I arrive. Liha is there, she is at the till, busying herself with nothing, seeming to be busy. Light. One or two customers. The place where the computer and the desk are, is a mess. Liha made this, she wants my help now. The place is full of papers spread all over, not just on the desk, but beyond it, on the counter on the left of the desk, and even where the dvd's are. It is bad. It is so bad that it seems to be layered even. The place seems to be broken out and in the process of being reconstructed apart from the fact that Liha has no clue.
A customer comes to the till, a woman. She has a question. I immediately see what she wants to buy. She has a copy of Dan Brown's latest, Inferno. But she has got the English version in her hand. Moreover it is a hardback. What is special about it is that it is the size of a pocket, but with a hard back.
I did not even know what had these. I tell her what it is. She wants the Dutch version.

3. Queue for Food

Earlier dream, maybe part of one of the above.
Queuing up for food.

4. Getting the Condom Ready

I'm in my living room, I'm looking for an old condom I know I stacked there underneath the table. It takes me a while, but I find it.

Shot in the Back

1. Roast Beef

A restaurant. I and someone else enter. We would like to eat something.
We come from outside, this is a town I'm not familiar with and I have a feeling it is late already or it has been raining, and we finally found something. The place looks like an old hostel. First the entrance, then the man who opened the door, might not be in charge, but may be the head of staff on the floor, leads us one way, though there are two rooms. Right room (from the door this is the left room, but from the perspective of the dream on the right). Wood, curtains. Very rustique, maybe even candlelight and so on.
When we enter the establishment we keep standing while the waiter wants to give explanations on the menu, and we keep asking him details, me and the other one, maybe a woman.
In the meanwhile, I see on my left at the window a round table and people sitting there that I know. Some chairs are empty and people don't necessarily sit next to each other, but make conversation, so I suppose they are still waiting for others. I wonder whether we will be welcome and I think that in a minute I will ask them, but first we need to get the details of the menu right.
Among the people sitting there are Habe, opposit. And a guy from badminton, on the left, with his back to me. Niab is here too, he is on the right. At least two other people. They have meals already. These people are not connected in real life. 
So I watch them and try to figure out what they are having. In that way I can see if I want to eat here or not, because I have some reservations about the place. We don't really want to stay, but we stay anyway. Most people have the menu of the day, ossenhaas, or gebraad, but in different ways. But this particular meat that is served I don't want to eat, so I ask the waiter (kelner) whether he has pork, and this and that, but no. At a given moment, the badminton guy says, you can have steak. His roast beef is steak. But that is exactly what I don't want.
I've also seen that Niab has a large aubergine dish, and someone else too. Sliced aubergine, full of oil, very big, and between the slices is bacon, but when I ask the waiter says it is aubergine with anchovy. This means that between the slices there is anchovy with something else, maybe beans, at least it looks like runners with bacon. I don't feel like having aubergine, that is why I asked about alternatives. But in the end I have no choice and take this one.

2. Square in Passing

Before that. Square, sun. Unfamiliar town, I cross the square. I pass Grdr, who I had not expected here. Half of the square is pedestrian area. I notice that she is no longer pregnant (though I saw her yesterday, and she was full). This surprises me. Meanwhile she takes her eldest son to school. There is only the one kid. We don't say hello, but I recognize her. Then I see her whole family is sitting here. Outside, beergarden. On my right. I clearly see her father. And the youngest brother. When I pass them I have to greet, and I do.

3. Restaurant

Later. When I leave the restaurant, it is dark, night. This was one dream.

4. Shot in the Back

Somewhere unfamiliar, one big building, a little outside of town, stands alone, modern, glass. Security. I was meant to go here, but I am not allowed in when I arrive. Before the building is the parking lot, there I listen to the radio, Studio Brussel is playing.
Maybe I have been inside, maybe something about Dabe. Something about esoteric orders or secret societies.
Anyway, I arrive later. And this is the end of the dream. Two people guard the door. One of them steps up to me when he sees me coming. They are all dressed fine in a costume. He's got guns and shows it, he is very resolute. Then he drops one and continues. I go toward him, showing no fear.
No, he left the rifle and then left the place? But he still had another gun, long weapon, in his hands. He wants to shoot me but he is waiting for me to be armed. I go and get the rifle.
He only shoots when I return, turn, and take up the left rifle. That is when I get shot in the back, twice I think, lower back. It feels very real, so much so that I fear this might predict something that will happen in reality at some point in my life, since the feeling of losing my teeth eventually happened too, which is why, in hindsight, my dreams could construct this feeling as if it was real, that is, it remembered it from the future.I'm not dead, of course. This was the most lucid point in the dream.
Although that was the end of the dream, I am still sleepy, so I slip into another part and the story continues a bit.
I get inside, this is a secret order, there are two visitors. I know them, and they are here for the first time. At some later point I read a passage from a newspaper, the paper is old and yellow almost brown. I read this passage to them, because it is the only way I can help them. They don't know what they're in for. They think that what I read is a joke, but it is actually a text from the order itself. And I also hope that none of the officials hears it, because then I would be in trouble. On the page in the paper, I see about three ads that contain actual texts from the order.

Double Toilet

1. A Chance to Talk to Inla

There is a garage. Ground level. My brother N is there. And he and I have to watch out that we don't get bullied, or maybe teased, but something bad enough. Pestering. I can't remember the rest.
Later. Something about ballet. There is a lot of running and jumping in the hall, this is a training hall, you can see that by the floor, it is a wooden floor. And almost slippery. Shiny. People just do what they want, or I don't belong here and do my own thing, because that is what the hall is for. So I do my best. Notes say, I can do it something something. Anyway, the girls in the room look at me with strange looks, but at the same time they take an interest in me. These are the girls who are already here, more will come, which means that we are waiting. I suppose class will be given.
Later I go out of the room because I have to go to the toilet. This is across of the hallway. (Maybe something happened before, I can't remember). And a little further on the right, then left. It has big windows, you can see clearly through them. The whole outside wall seems to be made of glass. Yet in the corner is the toilet and I go there. There is another toilet on the right more in the middle of the room. Me and someone else come in, she came with me, or maybe this is the second time when I went to the toilet. I think I went twice. But I also think I can't remember the first time. (Since this is the second time, this fragment belongs after leaning in on Inla).
Now Chdm is with me. I think. And she uses the other toilet. Two toilets in the same space. I don't make a fuss about it, but it is strange. Then two girls walk by and we see them through the window. There are shrubs and a small path, and they walk between the greenery, maybe reed, or bamboo. The girls are curious, I think they even point. I don't mind, but Chdm is embarrassed. 
Then they even come in (can't read notes, they do something).
When I go back I go in the first room, but it is different now, maybe because this is already the second time I went to the toilet, but even so, the time is later, and for this talk I am again a little early.
Refectory, feels like a first floor place. There is one long table on the left and we all sit there. Lots of people, all of them young, most younger than me, it feels.

Inla enters the room, I suppose together with Debu, and they sit behind me, next to each other, this is the right side of the table. There might be windows on the other side. I don't know what is in the back, we came from the other side, there is another room there, and also windows. My brother D sits opposite of me.
They came in later, and took the elevator.
Inla sits right next to me and we are close. There is supposed to be given a talk or something, or a show, program. We wait. In the meanwhile I lay back, leaning back I rest against Inla, this is really comfortable.
All of the people look in the same direction, at the same time we are listening through headphones, so each individually. (Can't read notes, something about some do this different than others).
Second time in the hall. Now I sit somewhere else, the tables are arranged differently. There are more tables, they are place where there was nothing before. And they are oriented differently. Inla is already there when I return. Then I sit next to her. Now I will have time to talk to her. We haven't seen each other for such a long time. My dad sits on the table behind us and I can see that he watches us. This makes me hold my tongue and I don't get to say what I want to Inla.

Playground Bedroom

1. Wet Dream

Wet dream. Can't remember the circumstances, was soft and gentle. Maybe not even a dream. Early in the night.

2. Funeral of Bale

Bale is dead. We are at the funeral, her family is there. I go first, then her grandmothers. (Something else I can't read).

3. Reading

Reading.

4. Talk on the Mind

I explain what altered consciousness is and talk about the superficial mind. I'm looking for a better word than superficial, because people might take offense. This is during a get together, in a room, students. Closed. I'm not the speaker, but I feel I have to give this explanation.

5. Taiji and Work

Taiji. Kr of work is there. Nobody listens. (Am I teaching?).
Holiday of Tama. (Something I can't read).

6. Notes

Work. (Something I can't read).
Notes to colleagues, something about me and something else (can't read?).

7. Giant Names

Something about the names of giants. I understand them all. Maybe this is part of dream 4. The last one I don't understand, although I am sure I should know the name. Then I try anyway and I say: Geirrod, and it is correct. I did not look sure while I was saying it, but the lady who was the instructor was happy.

8. Dancing on the Playground

One of the early dreams. We arrive at a playground. D is with us. We enter via the gate, people are already there. All playful but waiting at the same time. No one dares to take initiative. No one is in the middle, everyone is on the sides, so the square or playground is empty and open. There is a second playground further on the left. All surrounded by buildings. We were summoned here, I don't know for what.
I don't want to be like the others and I start dancing on my own, looking at my brother D, to see if he supports my initiative. There are small balls in different colours rolling about. I play fool a long time, but nobody joins, I don't care what people think.

9. College Tourist

Maybe the same place. Now our mother is here too, but in fact the whole family. We are under a roof first. This is where the entrance is, but these are rooms already and you can stay here. Two adjacent rooms, and a playground behind them. We are tourists here, it is getting late, and no one is here but us. We want to make use of the accommodation. The rooms are rather empty, and they have glass walls so you can just look through them. When you're in them it feels like you are on display. We make ready to go to bed.
I go a little further and find another room, here's the bathroom, and possibly bedrooms, as I might decide to sleep here. I think I have to give some talk here. There is some purpose. This room too is empty, and I prepare to brush my teeth. This is when I see students arrive. At this late hour, as if for them it is another hour of the day. They keep coming, I suppose they are going to the classrooms, they go in other rooms and doors than where I am, but it is in the same corner of the building.
There is at least one student I bump in to, and I don't know how to respond. Am I allowed here? Can I still sleep here? Or will people barge in all the time?

Sugar Rose

1. Eating the Rose

A scene in London, somewhere in the future. Light.
A hall, on three sides were seats, like in a stadium, only the chairs very steep on top of each other. I sit beside someone that I have not seen in a long while. She says she is going to marry. (Can't read notes).
The spouse is a young, fat, black lady. During the ceremony taking place below I take her hand. She sits on my left.
She gives me a red rose, I start eating it, because I think that is what you do and I don't want to look foolish among all those people here. We sit on one of the lower rows. We are a bunch of people that belong together, but I don't know the connection. Other people are here as well. I have no idea of the prevailing etiquette. I start with eating the green parts of the rose, then I try the red flower itself. Then I see it is sugared. I'm not sure if I'm right about doing this, but I keep to it. 
Something else happens after that, I get something, involving a young girl (can't read notes properly). Small bag.
Bottom line is I don't want all this attention.
There was a lot more about this dream, before and after, but I don't remember.

2. Leaving my Notes Behind

Night. Driver. I am forced to come along. I have to pack things and take them with me. I can decide what and what not, but I can't recall the details. A stack of papers or notes I leave behind, but I can't remember why.

3. Garlic

There is a fragment of dream where I am out on a street and someone else is on the other side, a girl, maybe Chdm, and she can smell that I've eaten garlic yesterday, when I open my mouth, even across that distance.

4. Jacket Unbuttoned

Fragment of dream where the buttons of my jacket are getting loose, it is the lowest button. I tell my mother and she can't believe it because she just repaired it. (Prepared it. There was some thought in the dream about the words 'preparation' and 'reparation'). She checks it and sees it is loose, and pull it a bit, but it come off. She is disappointed in herself.

5. Rune Book Shop
(Hypnapompic Dream)

In London, in small streets I don't recognize. I'm there with Fras and Phpa. They are looking for something. We are in the back alleys of town, all pedestrian, but I don't know my way out here. Light.
Then we come to a building, it becomes clear they are looking for a place to open a shop. We go in, stairs on the left, they are led upstairs by someone, but I look at the right, there is a room there, with different floor levels, looks like a crypt or chapel but very cosy, and I think that this might be a good hall to hold lectures and do workshops.
Then I continue upstairs. The intention would be that Fras' books could be sold here, and then mine too, because that's not so many books. And to fill the shop any further, Phpa would supply mead, and I'm thinking maybe we should have the Lindisfarne mead too, because of the connection with the vikings. And I'm also thinking, mead may not be a good idea, because you would need a license to sell alcohol.
Upstairs is a stylish old fashioned living room, spacious, under roof. There is a fridge somewhere too. A table in the middle. Can't remember the rest.

Thirty Years

1. Concrete Building

Quiz, in English. Something about thirty years long. A wait. We are still in those thirty years I think, so we can't move forward, something like that.
Something about the street my parents live in. This was quite a lucid dream, but I did not have the energy to remember. At the house of Stco. A lot of people about.
Further up the road, where we live, there is some construction going on, or refurbishings. Someone comes a little later and takes another route, an old lady.
Something about the HST or TGV. 
Construction site in the street is on a plot of land and has concrete blocks piled on top each other quite high. The intention is to plant something at the site.
Doing something in a slow manner? Has to do with perfectionism.

There is a fifty percent chance on a big victory. (Or 80?). A man, a woman, me and ??? Rainbow, this image is used to explain something else (or was this in real life yesterday?). Mercenaries, this is connected with the rainbow.

2. Cavs

Cavs. News about her, it is more than a year that she quit her job, I wonder how she is. Digr has news from her all along. Cavs does not want to make contact, with us or with me. From what people say about her I infer that she is still not in good health. And I'm thinking, that if that is the case, then it was a good move that she stopped working.

Empty

1. ???

(Can't find my notes).
Light, but not bright. Unfamiliar houses. Many people. People I don't know. In another scene, parents and brothers. Going to different rooms. Talking. (Can't remember).

2. Shop

Monday 3 June 2013
Found my notes.

Extramouros quest. Dvd's. Selling them. A customer, this was a guy I know from the shop, he is a customer and has been asking about the five element cook book, Mr D. 
Maybe something about two loyalty cards and I ask Brva to help me out.
Two piles of books. A 10 percent reduction card. Buying two things all the rest is left.
Something about Dante's Inferno. Again selling dvd's.

Long, lone road. Main dvd, old and new version of book.

Home with parents, everyone is there. Plastic bag with shop logo. Parsley. We have to go back home.
Then parents come home, stay for dinner, everyone stays.
Bale and Elbe are here. Playing games. Rume is here too.
I have to bring sambel trassi.