1. Seated at the Corner of the Table
Last dream of the night. I am at the end of a long table, many people seated, like a festive dinner, me all the way to the left, at the corner. Doors are open. Long rectangular place. Somewhat noisy atmosphere. I can't remember who sits opposite of me, but to my right is Elbr. This is a lucid moment. I am glad and happy to see her and to be next to her as well and find that this is my opportunity to talk to her while I have the chance, and there is this one thing about the train that I want to ask, but I dare not. So I just enjoy the company but we remain silent, me, but she also. I was not very comfortable to be at the corner. And I was held back a few times to speak openly.
Today in the shop, afternoon, suddenly appeared Ludu, who was a scouts leader when I was a teenager. She had a good relationship with Elbr, and it was a long time since I've seen her. I don't like her one bit, but I didn't mind seeing her in the shop and would have been open to talk, but my colleague was busy with a customer too and I felt ashamed, so I didn't. Moreover, I missed the right moment to say something right at the beginning. I was happy to see her, especially because she reminds me of Elbr, and because in the past I've always thought that I could make contact with Elbr via her. Neither of us talked of the old days.
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