Cats in the House

1. The Start of the Academic Year of Wizardry

I am back from holiday and back in town, which also means the year starts again, in particular the academic year. And I take up my classes as well. At least, it is the first day and I still have to enroll. So, I go there, happy to meet all those people I haven't seen for so long and happy to take up my studies again. I assume this is my last year of study.

Most of my walking is done out of doors. It is a town I don't know, can't remember having dreamed of before, but it feels familiar, and I know all the places. There is a road I have to go down to, then on my right there is the place where I have to be. But if I go back, I go left, and a little further is the house I live in or stay during my studies.

I enter this building, which also has an open court and lots of space. Many people are there. Many go in and many go out. But it is not crowded. The income hall. After that, you descend to a lower floor, which is a big hall. People sit there. People I know. Maybe Bale is there. Maybe Elvs. And so on.

There seems to be some disagreement. This is between me and someone. Maybe with Bale. But I don't know why. Maybe because I do things my way, and people at the university don't like it.

2. My Teacher is Uncertain

Same place, I sit on a stone wall that borders the hall. On my right is a corner. On my left sits Tivd. There is some space between us. I sit back and my arm is behind her, but just on the stone floor to support my weight. Our feet dangle.

Then she says something like: when you are near me I always feel uncomfortable (the word she uses is 'uncertain', onzeker). And this is because she doesn't know how to relate with me. And I have the feeling I want to put my arm around her, but I don't. And she says, or implies, that me putting my arm around her, or thinking about it, makes her uncomfortable. And she gets a little angry, and I don't know what to do. But then she jumps on me (much like Anpi did in December) and she says, or asks me: is this what you want. So I don't really know if what she does is what she likes, or just to unsettle me, but it feels like the last. Nonetheless, I stay perfectly calm and let her do as she pleases. But she sits on my lap. I don't know whether I can take the leisure to enjoy it, because she is my teacher. I find it a little bit disconcerting, but that is where the dream ends.

However, before that, in the same place, I have made moves to other girls like that, too, and maybe that is why I got entangled in an argument before. Because it is not polite, or the proper way to behave. I also am reminded of Grwe.

3. Bridge of Hookers

(Maybe the same dream, though I think this dream came all the way at the end.) At a certain moment, when I  have done all the necessary business at the university hall, I go back home, along that road. But now the end part is a bridge and it is getting late, though there is still light, and it is either evening or night. It feels like that, but it isn't. This bridge-like piece of road is colourful, pink and dark blue. And ladies walk there. Some are hookers, maybe all, or they imitate them. I pass them, not sure what to think. It feels as if they like to challenge me.

4. Big Cats Sleeping in the Living Room

I am in a house, which maybe looks like my parent's house and maybe it is supposed to represent my own home. However, it looks very different. It is bright and there is a lot of woodwork. I only see the living room. Bale is here for sure. Again, somewhat displeased, I don't know why.

There is a smaller upper part, where I am, and entered the building. The rest of the living room is a recess in the ground. So, the larger part is below. And the distance is quite big, surprisingly.

There are cats. They play with me. I know them. First there is grey, striped (don't know the word for it) and she must be S, which is Bale's cat. But then a second comes just like it, and the spine feels just like the stray cat I sometimes feed. And then the red cats come. They are all spotted and playful, and there are cats I don't know. And the colours are different than I remember. But they look good. Some cats are completely red, or red with a white belly.

And then I see the big cats. Not just one, but a few of them lie at the level below in the living room, lionesses, maybe tigers, other kinds. All on top of each other, sleeping, or half awake. Quite impressive. I like the image of it.