Immortality

1. Finally Immortal

I was outside coming from the shop when I realised I was finally immortal. This had a very liberating effect on me. It was light outside, I was in the city. And I thought: now I don't have to go to work anymore. And the next moment I thought: no, I still have to eat and so on, so I need the money. This was disappointing.

2. Explaining my Bed

I was on my bed, and at the same time I was not. No-one was lying on the bed. It was light, and evening at the same time. I was explaining where I got my bed from, because it came from another house, the frame and the mattress from somewhere else, with a history. I explained to someone, but I saw no-one. I explained in English.

3. Haunting

I dreamed that I was dead, but I didn't really realise yet as I was still roaming the Earth.

4. Shuffling

Someone reprimanded me on shuffling. A female colleague must have said this to me that she didn't like me doing that. Not polite. Must have been in a public or professional place. (I remember yesterday in the sandwich bar, the girl that tended to me, she shuffled, and I thought, ah, I'm not the only one; maybe it was this place. But at the same time it wasn't.)

5. X-rays

There was a wall behind me, I am in a small corridor (now I think I can link it to passages from the book Nachtzug nach Lissabon). I, or someone else, played with x-rays, and I saw or I tried to see myself, I saw part of my ribcage, but only vaguely. We had to do our best to see something. But it was eerie. The colour blue, green. Shadowy. (yesterday, I read on x-rays, and cancer research.)